It was very quiet in the room. It was so quiet that you could hear the wind outside the window and the rustling of leaves.

The world is stable again. Everything is back to its original framework. It's like those nightmarish storms that never happened.

It was just the two of us in the candlelight, opposite each other.

"Does it still hurt?" I looked guiltily at the bandaging that loomed in the placket of your chest. I slowly reach out and gently press it on the hem of your shirt.

You say, "It doesn't hurt anymore." "You hold my hand.

You say, "Qin'er, you're so good, my heart won't hurt." ”

I said, "But why didn't you get out of the way or block it?" You can do it. Why let it hurt you? ”

You say, "In order for you to see more clearly and directly, all killings, in the end, will evolve into their own suffering, and they will affect themselves." ”

You say, "Qin'er, since you were a child, you have never killed a life with your own hands. You won't understand what it's like to kill a life. But, I know. I've spent too much time learning how to dismember and destroy a life in an instant. I've done too much practice for this. All killings, all mutual. As much as you hurt the other person, you will hurt yourself. Even, before you can hurt the other person, hurt yourself first. Your arrows will pierce your own heart before they pierce him. Subsequently, you will feel the pain for a long time. It will always follow you. It comes out in many dark nights and torments you, making you terrified even when you dream. ”

"Qin'er, the murderous thought surging in a person's heart is the sharpest weapon in the world. It will always burn your heart before your arrows penetrate your enemy's body. After the pain of the enemy is over, the pain in your heart will continue for a long time. The image of the enemy struggling in front of you will be etched into your heart and become a permanent scar on you. ”

You say, "At that time, you only think that he caused your suffering, and you think in your heart that if there is no Him in the world, that suffering will disappear or be greatly reduced." However, have you thought about it, this arrow was shot, but he was far from the only one who was shot. When your arrow pierces his body, it also pierces his aunt's heart, his father's heart, the family's fifteen years of affection, and the future peace and tranquility of the whole family. ”

"If you shoot him, you'll shatter many of your own treasures that you want to preserve."

Say, "Do you think there is any difference between the arrow that is shot at him and the arrow that is shot at me and the arrow that is shot at my father?" Tell you that there is none. In fact, there is no difference. Whoever you shoot your arrow at, it will be all of them. As father and son, as brothers, our lives are interconnected. You can't hurt just one and not the rest. If Jingyun died, do you think his father would be happy? Will I be happy? Is there anyone in the family who is really happy? When our father and son see you again from now on, won't we have Jingyun's bleeding corpse in our hearts? If Jingyun died, what would my aunt do? She is already so old, Jingyun is her support for the rest of her life, and the only hope she has lived in this mansion for so many years, how can you let her live? If she has three longs and two shorts, what do you think will happen to her father's old age? Do you want your father to spend his old age like this because of Jingyun's mistakes and spend the rest of his life? ”

Say, "All life is one." No matter which one you hurt, you hurt the whole. ”

You said: "Qin'er, you only thought about revenge in your heart at that time, so that Jingyun would be punished as he deserved, you didn't have the time, nor the calmness you have now to think about this, and you didn't have the time and mood to listen to me slowly dissect and analyze it for you." But now, the matter has passed, you should go back and think about it, is there some truth in my words? You just want to kill Jing Yun, you don't want to kill anyone else, but no matter how you kill him, there is no way for you to limit the damage to himself. You're going to hurt the innocent, and it's going to make you feel so sad that you can't regret it. On that day, the person standing in front of Jingyun was me, if not me, but my father? What if your arrow hit your father? ”

"Qin'er, do you think that the pain in your heart will be reduced compared to before and after archery? If the pain is still there, or worse, after shooting the arrows, then what are you shooting these arrows for? ”

You say, "Jean, do you remember the day I took you to the threshing floor?" Do you remember when you vowed never to kill anyone in this life? You said that not only would you not kill yourself, but you would tell your children and grandchildren not to kill people. ”

You say, "Under no circumstances does it cause harm to others. If you can't bear the unbearable, bear the unbearable, and forgive the unforgivable, it will be difficult for you to do it, and you will never have the intention of harming others. ”

That day, after you vowed to be my husband, when everyone was gone, leaving only the two of us alone, you said a lot of murderous things to me.

Now that I think about it, of all the people I've come into contact with in my life, there is no one who knows what it means to kill better than you.

You know so much about killing, you know so deeply, you clearly see every effect and every consequence of it.

You are not like the ordinary butchers of the battlefield and the warlike madmen of the court, who are ignorant of this.

So, later, when you said that you were going to become a murderous demon, I understood what that meant.

I have deep compassion for you.