Silent and uninhabited night. There was no moon in sight, only a large expanse of brilliant stars. He didn't want to ride a horse, so he quietly walked through the dead alleys alone, came to Gulou Street, and found the signboard of the Love North Inn in the dark.

It's a strange name. is so awkward, but he can't help but feel a little homesick; However, what he thought of was King Yan, those under him, Lu Jiang, Hongjia Hotel, and Night Primrose.

In the dead of night; The door to the inn is closed. He went around to the back, only to see a light shining through the window of a room in the corner of the second floor, which stood out in the darkness of the top, bottom, left and right.

Come to think of it, it must be the room of the eldest brother and Qing'er.

Shen Ruoyu silently jumped up to the verandah on the second floor, stood by the window, and listened to the movement inside.

For a moment it seemed quiet inside; Then he heard a man's sigh and a woman's sob.

His heart was beating wildly, and for a moment he was hesitant to go home.

If you go home, it's as if it's all over, and the past and the future don't intersect anymore. He can rest assured, and there is not even anything that he can't rest assured. Now that you're starting over, don't let the nightmares of the past linger on the present and the future.

But eventually, he raised his hand and tapped twice on the window.

After a short silence, Zhou Xiang opened the window and was not surprised to see him; At this time, it can't be someone else knocking on the window.

"You're finally here?" He waited for him to jump in and asked softly.

Shen Ruoliao did not answer. His attention was all on the girl sitting on the edge of the bed.

This is the inner room of a suite, with an inner door leading to the outer room, where Zhou Xiang sleeps. The inner room where they were located was Yang Miqing's place. She was still as weak as ever, and when she saw him, her pale cheeks immediately turned red with surprise and shame, and her eyes were still full of tears. Apart from embarrassment, Shen Ruoliao no longer had any other feelings; Besides, he noticed that she seemed to be a little prettier than before.

If that's the case, she must be a lot prettier. After all, now I don't love her anymore. What's more, since he left Yexiao Mountain, he has constantly seen more beautiful women than his aunt and eldest sister outside, especially after coming to the capital.

They looked at each other, and there was an embarrassing silence. Then, Shen Ruoyu said to Zhou Xiang:

"Big brother, do you have a place to go now?"

Zhou Xiang said: "I'm in the way? ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "This is a matter for the two of us, if there is no third person, maybe our words can be more open and sincere." ”

Zhou Xiang sighed: "Okay, whatever you want; However, I warn you, don't hurt her, or I won't be able to spare you. ”

With that, he went out to the outer room. Soon, Shen Ruoyu heard him open the door, walked to the verandah, jumped down, and left the inn.

He sat down at the table and put the autumn wind on the table, not daring to look at Yang Suqing.

After a long silence, Shen Ruoyu finally felt that he had to speak by himself, so he asked softly:

"Qing'er, you...... How are you doing? ”

Yang Yiqing kept her head down, not daring to look at him at all. Hearing him ask, he was so nervous that he couldn't speak, nodded shyly, then shook his head again, and then nodded hesitantly.

Shen Ruoyu sighed softly: "Qing'er, I know you're having a bad time, and I made you suffer." But now, there are two things I must tell you the truth. ”

Yang Yiqing hesitantly repeated: "Two pieces...... The truth? ”

Shen Ruoyu was a little cramped.

"The first thing, I didn't kill the uncle, I didn't poison him, I didn't kill him."

Yang Suqing raised her head anxiously, and when she saw him, her cheeks immediately turned purple and red, and she whispered, "I know; Brother Xiao, I blamed you wrong. ”

It had been a long time since he had heard anyone call him like that.

Shen Ruoyu said: "How do you know? ”

Yang Yiqing said: "What the eldest brother said, there are also the fifth brother and the sixth brother, as well as mortal beings, everyone says so." ”

"Everybody says that?" Shen Ruoyu couldn't help but feel a tingling in her heart, "If no one tells you, you will always hate me to the end, is that what you mean?" You'd rather believe in others, without the words of others, you'd rather believe in He Yu, that villain, than believe me. ”

"Brother Xiao," Yang Yiqing panicked, and tears flowed down: "No, you didn't say anything at the time, why didn't you say that you were wronged?" Why don't you say a word, just let the third uncle beat you? I thought you really had a guilty conscience......"

"Ah, well, then why don't you just continue to believe like this?" Shen Ruoyu said sharply, "What do you think of me?" When something like this happens, you still need me to tell you that I was wronged? If I don't say it, you actually believe that I would really do such a thing, to kill my uncle, to kill your father? ”

Yang Yiqing trembled all over her body and kept wiping her tears: "I was wrong, Brother Xiao, I was so sad at the time, I didn't think about it at all...... I saw him search for a pill bottle from you, and I didn't understand it at all...... It's all my fault, it's all my fault, don't hate me anymore......"

Shen Ruoyu sighed: "I didn't say I hated you, Qing'er. But, for now, I want to tell you the second thing, the second very important thing. I'm going to break your heart, but I'm not going to lie to you. I don't love you anymore, Qing'er; I now have a wife, and I only have her in my heart, and I can't tolerate a second woman anymore. ”

Yang Yiqing's voice was as thin as a mosquito: "I know." ”

"You know that, too?"

"That's what the whole capital says; In fact, we have all heard it when we came out to Beiping, and the people of Beiping said that the king of Yan made the girl you love the county lord to marry you, but you ran away instead. ”

Shen Ruoyu asked, "It's been more than three years, why did you suddenly think of it and run out to find me?" ”

Yang Suqing said: "It's because people in the streets and alleys of Beiping are talking about you, the eldest brother happened to come out once a year ago, but he heard that the entire Beiping City was preparing for the wedding of you and the county lord, and then he knew that you were in Beiping, and when you came back, you planned to take me out to find you." As a result, the third uncle disagreed, and we couldn't leave after preparing for a long time, and he looked at me very dead. Later, the eldest brother finally completely turned against him, he said that he would drive the eldest brother out of the cottage and never allow him to come back, and since then he has been removed from the family tree. The eldest brother didn't care about this, so he took me out. We arrived in Beiping, but you have already arrived in Yingtian, and we have only found it. ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "What is the pain of the eldest brother, what is the pain of you; I can't marry you now, Qing'er. ”

Yang Suqing said: "Brother Xiao, I've thought about it, I don't care, I can be your concubine, I won't be jealous of your wife." ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at her with some surprise. "Qing'er? Do you really think so? ”

Yang Miqing said: "If not, what else can I do." ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Even this is not good. Qing'er, I told you, I can't tolerate a second person in my heart. I will never marry another one and keep it in my family. There is no possibility of getting back together between me and you. ”

Yang Suqing looked at him in a panic, and gradually became a little frightened.

"Brother Liao, what do you say? Are you kidding? I know you're not taking it seriously, and you're kidding me again......"

"I'm not kidding, Qing'er; Why do you always take it seriously when I'm joking, and think I'm joking when I'm serious? I won't marry you, Qing'er. I know you're going to hate me; But I have to. ”

Yang Yiqing could see that he was completely serious, and seeing the indifference in his eyes, she cried:

"Brother Liao, you don't want me anymore? How could you not want me anymore? I'm already your person, why do you casually say that you don't want me anymore, what do you want me to do now? ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Do you have to be tied to me in this life?" I'm not the same person anymore, you don't even know what kind of person I am now, and the one you love is not me anymore. ”

Yang Yiqing said: "I don't care who I love, I'm already your person." ”

Shen Ruoyu said indifferently: "Qing'er, I know I made a mistake to you, I'm sorry, but I can't help it." I don't want to continue to make mistakes, I can't have anywhere I'm sorry for Qiu'er. I can't marry you. I hope you still forget about me and find another good person, there are countless people in this world who are much better than me and more worthy of your love. ”

"But what am I now? An old dress that you have worn, now you think I am torn, outdated, not good-looking, you don't like it anymore, of course you can throw me away; But what do I do? Yang Miqing cried, "Brother Xiao, do you remember the oath you made to me?" Do you remember what you said yourself, the promises you made, that you have completely forgotten now? ”

Shen Ruoyu said: "Of course I remember; The sky is wasted and the earth is old, the sea is dry and rotten, I have said everything I can think of. However, in this world, from ancient times to the present, there has never been the so-called desolate heaven and earth and the sea is dry and rotten. I said it because I believed it at the time; You listened because you believed it at the time; But do you still believe it? Anyway, I don't believe it anymore, but what I said can't be taken back, what should I do? Am I going to continue on this wrong path for the sake of saying the wrong thing for myself, and completely ruin your happiness, my happiness, and Qiu'er's happiness, her life? Why can't you start over? ”

Yang Yiqing cried bitterly: "You are so cruel, Brother Xiao, you have changed, how did you become so ruthless and unjust." ”

Shen Ruoyu couldn't help but say: "Even so, it was you who were ruthless to me first. What were you doing when I was tortured by He Yu in the snow? Aren't you still scolding me bloody in your heart? I will never forget your eyes in a few lifetimes, no matter how many things I have done to be sorry for you, I should not bear the trap of letting you listen to others for no reason like that, and hate me for killing your father. If I hadn't felt that you hated me, because you were ruthless first, I wouldn't have completely despaired, and I no longer fantasized that I could still be reconciled with you, and I would have accepted another girl. Now, instead you call me ruthless? ”

Yang Yiqing couldn't support it, fell on the bed, and cried bitterly:

"I was wrong, I was wrong, why can't you forgive me? Brother Xiao, didn't you say that no matter what happens, you will not abandon me. Why won't you forgive me? Now all the oaths you've sworn don't count? ”

"Do you dare to say this to me? It's like you didn't swear to me. When that stupid pig broke the training stick on me, when he trampled on my broken bones, did you remember half of the promise you made yourself? ”

Yang Yiqing cried out of breath: "Brother Xiao, I lost my father!" If it were you, what would you think? I've been suffering for three and a half years, I hate myself so much for wronging you, I just hope you can forgive me, do you know what kind of life I've lived......"

Shen Ruoyu couldn't control the long-standing bitterness in his heart:

"Do you think that in the past three and a half years, I have suffered less than you? Do you know what kind of life I lived? Do you know that I kneel in the mud and garbage heap all day and beg for food from passers-by? Do you know that people beat me up like a vicious dog who stole things, so much so that I can't even remember what I call me? I could only watch a group of hooligans splash me with feces from head to toe, and I didn't have the strength to resist? I was lying unconscious on the rain-soaked street with a high fever and a corpse, and no one wanted to look at me? What were you doing at that time? Aren't you still the daughter of the deceased patriarch, and people up and down are spoiling you, pampered and pampered? An old garment that I have worn, this is how you define our past? So you have the third uncle to support you, avenge you, let me be ruined, and leave a stench for 10,000 years, your goal has been achieved, are you satisfied? The only thing that makes you unhappy is that I survived, and I survived, right? What now? You have wronged me? You have wronged me! For three whole years, I was at the foot of Yanshan, I was in the city of Beiping, and I was even at Yaobiao's house, and you never thought of me at any time; When I finally climbed out of the mud pile and was finally able to stand up and stand up with my head up, you suddenly appeared again, just because I heard that I married the county lord of King Yan, so I ran over and asked me to forgive you, and then resume the previous days and marry you? You're out of balance, aren't you? You still have the audacity to ask me for a debt! ”

Instinctively, he turned his face away, propped his hands on the table, and held his head hard, trembling all over, and digging his nails into his scalp; The life of the past three and a half years is even more unbearable than his past in Zhenshui Village; Thinking of the first days at the bottom of the filthy and humble days, the bloody humiliation was just a momentary recall, which also made him shudder, and couldn't help but burst into tears, only to feel a splitting headache and uncomfortable chest tightness; He had accumulated too much of this humiliation, and he could not bear it for a long time; But to whom could he confide? All his present personality, his dignity as a man, had been utterly lost in such humiliation; Even if no one reminds him, he is already overwhelmed by his past; He is more afraid that others will remember, afraid that he still has no dignity and personality in the eyes of others; Can he still tell his past to anyone like an idiot, even Qiu'er - especially Qiu'er? He had nowhere to confide. At this moment, Yang Yiqing is like the straw he grabbed in a coma before drowning; What he had never said to his dearest, what he had never shown to anyone, all his coldness and his will, all crumbled and fell on her head. She brought him all the shame he brought her. He is begging for restitution, venting, and desperately trying to break free from the shackles of the past that he can't break free of in his life. But why did you say it to her? Why on her? Shen Ruoliao didn't even realize it himself; For from now on all their affairs are over.

If Yang Miqing had Nangong Qiu's cleverness and courage, or Ye Shangxiang's cold awakening and forgiveness, she would definitely be able to detect this effortlessly, feel the pain in the depths of his soul, and thus be able to clearly see that when a man has told the woman he once loved all the deepest pain, he and she have really come to an end.

However, after all, she didn't; She is neither Qiu'er nor Nightshade. Otherwise, they wouldn't be where they are today. Yang Yiqing just sat there in a daze, listening to his long accusation in horror, and her mind was completely blank; She didn't appreciate everything about him; She only felt the grievance and despair in her heart, while continuing to listen in horror to his gushing bitter water, as if a storm fell from the sky, all she could do was sit pitifully in the rain, passively accepting, only knowing that her body hurt a lot. She looked at him with fear, tears pouring down her pale cheeks:

"How can you say such ugly things...... You've never spoken to me like that...... You hate me...... You still hate me...... Brother Xiao, I can't imagine that you hate me so much...... I don't really know, I don't know anything...... You hate me so much......"

Shen Ruoyu didn't hear a word of her words. He just held his head, desperately resisting his own collapse. The blood in the whole body seems to be flowing backwards; After all, he couldn't resist the overwhelming cruelty. He wanted to let the tears freeze and let them dry, but he couldn't help it. He wanted to remain silent, but he couldn't suppress a wolf howl that burst through his throat in his chest. The humiliation of the past flashed in front of his eyes one after another, accompanied by the vicious and obscene curses and ridicule that had been incessant, he didn't know for a while who he was, where he was, he couldn't be sure if he was still asking for food on the streets of Beiping, picking up dung in Yao Biao's backyard, or still in Madame's city, by the Hanshui River, alone to bear the pervasive ridicule and humiliation, and it was impossible to even hide; Everything is vivid, and these memories even drown out the most glorious moment of his life, the wedding of him and Qiu'er in Duanlimen Square. All that remains of his past is an endless stench and darkness; He was panting as if he were suffocating, but he couldn't hear or perceive it at all. Yang Suqing watched from the side, listening, trembling in horror under his collapse, those wheezing like hideous saws, tearing her liver, gallbladder, heart and lungs at once, sawing her whole body to pieces, bloody.

Long. It was as if ten years had passed in a lifetime. After the lone wolf mourned, ten years of snow wiped out human traces.

Shen Ruoyu finally regained some self-control. He lowered his arms, looked out the window into the night, and said in a low voice:

"Qing'er, I don't hate you; I said I don't hate you, and I don't want to hate you; I know you have your suffering, you're just a victim girl, and there's no point in hating you. But how can I not hate you? Have you ever put yourself in my shoes? Do you think you're at a loss? You only remember what you gave me, and you have completely forgotten what I gave you? Qing'er, everyone's first time is unique. I gave you my first affection, I gave you my first vow, my first hug, my first kiss, including my body, all the first! What did you give me that I didn't give you at the same time? Which one do I give less than you? Do you think we are not equal? Everything I have given you, I can't give Qiu'er again. Even now, because of my past with you, I don't have the guts to give her a promise to grow old together, to give her a first night she deserves. I've always felt guilty about it, so why did I ever ask you to compensate me for the rest of my life? But in your eyes, everything I have given you is not worth mentioning, and it is not even worth exchanging you for a minimum of trust. Qing'er, I loved you, a fifteen or sixteen-year-old boy's naïve and naïve feelings and fantasies, which could not withstand the test of time and changes, had long since disappeared. You are the same, don't you still admit it? The little brother you once loved is dead, and he has been killed by the hatred of you and your eldest brother long before he swallowed He Yu's cup of poison. Even if he's still alive, your feelings are actually dead. You still stubbornly think that we should be together; Do you think that makes any sense? Is it possible to be happy between us? ”

Yang Suqing couldn't say anything else, only kept crying:

"But what do I do...... You have a new life now, but what do you want me to do? Brother Xiao, I'm a girl, what do you want me to do in the future? ”

Shen Ruoliao wiped away her tears, gritted her teeth to hold back her strong shame and remorse, and said calmly:

"If you're willing to listen to me, Qing'er, I've forgotten what I was like. I'm like that now, whether it's a villain or a hooligan, whatever you think, I won't marry you again anyway. Moreover, I will not associate with you again, since I am already sorry for you, in order to avoid hurting my wife again, I can only choose to hurt you to the end. ”

He spit out these words so coldly and cruelly, Yang Suqing looked at him in horror. She muttered:

"Brother Liao? …… Aren't you afraid that your vows will be fulfilled? Aren't you afraid of retribution? ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at her and smiled miserably. "I've been retribution, and I've always been. If they should come, let them all come, the sky thunders, ten thousand arrows pierce the heart, the fire burns the body, the five horses are divided into corpses - whatever. I can only die once anyway. ”

Yang Suqing said: "What about your martial arts?" You once swore that if you turned your back on me, you would lose all your martial arts and die of rotting flesh and bones. Do you know that it was because my father abolished your martial arts that I wondered if you had changed your mind about me, so God had already punished you and made you lose your martial arts, so I had a later misunderstanding and listened to the words of the third uncle. ”

Shen Ruoyu looked at her and asked blankly, "Lost martial arts?" Did I make such an oath? ”

Yang Yiqing said: "You really forgot? What you said yourself, your promises, it turns out that you didn't mean anything, you were lying to me at the time? ”

Shen Ruoyu sat in place in a daze. At that time, he had forgotten it cleanly, he had tried to recall it, but he could no longer recall a word, and now it suddenly appeared clearly in front of him, echoing in his ears, so real, as if it were just yesterday - the peak of the rain, he swore to her, it was the first time, but it was the most serious and resolute in history, and because of seriousness, he deliberately avoided the unlikely thunderstorm, and made a bet with the closest and most real possible thing:

"This time, not to you, but to my father and my mother's spirit in heaven. Shen Ruoyu will always stay by Yang Miqing's side, love her for the rest of her life, and not let her be hurt in any way; The sky is falling apart, and the heart will never change. If I turn my back, I will lose all my martial arts, and my flesh and bones will rot to death. The sky is bright and the sun is bright, and this word must be practiced. ”

Yang Miqing said: "Later, you lost your martial arts; You've really changed your mind, too. But why is your martial arts coming back now? It's still invincible in the world like the original. The sky doesn't have eyes at all. ”

Shen Ruo looked at her resentful eyes wordlessly. He was silent for a moment, then stood up and walked to the window.

"Brother Liao?" Yang Suqing shouted in panic, "What are you going to do?" Are you leaving? ”

Shen Ruoyu stood still, stood for a moment, and looked back at her.

"Qing'er, what else can I do if I stay?"

"You ......," Yang Miqing's tears welled up. We haven't seen each other for almost four years, are you in such a hurry to leave? ”

Shen Ruoyu sighed: "Qing'er, my beloved wife is still waiting for me at home. No matter what happens, I must not fail her. As for our affairs, it is all my fault, but it is an irreparable mistake. So, I can only wait for my punishment to come, for the day in the future, every vow I have made will be retributed. You just let me go, and you let yourself go; I will not be flexible in the slightest, and I will not come back to see you. ”

After speaking, he opened the window, jumped out, crossed the railing of the verandah, reached the ground, and left, leaving behind him, Yang Yiqing's heart-rending cry continued non-stop.