Chapter 92: The Lotus Maiden Goes to the Grave (3)
Lian'er has finally made the final decision to use her death to stop tomorrow's war.
Lian'er Xin said: If my death can prevent tomorrow's war, I can die!
Lian'er thought to herself: If Wu and Jia go to war tomorrow, can I watch many, many people die? If Wu and Jia go to war tomorrow, can I watch many, many women lose their husbands and their parents lose their sons? I know what it's like to lose a loved one!
Lian'er thought again: Besides, now my identity is still Lian'er, not Lotus! Am I going to fight with Jia Chan tomorrow? If my current body is a lotus, Jia Chan and I are desperate, and I and my enemy's daughter are desperate, it's okay. But now my identity is not a lotus, it's a lotus! Lian'er was once rescued by Jia Chan in the snow! Tomorrow I'm going to play with the guy who saved me in the snow, right?
Lian'er decided not to go to the yard, she decided to go to her father's grave once!
So, Lian'er left the courtyard's home.
Lian'er thought as she walked: If my death can prevent tomorrow's war, it's okay! I should have died a long time ago anyway! I deserved to die when my sister Lotus and I were struggling to survive. At that time, there was a man chasing us. At that time, my sister was faced with the certainty that one of us would be overtaken. If it wasn't my sister who caught up at the time, maybe my sister would have done better than me today! I survived today, what did I do?
Lian'er soon came to her father's grave.
This is the third time to go to the grave of my father's mother: the first time I went to the grave of my father's mother, that was when the assassination of Jia's palace was unsuccessful, and she decided to repay Jiafu's favor first and not Jiafu's revenge; went to the grave for the second time, that was when she beheaded Wu Juan with a knife and became a murderer from a pure girl; The third time I went to the grave, it was today.
Lian'er cried again at her father's grave.
Lian'er cried in front of her father's grave:
"Today, when my daughter sees her father, she is very sad, facing death, who is not sad, who doesn't want her mother when she is in trouble?
Maybe my daughter should have died a long time ago, whether it was on the sad road of escaping with her little sister back then, or in the snowstorm back then, or facing the jackals in the enemy's house that day!
On the sad road of escaping with her little sister back then, her daughter did not die, because the little sister used her own death to exchange her daughter for hope of life; In the wind and snow of that year, the daughter did not die, because the enemy's daughter was kind to her daughter by mistake; In the face of the jackals in the enemy's house that day, the daughter did not die, because the enemy's daughter gave her a second hope of life!
Today, my daughter has to face death, and that's because my daughter doesn't want to see the war and sword of tomorrow; Today, my daughter is facing death, and that is because my daughter was deeply injured, and my daughter does not want to see others hurt again; Today's daughter is facing death, and that's because I don't want to see too many people lose their sons after tomorrow's war!
That's why her daughter has to face death, because her daughter feels that only in this way can her daughter feel worthy of Wu Juan's father and mother who were once stabbed by her daughter; That's why the daughter has to face death, because the daughter feels that only in this way does the daughter feel more or less echoed to Jia Chan, who once gave her daughter a second life; That's why the daughter has to face death, because the daughter feels that only in this way will her daughter's life shine more or less; That's why the daughter wants the pair of deaths, because the daughter thinks that only in this way can the daughter deserve to burn paper in front of the grave of the second elder and shout 'Mother'!
That's why the daughter has to face death, no matter how much she still has to say and how much she hasn't said, and no matter how much she still has to say, she shouldn't say it; That's why the daughter has to face death, no matter how much she still has to do and how many things she has to think about yet; That's why her daughter has to face death, no matter if she is a jackal who commits suicide after murder, or whether she sacrifices one person for everyone's heroism!
My daughter just wants to let others have as much sunshine as possible! ”
What a lotus girl goes to the grave three times!
Subsequently, Lian'er wrote a letter to Wu Jie.
How she hopes to be with Wu Jie in the future!
However, she didn't want to have such days anymore.
In her letter to Wu Jie, Lian'er wrote:
"Wu Gongzi:
Thank you for all the kindness you've been giving me these days. With your affection for me these days, I have already felt some human warmth in the last days of my life!
But it's a pity that it's ......, but it's a pity that you and I don't have a chance to have a strong relationship in this life.
Because ......, because I'm the real murderer of your sister!
Because ......, because murder always pays for life!
Maybe I didn't deserve to be in love with you.
Isn't it? You are true to me. I am ...... to you, but I am hypocritical to you without even telling you a word of truth!
Wu Gongzi, goodbye!
I hope ......, I hope I ......, I hope you and I can meet again in the next life!
I hope ......, I hope I ......, I hope I am not the real murderer in the next life! ”
Then, Lian'er wrote another letter to Jia Chan.
In a letter to Jia Chan, Lian'er wrote:
"Five years ago, you saved me in the snow. So you gave me another five years of life. I don't know whether I should talk to you about friendship or not, because you are also the son of my enemy. Whether it should be or not, five years have passed.
Not long ago, I swore to heaven in front of you that I will repay your kindness first and then your revenge, and I will never repay my revenge until you repay the kindness of Jiafu. At that time, I also said that when your kindness in Jiafu was not repaid, I was Lian'er, and after I repaid your kindness in Jiafu, I was Lotus.
Whatever you say, I think I've been following my Lian'er's path ever since. As for my Wu Wangfu exposing you that day, I think I also followed my Lian'er's path. Because what happened at that time has nothing to do with whether you are the daughter of my enemy or not. Because what happened at that time had nothing to do with whether I was a lotus or not. Even if I was Lian'er at the time, I should have done that.
I'm going to die today. No matter what you think, I think I'm done.
Although I haven't finished what my lotus should do, I have completed what my lotus should do.
I think that in the future, my name should be Lotus.
It doesn't matter if it's a human or a ghost!
Lotus"
Then, Lian'er wrote a letter to her sister Qian'er. She didn't want her sister Qian'er to do something drastic after her death. In the letter, she told her sister Qian'er that I am not to blame for my death today, and my death today is all voluntary, because I am the murderer.
In a letter to her sister, Lian'er wrote:
"Sister, sister is leaving. At my sister's last moment, my sister won't say goodbye to you.
After my sister died, my sister hoped that you would not avenge your sister.
Because my sister's death is as it should be. Because my sister is a murderer.
After my sister dies, my sister hopes that you will live well. My sister hopes that in the future, you can be the revenge of our father.
My sister is leaving, but it's a pity that my sister didn't see our sister's lotus side at this last moment. I don't know if our sister lotus is still alive now.
My sister thinks that good people should live a long life.
My sister thought, our sister Lotus must still be alive.
After my sister dies, if our sister Lotus is still alive, if you see her one day in the future, my sister hopes that you will be good to her in the future. Because I used to owe her. Because I once faced her and the two of them, and one of them was bound to be arrested. At that time, she gave me the hope of life.
Sister, please!
Goodbye, sister! ”