I have a lifetime of horses, just to win the world.

As everyone knows, the country and you can't have both, you win the world but lose you.

The last time I saw you, it was when the Void Realm was destroyed.

I thought that you would never be able to turn back for me in this life and this life.

Unexpectedly, happiness came so suddenly.

Just as you and I were about to part, you suddenly turned around, like the first time you and I saw each other, with a trace of panic hidden in your clear eyes.

And my heartbeat, once again messing with you.

When you saw me standing alone on the beacon, you really panicked, and shouted my name at the top of your voice.

I wanted to take the opportunity to say goodbye to you, but when the words came to my mouth, I was suddenly reluctant to speak.

hesitated again and again, and finally hid all the sorrows and farewells in the tip of his heart, and quietly responded to the word "good".

The red sun is closed, and you are unexpectedly left behind in the void.

At that moment, I even selfishly thought that the last ten years would have been very complete if I had you by my side.

You never know that when you are grief-stricken, I am full of joy and looking forward to a better future with you.

But when I saw your despair with my own eyes, and heard with my own ears that you were unwilling to go through a lot of hardships to eliminate the omnipotent wisdom, why you still couldn't stay with him, I finally relented.

There's no way, I'm a hard-hearted person, every time I encounter your tears, I am so soft.

A hundred years ago, in the ghost dossier, I obviously wanted to get you so much, but because of your tears, I chose to let go. I thought that my obsession with you came from jealousy of the king of Donglin.

After a long time, I realized that my obsession with you originated from an accident in the Nine Heavens tens of thousands of years ago.

In fact, I remember them all. I remember that you took care of me all night when I was seriously injured and unconscious.

Unfortunately, at that time, I was very ambitious and would never allow my heart to move for a woman. Therefore, I began to deceive myself, treating the kind and innocent Xiao Jiu'er as a life-saving benefactor, and deliberately buried you deep in my heart.

It wasn't until a hundred years ago, in the ghost dossier, that I caught you falling from the sky, and I knew that in this life, I was destined to be trapped by you.

To me, you have a fatal attraction. Even if your every look never stays on me, your smile is enough to bewitch me and make me fall into your love network and can't extricate myself.

You are very intelligent, very transparent, and can always escape my shackles.

Unfortunately, I hadn't learned how to love someone at that time.

In order to get your attention, I set out to hurt you endlessly.

I don't want to see you sad, but I don't want to be forgotten by you.

This went on for a long time, and you were tortured to the point of collapse, and I was tortured to the point of madness by guilt.

I couldn't wait for your response for a long time, so I began to hunt for beauty frequently, and tasted all the women who looked like you. They are more well-behaved than you, more amorous than you, and more interesting than you, but they are not as good as one ten-thousandth of you.

I thought that over time, I would be able to forget you completely.

Therefore, when I accidentally spied into the heavens and learned that the Six Realms would eventually fall, I chose to flee to the Void Realm. First, it is because there is no place for me in the Six Realms. Second, it is to forget you completely.

Not long after, when I heard that you were forced to jump off the Zhuxian Terrace, I climbed to the top of the neon sky of the Void Realm alone and stared at the red sun for most of the day.

I am destined to be a generation of heroes, how can I cry for a woman? If I shed tears, I must be hurt by the scorching sun.

In the past hundred years, I have been observing the movements of the king of Donglin all the time, and I can't help but be complacent when I learn that he has been sinking for you for a hundred years. It turns out that the people who have been living under the nightmare of Zhuxiantai are not only me, but also the king of Donglin.

After a hundred years, I have finally learned how to love after a long absence.

Love is single-minded, and no one can replace it. You said, "There is no room for sand in your eyes," and the prodigal son turned back.

Love is to let go and fulfill, not to possess it. After realizing that my appearance has caused you great trouble, I dare not disturb your life rashly, but dare to look at you from afar, and watch you drift away and run towards the person who is truly worthy of your love.

I never disdained to be a good person, nor did I disdain to be thanked by the people.

Until you became my queen by mistake in a dream.

I began to be afraid, afraid that I had done too much evil in the first half of my life, and that I would be punished by you.

Strange to say, once the idea of washing your hands and making soup comes to mind, you can't do any more evil.

Children's bedding, thick and fluffy swaddling, shoes that are less than the size of the palm of the hand, small and delicate rattles......

I'm not afraid of your jokes, but I have really prepared everything for our upcoming children with the greatest enthusiasm.

However, I am more afraid of losing you forever than I am of getting you.

On that day, you fell softly in my arms, not like the delicate appearance of the past, but like a kitten. You're dripping your saliva and grabbing my placket and rubbing it on my heart every now and then.

After that, you must be grateful that I didn't sit still.

Little did I know that all night, I struggled with my own sanity.

Desire said, where did so much love at first sight come from, and there are more long-lasting love in this world. The king of Donglin is not because he seized the opportunity to cook the raw rice early.

Reason says, if you like it, don't hurt it. Even if you get people, you can't get hearts.

If you want to say, indulge it once. In this life, one last indulgence. Perhaps, after having a child, a turning point appeared.

So, I put you unconscious on the couch like a treasure.

On the couch is a festive red thin jacket, and in the center of the thin jacket is a clean and clean Xipa.

Unintentionally, you muttered, a "tolerance" as thin as a mosquito and a fly, which almost made me lose my mind and strangled you to death.

All night, my mind was at war with heaven and man.

In the end, reason prevailed over desire, and I gave up the opportunity to never have another chance in this life.

When I learned that you were pregnant with his child, I was no longer jealous, and even fantasized that this child should belong to me, and even felt that this child should be more like me.

However, Heaven is really cruel and always goes out of its way to push me to my death. When I learned that you had a miscarriage for no reason, the pain in my heart was no less than that of the king of Donglin. He can justifiably build a tomb for a child who dies before he is born, and erect a memorial tablet. But I could only hide behind him, put my clothes, swaddling clothes, and rattles in my sleeves, and held a tablet engraved with the word "Qilin" in my arms.

That's right, I called the child who died Qi Lin.

What a pity, if he were still alive, I would have taught him archery and horseback riding, taught him to read poetry and books, and gave him all my love.

Three months ago, when I learned that I only had ten years left, I thought about drafting a "letter to my family".

First, I hope you will always remember me. Second, I hope you will forget me completely.

I'm a true bastard, and I've slaughtered countless cities by people I've killed.

And you, always lively and bright, beautiful, kind, and spotless.

From the bottom of my bones, I am inferior, and the blood on my hands reminds me all the time that between you and me, there is not only the king of the east, but also the black and white worlds.

Ge'er, promise me. Forget all I have, but don't forget that I loved you, okay?

The reason why I don't want to go back to the Six Realms is because for me, the Six Realms are cold and have no temperature.

Although the Void Realm is broken, all the memories between me and you are preserved in this land.

I can rely on the hundreds of thousands of paintings painted by Huang Fuxuan, and use them in the next ten years to be serious and willful, and live in the memories of you.

The first time you sat on the throne of Beili, you were wearing ill-fitting men's clothes, and you still looked like a girl. Touching your unstoppable eyes, my heart beats fast.

You have been hurt by the ancient god water, and you have curled up to a corner, your face full of defense, covered in thorns, and it hurts me to the heart.

You were wounded by the king of Donglin, and I also suffered with you, and tried my best to heal your wounds, but I waited for what you said to the king of Donglin, "Fortunately, it is you".

.........

Baby Ge'er, I'm not blaming you for saying so much.

I just have a good memory and take everything related to you to heart.

This is goodbye, when there is no day to meet.

May my precious song be full of years.

When you received this "letter from home", it should be ten years later, and at that time, with good wishes for you, I have completed a life that is not lucky but full enough in the void.

Say hello to the little princesses for me

Love your Qi Yanliu

April 13, 1002 of the Void Realm