Bailiyun was surprised: "Oh? Why can't you? I see that you have sound limbs, no illness or injury, isn't it very good, why do you say this? ”

Qin Guanmin smiled a little sadly and said: "My lord, not everyone is as capable as you, and you can break into a piece of family wealth with your bare hands at a young age." Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info I, Qin Guanmin, am just a cloth cloth that has no power to restrain the chicken, I have inherited my father's will since I was a child, study hard, and one day shine on the lintel. ”

"But what can I do? In the past, my mother raised me with hard work, and when I became an adult, I made a living by drawing and writing pictures for people every day. I can only read books by squeezing out time every day, but apart from the few books left by my father, how much can I read? My mother died three years ago, and I had no worries. ”

"When I heard that Chang'an is the capital of the country, there are many talents and many opportunities, so I moved my mind. In order to come to Chang'an to study, I sold my wealth and made up silver taels. But after coming to Chang'an, I realized how naïve I was, and it was difficult to study! ”

Qin Guanmin sighed and said, "It won't take long for me to run out. I had to sell paintings and copy for a living. However, in addition to the usage, it can be said that there is nothing left every month. Sometimes it's not even much better than being a homeless person, hungry and full. ”

"You said that the academy only charges two yuan for our sake. I also know that in terms of the treatment of the college, this is already the best of benevolence. But do you know how much I earn each year? Only a mere amount of money, 1,300 yuan, this is still a lot of time, if you catch up with no one to come to the door, even this can't be guaranteed, barely survive. ”

Smiling bitterly, Qin Guanmin said: "In other words, even if your academy has food and accommodation, no worries about life, and you can work and study, I can't get two yuan a year for tuition!" Students are bitter! ”

"I don't say this to win your sympathy for the Internet to accept me, or to lower the bar. I know that it is not easy for you, how miserable the world is, and what am I worth. I just hate that I don't have the ability to do it, even though the academy has taken such care and the threshold is so low, I still can't seize the opportunity. ”

"Am I too wasteful, you say? My father gave me the name Qingyun, and it seems that his old man looked up to me. People like me live in this world, perhaps, it's just a joke, hehehe! At the end of the words, Qin Guanmin laughed sadly, and the heartache of the listener.

Qin Guanmin's sad laughter floated in the air, which was sentimental, and many people felt the same way. Qin Guanmin is like this, who is not?

Chang'an seems to be prosperous, but it still can't hide the sadness of the people living at the bottom, who knows, while the nobles are enjoying themselves, how many people like Qin Guanmin are struggling in the unknown!

Qin Guanmin can at least barely survive, but are there fewer people worse than him? After years of conquest and displacement, how many wives have been separated, and how many families have died.

Datang, Chang'an, this place that will flourish in the future, and now it is not bad, who knows, behind the prosperity, how much bitterness, numbness, sadness, and pain! At this moment, they heard Bailiyun suddenly laugh loudly, and everyone was surprised, I don't know why.

Qin Guanmin looked at Baili Yun and said, "Lord Baili, you also think that the student is ridiculous, right, hehe!" ”

But he heard Bailiyun smile at him: "That's right, you are indeed ridiculous!" ”

Everyone didn't expect Bailiyun to say this, and they were all surprised. Qin Guanmin lowered his head even more miserably, and was silent in a low voice, as if he was used to such an evaluation.

However, Bailiyun suddenly changed his tone and said with a smile: "However, I'm not laughing at you for not having ability, I'm not laughing at you for being a waste." Instead, laugh at you, you deserve it, and life has not improved. ”

Qin Guanmin glanced at him suspiciously when he heard this, and he didn't know why.

Bai Liyun patted him on the shoulder and said sarcastically, "Do you know why I said that?" ”

Qin Guanmin shook his head and said, "Students don't know!" ”

Bai Liyun explained: "Because you were born to complain about others, however, you never knew how to look for problems in yourself. ”

"Yes, you are very poor and depressed, but although there is a certain reason for this, you are also part of the cause."

Yu Shinan glanced at Bailiyun with interest when he heard this, he didn't know what Bailiyun would say, he was very interested. Brush your beard and wait for the next step of Baili Yun. Bailiyun smiled: "You just say that you are powerless and powerless to change your existing life." But I don't know how to forge ahead, since I can't restrain the chicken, why not strengthen my body? ”

Without waiting for Qin Guanmin to refute, Bai Liyun continued: "Is it because you claim to be a scholar, so you regard others as lowly? Think too highly of yourself! Reading is not to make you concentrate on literature, no matter anything else, it is dead reading, even if you are well-versed in the past and the present? There is no use for fart! ”

"You only talk about how miserable you are, how miserable you are, so why didn't you look at other people? At least, your father left you some furniture for you to worry about when you were young, and you are still like this, so how can you deal with those widows and widows who are lonely? Could it be that Chengdu wiped his neck and committed suicide, and the emptiness of the province suffered in the world. ”

"You claim to be a reader, but you don't even have the most basic patience for a reader, you don't wait for me to finish speaking and take it out of context, you don't have any determination at all, no wonder you can't seize the opportunity, mixed into the way you are now, this is all your own fault!"

"Do you know why I'm laughing at you? What I'm laughing at is not anything else, but that you yourself look down on yourself, and how you tell others to look at you, even if there are noble people who meet and see you so hearted, they will not stop for you, because a person who has no confidence in himself will only make promises and achieve nothing no matter what he does. ”

Bailiyun commented: "What you lack is a little hard work, a little patience, a little concentration, and a little self-confidence." It is this little bit of lack that dooms you to never come out if you don't change it in this life, unless pie falls from the sky. ”

Qin Guanmin didn't know what to say at all, when someone said this about him, although it was scolding, but he could experience a kind of hatred for iron and steel, which made him very moved. In the end, Qin Guanmin asked weakly: "Lord Baili, I don't know, what did I take out of context?" Aren't you really laughing at me for being ridiculous? ”

Bailiyun snorted coldly and said: "Speaking of which, you are still so cowardly, you have no confidence at all, only promises, you are really not a gentleman." ”

"Read, read, don't you read all your books to dogs? A scholar must have the pride of a scholar, you are a student of Confucianism! Don't you know the six arts of gentlemen? Even if you can't kill the enemy with a three-foot sword, but, at least, you should have some strength to speak! Don't dare to ask a question out loud, what else can you do? Are you a? Speak loud to me and repeat your question again! In the end, Bailiyun yelled.