"Sister, let's eat something first, if you continue like this, your body will collapse...", Jiaowa put the hot meal on the table, looked at Xue Qi curled up on the couch with some distress, and tears couldn't stop falling down

"Sister can't eat now, cough cough...", Xue Qi straightened up from the couch a little weakly, "Put it there first, you go back and rest by yourself, don't worry about me..."

"I don't care what happens to you, you see you're sick again...", Jiaowa saw that Xueqi was about to get up, so she hurriedly walked to the edge of the collapse and carefully supported her, "Have you drunk the medicine I grabbed from the pharmacy?" ”

"No, those pills... It's so bitter...", Xue Qi leaned on Jiaowa's arms and shook her head, "Sister, go back first, it's always in... Ahem... What's the deal with taking care of me here, I'll have something to eat in a while, and I can starve myself to death? After that, Xue Qi actually squeezed out a slightly bitter smile to Jiaowa. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

"Yes, you won't let yourself starve to death, but you make your sister feel distressed to death...", Jiaowa wiped her tears, and glanced at Xueqi, who was sick in her arms, and couldn't help but feel sad again, "Sister, I know you're sad in your heart, but... But you can't wronged yourself like this, won't you be able to live in the future? ”

"I know, I know all of this, but... I... I'm just sad in my heart...", Xue Qi said, and like a wronged child, she fell into Jiaowa's arms and cried.

"Okay, okay, sister won't cry...", Jiaowa put her chin on Xueqi's forehead, wrapped her around her tightly, and gently wiped the tears from her face for her, "Didn't that negative man come to see you again?" ”

Although she used to like Peng Yue, she found that Peng Yue had no feelings for her, and at the same time she noticed that Xue Qi and Peng Yue had mutual affection, so she forced herself to retreat from that unrequited love. First, because there is a big gap between his conscious identity and Peng Yue, and Peng Yue doesn't like him, he doesn't want to suffer from that lovesickness anymore. Second, because she was afraid that this would affect the sisterhood with Xueqi, and she knew Xueqi's pitiful background and understood that it was not easy for her to find such a confidant man, so although she was still a little envious and jealous in her heart, she still hoped that Xueqi and Peng Yue could have lovers and eventually become married.

But when Xueqi cried to her about the day when Peng Yue "escaped" from here, she became angry. In her thinking, it is very simple, two people love each other and are together, how can there be so many twists and turns, care about this and that, and it also makes Xueqi so sad, she doesn't think about tea and dinner, and she has a serious illness. As a result, Peng Yue's previous glorious and tall image in her mind collapsed suddenly, and Jiaowa also blamed all the sins that Xueqi is suffering now on Peng Yue's head, although she knew in her heart that Peng Yue was actually a good person, and she also knew that she was actually quite unreasonable...

Xue Qi listened to Jiaowa's question, raised her head and looked at her with some grievances, suddenly pursed her lips, shook her head lightly at Jiaowa, and tears flowed down her cheeks again, "No... He... Ahem... It's not a negative man, he hasn't accepted me, and... And why should you bear me? ”

"Sister, you are still protecting that burden... Still protecting him! Jiaowa glanced at Xue Qi angrily, and blamed her for her incompetence in her heart, "You said that he was ... Doing something like that, he broke his sister's heart, and now he hurts his sister like this, what is he not a negative man? ”

"No...", Xue Qi closed her eyes, tears streaming down her face, "It's all my own doing, and I don't do anything about him at all..."

"Sister, I don't understand why you are so protective of him!" Seeing Xue Qi's pitiful appearance, Jiaowa didn't want to say anything about her, so she had to turn her head and scolded Peng Yue in her heart, "You said that since that incident, after so much time, he can't know the pain in his sister's heart, but he hasn't been here once, it's better than that Yan Shifan, so he still came once!" ”

"Silly sister, you... Ahem... What are you talking about! Xueqi couldn't help but feel a little angry when she heard Jiaowa say this, but she knew that Jiaowa actually felt sorry for herself, so she sprinkled that anger on Yan Shifan, "What kind of thing is he, Yan Shifan, he can also be compared with Master Peng." And... Sister, what is Yan Shifan here for every time... Ahem... It's not like you don't know that the time he came, he saw me so sick... Ahem... I just said that I would take care of my illness, and then I turned around and left, and then I didn't... I've never been here. If Master Peng sees me like this...", Xue Qi said this, suddenly closed her mouth, blinked, and stopped talking.

"Alright, alright... Don't talk yet...", Jiaowa saw that Xueqi was coughing badly, so she gently hugged her and fell silent on the side.

"Sister...", Xue Qi suddenly raised her head and pulled the placket of Jiaowa's clothes, "Sister, you say... Do you think Master Peng will come here again? ”

With just this sentence, Jiao Wa seemed to be stunned, and tears dripped down her cheeks and flowed onto Xue Qi's face. She hates Xueqi's stupidity, hates Xueqi's stupidity, she can't figure out why Xueqi, who is usually rational and smart, is even more stupid and persistent than ordinary people when she encounters a relationship, but she can't say anything that hurts Xueqi's heart, and those angry words are stuck in her throat, so that she can't say a word...

"Sister, what do you say...", Xueqi sobbed twice, and pulled Jiaowa's sleeve again, "You say... Will Master Peng come again? ”

"I...", Jiaowa opened her mouth, but she couldn't say it, so she turned her head, wiped her tears, and said in a hoarse voice, "I don't know..."

"Silly sister...", Xue Qi smiled bitterly, and the hand that had been pulling the placket of the baby's clothes also hung down, "Silly sister, you don't know... Ahem... Do you lie to me by saying a nice word or two? ”

Jiaowa didn't speak, nor did she make any answer, but just hugged Xueqi tighter. She felt as if Xueqi was hugging herself, and her tear-stained face was gently rubbing against her body, making her chest wet and her face wet...

"Sister, you know what, I was last night... I dreamed of him last night, and I dreamed that he was willing to marry me... Ahem... You don't want to laugh at my sister...", Xue Qi said softly, with a hint of sweetness on the corner of her mouth, but there were tears in her eyes, "In that dream, he took me to Peng's mansion, exactly the same as the last time I went to his mansion, except that there was red silk everywhere... And then... Then he lifted my red hijab... Ahem... But at this time, I woke up coughing and found that I was still in this Yeosu-yuan, the room was dark and cold... It was so uncomfortable, I was so lost, so scared, so uncomfortable... But after a while, I was so excited and nostalgic, because... Ahem... I see him again because... He's willing to accept me..."

"Sister...", when Jiaowa heard this, she couldn't hold back any longer, hugged Xueqi tightly, and cried bitterly, "Sister... Don't say it..."

"Sister, you don't know... My sister talks about this... It's much more comfortable in my heart, at least I still have a thought...", Xueqi raised her hand and wiped her tears for Jiaowa, but she didn't feel that she was also crying, "Do you think my sister can still have the same dream tonight?" My sister still wants to follow that dream... Ahem... It's so sweet in my dreams, and I'm just in my dreams... became his bride, just... It's just that I'm afraid... I'm afraid I don't even have the blessing of dreaming..."

"Sister, don't think about him anymore!" , Jiaowa grabbed Xueqi's hand, she really wanted to shake her sister awake, she didn't want her sister to be so stupid anymore, "Sister, he doesn't deserve to be like this!" He kept saying that he respected us and that he didn't care who we were, but... But the result? He... He abandoned you like that! Sister, he's a duplicitous negative man, he... There is no possibility for him..."

"No... It's not like this...", Xue Qi pulled her hand out and shook her head hard, "He's not disrespecting us, he's not disgusting us with who we are, he's just... It's just that... Ahem..."

"Sister, you're still explaining to him... You can't tell a reason for it, can you? Jiaowa sighed, as if she was a little tired, "Yes, he is rich and powerful, he is young and promising, we are not worthy of him, we should not be delusional..."

"No... Sister, you don't understand... Ahem...", Xue Qi's mood calmed down a little at this time, and even her expression seemed quite peaceful, "It's because he respects us and really treats us as one person, so... That's why he did that, and if he had the same idea as those regulars, then... Then he took me as a concubine, and when he remembered it, he looked for me, and if he couldn't remember, he left me idle... Ahem... You have to know how many rich officials in the capital want to take us as concubines... It's all about this kind of thinking, but in that case, we will never be able to be a person in their eyes, never... Just a plaything..."

"But...", Jiaowa felt that what Xueqi said seemed to be reasonable and unreasonable, but she always felt awkward, "But he still left after all, we... After all, we still don't have a home, how can this be good? ”

"Actually... Actually, now I'm very grateful for his departure...", Xue Qi said, a wry smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, "I know... When he saw that scene that day, he felt very uncomfortable, this matter was a mustard in his heart after all, he didn't say it now, but this mustard would not be eliminated... Ahem... Someday this mustard will go deeper and deeper, and then affect our relationship... I'd rather he feel guilty about me now than ... Let him gradually become disgusted with me in the future..."

"Sister, you... So stupid, why do you always think about him, you... You also have to think about it for yourself, you need a home after all, you can't stay in this Lishui Courtyard for a lifetime...", Jiaowa looked at the delicate and sickly Xueqi at this time, and a burst of bitterness swelled in her heart.

"If you really like someone, you will hope that he is happy in your heart...", Xue Qi straightened her body slightly and leaned her head on Jiaowa's shoulder, "Actually, these days... Ahem... I figured out a lot of things, in fact, maybe we were wrong in the first place, we shouldn't like him, we shouldn't treat him as our lover, we... We don't deserve it..."

"I... Where are you not worthy of him, in my heart, my sister is the best...", Jiaowa held Xueqi's hand, as if to comfort her, "Actually, you just think of him too well, he... Where is he so good? ”

"No... Sister, you don't know...", Xue Qi shook her head, her mouth was full of cold bitterness, "He once told me that in his thoughts about love, love is only a matter of two people, I only belong to him, he only belongs to me... He truly sees the other person in love as the most important person in his life, an eternal one... That's why he hesitated... Because he really treats his sister as a person, he has tried to treat his sister as the eternal one... But... Ahem... But where is my sister worthy? My sister has such an unbearable past... Now even if he wants to... I don't want to, I don't want him to leave regrets in the longing love because of me... I hope he can find a... A woman without blemish, a... A woman who is truly worthy of his love..."

"Sister... You... You've done so much for him, and you're worthy of his love...", Jiaowa sniffed and argued in a whispered disbelief.

"Sister... Giving is because of love, and there is no need to ask for anything in return...", Xue Qi said softly, and some light appeared in her eyes, "At the beginning, I gave to win his trust, in the end... It's still for ourselves, so at that time I could only say that I had a good impression of him and felt that he was a person worthy of trust, but later... Later, I paid without regrets, I don't care what he thinks in his heart... Ahem... Although I get angry when he doesn't trust me... But I was happy to be able to help him... Even more so now, I don't need anything he does for me, just... As long as he is happy, it is enough..."

"Sister... Sister is so stupid...", Jiaowa listened to Xue Qi say it, she finally understood why Xue Qi became so "stupid", because her sister Xue Qi had a hard life, it was not easy for her to find a man who was worthy of her heart, since she found it, she had to love without regrets, and love without return, "Sister, you gave him all your happiness, but... But who will give us happiness? ”

"Sister, happiness... It's in the heart, not the flashy things outside... You said that those sisters who went to a big family as concubines, although they seem to outsiders to be beautiful, but... Ahem... But will they be truly happy? When you enter the courtyard of the deep house, people will look down on you, and even... Even all the people will guard against you...", Xue Qi said this, seemingly a little emotional, "Last time... Last time, Sister Xue'er, who had married into Lord Zhao's mansion, came to me to cry... Say... said that she just knew that the people in the house were guarding against her, and the maids around her were all sent by Mrs. Zhengfu to monitor her, and she was not allowed to touch the property of the family, and she was not allowed to contact the young master and young lady in the house, even... Even the subordinates chewed the root of her tongue behind her back, looking down on her, because... Ahem... Because she has always been a kiln sister, she is a **, and she can't get rid of it for the rest of her life..."

Jiaowa listened to Xueqi's words, and she also felt very uncomfortable in her heart, because she knew that all this was true, and some little sisters came to her to cry about similar experiences...

Suddenly, Xueqi straightened up from Jiaowa, sat down opposite Jiaowa, and stared at her eyes, "Sister, you said you are tired of men now?" Do you still want to stay in Yeosuwon? ”

"Huh?" , Jiaowa looked at Xue Qi with some doubts, "Sister, do you want to leave this Lishui Courtyard?" But... But where can we go? Again... Besides, Mom won't agree, we... It's hard for us to scrape together enough money to ransom ourselves..."

"I'm just asking you, don't you be nervous...", Xue Qi smiled at Jiaowa, but seemed a little insincere, "It's not that I love the wind and dust, but I was born in the wind and dust... Who is to blame for all this..."