(a)

You put out the cigarette in your hand. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

Wang said, "What's wrong? ”

You say, "Life decays at a very fast rate." I can't even smoke anymore. ”

You fall back on the pillow. You close your eyes.

You say, "It's hard to smoke." ”

You say, "That's fine." The faster the speed, the less torture. This is true for yourself and for the people around you. There is also the kind of blessing that is neat and tidy. ”

Wang said: "Don't talk nonsense! You can't give up hope until the end. ”

"There is no feast in life that will not be dissolved." You say, "Sooner or later, there will be that day, so don't avoid it." ”

You look at Director Wang, you smile and say, "Don't be so sad. I don't want people to know, I just don't want people to be so sad and mentally tortured in advance. ”

Director Wang was silent for a while. Then he said, "I should have comforted you." ”

You smile warmly again. You say, "You've been comforting me all afternoon." ”

(b)

Wang said, "Are you scared? ”

You listen to the question and laugh a little. You watch Director Wang looking for an ashtray, and you reach out and push a teacup next to the bed to him. You say, "I don't have an ashtray here." Use this. ”

Director Wang silently knocked the cigarette ash on the edge of the teacup.

You say, "When it hurts a lot, you feel a little scared." However, it is useless to be afraid. ”

You were silent for a while.

Director Wang said: "What does it feel when you can't see anything in this world, and you can't see anything clearly? ”

You say, "I don't know that, I don't know." ”

Director Wang looked at you suspiciously: "Didn't you just experience it?" Can't you even see that inkwell? Can't you even see the pills and tables and chairs in any direction? ”

You say, "yes." None of them are visible. But there's one thing I've always been able to see. ”

Wang said, "What? ”

You say, "You can see that: 'You can't see anything' or 'You can see everything.'" ”

That day, you said, "When we thought we couldn't see anything, we still see it all the time." Knowing this, when the eyes become blurry, or even pitch black, the heart will still be very stable. You will clearly know that although the outer environment has changed, the inner visible function has never changed, and nothing has disappeared. Seeing everything, and seeing everything, are just two equal manifestations of the function of seeing. ”

You say, "When everything is gone, if you know it clearly and firmly, you won't panic." ”

You say, "Although everything on the outside is constantly changing at different stages of life, the function on the inside, from birth to death, does not change. ”

(c)

Director Wang has a cigarette in his hand and looks at you fixedly.

"It's a bit esoteric," he said. ”

You laughed. You say, "Tell me something that isn't esoteric." ”

You say: "When I was a child, I used to yearn for such a life: hire a canopy boat, which is equipped with teapots, teacups, watermelons, mint cakes, fans, and pillows, as well as books and painting tools, sit and lie down, let the owner of the boat swing it at will, and when I meet a town, I stop, go ashore to sketch freely, return to the boat after dark with a full of painting clips, look at the reflection of the lights on both sides of the river and the little fishing fires on the river, and sleep peacefully with the bright stars of a river in the gentle ripples of the water waves. Let it stop and rest. ”

You say, "Now, I still hope so: let it go and rest." Although the process was a little uncomfortable, when that moment came, I thought that my heart would not be painful. I feel light, relieved, and even a little bit of joy and anticipation. It's like the moment when we train in thick cotton clothes on a hot day, and take off our cotton clothes after finally finishing the hard work of training. I think that I will also take off this shell with the joy of completing my mission, take off all the worries of mortal life, and return to the cool and comfortable world. ”

Director Wang said: "I hope I can also have a realm like you." ”

You say, "We don't have to be too nervous, can we?" ”

Director Wang nodded, and he buried his head in a cigarette.

You rest for a while. Then, you say, "Smoke is not a good thing. Still, quit. ”

(iv)

That night, Director Wang smoked all the three or four cigarettes you had left.

When you died, he quit smoking.

Years later, in the living room of his house, he told me that after that withdrawal, he never wanted to smoke again.

Even though his wife has passed away now, he lives alone, and every day is a long night, and he never has the idea of smoking again.

He agrees with you. Relying on the stimulus of cigarettes is cowardly.

(5)

- "Although the time I have with you is limited, our story can never be finished. Because of each other's high level of focus, every moment we get along is longer than a hundred years. ”

- "More than a hundred years." In every instant, there are countless billions of eons. ”

(f)

- "Guide, what kind of person is your ideal self?" ”

- "Me? I hope that I can strive to be a person who is not lonely, despairing, frustrated, not talking about the rights and wrongs of others, not resenting others, not thinking cranky, not wasting his time in indulgence or laziness and procrastination, not doing unreasonable or betraying moral principles for the sake of immediate interests, and always full of respect, courage and joy in his heart, so that those around him can always feel warm and happy. ”

(g)

"I wanted to write all this about us, to write it into a good story, to keep it in this plane that we are going to leave. Would you agree? Do you think that's okay? ”

"If this is your deep desire, go for it. But, heart, don't expect too much from that. You have to be mentally prepared. The vast majority of stories, even if they are very good, even if they are read, even if they are consumed, are just a floating cloud in the vast emptiness of people's hearts, just like a cloud that is too clear. If you're lucky, people will remember the great ones, but they won't remember them for long. ”

"It doesn't matter. I just want to leave something of value to atone for everything I did wrong in the past. It's like an explorer who leaves a signpost in the canyon forest for future generations. Perhaps, no one will ever go so far from now on, and this road sign will never be seen, so that's okay. I wanted the feeling of Hyeri's descendants, which was very sincere and sincere at that time, and that was enough. ”