Zhang Xiaobao and Wang Juan had just eaten two boiled dumplings with their families before they were children, and they clinked glasses with their grandfather and father and drank a glass of wine.

"Let's go to Hibiscus Garden? What did you do earlier? Xiaobei complained, suddenly his eyes rolled again, and said to Xiao Yuan, who had been accompanying him: "How much money do you say we can get for New Year's greetings this time?" ”

Xiaoyuan was in a daze, everything seemed to be messy during the New Year, and countless people in the house were dangling like marquees, and they were obviously not used to making noise.

Hearing Xiaobei's inquiry, Xiaoyuan said in a daze: "At least a hundred times." ”

"Why are we so worthless, listen to me in a while, I hope they have to pay New Year's greetings, give us a New Year's greeting, we will throw out 100,000 yuan by ourselves, and when we give New Year's greetings to others, who dares to miss this number, I think about it in my heart, hum!"

Becky decides to make a final move, throwing the money first and then collecting it.

"It's not a business, the New Year, everyone is happy, but it's a pity that Xiaoji, Xiaoxiang, Xiaoru, Xiaoyi, and they are too small, Xiaohong is just able to run, and I'm worried about not making fake ears for her now.

You said that if she didn't do it, she was born without ears and had a hard time listening to sounds, and if she did, would she think that we looked down on her without ears, otherwise why did we have to put a pair of ears on her? If it hadn't been an impulse to accept her as a sister, wouldn't you have to think about this? ”

Xiao Yuan said to Xiao Bei as he followed the team out.

Zhang Fang next to him took over and said: "It's not impulsive, it's the right decision, such as me, as well as my brother and Brother Zhang Qiang, Brother Zhang Qiang is the original mountain people in Luzhou, if our father hadn't accepted him as a righteous son, would the mountain people be so easy to go down the mountain?"

And my brother and I, the two of us are the children of our father-in-law, and the ..... in the entire Yizhou will always be at ease, in fact, my brother and I both know that whoever the father-in-law chooses is the choice, and we are chosen because we are about the same age, and it is our luck.

Xiaohong has no ears and is also our sister, a member of the Datang patrol envoys, look at who in Datang dares to look down on children with physical defects, don't you see that my brother and sister have acquiesced. ”

"Makes sense." Xiaoyuan nodded, many times there is a political purpose in doing things, of course, when I first collected Hong'er, I didn't think of the political significance, just look at Hong'er's pitiful, just two ears less, how can I not have the right to live.

Thinking of Hong'er, Xiao Yuanshun remembered the original master book and the woman, and asked, "What about the master book at that time, what about Hong'er's mother?" ”

"I don't know." Xiaobei also remembered, she turned her head to look at the maid.

It's not easy for the maid to do, in addition to the little ancestors of the waiter, you have to remember a lot of things, and even help make suggestions at critical moments, and the maids of the Zhang and Wang families can be used as a county order if they release any of them.

"The master book has been a civilian, the family has made dozens of acres of land to plant, I heard that the spirit is not very good, occasionally in my spare time I muttered 'Hong'er', Hong'er Niang and the family of the two little ladies are trading together, not under our family's control.

It was the little lady who instructed that if a relative uses another relative as a subordinate, it is an insult to both at the same time, and he must be allowed to act independently, and the little boy also agrees.

They opened a tea shop on Chang'an Street in the capital, the south street of Wubenfang, the place is very good, the place is very good, my family has made efforts to arrange, now selling tea from all over the Tang Dynasty, as long as the little boy and the little lady get new tea, it must be put in the tea shop to sell first.

Fermented tea, semi-fermented tea, green tea, flower tea, in terms of variety, ordinary people can drink, there is the most complete, there are more than 1,000 net income per month. ”

"Huh? So much? I'm not saying that they make more money, I'm saying how can a tea shop make so much profit. Xiaobei said in surprise.

"Because their tea is all genuine." The maid replied.

"That's right, when tonight passes, we're going to take a look, and Xiaofang, are you homesick? Brother Zhang Qiang had already seen his family when he returned to Luzhou, and you haven't been back for a long time. ”

Xiaobei suddenly thought of this question, and she felt that if she was allowed to leave her brother and sister for too long, she would think very much.

Zhang Fang pondered for a moment and said: "I also want to, but we are also living very well here, I have forgotten what my father and mother look like, when I want to go to the north to train the army, let's take a detour, let's go home and see." ”

Then he sighed again and said, "If it weren't for the fact that we have been paying attention to the treasure candy houses in various places, I wouldn't even be able to sketch the appearance of my hometown, at that time, the family was probably a transaction."

Before we Datang did not implement the compulsory education system and the full supply of welfare, there were more people who had children to give out, and it was said that it was given, but it was actually a kind of sale, but the price of selling was very low, a few eggs, or a knife of meat, or even no need for anything, as long as the other party promised not to harm the child.

All this is because of poverty, even my family cannot refuse such a temptation, and give you the child, and you will naturally take care of the whole family.

My brother and I are the chips on both sides of the scale, Datang needs the loyalty of my clan, and my clan needs the welfare of Datang, but as a bargaining chip, I have no regrets, I have a group of brothers and sisters, if I want, I can eat with the emperor of Datang every day, and I can let the beloved brother Xiaobao and Sister Juan Juan hold me.

The patriarch of the family should never expect this glory, what I need to think about now is how to face the clan in the future, it is very troublesome, who made my identity different. ”

"That's right, I haven't thought about it, I was born with this kind of identity, so scary, I always want to live the life of ordinary children in Datang, but it is always unsuccessful, haven't we seen the children of other big families, all of them are very angry, and they asked them how the chicks laid eggs, and they don't know how many eggs a pound of eggs are called.

What's the point of them living like that? According to the story told by my brother, it is called elite education, and the elite just don't know that the usual eggs of seven to nine are a catty? I don't know if the newly opened eggs can weigh eleven, or the elder brothers and sisters, from the most basic farm manure splashing, to the political struggle at the upper level, everything is taught to us.

I dreamed that day, who am I? I don't seem to have myself, I'm one of my brothers and sisters at home, and then I have to study, show it to the adults in the family, and when I am a diplomat, I am a diplomat, responsible for handling all kinds of foreign exchanges, I was born in the Zhang family, and what I do does not belong to me.

In the autumn of this year, I saw that there were children in Luzhou who went to pick up ears of rice during the holidays, and I helped him pick them up together, and he complained, saying that he usually had to go to school, listen to his parents at home, and help with the work in the fields during the holidays, and only half an hour a day belonged to his own playtime.

Ha, then I think I'm very happy, he can only play for half an hour every day, it turns out that I don't belong to me alone, a few days ago I thought, many adults do things during the day, come back at night to cook, watch the children, do they not belong to themselves? Who are they? I can't figure it out. ”

Xiaobei followed Xiaofang's words, and the more she said, the more off-topic, and in the end, she was silent.

Obviously, philosophical things are not suitable for children, even if they have heard too many stories.

No matter how many people gathered on the road, as soon as they see the cars of Zhang Wang's two families, they will immediately get out of the way, the people want it, they don't need to press any horn, and the people who lose the hearts of the people are also throwing eggs with bayonets, and they will hide if they throw one.

Even the guards are very relaxed, when passing by, the people will help look at both sides, no one wants to rush up, if someone really wants to sue, usually just find a deal between Zhang and Wang's two families, at this time rush over, the reason for the complaint is too bad, no one believes it.

When I arrived at the Hibiscus Garden, it was already the fourth quarter of the first child, my ears were buzzing, all the sound of firecrackers, and the stage built by the Hibiscus Garden was reverberating with 'pop' songs that I didn't know who wrote the lyrics.

After a while, the sound of firecrackers in the Hibiscus Garden stopped, and Xiaobei let go of the hand that blocked her ears and said depressedly: "I said why the sound is loud, it turned out to be specially put for us, Uncle Huang is really idle, look at how much money he gave me, hum!" ”

Zhang Xiaobao was also shocked to the point that his eyes turned in circles, and the power of gunpowder was visible, so he stepped forward to pull his younger brothers and sisters.

"Brother, ask something." Xiaobei stretched out his hand for his brother to pull, and said loudly: "Do you think you are yourself?" Do you live for yourself? Tired or not? ”

Zhang Xiaobao was stunned, Wang Juan next to him was also stunned, and at the same time, the two of them were still a little worried, because many people who committed suicide had such thoughts, thinking that the process of life was too simple, they had seen everything, and life and death were no longer important.

Stopping, Zhang Xiaobao thought about it, and said for a while: "Tired, many times I feel that my existence is meaningless, I wear a mask of hypocrisy all day long, say insincere words, and sometimes I even want to end my life.

That day I dreamed, I had a dream that I died, and then I found that many people cried again, you cried, our parents cried, and even His Majesty cried, and then spread to the entire Datang, at that time, Datang was full of sadness like losing its soul.

I couldn't figure out what I had to do with the other people when I died alone, and then, the sound of chains sounded, and I saw the bull head and horse face, and the two 'people' were crying there, and their voices were hoarse.

I wondered, I said to them, let's meet again, that, I seem to have seen them before, it's been too long, a little forgetful, I said, what's wrong with you two? Sick? It can be cured, and it can't be delayed.

They knelt down and smashed their heads on the ground, and the bull head spoke first, 'Why are you here again, didn't you promise last time, don't you toss us for a hundred years, why don't you talk and count?' I said I didn't want to live, I might as well die.

Ma Mian then spoke, 'What's so boring?' Do you see how many people cry when you die? So many people need you, you are better than me and Niu Tou, no one else wants to see us, you are old and happy, you know? ’

I said I didn't mean that, I meant that I was too tired to live, I didn't have time for myself, I couldn't rest if I wanted to, it was better to die, if you bothered me less, I would be happier.

'Are you bothering us?' You don't plan to make the underworld peaceful, you don't know if you do that, do you? Ghosts also have to be reasonable, if you are tired, you don't care about others, find a clean place to fish, touch the shrimp, plant the field, and make flowers, are you not tired? ’

This was said by the bull head, and I heard it very reasonable at first glance, and then I thought, no, no one knows about me anymore, what is the meaning of my life, so I said no, others have to know about me.

Then they came up with the idea of saying that it was simple, print what you do in the newspaper every day and show it to everyone, but after everyone has read it, they can't bother you.

That's how I agreed, and after listening to their words, I was still yang, and after another three days, I was always upset, and I told someone else, but give me a feedback, when I am a transparent person, isn't it? I'm not alive anymore, everyone doesn't care about me, what's the point of me living?

Thereupon....... ”

"So brother, you saw the bull head and horse face again, and they knelt down for you again, didn't they? They are quite tenacious, if I were the two of them, I would have the heart to die, you are too tormenting. ”

Before Zhang Xiaobao finished speaking, Xiaobei had already thought of the answer.

"Okay, I know, in fact, I'm not living for myself, I'm really living for myself, I can't live, I need others to recognize me, I also need to watch my decisions change other people's lives, why? Then you have to see who I am first, who am I, I am Zhang Xiaobei, my existence is a symbol, my name will inevitably become a legend, the kind of bull head and horse face tremble when they hear it. ”

"Let's go, let others tremble first, go to press the New Year's money, who dares to give less today, I will listen to his family's welfare in the next year." Zhang Xiaobao waved his hand and strode towards Li Longji's line, behind him was a group of children who wanted to become legends.