Chapter 8 Return to Beiping
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When Yao Biao returned to the palace of the prince, it was already night. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biqugeγ info Shen Ruoyu is still sitting outside under the porch. Yao Biao was a little surprised.
"Less! How long have you been sitting here? You are too weak to blow the wind like that. Come on in. β
He brought Shen Ruoliao into the room and sat down on the edge of the bed.
"Have you had dinner?"
Shen Ruoyu nodded meekly.
"Did you take your medication on time?"
Shen Ruoyu smiled: "There is a princess and concubine, you can't be wrong." β
Yao Biao sat down in front of him.
"Xiao'er, His Royal Highness the Prince has taken your suggestion and sent the messenger to the front camp overnight along with the secret letter of the Son of Heaven. Did you know that Master Dao Yan made the same suggestion as you? β
Shen Ruoyu said softly: "That's not my suggestion, it's Master Daoyan's." β
Yao Biao said again: "Your Highness also said that you proposed to see your mother?" β
Shen Ruoyu said: "If you can." β
"Are you mentally prepared?"
Shen Ruoyu thought for a while and said, "I have some, I don't know if it's enough." If you're worried, you might as well tell me in advance. β
Yao Biao looked at him disappointedly, with some traces of injury in his eyes: "Why are you still called Master?" β
Shen Ruoyu smiled apologetically: "I'm just used to it." Master Yao. β
Yao Biao said: "You have to make the distance so far to be comfortable? β
Shen Ruoyu said: "I used to be angry with you. Now, I am the one who deals with sin, not more than I did then. I know you don't care, but if the prince cares, I can't care less. β
Yao Biao sighed. "Okay; Your mother-in-law - what are you going to do when you see her? β
Shen Ruoyu thought about it and said hesitantly, "I'...... I don't know. I'm not sure what my future will be, or what the prince will do to me. β
"Then why do you have to see her? You don't feel at ease, but when you see her, you will be even more uneasy. β
Shen Ruoyu was silent for a moment.
"What the hell is she ...... What do you think? I know that in the first battle of Dongchang, the prince was completely dead to me, not to mention that I tortured the Yan army prisoners again, and the prince would definitely torture my mother. Tell me, what did he do? β
Yao Biao said slowly: "Xiao'er, it's not that I don't necessarily want to tell you. But---I can't even say it. β
Shen Ruoyu said softly: "Then I'll tell me, you just told me, I guessed right." The prince asked the third brother to tell me that if I killed the third brother, he would vote for my mother to be a prostitute, and then use her to pay the army. If you and His Royal Highness say that she is still alive, then she must have become a camp prostitute. Is that right? β
Yao Biao sighed deeply. Shen Ruoxiao began to tremble.
Yao Biao hesitated for a long time and said, "You guessed right, but you didn't guess right. Xiao'er, you must know what happened to the relatives of the defenders? β
Shen Ruoyu looked at Yao Biao and said nothing.
Yao Biao sighed: "The prince tied up your mother, sent it to the camp, and transferred to the camp to commit adultery. Unlike Huailai, the prince is ...... Because I wanted to torture her for a long time, and thus torture you, and refused to let her die prematurely, I gave an order to twenty sergeants every day......"
He couldn't go on. After a long time, he slowly said again:
"Your mother is still alive, but even if you go to see her now, she may not recognize you. She's gone crazy. β
Shen Ruoyu lowered his head. Yao Biao was afraid that he would not be able to support him, so he grabbed his shoulder.
"Xiao'er, if you want to hate, you can hate me. I couldn't stop the prince, I couldn't save your mother. If I had persevered to the end, even if I had fought for my lifeβ"
Shen Ruoyu raised his head and took his hands off his shoulders.
"Sir, don't say it." He said softly.
Yao Biao looked at him silently, not daring to move, his heart was pounding.
Shen Ruoyu stood up, took two steps, turned his back to Yao Biao, and stood again. He said:
"In the Hongjia Hotel, there used to be a porcelain Guanyin statue, do you remember?"
Yao Biao was stunned. "Little ......"
"I broke it. Now, everything has come true. I knew there would be today. I knew it would end like this, but I still insisted on going this way. When I left Beiping, I didn't look back. Everything is my fault, and the root of all evil is mine. From the moment I was born, it was meant to be. β
Yao Biao looked at him in horror: "Xiao'er?!" β¦β¦β
Shen Ruoyu turned his face, Yao Biao thought that he would see tears on his face, but he didn't see anything. The face was skeletal and pale as paper, but expressionless, unradiant, lifeless, as if it were just a mask, a wax figure.
The wax figure smiled slightly, still looking at Yao Biao calmly, and asked softly:
"Your Excellency, you haven't answered my question yet. You once said that if I betrayed the prince, you would smash me with a soldering iron hook with your own hands. Now that I have rebelled so far, why have you tried so hard to save me? β
Yao Biao said: "Xiao'er, because you haven't told me what you are for, leaving King Yan and opposing King Yan, you would rather die on the battlefield for the sake of Jianwen Tianzi." β
Shen Ruoyu seemed to have prepared the answer tens of thousands of years ago. He replied:
"How good a reason does it take to rebel against King Yan to be good enough? Sir, my reasons don't matter. The prince doesn't care why I am. β
"Of course the prince definitely cares," Yao Biao said eagerly, "I care too, Xiao'er, your reason may make everything different." My position and the attitude of the prince will be different because of this. β
Shen Ruoyu said: "Master, when I decided to cut off King Yan, I thought about it for a long, long time, all the possible consequences, the things I might lose, the punishments I would face, including the fate of all the people I loved. I am on a path of no return, and I have prepared a lot for it; Along the way, I continue to realize how unprepared and inadequate I am, but I never regret it. Even now, when I learned about my mother's situation, I still haven't changed my mind. What I can give up, what I can't give up, has given up. As for the attitude of the prince, your position, and the opinion of all the people of Peiping, it doesn't matter to me. β
Yao Biao said: "You can go on saying that. But just because it's not important to you doesn't mean it's not important to us. Xiao'er, I found this in your belt, you wrote it? β
He shook out the letter of despair.
"I will save you under the sword of the prince, because you will die, and you will not fight the prince. If you fight with the prince, how can the prince win? I've been protecting you for the rest of the day, mostly because of these two poems. If you take refuge in the court for the sake of the high officials and the reward of the Son of Heaven, I will not protect you. But you're not. Whatever your reason, you're so simple that you can't get rid of the mundane thoughts. Are you trying to emulate Wen Tianxiang? Did you go to the capital and learn about the courtiers of the Son of Heaven, and then your attitude changed, thinking that the prince's rebellion to seize the throne was a rebellion, and heaven and earth would not tolerate it? β
Shen Ruoyu thought about it for a long time.
"Sir, I'm afraid I'm not as good as you hoped. If I really don't have vulgar thoughts, how can I get my hands on it, cut off the fingers of that Yan soldier, and hang the camp gate? β
Yao Biao sighed. "You're like your father, going to extremes; Even if there is a big reason, I never want to tell anyone. Your father doesn't trust others, he still has your mother with him, and he has nothing to talk about. Xiao'er, you have been just one person to this day. You married Qiu'er, but you don't have her in your heart. All you have in your mind is the reason why you don't know what it is, and the thought that you are going to die. You're only twenty-three years old, Xiao'er! β
Shen Ruoyu looked at Yao Biao and smiled gloomily.
"Master, don't push me anymore. I can't really say. If I could say, why would I wait until today? Since it's a point of no return, and since I've come this far, you let me continue to go to the end. I beg you, don't take care of me like that anymore. Once the prince wins the world, all those who are near me will inevitably suffer disasters one by one. My mother is just the beginning. I abandoned her and drove Qiu'er away, and I had nothing to worry about. You still have a family, even if you don't care about yourself, other people's lives are not at your own disposal, please respect their rights. β
Yao Biao said: "If I can't dissuade you, why do you have to hide it from me." β
He saw Shen Ruoxiao's eyes.
"Forget it, if you don't say anything to the prince, what can I expect. But, there's one thing you remember. Family members have their own blessings and misfortunes, and it is the same in everyone's house. What kind of person you are, once your family has accepted it, will not change. You are so young, let alone me, who is nearly seventy years old. I will no longer beg you to tell me your reasons, and you will not beg me to give up on you and let you live or die; Neither is possible. β
"Lord Yao?!"
"I know what you're thinking. You said that you drove away Qiu'er and abandoned your mother, you don't want me to get involved, you don't want you to worry about yourself, to put it bluntly, you are still evading responsibility and avoiding burden. Since you have chosen to take this path, whatever it is, you must have the courage to bear all the burdens. The burden that you are prepared to bear is actually the lightest. Those burdens that you want to get rid of, but can't get rid of, are the heaviest. Have you thought about it? Can you afford it? If you can't, it's better to give up as soon as possible and confess everything to King Yan. β
Shen Ruoyu trembled. He looked at Yao Biao tremblingly:
"I ...... I just didn't have a choice. I can handle it. Master, I can't protect you, but I once ordered to kill 50,000 Yan army prisoners, and I once personally slashed General Zhang Yu. If you're sure that you're fearless, I'll be able to bear anything. β
Yao Biao only felt a cold wind blowing in his heart, and he shuddered.
"Rest, Xiao'er; You're still weak, it's too heavy to talk about this. I'll go see if your medicine is ready. β