(a)

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Shadows like clouds swim irregularly in your field of vision.

You feel like your gaze can't focus on any point, as if the mirrors of your retina have been distorted and covered with thick vapour.

This gives you a sense of alienation that your vision doesn't belong to you.

For a moment, you wonder if you'll ever see the world again.

Just as you are thinking like this, you feel a drop of rain fall on the back of your hand.

The first thought that comes to your mind is: it's raining.

Then you gradually remember that you were indoors. Then, you rethink the rain.

Then my shadow enters your heart.

You're a spirit, and suddenly you're sober.

It was under this stimulus that your eyesight returned to normal.

Your gaze is focused on my face, and the look on my face that is terrified by fear is reflected in your eyes.

You feel something push you, and you finally struggle to get out of that still state where you don't want to move.

You moved, you grabbed my hand.

Exhausted, you say, "I'm sorry, Xinxin, for keeping you waiting." ”

Every time you say a word, you feel a long needle stab through your stomach and in the back, causing a spasmodic throbbing of your nerves.

You have to close your eyes again for a while.

Your voice and movements bring the soul back to mine.

All at once my tears gushed out like a spring.

I said, "What's wrong with you?" Why do you sweat so much? ”

I said, "You, are you sick?" You okay? ”

You can't answer me. You rest for a while. Little by little, the strength is gathered all over your body.

You begin to feel my hand like ice cubes under your clench. You see that my sports backpack has slipped on the ground without knowing at some point, and I have no idea about it.

So, you resist that pinprick sensation and you say, "I just had a little bit of an upset stomach in my stomach." It's good now. ”

You say, "Maybe I've been too tired lately." I promised to write a training manual for Bossan. So, often stay up late at night. Maybe I wore too little at night, and my stomach was a little cold, and some cold air accumulated. ”

You look at me, and you say, "I'm fine." Why are you crying, Xinxin. ”

My warm tears keep dripping down your hands, and there is a tendency for light rain to turn to torrential rain.

You turn a part of your mind with difficulty, and it feels so heavy.

Then you come up with an idea.

You say, "Stop crying. Look, they're all crying like little cats. Can you pour me some warm water to drink? ”

(b)

By the time you are about to finish the lukewarm water, you feel much better. The pain of the pins and needles finally disappeared.

When the fluorescent lamp is turned back on, you see the clock on the wall. Your heart jumps. Could it be that the pain just lasted so long?

You say, "It's all my fault, for delaying your home." You need to go back quickly. It's getting dark, I'll call your house and take you straight to your doorstep. ”

As you spoke, he stood up.

You feel like you have no problem standing up, but when you do stand up, you find that it's not as easy as you think.

You had to hold on to the back of the chair to keep yourself from falling to the ground.

You grab the back of your chair and take a deep breath.

I look at you worriedly.

You laugh a little, and you say, "I'm sorry, I've been sitting for too long, and my legs are a little numb." ”

Then you head out the hallway.

As I passed the door, I saw you stretch out your hand again to support yourself on the door frame.

I couldn't help but follow you a few steps. I said, "You can rest a little longer, and I'll call myself." ”

You say, "It's better for me to say it." ”

(c)

When you go to the hallway to make a call, I look down at your desk.

My eyes fell on the broken pencil on the table.

I picked up the pencil that had been broken in two and pieced them together and looked at it.

I felt a little confused, and I had a very bad feeling in my heart.

Just as I was trying to see something from the broken level of the pencil, you came from behind and took them from my hand.

You toss them into the paper basket. You say, "The quality of pencils is getting worse and worse." ”

When you meet my gaze, you look away. You say, "Okay, I'll send you back." ”

I stood still.

You say, "I don't feel pain now." I'm all right. ”

You say, "Really." ”

I look at you, still not moving.

You say, "I promise it's okay." Do you believe me? ”

I nodded.

You smile and say, "That's right." Wipe your tears again. ”

I watched you turn off the lights and close the door, and we walked together in the direction of the bike shed, and I watched you bend down and unlock the car in the dimming light, you turned on the lights, and you pushed the car out of the carport.

You say, "Come up." Went back. ”

I think about the sweat on your face when you first walked into the office.

I felt a sense of panic that I had never felt before. The feeling that the mountain rain is about to come and the wind is full of buildings.

(iv)

With the advent of deep winter, the electricity consumption of urban heating has risen sharply, and the rivers flowing through the city tend to dry up because of the lack of rain for a long time, during that time, the city's power supply is very unstable, the city government vigorously calls on citizens to save electricity, and every day a notice is issued to announce which urban areas will be short-term rotation power outages today. Because of the power outage and power saving, the city seems to be much more depressed, people go home early to wash up and go to bed, and many shops close early.

When we left the shooting range that night, there weren't many people on the road, and the shops along the way were mostly closed. The lights in many homes have been turned off. Only the street lights were sparsely lit. There are also some areas that are in the midst of power outages in the zone, and it is pitch black from a distance.

When I jumped on the back seat of the bike behind you, I had no idea that it would be the last time in my life. I didn't know that it was the last time you rode with me in your life.

Since then, we will never have a beautiful moment like this again. When I walk through life, there will never be a vigorous you in front of me, leading the way for me, listening to my voice in front, turning back to me in front of me, accepting my gaze in front, and letting me hear a familiar heartbeat in front.

Because I didn't know anything, I still didn't do anything.

I've sat on the back of your bike many times in my life, but I've never hugged you from behind. I've never put my face on your warm back.

I've always grabbed the saddle frame of the back seat myself. That's how I was so close to you. I haven't even done what Liu Wenli did so easily and naturally.

That's how we walked together.

I just love you so much. I hope to accompany you through the ups and downs of life. I didn't want to rely on you to shelter me from the elements. Although you have actually been sheltering me from the wind and rain all along.

Little did I know that this would be the last time I would ride your bike. (To be continued.) )