"Guodong, I know that you came back this time to say goodbye to my old man, don't worry, I still have a son, what should you do, you must do what you promise others, you must be a man with faith, and with faith, you can be a man."

It's already very deep, the villagers who originally gathered in the square have also dispersed, and even the dogs that are still hanging out of the door have gone back to sleep, Zhao Guodong is lying on the bed, looking at the moon outside the window, so round, it seems to be fifteen today. Zhao Guodong was lying there, he didn't know what Lu Dao was or couldn't sleep, and he remembered what Zhang Dabao said when he was in the cool at night.

originally didn't plan to tell Zhang Dabao that he would leave after sending Xiao Yingzi away, Zhang Dabao didn't know where to know the news of Lu Dao, and deliberately called Zhao Guodong to settle down in front of him, Zhao Guodong nodded and agreed, the old man is so old, he can't let him worry.

I don't know what Lu Dao is for, thinking of Zhang Dabao's words in my mind, Aunt Mei immediately appeared, Zhao Guodong tossed and turned without the slightest sleep, so he simply got up and got dressed, and prepared to go to the cemetery to see Aunt Mei and Xiao Yingzi's biological parents.

Xiao Yingzi is next door, I was too crazy to play today, I slept very soundly, Zhao Guodong gently pushed the door open, and then stepped out, gently closed them from the outside, stood at the window and listened, Xiao Yingzi faintly snored.

"Brother, where are you going?" As soon as Zhao Guodong walked out of the gate, he heard someone shouting to him, Zhao Guodong looked back, and it turned out to be Zhang Jun behind him.

"Why didn't you sleep?" Zhao Guodong said, "Go back quickly, it's cold outside." ”

"Brother, take this." Zhang Jun took out a bag from the corner and put it in Zhao Guodong's hand, "My dad said that you will definitely go out tonight, let me give this to you, saying that you will definitely use it." ”

Zhao Guodong took the bag and glanced inside, it contained a few bottles of wine, two boxes of cigarettes and a large stack of yellow table paper, "Okay, I know what happened, you go back quickly, don't catch a cold." ”

"Brother, why don't I go with you."

"No, I know how to get there." Zhao Guodong took his things and left, Zhang Jun watched Zhao Guodong limp away and sighed and went back to the house. Xiao Yingzi in the room also opened her eyes at this time, a tear slipped from the corner of her eye, and then closed her eyes tightly.

Zhao Guodong took this road is the village to the cemetery on the road, Zhao Guodong did not see the small dirt slope at the entrance of the village when he came back, and thought that who bulldozed the small dirt slope, the cemetery was all gone, it turned out that Zhang Jun for the overall development of the village all the cemeteries of the village names were relocated together, and then made into a cemetery, and then all buried there after the death of the village name.

When Zhao Guodong came back, he took Xiao Yingzi to see Aunt Mei and her biological parents the next day, so now Zhao Guodong is familiar with the road there, even if it has been four or five days, Zhao Guodong can still find it, but there is a disadvantage that this cemetery is built on the mountain behind the village, Zhao Guodong used to like to go there to play, including the later Xiaoyingzi, but now Zhao Guodong's legs and feet are not dexterous, and he can't walk halfway.

It took a lot of effort for the boss to walk to Aunt Mei's grave, next to which Xiao Yingzi's biological parents were buried.

"No, no, no, I'm really old." Zhao Guodong sat panting in front of the tombstone, beating his back with his hand, and then smiled bitterly, "From the mountain to the present, I am still tired and panting after such a long time, no." ”

"Don't dislike me for nagging, I really can't sleep, I come to you to chat, and I won't talk about it in vain." Zhao Guodong took out the cigarettes, wine, and yellow table paper from the bag and put them in front of him, "See, I'm ready for you, say okay, everyone drinks the wine, as for this cigarette, just me and my eldest brother smoke, you two women comrades don't smoke, especially Aunt Mei, you hate smoking the most, but you can't beat me now, I can smoke as much as I want." ”

Zhao Guodong took out two cigarettes from the cigarette case and put them in his mouth, lit them at the same time, and then inserted one under the tombstone of Xiao Yingzi's parents, and then took a hard breath, spit out a smoke ring, and looked at Aunt Mei's tombstone proudly, "How about Aunt Mei, are you really angry now, you come to beat me, beat me." ”

It is rare for Zhao Guodong to look like such a child, a forty-year-old person. Zhao Guodong couldn't laugh when he smiled, he used a lighter to burn the yellow table paper one by one, and began to cry without warning, at first it was tears, and then it was a whimper, and the whole public offering was Zhao Guodong's crying, indescribable sadness, especially when the moon was at its fullest.

It took a long, long time before Zhao Guodong stopped crying, "I'm sorry, I didn't control it for a while, let you see the joke." Zhao Guodong smiled and wiped away his tears. Then he grabbed the pile of yellow table paper and threw it up, opened the wine bottle, and when he was about to pour it, he realized that he had not brought a wine glass.

"Ahh Zhao Guodong patted his head, then smiled and said, "That's okay, you take a bigger bowl and I'll give it to you, and the rest is mine, let's blow on the bottle." ”

Zhao Guodong picked up the wine bottle and poured out half of the bottle, and then poured it into his mouth, "I'll take a sip first." ”

Zhao Guodong crossed his legs and lit a cigarette, and in the light and darkness of the cigarette butt, Zhao Guodong's face appeared, what kind of face it was.

The forty-year-old already had wrinkles like a knife and an axe, and his whole face looked like a hundred-year-old bark. His lips were chapped, his nose was black, and only his two eyes were shiny. The blood vessels in the neck have been exposed, and at the slightly opened collar, you can see that Zhao Guodong's body does not have much flesh at all, it is skin and bones.

Zhao Guodong put the crutch in his hand behind him, and the whole person was half lying there looking at the two tombstones, "You have to forgive me, I can't do this, the two legs can be said to be basically incurable, maybe I will be paralyzed that day." ”

Zhao Guodong took a puff of cigarette and said, "These are nothing, mainly my internal injuries, sometimes it hurts, the doctors told me to drink less and not smoke, this can't be helped, I was pulled on the boat by Lao Lu, and suddenly found that I couldn't do without this thing." ”

Zhao Guodong took two more sips of wine and said, "My return this time may be the last time I come back, Xiao Yingzi has grown up now, I have already done the future, and I have already taken care of Xiao Yingzi's tuition, didn't I tell you last time that Xiao Yingzi took the first place in the province?" has been admitted to Huaqing University, and Xiaoxue is going with him. ”

"That's what I plan, Xiaoying and Xiaoxue are both in the same school, I won't send it, after all, there are still some things I will deal with blood medicine, I have prepared all the tuition fees for Xiaoyingzi to go to college, handed it over to Zhang Wu, and asked him to take Xiaoying to report, I won't go, I still owe money to others, and I am ready."

"What do I want to say, that is, I plan to let Xiao Yingzi not come back when she went to school, work hard there, learn some skills, and ensure her food and clothing even if she doesn't get ahead in the future, I can't keep her for a lifetime, I will leave these things to Zhang Wu to do, I still trust him."

"Aunt Mei, I don't know if you have seen my comrades-in-arms, did they tell you that I want to send things to their descendants as soon as possible, this is the second thing I want to say, I want to send things that belong to them to their descendants, I can't trust them, they have been entrusted for 20 years, and I am afraid that I don't have so much time."

"But don't worry." Zhao Guodong poured all the remaining wine in the bottle into his mouth, and then lit another cigarette, "I'll prepare everything else, so you don't have to worry about it." ”

Zhao Guodong was lying on the ground, but before that, he put the rest of the yellow table paper on the fire.

"I'll tell you, I'm really reluctant to give birth to this girl, I'm telling you, didn't I open a little bit, the little one I take care of now is better than me, if it weren't for that, I really wanted to have a child, but I couldn't give birth." Zhao Guodong said that he was a little lonely here, and he didn't know who still knew about it, and no one knew about it.

Xiao Yingzi closed her eyes, and after a long time, she didn't fall asleep, so she got up, put on her clothes, and walked out of the house lightly, and no one in the room knew what to do.

Xiao Yingzi didn't know where to go, she walked around the village aimlessly for a while and didn't find where Zhao Guodong went, and she also knew that she couldn't find it for a while, so she went to see Grandma Mei and her parents, Xiao Yingzi walked all the way, and when she was just about to walk over, she saw a bright light in front of her.

Xiao Yingzi walked over softly and heard, "Xiao Yingzi, this girl, I am getting more and more reluctant." Xiao Yingzi knew that Zhao Guodong was here, she didn't go over, she squatted there and listened to Zhao Guodong from when she was a child until she was in junior high school, and then in high school, in detail, almost in detail which year, month, and day, and some things even she forgot.

Zhao Guodong was lying there talking, and Xiao Yingzi squatted not far away and listened, as if the family was reunited.

"Finally finished, when I come next time, Xiaoying is already married, and I will definitely take care of it. Aunt Mei, eldest brother and sister-in-law, I'm leaving, we'll see you next time, next time, I don't know when Lu Dao is. ”