(a)

After dinner on this day, Shizi sat at the table as usual to draw red and write, and I sat on the side, embroidering the peony flowers on Shizi's new robe while accompanying him to practice calligraphy. He was writing about what the teacher in the study had just taught in the daytime, "Cultivate oneself to govern others, and cultivate oneself to reassure the people".

At this time, Liu Shen came over after dinner with the Queen Mother in Shangyang Palace, and he walked in quietly.

I want to stand up and take the ride. Liu Shen gestured for me not to move.

He crept up behind the child and watched him write two words. He reached for the child's pen. The child's pen was taken away by him at once.

The child looked back at him. The child stood up, hurriedly knelt down and saluted, "Father." ”

Liu Shen said: "Grasp the pen hard, didn't the master who went to the study teach you?" Or are you not listening properly? ”

The son of the world pleaded guilty and said, "It was the son who didn't listen well, and the son forgot what he wrote." ”

Liu Shen said: "Master's words are the words of my father, if you don't listen to Master's words, you will resist the decree." ”

The child kowtowed in fear and said, "My son knows that he is wrong, please ask my father to punish him." ”

Liu Shen said: "Punishment must be punished. Father, think about how to punish you. ”

He pretended to think about it solemnly, and then said, "Well, you can go and kiss the queen mother." She has been with you to practice calligraphy and do homework these days. ”

The prince immediately complied. He climbed onto my knee in two strokes.

I said, "Oh, okay, okay." Next time, remember to listen to Master's words."

Without saying a word, he put his arms around my neck and kissed me the cheek.

I sighed inwardly, and I reached out and hugged the child. I sat there with my baby in my arms.

I looked at Liu Shen. I said, "King Han, what kind of punishment is this?" ”

Liu Shen smiled and said, "Look, how good our family is." ”

I don't speak.

Liu Shen reached over and took the child into his own arms.

Liu Shen began to ask the child about his homework, asking him if he knew what the words he had just written and what they meant, and asking if there was anything he didn't understand about what the master had taught in class.

The prince answered him one by one.

Liu Shen said: "It seems that in the past six months of school, you have learned a lot of skills, which really impresses Daddy." ”

Shizi immediately smiled, very happy to receive his father's praise.

Liu Shen said: "But, Shizi, do you know what the emperor's greatest ability is? ”

Shizi thought about it very seriously and replied, "It's writing, right?" ”

I couldn't help but sneer next to me.

Liu Shen looked at me. He said: "Daddy tells you that the emperor's greatest ability is to be able to make people laugh and make everyone in the world laugh. A king can make more smiles on people's faces, the more he will be a good king, a great king. ”

Liu Shen said: "This skill is much more difficult to learn than writing. Sometimes, we may not be able to learn well after studying all our lives. ”

Shizi flashed his big eyes with long eyelashes and asked, "Father, have you studied well?" ”

Liu Shen said: "Daddy, I didn't learn well. For example, my father has worked hard for most of his life, but he has not yet been able to make a person laugh. ”

I looked at Liu Shen. I bowed my head and didn't speak.

Liu Shen said to his son: "However, you are much more powerful than Daddy. Just two words you can say to make this person smile. Therefore, Daddy believes that you will be the emperor in the future, and you will definitely be able to do better than Daddy. ”

The prince said, "Father, who is this person who refuses to laugh?" ”

Liu Shen said: "Oh, she is most familiar with your mother, you go and ask your mother." ”

I looked at Liu Shen and pursed my lips.

Liu Shen said: "However, Daddy doesn't blame this person who refuses to laugh, on the contrary, Daddy has always been grateful to her." Because, whenever everyone outside tells Daddy that his father is the greatest emperor in the world and the most benevolent emperor, Daddy will come to see this person. Whenever he sees this person, Daddy's heart will wake up. Actually, Daddy is not anything remarkable, Daddy, in fact, even such the simplest thing has not been successfully done. ”

(b)

When it was time for him to go to bed, my wife and I carried him to his bedroom, kissed him on the forehead, watched him sleep sweetly, and returned to my bedroom.

I silently helped Liu Shen take off his coat. I put my coat away. I knelt down at him.

Liu Shen said: "Okay, what are you doing?" And there are no outsiders, don't kneel at every turn. ”

He pulled me and he said, "Get up." ”

I said, "I am deeply grateful to King Han for his tolerance and love. Qin'er was ashamed. ”

Liu Shen said: "I'm ashamed. It's me, after so many years, the child is so old, but I have never been able to even make you smile. ”

I said, "It's because Qin'er doesn't like to laugh by nature." Hanwang has always done a good job. ”

Liu Shen said: "I hope that what I have not done in my life, our children can do it for me." ”

I had mixed feelings in my heart, and I didn't know how to deal with it for a while, so I just bowed my head and said, "King Han." ”

Liu Shen said to me gently: "Okay, don't think so much. At the moment of the Spring Festival, if we don't make love, we will all get old. ”

He put his arm around me and whispered in my ear, "Qin'er, give me a few more children." If it weren't for the fear that you would work too hard, I really hope that the more our children, the better. I want all my children to be born from you. ”

In this long life, Liu Shen and I have had 8 sons, 6 daughters, and now we have 5 sons and 4 daughters. I am the woman with whom he has the most children among the ladies of his harem. His affection for me has never waned from his marriage when he was young until he died of a serious illness.

(c)

Although when I was a daughter in the Cui family, my father also hired a private school teacher for me, taught me to read, write poetry, and read some books, but most of those books talked about women's virtues and women's appearance. Confucian classics such as the Analects, Mencius, and the Mean, as well as official histories such as the Records of the Historians, were not taught to me, and I could only get a little exposure to them from conversations with my father and you.

But I've always been eager to learn these life lessons.

After entering the palace, in order to prevent women in the palace from interfering in politics, generally speaking, as a palace dependent, it is inconvenient to study these classics publicly, so as not to be suspicious of foreign ministers. As the head of the six houses, of course, I should also set an example for the other palace members to keep to themselves, and be satisfied with the scope of study that women should read and see.

In the name of supervising the schoolwork, I can often go to the study room to listen to the learned Confucians preach the classics to the prince and teach the essence of Confucian governance, and I can also listen to the great monks in Yunjing and other places with Liu Shen, preach Buddhism on the altar, and receive a fundamental education in the outlook on life, world view and values.

These learning opportunities have made me feel that I am also growing up with the son, and I am being reborn, my horizons are broadening, and my temperament is becoming more and more gentle, which is really beneficial.

Since then, I have known the benefits of being a man. I secretly made a wish that if I could be reborn in the human world in the future, I hoped that I would be reborn as a man, and that I would be able to study these important sutras conveniently and do more great things for the people of the world. The world of the boudoir is too small, and the limitations of the female body are too many. I aspire to be a husband like you and Liu Shen.

During that time, whenever I saw Confucius's sentence "Only women and villains are difficult to raise", I would feel a deep sense of shame in my heart.

I think, that's what it means is mine.

Compared with the open-mindedness and benevolence of the emperor, there are too many places where I need to reflect on myself.

To be a man who stands up to the sky, I still lack too much. (To be continued.) )