That day, I remembered the fear of being crushed by despair. It was not an instantaneous overturn, no possibility of fighting back, or even indifference after timidity. No one wants to take the fetters and pain hastily, look at each other, and accept the sanctions that sit back and wait to be killed.

At that moment, heaven or hell does not have the right to choose, only the numerology to be chosen. Then, as long as the garbage is cleared out, and the vague scrubbing is added, and all of it is stuffed into a dark area, the world will return to the magnificent scenery of singing and dancing.

"Count Bell, is the pastry not to your liking?"

"Uh, no, it's very good to make, maybe it's too little cream."

Relieved, I stared at the dessert in my hand with countless pairs of amazing eyes, and when I looked down, it was already bread wrapped in cream. So I picked up the custard sauce on the table and wrapped it in a thicker layer, a level of sweetness that was enough to make my taste buds burst and my gums rot. And I pretended not to care, and was easily recognized by the snickering Si Qi, of course, he had no intention of demolishing me. After straightening my clothes, Siqi helped me up with one hand.

"Well, Madame Shaya, thank you for your hospitality, I think it's time to say goodbye to you, the Earl's Court should have a backlog of trivial matters that need to be taken care of, and my secretary must have begun to complain."

"Ah, I originally prepared a lot of extravagant programs, but it is obviously unrealistic to want to force the earl who is entangled in government affairs!"

Women, such inscrutable creatures, no, there are no clues to be found. With the two types of weapons of tears and smiles, you can delicately grope a man's thinking, but what is really killing is not the fragile tears, but the mysterious smile and the constant pressure attached to it. A big man like Mrs. Shaya, the sense of persecution takes the opportunity to increase, and she can only be tired of prevarication.

"Yes, if I don't mind too many empty punishments and inexplicable curses, of course I don't want to sacrifice such a position."

"Well, in that case, as a special and loving gift from the earl, Mr. Siqi gave me a good suggestion when I was hesitant, right?"

Mrs. Shaya threw a wink at Si Qi that was not suitable for the atmosphere, and then the two of them smiled in tacit understanding, which made me reluctantly look forward to such passivity.

"Bell, I want to send Cortana to the Earl's Court for training and receiving the highest education in the so-called 'Think Tank', what do you think, dear?"

"Then I really have to ask the Earl and Mr. Siqi to take care of it!"

"Huh?"

Expressions of surprise in unison, questioning the unreasonable proposal. Xiao Yi's big eyes were hoping that I could turn the situation around, I closed my eyes, biting my lips tightly, and my soft teeth could smell the cowardice flowing in the blood, like placing my small self in the center of the universe, and then tearing it in that dull cold color.

I, watching the screening of my own memories. Seven-year-old, reprimanded; At the age of eight, he drew his sword; Nine-year-old, trampling; Ten years old, killing. I, the darling of the dark Ones, have never believed in the existence of God, and if there were, where would there be so many misfortunes, unfortunate people, and unfortunate things. At least there is no angel to punish me for my arrogance and sinfulness, and that can only be if I am recognized. This is the path waiting for me to open up, a trajectory that I can't control, no matter how much loneliness and rejection, I have to go on, I can't stop or turn back. Until that day, the glimmer of the firefly, the stars, the most painful darkness before dawn, was lit up. What am I forgetting in what I'm looking for?

"Lady Shaya, what if I refuse?"

Like a withered fallen leaf, gently consuming the long time of landing, but it controls the firm determination not to turn back.

"Oh? What an unexpected ending, Earl! You're wasting your bright future! ”

I'm forgetting, I'm just like a human being, always caring about what I'm missing, but never seeing what I have, obsessed with the things in front of me, tired of the barrenness in the corner. Forgetting too deeply, more deception, having forgotten to tell yourself that what you should believe most is yourself. A short life, like a fleeting flowering period, is gorgeous but sad, but, even if it is a handful of lives, I hope that I can bloom brilliantly, and then silently wither, even if it is just a faint fragrance, it will exude the fragrance of the sun.

"But, but I'm the one I like!"

The tall red wine glass, shattered, in my newly revived eyes, shattered and shattered my ears, and I could not see anything, nor could I hear the slightest sound. In the choice of fate, there is only a thin line between sticking to a position and stalking, the former is known as a noble character, the latter is inferior acting skills, and the poor scale may lead to ruin, then, let the worthless title be shattered!

"What did you say, Count?"

"What I like is Shaya Yi!"

Hearing was restored, and the barrier that was broken by the not-so-enthusiastic applause, I saw that Yi was shy with her head down, but even more cute. Mrs. Shaya and Mr. Liu smiled, looking natural and without any decoration; Na's puffed face came at me.

"Brother Bell, I know you like your sister, but you can't help but love Cortana, and you can't forget me; And sister, you can't dominate Brother Bell alone, Cortana will be jealous. If I can guarantee it, I will let my sister go to the Earl's Court to be tested in my place, so that I don't want to stay in a strange and scary place!" ”

Behind him, Siqi's wriggling mouth: 'Super surprise gift!' Sure enough, the cunning fox is elusive and unpredictable.

The old horse galloped on the familiar road, but it was very smooth, without bumps, like Xiao Yi sleeping in my arms, but I refused to admit that it was an active request, and it was all due to the coercive force of nature that caused the difficulty.

"Si Qi, can you walk with me?"

"Yes, young master!"

Jumping out of the carriage, I felt that the world had changed, it became very relaxed, Siqi was led by the old horse, and I led the old horse. Keep walking, silently.

"Young Master, don't you want to praise me or blame me?"

"Since you have such self-knowledge, no amount of my chatter is useless nonsense to you, isn't it?"

I touched the horse's nose, and it was panting gently.

"The young master is really a sarcasm to the point! But making up for mistakes with credit doesn't sound like a deal to be proud of, and it's even better to make up for another mistake with one mistake. ”

People are always imperfect, more sensitive expressions, how can people be good, but the degree of bad is different. But whether it's good or bad, it's always part of the encounter, so why bother with that already vague distinction. Those who can do harm to others must bear more violent revenge from the other side, after all, even those who are hated and abandoned by the world are always bathed in the crystallization of the love of some people. If you do something wrong, there is no need to consider the corresponding forgiveness, if it is forgiveness that requires a price, then it will be buried in the abyss of no one along with forgiveness.

"Teacher, do you think we're going to be at fault?"

"Who knows!"

"Then why bother wasting time, we are our own God, as long as we think that we are not wrong, the only thing that is wrong is to turn our backs on our world."

"It seems that this kind of trip has changed a lot for the young master, and he should increase this kind of itinerary in the future."

Si Qi quickly recorded in that mysterious notebook, which contained the arrangements for torturing me.

"Let me adapt to the changes in the world, let me go!"

The carriage began to gallop again, and where it would go. Let me finish that imperfect dream:

There are flaws in everything, and there will be confusion in any world. Whether it is tomorrow's colorfulness or yesterday's silt, no one can give the right answer. But just as where there is light, there must be shadows, and where there are shadows, there must also be light. The greater the despair, the stronger the hope that needs to be stifled. Well, I haven't changed, still, me.

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