After Li left, he was not in the mood to eat the whole Chinese New Year's Eve dinner. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info Feng Siji followed Zhang Man back to the room, leaving Feng Siji with his sister, standing in the hall, looking at the food on their respective cases, not knowing what to do. Feng Hourglass stood up from the table, looked at the elder on the right, and then at the elder who left the table, biting his lip, and stepping on the ground at a loss.

"Brother, Grandma and Father, what's wrong with them? Although my father is going to go on an expedition again, I am very unhappy, but I don't eat so much food? "Tonight's events came too suddenly, Feng Hourglass still hasn't figured out what happened, the originally happy Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, suddenly became like this, looking at the food on the table, I don't know whether to stay to fill my stomach, or learn from my parents first, and leave the table."

Feng Junyan looked at his sister who didn't know what had happened, and felt some comfort in his heart. Although they are both expeditions, they are not the same as expeditions. How can going south and going north be compared. No matter how powerful it is suddenly, it's just a chicken, a dog, although it's just as dangerous, but as long as it doesn't meet the war that the whole country came to commit last time, the chance of coming back is always great. But going north, how could those Hulu and Baiyue talk to each other on the same day. What's more, in Jiaozhou, they only have to deal with foreign enemies, but the internal enemies they encounter in the north are the most dangerous enemies. Since ancient times, people's hearts are the most sinister, and their own talents are the most terrifying. But there's no need to tell your sister about this, these manly ones have to bear it, and girls just need to be pampered.

"Hourglass, it's okay, Father, they're just going back to discuss the expedition. Today is Chinese New Year's Eve, and my mother has made the most delicious food, and I haven't eaten it yet. The hourglass must be hungry, and they just leave it for us to eat if they don't eat it. Feng Junyan stood up and pressed Feng Hourglass to her seat, and then put the mutton on the plate into her bowl.

Feng Siji looked at Zhang Man, who was packing his bags without saying a word, and felt distressed, but he didn't know how to explain this matter. He has never hidden anything from Zhang Man, although he is kind this time, but such a big thing has been hidden from Zhang Man, even if he is ready to go his own way, he will inevitably feel a little guilty.

"Man'er, don't do this. It's not tomorrow, why are you packing up so early? Why don't you want to see me? Feng Siji wanted to find a topic to attract Zhang Man's attention, but unfortunately, Zhang Man didn't look at him at all.

Seeing that Zhang Man ignored himself, Feng Siji did not give up immediately. He knew that Zhang Man was just angry, and he just wanted to express his dissatisfaction.

"Man'er, I didn't mean to hide it from you. Really, I was going to tell you tomorrow. The reason why I haven't said it in the past few days is just that I am afraid that you will be worried, and I want the family to have a happy New Year. Feng Siji continued to explain.

"Afraid I'm worried? If it weren't for Grandma telling me tonight, you would have told me? Yes, you will tell me, but only the moment you leave home. Worry, what do I have to worry about, it hasn't been the same for so many years. I don't have to worry about you going on an expedition, even if it takes a few more days, what do you care? ”

Zhang Man stopped what he was doing, and said lightly that this made Feng Siji listen to words full of guilt. Over the years, this family has said that it is supported by itself, but as soon as I leave home, I will be a few months and a half a year, where do I have how much time to take care of this family. If there is no Zhang Man's management, I don't know what this family has become. When the head of the clan talks about the scenery, who can understand the taste. The responsibility of the entire family is on themselves, not only to face the problems within the clan, but also to solve conflicts with outsiders. Now hearing Zhang Man say this, Feng Siji is also very guilty in his heart.

"Man'er, you've worked hard all these years. This time I'm going to go no matter what, how can you let me leave with peace of mind. Besides, I'm just going north once, and it's not like I'm not coming back, so you don't have to. Feng Siji stepped forward to hold Zhang Man's hand and explained to Zhang Man affectionately.

But as if he hadn't heard his words, Zhang Man broke free of Feng Siji's hand and continued to sort out the clothes in the room.

"I'm not hard, you're hard. It's hard work and still want to lie to me. Zhang Man looked at Feng Siji's eyes full of disappointment, she didn't expect that Feng Siji still didn't want to tell her the truth.

"Man'er, don't do this. You should understand me, this is my ideal. I've been waiting for decades and this time I have the opportunity to go back and I don't want to miss it again. Feng Siji saw the disappointed look on Zhang Man's face, and knew that he couldn't deceive her if he just went north, so his tone could only soften.

Zhang Man was holding Feng Siji's clothes in his hand, and when he saw Feng Siji bowing his head and admitting his mistake like this, he also stopped at this time, but just looked at Feng Siji without speaking, his eyes were full of sadness.

"The husband doesn't need to explain it to me, the concubine understands. The concubine is just a weak woman, how can she stop her husband from moving forward and realizing the ideal in her heart. The husband can do whatever he wants, and there is no need to discuss it with the concubine. ”

Zhang Man, who was holding the clothes, looked at Feng Siji and sat on the couch in disappointment. Obviously, Feng Siji's words hurt her very much. The previous words could be said to be angry, but this time he was really hurt by Feng Siji.

"Man'er, don't talk angry."

Feng Siji looked at Zhang Man, his face was a little ugly. He didn't want to find someone to talk about the bitterness in his heart, but who should he talk to about all this. This time may be the last time he spent with his family, he didn't want to live up to this rare reunion, so he was willing to hide it from Zhang Man, until the moment before departure, who knew that all this was exposed by the Li family so soon. originally thought that Zhang Man would understand him, but now looking at Zhang Man's expression, he also felt a little resentful in his heart.

"Angry talk? Is my husband deceiving me? The husband tried his best to go north, but could he really come back if he really went north? Zhang Man looked at Feng Siji, and he was also dissatisfied in his heart.

"Man'er, you've always known that. This is my dream all along, not to mention that as a patriarch, this matter is my mission, it must be done, why can't you understand me. Feng Siji looked at Zhang Man, obviously disappointed that Zhang Man didn't understand him.

Zhang Man listened to Feng Siji's words and laughed directly.

"Yes, I have always known about your dream, husband, and even when I was young, I admired my husband's dream. But now I understand that these are just ridiculous reasons. Over the years, you men have been clinging to this stupid idea one by one, refusing to give up, saying that it is for the sake of ideals, in order to find our roots, but what have you found over the years.

Who are we? Aren't you clear yourself? It's just the descendants of a group of refugees. Will there be our good fruit to eat when we go north? Does anyone care about you? This is just a waste of death. My husband is going to die, my children are going to be without a father, this family is going to depend on me as a weak woman, do you want me to support you happily? You are the patriarch, you have a mission, I want to understand you, but when will you understand me? Zhang Man looked at Feng Siji's ugly expression, and the anger in his heart suddenly rose.

"Enough, what do you know about a woman! This is my mission, do you understand it or not. If we don't go back, how can we return to the ancestral court? How can we appreciate the glory of our ancestors, how can we feel our glorious past, and how can we tell our descendants that we were once so great. You women are always so long-haired and short-sighted. Feng Siji saw that Zhang Man was so unreasonable, and his anger suddenly rose.

What does the glory of our ancestors, the glorious past, and the greatness of the past have to do with us? Can these things survive? Can it fill your stomach? We came south just to survive. Only you, the men, have taken all this as a belief from generation to generation, and instilled it into your own descendants from generation to generation. We are just a small people, and if we can't survive, we will find a place to live, is there anything wrong with that? In order to survive, we fled from the north, how much we suffered along the way, how many people we died, and now we finally have a place to stay, no longer displaced like a lost dog, you come to tell me, you want to go north, than tell me how I want to understand you. You want to throw this home to me without even discussing it, and you still want to yell at me. Tell me, what the hell are you talking about? Only you stubborn men will think that this is glory, what is great, the madman who lives in the past will only abandon his family and cowards!. Zhang Man completely ignored Feng Siji's hideous expression, and instead stood up and questioned Feng Siji.

"What do you know, what do you know? You don't know anything at all, you only care about the one-third of an acre of land at home, you women will always be so unreasonable. Yes, we were defeated, and we were driven out of the ancestral land where we had lived for generations, and fled like dogs from the north to the land of Jiaozhou, which was overflowing with miasma and exiled prisoners. Hu Lu looks down on us, and those people in the north also look down on us, if we lose even the last faith, aren't we just like those barbarians in the land of Baiyue? We are the people of Zhuxia, how can we forget the glory of our ancestors, how can we forget the great past, and humble ourselves.

You don't know at all, how many Hulu were killed by our group at the beginning, we resisted for so long, just because of a word from the big man, we retreated, and then we were defeated, and then Guanzhong was lost in our hands, and then Yanhuang Zudi fell into the hands of Hulu. We were defeated only once, and we only temporarily lost the place where we had lived for generations, but everyone blamed us, no one took us in, no one sympathized with us, and in the end we had to flee all the way with the name of a deserter. The mission of the patriarch passed down from generation to generation, let us not forget to go home when we have the chance, to prove to everyone that we are not deserters, to tell those who are, that we will come back eventually, and that I will always get back what I have.

Do you think I don't want to stay at home and have grandchildren? But what can I do? Jun'er has offended the nobleman, can I refuse this order? If I dare to disobey, the next day our family, our entire clan, will disappear from this world, you know?

This is not our home, and as long as we do not wash away the shame from our bodies with blood, we will always be deserters in the eyes of others. The northerners look down on us, the southerners look down on us, and even the natives look down on us because we are the descendants of deserters. Feng Siji looked at Zhang Man and said that he was depressed in his heart.

"I don't understand, and I don't want to. All I know is that my home is here, my children are here, and what do those things that have passed hundreds of years have to do with me. After so many years, who still remembers the original thing except yourself. We are just ordinary refugees, where did we get so many missions! Feng Siji looked at Zhang Man and wanted to get understanding from her, but Zhang Man didn't do what he wanted, but when he heard that this matter was related to Feng Junyan, his tone softened.

Looking at Zhang Man's indifferent eyes, Feng Siji knew that wanting to make her feel as deeply as he was was tantamount to a fool's dream, and he could only use another method to impress her.

"It's that we're just ordinary refugees, and we don't have so many missions." Feng Siji finally came up with a more suitable reason to persuade Zhang Man.

"The ancestral land of Yanhuang is now occupied by Hulu, as a descendant of Yanhuang Miao, a descendant of Zhuxia, this time the imperial court has recruited from various states, I can't watch all this and be indifferent."

Hearing Feng Siji's reason, Zhang Man didn't know what to say for a while. Can you say he's wrong? The descendants of Zhuxia, the land of Yanhuang fell into the hands of Hu Lu, as a part of it, in order to recover the ancestral mausoleum, he did not hesitate to use his life. No one could say anything, but Zhang Man still couldn't accept this fact in his heart.

"This matter is worrying about the princes of the court, even if you go, what's the use. Northland boys, Yan Zhao people, where can I use important people from Jiaozhou. Zhang Man looked at Feng Siji without giving up, and said the last sentence with some guilt.

"Man'er, do you really think so?" Feng Junyan looked at Zhang Man with wide eyes, and his aggressive eyes made Zhang Man finally bow his head in shame.

"That's it, if you want to go, go ahead. Deserters, return to the north, go, go. Compared to those women who were treated as two-legged sheep, I also lived half of my life peacefully. Some things have to be done. Zhang Man finally accepted the fact that Feng Siji was going north.

Outside the hospital, Feng Junyan held his sister's hand, listened to the sound of his parents arguing in the room, and didn't know how to comfort Feng Hourglass, who was biting his lip beside him, looking at the stars in his sky, and his heart sank to the bottom of the sea.