Chapter 50: To fall in love is to be bitter
Late at night, it is always so quiet and serene, there is no candle flame, only cold moonlight. A lonely person, even if there is another person lying next to him, if he has different dreams in the same bed, he is still lonely.
This is six nights, and Bo Chou will stay overnight in Mi Yuan.
Mantian still couldn't get used to the sudden extra person around him, and for a while, it was difficult to sleep. Because I don't know the mind of the person lying next to me, I don't know if he has another purpose in doing this. Life really makes people feel very tired and tired, even the person next to the pillow has to guess and guess, she can't feel at ease, she closes her eyes, and even her breathing becomes more and more shallow.
The air in the summer, with such a hot and stuffy factor, makes people unable to clear their hearts Fu Chip suddenly felt that he was right not to get close to her in the past year, this woman, the closer she got to her, the more people couldn't control themselves. In the face of her, his proud self-control was always diminished inch by inch, and he became weak and vulnerable. He took a deep breath, turned to the side, faced her, and asked with a gentle smile, "Can't you sleep?" Or are you worried about me? ”
When people feel tired, they feel tired even when they speak. Mantian always knew that he was not asleep, but she didn't want to speak, she just wanted to lie quietly. At that time, he didn't have anything to worry about, if a man like Bo Chou really wanted to do something to her, he didn't have to wait for her to fall asleep, even if she was awake, he couldn't refuse.
Fu Chip saw her closing her eyes and not saying a word, holding her head with a hand shot, looking at her jet-black show covered with pillows, he couldn't help but reach out to touch it, the silky touch like brocade, in this silent night, people's hearts also became softer. and her occasional fluttering eyelashes like butterfly wings, as if her heartstrings were inadvertently plucked, so light and light, it is always easy for people to ignore the past.
She still closed her eyes, did not speak, and did not move, as if she were asleep. He couldn't help but laugh: "I know you're awake. Rong Le, since we can't sleep, then we ,... Let's talk. "On a night like this, you have to find a way to distract yourself.
Only then did Man Tian slowly open his eyes, looked at the bed railing carved with dark flowers, and said in a somewhat ethereal voice, "What does the general want to know?" Let's put it bluntly. "Since when did she start to dislike that way of talking in a roundabout way, she was really tired. Maybe she's feeling too tired right now.
Fu Chip's smile stiffened slightly, his eyes moved lightly, and then he sighed helplessly: "Rong Le, you" "Alas! I just want to know more about you, I ............ you Too little is understood. ”
Mantian turned her head to look at him, there was no expression in her eyes, she only said lightly: "My affairs are very common, there is nothing to understand." ”
Fu Chip's eyes darkened, and his ordinary experience could create such a cold and indifferent character who seemed to have seen through everything in the world? He gently combed the show next to her pillow with his fingers, sighed again, and said, "You, it's always like this!" Every word, every expression, is rejected. Rong Le, I really don't know, what do you have to do to dispel your defenses and enter your heart? ”
Hooking his lips all over the sky, Bo Liang smiled and said, "Isn't it good to be like this now?" Why should the general ......"",
"Don't call me that", Fu Chip suddenly turned over and pressed towards her, propped himself up above her, his eyes burned, and said: "Rong Le, in front of you, I am not a general, just your husband, and you have been with you all your life." From now on, you will call me "...... Okay, okay? ”
His voice was extremely gentle, and on this quiet summer night, accompanied by the cool moonlight, it was particularly demagogic. Is it okay to stay together all your life and be with a deep-minded person like him? Who else could she expect from her? Even if it is just a peaceful interdependence, even if there is no love and just mutual support and trust between friends, once you turn your back, it will still be a catastrophe for the soul. She looked straight back into his eyes, saw the hope in his eyes, swallowed the bitterness in her heart, smiled faintly, and said, "It's been more than a year, and I've been calling you like this for a while...... It's hard to change ......"
Fu Chip held her hand and smiled gently: "Habits are slowly formed, just call a few more times." He lowered his head and sighed in her ear, rubbing his fingers against her delicate and smooth skin, lowering his eyes, and said gloomily: "I can't remember how many years no one has called me that." ”
Stunned, he turned his face away, and said softly: "It's just a name." What does it matter if someone is calling or what? "It's a hundred times better than a lonely soul like her, who has to rely on everything else to survive.
Fu Chip was slightly stunned, why is this woman so transparent and calm? As if nothing in the world could enter her heart, he looked at her empty beautiful eyes, held one of her hands tightly, and suddenly sighed softly: "Rong Le, why am I right in front of your eyes, but your eyes never see me?" I can't see my efforts in the past year.!!
The sky lightly hooked the corners of his lips, his eyes were slightly cold, and he said, "What if you see it?" Even feelings can deceive people, what can be said by what the eyes see? Me...... I don't believe my eyes, so don't think about it in vain in the future. ”
Fu Chip's heart was shocked, what can make a person become unbelieving even his own eyes? So what else could she believe? He lifted his hand to touch her face, his movements unusually gentle, as if he were treating a baby that was about to break at the touch of a baby. The fingertips stayed at the corners of her thin mouth, looked into her eyes, and said softly: "Since you don't believe in eyes, then use your heart to see me, is it okay,......,...... Rong Le? ”
Her heart trembled slightly, why did he always come to try to touch her heart? Isn't it okay for them to go on like this?
The moonlight through the window enveloped his handsome face, outlining the outline of fortitude, and the look in his eyes was so serious, just like the eyes of the person he once was. She took a breath, immediately withdrew her hand, tightened the list under her, there was a pain buried in the bottom of her heart, spread to the tip of her heart, she pursed her lips, turned her eyes, and said in an indifferent tone: "I'm sorry!" My heart...... Nothing can be seen. The general should first see your own heart. ”
Fu Chip's hand froze on her lips, this woman was too smart, too rational, too good at protecting herself. It took him a year, and he still couldn't get into her heart, which made him feel a frustration that he had never felt before, and it was only in an instant, and it disappeared without a trace. He rolled over and lay down, exhaling a cloudy breath. The two of them opened their eyes and saw that it was dawn, and neither of them said a word again.
The night was silent, and only the heartbeat and breathing of the person next to the pillow could be heard.
Just after the fourth watch, there was gradually some light outside. Fu Chip was a little earlier today than a few days ago, and he was ready to get up, but he was stopped by the waiter with his hand, and he smiled: "You don't have to go to the court, what are you doing so early?" Let's sleep a little longer. ”
A woman in this era has to wait for her husband to dress and groom when she marries, and she, as a wife, can't reproduce for her husband, so shouldn't she do her best in other aspects? After all, Fu Chip is really good to her. She stood up and smiled lightly, "It's okay, I can't sleep anyway." I have to do my duty as a wife, so I'll let you get dressed and freshened up. "She has lived for more than 20 years, and once she thought about serving others, but she didn't want to owe them too much.
Fu Chip shook his head lightly and said, "I entered the military camp at the age of twelve, and I have long been used to doing it myself. These things don't need other people's words! Sleep, obedient. He coaxed her by the shoulders and told her to lie down again.
was such an ordinary sentence, but she heard traces of bitterness. At the age of twelve, placed in modern times who are not living a happy and happy life under the wings of their parents, except, of course, her. If Fu Chip in front of her is all he has, then it can be regarded as her luck to be accompanied by him for the rest of her life.
Fu Chip quickly dressed up, and after the schooling, he sat on the edge of the bed, held her hand, and smiled apologetically: "There are some important matters to deal with in the army today, and I will probably come back later." If you feel bored, go out for a walk and remember to bring a few more people. By the way, do you remember the Eastern Suburbs Inn? There is a cool lake nearby, and in the summer, it is very cool, because the mountains around the city are very high, and the sun does not shine. Going there to take a boat trip on the lake is very pleasant, I believe you will love it. I'm leaving. ”
Man Tian smiled and nodded, and saw him walk to the door, Fu Chip suddenly turned around and asked, "The flower viewing banquet is tomorrow, Your Majesty ordered all the ministers to bring their ladies to participate, aren't you curious about the reason at all?" ”
Man Tian smiled and asked, "Why?" ”
He narrowed his eyes slightly, as if he had thought about it, and when he raised his eyes to look at her again, there were some complications and entanglements in his eyes, and said: "The only prince of the Dust Wind Country heard that I am like a beautiful woman, so he sent me to the court, and wanted to choose a woman to marry, one of them, and the other two...... Forget it, you'll know when the time comes. ”
Mantian didn't ask, only smiled and nodded, and said, "Well, you can go." ”
She is always so indifferent, and she looks like she doesn't care about anything, which makes people feel cold. As soon as Fu Chip turned around and took a step, he paused, turned around and instructed: "The capital has not been very peaceful recently, you must be more careful when you go out." ”
Nodding his head, he didn't take a step before he paused and turned his head to look at her. Man Tian frowned, feeling a little weird, so he smiled and said, "What's wrong with you today?" It's as if you're going out and you're never going to see me again. ”
Fu Chip half-jokingly said: "I suddenly don't want to go to the court, I want to stay at home with you." The affection in his eyes made his heart tighten, and he looked away from his eyes.
He frowned slightly, his expression suddenly became serious, and he said, "Rong Le, if you really think that you are my wife, you must remember............ Leave your heart to me, that's what I want most. After he finished speaking, he smiled softly, and turned away very dashingly, leaving a room of quiet air to disturb people's hearts.
She froze there, staring at his departing back in a daze, unable to return to her senses for a long time.
At dawn, there was an endless dark gray sky, and not a single cloud could be seen. The morning in the Patriotic General's Mansion was silent and peaceful.
Bo Chip went to the study, took the fold, and then shouted: "Xiang Ying." ”
Xiang Ying came in and clasped his fists and saluted, "General, please command." ”
Bo clenched his palms and looked out the window at the dark gray earth, as if the sun would never rise. He frowned involuntarily, a little worried and hesitant. Xiang Ying was surprised, the general in his eyes had always acted decisively without hesitation. The general didn't speak, and he didn't dare to say anything, so he could only keep his head down and wait for the general's order.
Fu Chip turned his eyes to him after a while, his face was solemn and majestic, and said, "You send more people to follow her, don't make mistakes." ”
Xiang Ying nodded vigorously and responded, "Yes." ”
Fu Chip took two steps forward, patted his sturdy shoulder with his hand, there was undoubted firmness in his eyes, word by word, and said very solemnly: "You remember, you must ensure the safety of your wife." ”
Xiang Ying was shocked, when he attacked Beiyi Kingdom, he didn't see the general so solemn, he couldn't help but ask: "General, you are not as good as six."
Before he finished speaking, his companion's eyes suddenly sharpened, and he suddenly interrupted: "If you shouldn't ask, don't ask." Xiang Ying, you have been following Benjiang for so many years, don't you even understand this rule? ”
Xiang Ying was shocked, and hurriedly knelt down on one knee and pleaded: "My subordinates should die." It's a subordinate who has overstepped, please surrender to the general! ”
Fu Chip's face softened slightly, looked at him for a while, and said, "Get up, just do the things that the general has given you." ”
Xiang Ying said: "The subordinates receive the order, the general, please rest assured." ”
Fu Chip nodded and said, "Well, go and arrange it." ”
After Xiang Ying left, Bo Chip threw the fold in his hand on the table and said in a deep voice: "Come out." ”
"Why don't you let him ask? You know what questions he's going to ask, right? Are you scared? Could it be that you really have feelings for her? A woman in black with a very beautiful appearance walked out from behind the bookshelf, and as soon as she appeared, she was a series of questions, and she was a little emotional.
Fu raised his eyebrows, with a gentle smile on his lips, but his eyes were cold, and he asked instead of answering: "When will it not be your turn to ask about the general's affairs?" Didn't you hear what Ben just said? Xiang Ying wants to abide by the current rules, so you don't have to obey it? ”
The woman in black was stunned for a moment, then clenched her fists and bowed her head, "I......,...... The subordinates have exceeded the rules! However, the subordinates are also good for the young master, if the young master insists on falling in love with her regardless of the consequences, then the young master is destined to suffer for a lifetime! Young Master...... Knowing that there is a sea of suffering ahead, is it ...... Do you want to jump without hesitation? The woman's eyebrows were full of sadness, and her eyes were full of love and pain, which was complicated and indescribable. That kind of feeling of love and can't be loved, no one can adjourn the meeting more than her. She really didn't want his future path to be harder than hers.
Fu Chip's eyes changed suddenly, and he quickly turned around and turned his back to her. The woman couldn't see the expression on his face, and after a long time, she only heard him say calmly: "What do you know? Ben Jiang has repeatedly instructed Xiang Ying to ensure her safety, and she has her own considerations, all of which are Ben General's plans! "It is absolutely not allowed to make any mistakes, otherwise ............, the efforts that have been put into her for more than a year will not be in vain? You just have to go back and do your own thing, the things that will be, and what to do will naturally know in your heart, and you don't need others to say more. Don't go to the master of the door to chew your tongue, if you let Ben hear something you shouldn't hear......" He suddenly turned around, five fingers and one finger, and instantly grabbed the throat of the woman in black.
The woman was startled, and before she could react, her face was already blue, and she opened her mouth in pain, but she couldn't scream. Just when she felt that she was about to die of suffocation, Bo Chip threw her to the ground, and continued: "Ben will never be spared. Got it? Also, Ben will warn you not to move the flail...... You should know that her ...... has an impact on this game of chess. He clenched his hands into fists, and with every word he spoke, he tightened a little.
The woman fell to the ground and coughed, nodded her head, and said with a look of awe: "My subordinates know......... The young master can rest assured, his subordinates ,......... It's not that people don't know what to do. cough, cough, cough ......"
Fu Chip didn't look at her and said, "It's good that you know." Zongzheng has returned to the capital, you watch the prince closely, don't let him do stupid things. Zongzheng Xiaoren must now sit firmly in the position of the crown prince, and it will be beneficial to us. ”
"Yes, my subordinates are commanded." The woman lowered her head, as if she suddenly thought of something, and immediately raised her head and said, "Young master, in a few days, it will be the day for you to return to the door, you ...... Take care of yourself! Her eyes were full of worry and distress at the moment, and she didn't feel any resentment at all because of his actions.
Fu Chip's body trembled slightly, is it another year? He walked to the window and looked up at the sky, and the sky was gray, as if he could never see the edge. He said lightly: "Take care of yourself." I don't have to worry about my business, there have been people investigating the whereabouts of your two sisters for the past year, you should be careful in doing things yourself, don't show your feet. You're good to go. The woman in black asked, "Is it because of the 'ten miles of incense' on the altar last year?" Bo Chip nodded. The woman in black lowered her eyes and said, "My subordinates remember, Young Master Xie reminded." The subordinates retired. She bit her lip, got up from the ground, and looked at him deeply as she left.
Fu Chip held the window lattice with his hands, his fingertips were pale but firm, his eyes were facing the direction of Qingjing Garden, and he whispered softly: "I hope she can be safe and sound." The cherry blossom feast is coming soon, and we ......,...... It's time to meet again! Scold......... Leaving the king's concubine banquet? Zongzheng is worry-free, let's prove that this year's time has diluted your feelings or exacerbated your pain? The taste of day and night, you still have time to taste! This...... Just the beginning, you owe me, I will ...... little by little Get it all back. Even if the end is a catastrophe, I... It has to be done. ”
Some people, from the moment they are born, have already doomed their fate and cannot choose.
There are thousands of red faces and white pains