Chapter 11: The Pain of My Father

When it was Shen Ruoxiao's turn, his father and son were gone. Everyone in the village looked at each other, and they couldn't figure out where the two of them had gone. Mo Suge couldn't help but worry; She looked out of the courtyard, but saw the two of them walking into the courtyard.

Shen Ruoyu walked to the middle of the courtyard; Lights hit him from all sides, reflecting his melancholy expression. Seeing Mo Suge's inquiring gaze, he smiled faintly, drew his sword, and pointed quietly at the snow. The long sword reflected the snow-white cold light, just like Shen Ruo's thin figure, which made everyone feel a great nervousness. The courtyard was immediately silent, as if Shen Ruoyu was the only one there.

Shen Rufeng broke the silence and said calmly: "Everyone has been waiting for a long time. The two of us just went to the North Courtyard to pick up some things to add to the atmosphere. ”

As soon as he stretched out his arm, a long sword lit up in front of everyone. On the tip of the sword hung a string of 1,000 firecrackers, red and bright, very eye-catching. Everyone was taken aback, and subconsciously took a few steps back and dodged the firecrackers.

Shen Rufeng smiled slightly, and said to Mu Fansheng: "Fansheng, have you taken the incense?" Is it still burning? Come here and light the firecrackers. Be careful, run away as soon as you light it and get back into the crowd. ”

Mu Fansheng carefully touched the incense head to the twisted core. Soon the twist was lit, and the spark burst down the lead to the firecracker with a small crackling sound. Mu Fansheng jumped away quickly and ran far away.

As soon as he dodged, a cold light flashed straight to the firecracker; There was nothing on the tip of Shen Rufeng's sword. He withdrew his sword and retreated into the audience. Firecrackers began to explode. Everyone couldn't see where the firecrackers were and where Shen Ruoyu was; Only a vague sword shadow flickered in the distance, and the sword shadow was a foot away in front of him, facing He Yu, the firecrackers exploded one by one, and one after another, a beautiful golden line of writing was written in the air. Shen Rufeng's face immediately changed color.

"Daddy, it's a 'spring' word!" He Qingqing clapped his hands and jumped up.

The light of the fire is fleeting; The firecrackers continued to go off. In front of the sword shadow, the word "spring" has disappeared as soon as it appears; Immediately after the last stroke of the word "spring", another word crackled in the air. Shen Rufeng's face was as cold as a knife.

"It's the word 'full'!" He Qingqing was even happier.

Clear and beautiful words accompanied by a deafening cannon sound, flashed out in the air like flowing water, the connection between the words was very tight, the sparks were just right, and none of them were wasted. Everyone didn't even dare to take a breath when they saw the atmosphere, and they counted the seven words that appeared in the air in amazement for some reason.

Spring is full of blessings.

With the explosion of the thousandth ring, the word "door" in a line of body was perfectly put away with the last stroke. There was a sudden silence under the night sky. The smoke curled away; Shen Ruoyu put away his sword and saluted everyone. The courtyard suddenly burst into applause and cheers.

"The fourth brother is amazing!" He Qingqing shouted excitedly.

Yang Zhiding smiled and said: "The third brother's birthday is in time, and the New Year will be celebrated in two days." 'The days increase the years, the people increase the longevity, the spring is full of blessings'. Xiao'er really played beautifully, and the creativity was quite good. The sword is like its words, and the words are like its people. Xiang'er, what do you think? ”

Zhou Xiang said: "Uncle, don't make fun of your nephew; The fourth brother's sword, the nephew has never been able to see it clearly. ”

The melancholy on Shen Ruoliao's face never dissipated. He did a great job of what he planned, and it was even better than expected. However, the more he was satisfied with all this, the more he angered his father. He didn't dare to glance at his father. Mo Suge noticed the gloomy cloud between his eyebrows, glanced at Shen Rufeng carefully, and immediately saw the most terrifying look in the eyes of the second brother, the deep flame of anger and hatred. For fifteen years, every time she saw that flame, she always tried to extinguish it in every possible way.

Mo Suge smiled: "Third brother, I see that Xiao'er's kung fu has already overtaken you." ”

"It's been a long time coming," He Yu picked up the remnants of a firecracker from the snow and sighed, "With such a fast sword, only the second brother can adjust it." ”

Mo Suge then said to Shen Rufeng: "Second brother, this kid is more and more like you. ”

Shen Rufeng smiled faintly, hid his emotions well, and said in the most ordinary voice: "It's still far away." ”

When it was Mu Fansheng's turn, he ran to the middle of the courtyard, his face was flushed, and he said in a panic: "Fansheng can't do anything, just turn a few heels for the third uncle." After saying that, he flipped a few side flips, a few somersaults under the gaze of everyone, and then ran down in a panic.

Everyone laughed. Shen Rufeng said in a low voice: "This kid is very light on his feet, his skills are very clean, and he is a good material for martial arts." ”

The wooden swing heard it on the side, and said with a smile: "Second uncle, his two styles are all made by himself who usually fights with the children next door, and they can't be put on the stage, which makes people see jokes." ”

Shen Rufeng smiled and shook his head, his eyes did not leave Mu Fansheng for a moment: "What did Qiu'er say; Fan Sheng is born with a good foundation, and he will definitely be much more promising than your fourth brother in the future. ”

When the focus of everyone's attention shifted to He Yu's two daughters, and no one paid attention to them anymore, Shen Rufeng whispered to Shen Ruoyu: "Follow me." ”

He took two steps and looked back to see his son looking at him, still standing still. He added in a gloomy voice: "Go to the darkroom." ”

Shen Ruoyu knew everything in his father's words. He watched as his father took a lamp and silently followed him. The two of them quietly climbed over the back wall, walked down the hillside, walked through the vast martial arts field, and walked towards the north courtyard.

When he arrived at the door of the darkroom, Shen Rufeng opened the lock and looked back at his son gloomily. Shen Ruoyu didn't go in immediately; He stood motionless for a moment. There was a dead silence in the north courtyard; The whole mountain was dead silent, covered with snow and not a trace of wind. He looked up; There were no clouds in the sky, and the stars in the sky were bright or dark, blinking incessantly.

Night Lonely Mountain, it is rare to have such a sunny day.

"Go in," Shen Rufeng coldly ordered.

Shen Ruoyu walked into the darkroom with no expression on his face. He quietly watched Shen Rufeng close the door, plug in the latch, put the lamp on the wall, and then reached out to take off the leather whip of his childhood sweetheart on the wall; These are the usual processes. Without his father's order, he obediently untied his shirt and knelt down.

Shen Rufeng grabbed the whip and walked back and forth beside him a few times without saying a word. Shen Ruoyu didn't look up, just looked straight ahead with an expressionless face. He couldn't see anything, he didn't think about anything, his whole body and mind were as dead and silent as the mountains outside, just waiting.

Shen Rufeng looked at the old and new scars that had fallen on his son's body. After a long time, he said coldly:

"You've got stiff wings, aren't you? You think you've grown up, you're promising, you're a character, and you can openly provoke me, huh? You also have the guts. ”

Shen Ruoyu didn't say a word. His father's words were like a whip in his hand, falling heavily on his heart, and he was suffocated by pain.

Shen Rufeng said: "How do you explain this time?" Forgot those two words again? He sneered, "You have a good memory, you can forget just two words; Is your ultimate goal to forget all the rituals of the elder and the young, the order of respect and inferiority, and the relationship between father and son in this world? ”

As it often does, why don't he believe he's used to it. The sentence he wrote was better than the word "Shoukang", and the requirements in martial arts were more difficult. As long as he explained obediently, his father would believe in him, and everything would pass again. However, his father's mean words stung him deeply again, and a wave of rebellion rushed up from the bottom of Shen Ruoliao's heart, this time, he finally didn't bear it anymore, and blurted out:

"Those two words are 'Shoukang', I deliberately replaced them."

"What?" Shen Rufeng asked sternly. It was the first time he had been confronted like this by his son. "You have the ability, why don't you change the scolding word?"

Shen Ruoyu felt that his voice seemed to come from someone else, so cold that he felt desperate: "I'm wishing everyone a happy New Year, not to celebrate his birthday, there is no need to make others feel bad." ”

"Bastard!" A whip slammed into his shoulder; Shen Ruoyu trembled, gritted his teeth and did not make a sound. He had long since learned to endure this punishment.

The power of the whip stick is powerful, and this strength is rooted in its proper name. Therefore, the difficulty of resistance lies not in the cane itself, but in the eternal infamy of disloyalty, filial piety and injustice obtained by resisting.

"How many times have I told you. He's your third uncle. You have been so disrespectful to your third uncle again and again. ”

"He deserves it, too." Shen Ruoyu said word by word.

Another whip fell, and then another.

"You deserve it too?" Shen Rufeng's anger was unprecedentedly uncontrollable. The authority of fatherhood is challenged in this way, which is unbearable for a man who has traveled all over the world without an opponent. He has completely ignored that Shen Ruoxiao's current performance is just a copy of his youth, and he is caught in the competition between himself and himself without realizing it. His whip continued to fall.

"How many times have you promised me not to be like this again, why have you gone back on your word, and Yang Fengyin has disobeyed? Are you still a man? ”

Shen Ruoxiao's anger began to gradually become uncontrollable. He said in the most frivolous tone: "It didn't count before; Count now. ”

"What?!"

"In the past, in order not to be beaten again, I just begged for mercy; In fact, in my heart, I never agreed. But now, I can't lie to you anymore. ”

Shen Rufeng was silent for a moment. Then, he sneered, "Good, good man. You have a kind, don't lie to me if you die today. ”

The whip in his hand was thrown down even more ferocently. Shen Ruoyao stubbornly knelt in place, motionless and silent. He felt himself being torn apart, fear and despair beating and churning in his heart, screaming to drive him crazy. He wasn't wrong; Never admit that you were wrong. He believed that the root of all this was not actually what he did to He Yu, but only because of the hatred, the hatred that he had brought to his father since he was born. This, he can't change, unless he is really killed by his father.

Shen Rufeng stopped and looked at his son heavily.

"Do you really have a kind? Do you want me Shen Rufeng to fall into the name of unkindness and injustice? ”

Shen Ruoyu gritted her teeth. He was bleeding all over his body, thanks to his own father. He never believed that he had any unfilial or disrespectful feelings towards his father; However, the fifteen-year-old boy finally couldn't suppress the blood of the rebellious youth, and pointed the finger at his father, whom he had always regarded as an idol.

"You are wrong; It's not that I think, but you think about it. He said coldly.

Shen Rufeng never expected him to answer like this. "What did you say?" He asked, still gloomily.

Shen Ruoyu raised his head, and immediately saw the familiar light in his father's eyes, the cruel and poisonous eyes with murderous aura, which made him frightened, and at this moment also triggered all his contradictory feelings all along.

"You don't have to deny it; I never blame you. Dad, what are you afraid of; I can see that everyone in the cottage can see it, and everyone just doesn't say it. I just can't understand, why are you afraid of him? His martial arts are not as good as mine, but you blindly tolerate him, which will only make him gain an inch, and eventually ruin the entire cottage. ”

"Presumptuous!" Shen Rufeng was furious, and a whip hit him in the face mercilessly. "You're so good, but you can foresee the future when I can't see clearly? Who do you think you dare to speak to me like this? ”

He pulled something out of his cuff and shook it off, but it was a sheet, the old time and dim light had made it no longer visible in its original color, only a large brown blood stain on a pale background, no matter how young it was, it was still so glaring and shocking. He hung the sheets on the wall.

"Look at your mother, look at the sacrifices she made for you! But what are you? What have you done? Are you worthy to live in her place? Who are you born with? You've forgotten what you've brought us, and you're still trying to rebel, right? ”

Shen Ruoyu trembled; The wounds all over his body were still painful just now, but now he felt nothing, only a huge suffocating depression, which tightly grasped his entire chest, making it almost difficult for him to support himself from fainting.

Mother, do you really love me, so you can't bear to let me live instead of you, right? I've been punished for fifteen years, isn't that enough? Does he have to drive me mad, torture me to death, for him to be satisfied?

Why was I born? Why was I born?

He'd seen the sheet so many times that he didn't dare to look up again. His father punished him with this, and the effect was indeed very good. Yet he was fifteen years old and no longer as simple-minded as he was when he was five or ten. Things have come to this point, he might as well have said all the words of more than ten years; On this kind of day, it is really not interesting for him to live any longer.

Look at him...... Help me, mother......

His voice trembled and tightened, and he still said coldly: "I haven't forgotten anything, with you reminding me every day, I have always known what I am." In your eyes, I have been a sinner since birth, and I have been destined to bring suffering to those who love me all my life, and my mother was killed by me. This is all what you told me personally, Shen Ruoyao is unforgettable. But—"

He gasped and gritted his teeth for a long time before he could hold back his tears. Shen Rufeng heard the tears in his voice, and didn't say anything for a while, waiting quietly for him to finish.

"It's not a clever thing for you to take out this sheet, do you think it's worthy of my mother? I couldn't choose my own birth, I didn't ask my mother to give birth to me; But you have a choice, it's you who make the wrong decision. Half of my mother's death was your fault. The scar on my brow is not what I want it to grow, and you give me such a body, but you blame me. Over the years, you have never been fair to me, and you may think more about your own selfishness, do you still deny it and scold me for being disobedient? ”

Shen Rufeng gently threw the whip aside; This is a sign of his extreme anger. Shen Ruoyu saw his hand gripping the hilt of the sword, and felt that he had reached the most desperate moment in fifteen years. The father and son reached an astonishing agreement at this time, and they were both completely forced to lose their minds by each other. Shen Ruoliao continued:

"I know that you raised me only to punish me, to get revenge. Fifteen years of upbringing, I can only repay it in the next life. Shen Ruoyu sincerely accepted the death, and there was no complaint. ”

Shen Rufeng picked up a training stick as thick as an arm from the corner of the wall, and beat the young man who was babbling to the ground with a stick. He yelled, "You think I really don't dare to kill you?!" Or do you think I can't bear your wicked obstacle?! ”

Shen Ruoyu replied bitterly: "I can do it myself, so as not to cause you inconvenience." ”

Shen Rufeng was so angry with his son that he hit him with another stick and shouted, "At this time, you still dare to talk nonsense?!" ”

There was a sudden knock on the door. A woman's voice shouted, "Second brother! ”

Mo Suge.

Shen Rufeng stood in place, did not move for a while, and did not make a sound.

The knock on the door sounded again, much louder, and it was obvious that Mo Suge was very anxious. "Second brother! Open the door! Second brother! ”

Shen Ruoyu got up from the ground, picked up his clothes, and put them back on his body.

Shen Rufeng walked over and opened the door. Mo Suge broke in, saw Shen Rufeng, and saw the training stick in his hand at the same time. She took a few steps into the darkroom; Shen Ruoyu stood against the wall, looking at her coldly without saying a word, her clothes covered with blood.

Mo Suge turned to Shen Rufeng and said, "Second brother, the eldest brother and the third brother still want to have two more drinks together, but I don't see you, I didn't expect you to come here again." How good is this kid today, and why did he mess with you? You see you beat him. ”

Shen Rufeng said coldly: "You ask him yourself, how well he behaved." He looked at Shen Ruoliao and scolded angrily: "What are you doing standing?" Don't kneel down and ask your aunt for guilt! ”

Mo Suge hurriedly stopped: "Nonsense, what kind of crime do you ask me?" He didn't do anything wrong with me and my third brother. ”

"You're not kneeling yet?" Shen Rufeng opened his eyes and said.

Shen Ruoyu stood straight in place and coldly resisted: "I am not guilty, please please." ”

As soon as the words fell, the training stick in Shen Rufeng's hand swept across and hit him hard behind his leg. Mo Suge was so shocked that he couldn't stop it. Shen Ruoyu was hit by this stick and immediately knelt down; The moment his knees touched the ground, his heart was horizontal, and he simply threw himself forward. This angered Shen Rufeng even more; The training stick in his hand hit his son mercilessly, but he had to be restrained at the last moment: Mo Suge pounced under the training stick and blocked him.

She turned around and blamed: "Second brother, you are such a child, do you really regret it if you beat him to death?" I really don't understand how much this kid looks like his mother, how can you bear to treat him like this. ”

She suddenly saw the blood-stained sheets hanging on the wall, and said angrily: "Second brother, what are you doing?" It's been fifteen years, why are you getting more and more confused? What is his fault for my second sister-in-law's death, how can you hurt him like this? Are you still a father, where have your hearts gone?! ”

Shen Rufeng threw the training stick to the ground and walked out of the door without saying a word.