099 Live well

Aunt Mei's voice was so weak that she could barely hear it, and the air seemed to be suddenly interrupted at this juncture, Zhao Guodong couldn't feel the temperature of Aunt Mei's exhaled breath on his face, and then his hand was holding Aunt Mei's hand tightly, and it was gradually cold.

"Mom——!" Zhao Guodong's heart was dripping with blood, as if his heart had been taken away alive, and the heart-rending pain made Zhao Guodong raise his head and shout angrily. Zhang Dabao muttered a few words in Zhang Jun's ear, and after a while, Zhang Jun came back with some white cloth in his arms.

"Guodong, the festival is changing, and now I have to prepare things for your Aunt Mei." Zhang Dabao persuaded beside him, and then prepared to re-comb Aunt Mei's hair.

"Don't move! None of you should move, my mom is not dead, she was still talking to me just now, saying that she wants to rest and doesn't want people to disturb her, she is not dead, she is not dead! Zhao Guodong's eyes were red, and his eyes were very killing anyone who wanted to get close to Aunt Mei.

"Dad, this ......." Zhang Jun pointed at Zhao Guodong and said.

"Don't bother him, he'll be fine in a while." Zhang Dabao and Zhang Jun went out of the city, and they also took Xiao Yingzi out of the city.

"Grandpa Zhang, is grandma dead?" Xiao Yingzi looked at Zhang Dabao with some expectation in her eyes.

"No, your grandma is not dead, she just wants to live in a different way, she can hear you when you talk to grandma." Zhang Dabao took Xiao Yingzi in his arms, touched Xiao Yingzi's head, and felt that his clothes were a little wet, and his face was also a little wet, "It's really windy here." ”

There wasn't a hint of wind outside.

Zhang Jun simply tore the white cloth, and then casually picked up the white thread, and it became a filial piety shirt, put it on for himself, and then put on one for Xiao Yingzi. Zhang Jun knelt at the door of Aunt Jiamei's house and lit the yellow table paper. If there are elderly people in the village who have not slept, they can definitely see a bright star in the sky falling when they sit outside and enjoy the shade. ”

After finishing, Zhang Jun went to the small store at the entrance of the village overnight to buy white candles, lit two at home, and then lit one at the head of Aunt Mei's bed, but the one at the head of the bed was knocked over by Zhao Guodong, and no one was allowed to light white candles in Aunt Mei's house, and no one was allowed to enter.

They all heard the cry of "woo" in the house, but no one got up to look, Xiao Yingzi didn't, Zhang Dabao didn't, Zhang Jun didn't, not because of Zhao Guodong, but they were all crying, rather than shedding tears to make Zhao Guodong more sad to see, it was better to let Zhao Guodong vent happily in the house.

The next day.

Xiao Yingzi knelt in front of the spirit case set up last night, wearing filial piety clothes, burning yellow paper, her face was full of exhaustion, and the successive blows made Xiao Yingzi such a girl really have no way to bear it, Zhang Dabao and Zhang Jun have not woken up yet. With a "squeak", Xiao Yingzi hurriedly raised her head, and Zhao Guodong walked out of Aunt Mei's room.

Overnight, Zhao Guodong's hair completely turned white, the wrinkles on his face were deeper, his eyes were sunken, his eyeballs were red, his eye circles were black, his lips were chapped, and the stubble on his chin was like a straw, standing upright in a mess.

"Daddy Gordon." Xiao Yingzi screamed, and her hoarse voice made Zhao Guodong's heart tremble. There is still a person in his own family, he can't fall yet, he still has to live, and he has to live well.

"Xiao Yingzi, haven't you slept all night?" Zhao Guodong's voice was also hoarse, even worse than Xiao Ying's voice.

"I can't sleep, Daddy Gordon, you go lie down for a while, and you still have something to do later." Xiao Yingzi said.

"No, I can't sleep. You clean up, I'm going to sign up tomorrow, I'll bring you the money, I'll ask Uncle Jun to send you to the town in a while, and I'll give you the key, you can go to the house if you want to go to the house, if you don't want to go, you can stay at Mr. Lu's first, I'm done here, I'll go over too." Zhao Guodong said.

"No, I'm going to help my grandmother keep a vigil." Xiao Yingzi said.

"Obedient, have you forgotten what grandma told you yesterday? You have to study hard and be a pillar of the country, can you become a pillar of the country if you don't go to school like this? Be obedient and go pack your things. ”

"I'm not leaving, I'm not going to school anymore." Xiao Yingzi said that she would not go to school at all.

"Do you want your grandmother to die? How do you want your grandmother to face when she sees your father and mother, do you want to tell them that Xiao Yingzi is grandma who didn't bring it well? Or are you going to let me, tell your parents now, it's my fault?! Zhao Guodong said with tears in his eyes.

"No, I don't want to leave you, and I don't want my grandmother to be here alone." Xiao Yingzi was crying by Zhao Guodong's sharp criticism.

"What's wrong? Guodong, why did you start reprimanding the child early in the morning, is it that no one can control you after Aunt Mei leaves? At this time, Zhang Dabao woke up, and when he saw Zhao Guodong reprimanding Xiao Yingzi, he hurriedly went up and hugged Xiao Yingzi in his arms, "Xiao Ying is good, don't be afraid, grandma is not here, and Grandpa Zhang is there." ”

Zhang Dabao looked at Zhao Guodong, "What's wrong?" Do you want your Aunt Mei to die without turning a blind eye?! Ah, as soon as the old lady left, you started to rebel? I don't believe I can't control you anymore?! Can't you talk well? What to shout? Do you have a loud voice? If you have this ability, why don't you wake up your Aunt Mei and let me see? Yes! What nerves to make. ”

Zhao Guodong faced Zhang Dabao's scolding, sat on the ground and cried out with his head in his arms.

"Grandpa, don't blame Gordon's father, it's my fault, it's me who doesn't want to go to school, that's why Gordon's father said mine." Xiao Yingzi Bai Shengsheng's face was full of tears, and Zhang Dabao couldn't bear it.

Zhang Dabao squatted on the ground, stretched out his hand to wipe away the tears on Xiao Yingzi's face, and said, "Tell grandpa why you don't want to go to school." ”

"I want to keep a wake for my grandmother, I don't want my grandmother to be lonely on the road, I can still talk to my grandmother, and my grandmother will not be afraid on the road." Xiao Yingzi choked up.

Xiaoying didn't cry, listen to her grandfather. Your grandma has great hopes for you, if you don't go to school, will your grandma be disappointed, grandma will be disappointed, will you be sad, grandma will be sad, you will fall when you walk on the road, if you fall, grandma will not be able to get to where she is going, does Xiaoying want grandma to be like this? Zhang Dabao said softly to Xiao Yingzi, who shook her head.

"If you don't want to, then be obedient and go to school, you will sign up tomorrow, school will start, if you go late, grandma will say that it is all her fault, let Xiaoying not go to school, grandma will blame herself." Zhang Dabao said.

"I don't want to make my grandmother sad, I don't want my grandmother to blame herself."

"Then go pack your things, and I'll ask Uncle Joon to take you to school." Zhang Dabao said.

"Hmm." Xiao Yingzi slowly walked into the house to clean up her things, Zhang Dabao sighed, walked to Zhao Guodong, patted Zhao Guodong on the shoulder, and then took out two cigarettes from his pocket, one for himself, and then handed one to Zhao Guodong.

"You are a man, I know that you are sad and sad, just like when your aunt left, didn't I feel the same uncomfortable? The person who has been with him for half his life, quarreled for half his life, made trouble for half his life, and suddenly disappeared for a day, and his surroundings were deserted, and he didn't even talk to anyone, and when he raised his eyes, her shadow was in the house and yard, everywhere and everywhere. ”

"At that time, I was disheartened and wanted to die, your Aunt Mei came to tell me, you are a man, just cry for a while, you still have children to bring, and the life at home still needs you to support, if you fall, what will happen to the child? Who will take care of you? Have you made your children grow up and get married, and the two old men who have no ideas? ”

"Now I give you this sentence, you are the pillar of this family, if you fall, this family will be over, and the hope of the two families, no, the three families will be gone." Zhang Dabao said to Zhao Guodong earnestly. "The dead are dead, and the living will live. Let's put on the filial piety clothes. Zhang Dabao put the white filial piety clothes on Zhao Guodong's hand.

"Uncle Zhang, I understand, I'll go and pack up for Xiao Yingzi now, and then go and prepare for my mother's funeral." Zhao Guodong wiped his face, stood up and put on his filial piety clothes, and went to help Xiao Yingzi pack her things.

Xiao Yingzi's things were packed up, Zhao Guodong kept telling Xiao Yingzi some things that needed attention, Zhang Dabao woke up Zhang Jun and asked him to encourage Xiao Yingzi to go to school, hand Xiao Yingzi to Lu Fangjun, and then buy some things with him and come back to handle the funeral for Aunt Mei.

"Daddy Gordon......." Xiao Yingzi looked back at Zhao Guodong step by step, looked at Aunt Mei's tablet, looked at this courtyard, and gradually became smaller in her eyes, and then disappeared completely, and couldn't help crying out, her liver and intestines were broken.

"Hey, be obedient when you get there, don't let the teacher worry about it, don't think nonsense, I'll be back in a few days." Zhao Guodong kept telling Xiao Yingzi on crutches, I don't know how many times Lu Dao had told him, looking at Xiao Yingzi's petite, haggard, thin, and tired figure, walking away, walking away, and then nothing could be seen, Zhao Guodong was still there looking into the distance.

"I'm going to prepare something and do what the old lady wishes." Zhang Dabao is ready to go to cremation.

"Inside the village?" Zhao Guodong means that the village is full of burials, and this is the first time to be cremated, will the village oppose it, will there be some other voices, after all, Zhao Guodong still has to live here.

"It's okay, there is me in the village, no one dares to talk nonsense, you just need to prepare Aunt Mei's things." Zhang Dabao finished speaking and left.

Zhao Guodong returned to the house and looked at the smile on Aunt Mei's face, "Mom, you can sleep steadily, there is still me at home, don't worry, I will live well." ”