355 Confession (2)
There are several interpretations of "dark". One is gloomy and has low light. One is the extended meaning, which is hidden and secret. The third explanation is confusion. Crush, as the name suggests, I think it may be a secret love. Crush is the love between one of the two sexes to the other, is a kind of unrequited love that the other party is not aware of, once found by the other party, they all have a heart of admiration, it is in love, for the time being, it is called open love. The tragedy of crush in history is Zhu Yingtai, who is well known to women and children. When Liang Shanbo understood, it was too late, and the author arranged for them to become butterflies, which also became a happy ending of a tragic reunion with lovers and finally married. Zhang Xiaomei's crush on Qin Ming has now begun to show the rudiments, and I don't know if it was a tragedy or a comedy, I can only watch its changes and see its development.
Don't fight and don't know each other, this seems to be an opportunity for the heroes of the green forest in the rivers and lakes to meet each other, but who knows that Zhang Xiaomei's current crush on Qin Ming started after she wanted to see Qin Ming's answer Qin Ming and scolded Qin Ming for not letting her see it? At that time, I couldn't see Qin Ming's answer, it was not that I didn't do every question on the test paper, but Qin Ming's grades were better than her every time, and the scores were higher than her every time, consciously or unconsciously, I always wanted to glance at it, compare the answers, and I didn't plan to copy it, and I didn't plan to change it, but Qin Ming's cover, not what I wanted to copy became what I wanted to copy, she felt that she had the shame of being looked down upon and insulted, she wanted to scold, and she was happy to feel comfortable. She is so straightforward, the fire burns, she hates to death, and she loves enough people if she loves. However, she was not stubborn, when she thought of the discipline of the exam, when she thought of what the teacher said about her real results, and when she thought that Qin Ming was not wrong, she knew that she was wrong, and she came back to admit her mistake to Qin Ming without even eating. Although Qin Ming ignored her for several weeks after that, she still took the initiative to talk to Qin Ming again and again under the pretext of borrowing study utensils, wanting to restore the friendship between classmates, but it was bound to be too late, and graduation was approaching. She knows that Qin Ming can endure hardships, loves to learn, and loves to help others. In the years she spent at the same table, she benefited a lot, not only did she receive help with her studies, but she also received care and protection like an older brother. Because her name is Xiao Ai, in the second year of junior high school, a student who didn't study came to her and put it on her ear in a tone and said "I love you", and was slapped a few times by Qin Ming on the spot, "Thing! Do you talk the same thing to your sister and sister at home?! Later, this student went to the society to take revenge on Qin Ming, Qin Ming was injured, she didn't know about this matter for a long time, she felt guilty and indebted, she couldn't reciprocate, just silently blessed Qin Ming, who was still in high school, at home to make progress in his studies and recover his health as soon as possible. Somehow, after separation, she always thought about Qin Ming's kindness to her in the few years she was at the same table, thinking about his appearance, thinking about the patched clothes and pants he wore in summer, and thinking about the torn cotton pants and torn cotton jacket he wore in winter...... She didn't know when she began to sympathize with him and care for him at the same table, and the ghost sent her to wait for him on the road to the village, to open the unspeakable mouth, to say the half-spit and half-swallowed words. She had the courage to walk out of the house to Qin Ming's house, how could she confess her heart? She just said shyly and ingeniously that she was borrowing a copy of "Dream of Red Mansions" to find out whether Qin Ming understood her feelings. Long live understanding, no long live without understanding. She waited and waited, waited for more than a year, no, it was longer, it was okay if she didn't see the book, she couldn't see people, she couldn't see the people she thought about for a long time, she didn't eat well, and she didn't sleep sweetly. It's not fragrant or sweet, she eats less and sleeps less, so that not eating or sleeping still can't change her concern for Qin Ming, that longing. Since you, Qin Ming, have no such intentions, why should I be wishful thinking and shave my head and pick my head hot? She calmed the pounding of her heart, returning it to its normal fluctuations, and forgot about the man, the bad guy who made him sad. She closed her eyes, held her breath and completely forgot about it, never in her heart, in her head! However, the more she tried to forget, the more she couldn't forget, and he appeared more often and faster in her eyes, in her mind, and in her heart. No, it really doesn't! If this continues, it will torture me to death, and I will have to learn from the Seven Fairies, stop him from having no way out, and force him to agree to marry me...... I can work, I can make clothes, I can cook, I will respect him as a guest, I will be considerate of him, I will care for him; I will honor his mother, my mother-in-law, as he did; We loved each other, sweetly, gave birth to a son, gave birth to a daughter, gave birth to a lot of babies, let them line up to call him dad, call me mom, and then our family hugged each other tightly,...... She couldn't help herself, and fell into infinite reverie, immersed in incomparable happiness and sweetness, with a smile on her face and a happy heart. But the dreamlike illusion bubble was shattered when she opened her eyes, and she fell back into painful thoughts.
After Qin Zhongliang's daughter-in-law Wang Sister-in-law attended her cousin's wedding, the girl didn't let her come back that day, and after everything was cleaned up, she came to the bed where the sister-in-law Wang slept and sat down and talked about how her son's marriage went smoothly, and she was so happy that she couldn't keep her mouth shut, and then said to her niece with a long sigh: "The only thing I'm worried about is what to do with your second cousin Erqin?" ”
"What's so bothering you? The female should marry, it has been like this since ancient times, and now there are few feudal, she lets you be in charge, you and your uncle will ask people to see which village has a suitable in-law to marry! If she talks to someone herself, you and your family should not interfere with her. Now that it's fashionable to fall in love freely, if you block it, something really goes wrong, and it's too late to regret it! Don't do it, give her the opportunity to choose freely. There is a Zuo family in the northwest, and there is a family whose parents arranged their son's marriage, forcing their son not to let the girl who agrees to talk to him himself, and marrying a girl introduced by a relative as a daughter-in-law. The girl he talked to himself also hanged herself after hearing about it. The girl who married home went back to her parents' house the next day, running around like crazy, and she didn't know how to wear her clothes when she fell off. Sister-in-law Wang said to her aunt, "It's better to respect her own opinions, don't force her!" ”
"Everything is just for her to be the master of the house, introduced by several relatives, she is short, uneducated, and her family is poor, so she doesn't agree, and no one in our family says anything about her. As long as she is satisfied with the major events of her own life, who will force her and persecute her? There is really a three-long and two-short one who can regret dying! However, the one she talked about later also collapsed, and she made trouble at home all day long, not eating or drinking, and it was more difficult for her to eat a bowl of rice than to take medicine, which really saddened me! Sister-in-law Wang's girl said, "Niece, go back and think about it, do you have any suitable children for your cousin to introduce her to her, and I can send this girl away and I can live a quiet life for a few days!" Your cousin's daughter-in-law has also married, and she will be consumed like this as a sister, and no one will be used to it, and sooner or later she will cause trouble. ”
"Do you want to go back and think about it? I think there is a candidate in my heart, but the family conditions are average, I have long wanted to tell Erya, but I am worried that the conditions she asked for are too high to be met, so I have not dared to say it in my heart. Sister-in-law Wang said.
"Oops! What a coincidence, and my aunt thought of a piece! Or my niece! Tell me what the situation is, I'll tell Erqin to go! Erqin Niang couldn't wait to urge Sister-in-law Wang.
"The person I'm going to talk about, Erqin doesn't like it, I don't dare to say, because she hasn't said what kind of person she wants to find. However, I think people are honest people who live a life, my cousin can't stand the sin when she marries, and it will get better and better, but now the conditions are not very good, I haven't built a house, and I don't have much money, and a sister has been married, and only the mother and son are left to live. My son has just entered primary school and become a teacher, and an old mother is doing farm work in the team, and she can't survive or starve for a year. Sister-in-law Wang said to the girl.