(a)

In the series of fierce battles before crossing the southern defense line of the Rong ancestors and returning to the Han land, you can be described as full of dangers.

The fierce and arduous battle caused your headache to flap again, and there was another sudden headache in the middle of a fight, and you almost died for it, but it was Wu Shun who discovered the danger in time and rushed desperately to protect you, he threw his saber at the enemy who was swinging the knife in the back to slash you, but you still suffered another wound in the back.

Wu Shun himself almost died in a battle. He was caught in the enemy's warband, and when many knives slashed at him at the same time, he knew he couldn't handle it. In a flash of lightning, he rolled down to his horse, and his horse took the stab for him, but he was also crushed by the fallen horse and could not move.

Just when he was pinned down and couldn't move, and he was waiting to die, you rushed into the battle group to save him, and you also blocked a knife for him. The knife slashes into your left arm, deep into the bone, leaving a permanent mark on the scratching bone. This is your last injury on this adventure.

Wu Shun has always blamed himself deeply for this matter. How could you get hurt trying to save him! His duty is to take care of you and protect you on the battlefield on behalf of his family, how can you be so noble that you will be bled and wounded in order to save a lowly servant like him, and he is so badly injured! He blamed himself for this for a long time.

After you returned to Linshui safely, Wu Shun was always depressed during your serious illness. He felt ashamed and guilty. In the two adventures into the grassland, he miraculously did not suffer any injuries, but fell all over his body. But you, you're hurt so much.

Along the way, you left too many dangerous things to yourself and too many relatively easy things to him.

Wu Shun looked at the wounds on your body, he felt very sorry for you, and he was also sorry for me, and he was even more shameless to see his uncle. He was silent for a long time. However, at that time, you were seriously ill and in a dangerous situation, and we were all focused on you, and no one noticed Wu Shun's depression. This is something that I have always felt sorry for since then.

It was probably at this time that Wu Shun had the idea that he must die for you in this life.

When we are too concerned about one person's suffering, we are likely to lose sight of the same suffering as other beings.

In Wu Shun's short life, no one has ever treated him as well as you. Even me, not at all.

(b)

On the 25th day after leaving the Danba Desert, you finally returned to the land of Southern Han in the midst of constant injuries and headaches.

Your body is constantly warning you that you can't take the overload. You just can't hold on any longer.

On the first night of your entry into Handi, you encountered a torrential rain. After a night of rain, you start to have a high fever. You're on your horse all the way, shivering all the way. Your mouth is full of burning blisters. When you see the road near the water, your whole body is already burning like coals, and your cheeks and eyes are red.

The enemy armor on your body almost caused the waterfront defenders to attack.

But in the moments before the attack, Zhang Bao heard the other party shouting the name of his uncle Ding Youren in Chinese. The defenders of the water immediately cheered. The soldiers opened the gates, swarmed out, and poured out like a tidal wave. The soldiers on both sides hugged each other tightly!

This is the moment of total victory! But you've burned yourself up to the point of running out of oil, and you don't have the strength to cheer at all.

You fought with the last of your strength and struggled to get off your horse.

You see that your uncle and Fu Tianliang, Zhang Bao, Sun Haocheng and other left-behind people will welcome you.

You feel the ground shaking beneath your feet like a ship in a stormy sea.

You're trying to keep your body balanced. You don't even have the strength to take half a step to meet them.

When your uncle grabbed your hot arm, you said in a trance, "Uncle, I'm back." With that, you slipped and fell to the ground, unconscious.

(c)

Of the 1,000 cavalry you took with you when you set out, you brought back 504 people. With less than 50% of your own losses, you completed this amazing long-distance adventure that changed the situation that year.

But you also pay a huge price: you don't have much to live to live.

(iv)

In your equally short life, there are too many hardships and hardships. Although I was isolated from you in many difficult times, I was not with you. But I've always been there.

In fact, growing old together is not the most important thing for me.

More importantly, I want to be able to help you and make your life a little easier.

Not being able to grow old with you is not my main torment. My biggest pain is that although I love you so much, there is no way to make your short life easier, less painful and hard. My greatest pain is actually here. It's here.

Until now, life and death are separated, gray hair, and the past is over, but this pain is still there, as sharp as before.