(a)

You're always right. I was healed.

By the time you returned to the camp on the northern front, I was completely healed.

In fact, our ability to bear all kinds of pain in life has always been much stronger than we think. As long as we endure and persevere, all the pain, it will eventually pass, even if it takes a long time.

By the time I recovered, it was already winter in Yunzhou.

When I was able to get out of bed and walk out of the bedroom, I was in a trance, thinking I was dreaming or had gone to the wrong place.

Because, in my palace, there are bright flowers everywhere. In the slaughtered city of Yunzhou, my palace is not only warm as spring, but also full of flowers.

I don't know how much work Liu Shen took to do it.

I just feel ashamed.

(b)

I stood among the fragrant flowers and felt the warmth of the palace.

I was both deeply moved and filled with guilt and shame.

I stood there with mixed feelings, feeling that the future of my life was full of countless forks in the road. I was confused and didn't know how to go on.

All I know is that I can't go back.

Everything that was in the past, from now on, is gone forever from me.

For the first time, I asked myself, "Why can't I fall in love with Liu Shen?" Why, exactly? ”

When I stood there with mixed feelings, Liu Shen didn't know when he came behind me.

I looked back and saw him.

Tears filled my eyes.

He looked at me. He took my hand. He looked at me with tears in his eyes.

He didn't know who those tears I was for. I don't know either.

He gently took me into his arms.

I was embraced by him and leaned on his shoulder.

He hugged me and said, "It's good to be safe." I was relieved. I was relieved. ”

He said, "Don't be sad. ”

He patted me on the back.

He said, "Qin'er, I know, you feel sad. ”

He said: "With me, I will be there, it's okay, don't be sad." ”

In the sound of his gentle words, my tears flowed down the ground.

They fell on Liu Shen's shoulders bit by bit.

I was like a piece of ice melted by warmth, and I couldn't help but cry.

(c)

One of you pushes me away, the other pulls me tight.

Together, you monarchs want to give me a new, happy life.

However, I had no way to enter this happy life.

I feel guilty. Why can't I walk into this happy life?

Am I failing you too much?

If a person can't control the pain in her heart, she will definitely fail the person who loves her.

(iv)

Later, after a long time, when I was gray-haired, I gradually understood why I was born a woman.

Because I always focus on my feelings, my emotions, the people around me, the people I love, and I bet too much on that.

Compared to you, my vision is too narrow, and my heart is too small.

Only those who pay attention to the people in the world and ignore themselves are worthy of being called big husbands.

I can't be born a man until my heart is completely transformed into the heart of a big man.

A big husband must ignore and endure his own pain, and take on the responsibility of alleviating the suffering of the people in the world. Otherwise, even if his appearance is male, he is not worthy of being called a husband, and in the future, he can no longer maintain a male body.

There are so many men in the world, are they all men?

There are so many women in the bustling world, do they all know why they were born weak?

I, do I know why I was born weak?

Without a strong heart, you can only be born as a weak, and you cannot get rid of the fate of the weak.

Even if you are in the supreme and noble position in the world, even if you are the queen of the monarch and the mother of the monarch, you don't have a strong heart, you are just an ordinary weakling, a delicate aquatic grass that ups and downs in the waves of fate.

Wisdom and compassion are the true honors.