Just as I was about to leave, she suddenly got up and hugged me from behind, saying, "Don't go!" ”

She made me feel very unaccustomed to this, so I couldn't help but say: "Queen Mother, please let go, let's say anything well, don't move your hands and feet, it's not good for others to know." ”

But she said: "If you know, you will know, and you are not afraid of mourning; For a long time, the mourning family has never met a man like you, even the gentleman praised by the world thinks that the mourning family is inferior to you; No, they're just hypocrites. ”

I couldn't help but say, "Queen Mother, please let go first, if there is anything to say, let's sit down and talk slowly." ”

She said: "The mourning family is afraid that as soon as you let go, you will have to leave." ”

I sighed secretly and said, "Queen Mother, I promise you, as long as you are willing to let go, I will not leave without permission." ”

Actually, it's not that I can't break her hand, it's just that I'm afraid that I'm too strong and accidentally hurt her, which is not good.

She said, "Talking counts? ”

I said, "Of course, as a subordinate, you still have to obey orders under normal circumstances. ”

She nodded and said, "Okay, let go of the mourning family." So saying, she let go of her hand and said to me again, "Come, sit down and talk to the mourners." ”

I think that in ancient times, most of the women who lost their husbands at such a young age were like this. However, due to the constraints of feudal etiquette, the ** in their hearts cannot be liberated, and once there is a breakthrough in release, they will not hesitate to show it, and even look like crazy. In fact, this is also a very normal phenomenon, some rules in the feudal etiquette law are originally very harmful things, and those that should be abolished should be abolished.

I helped her sit on the bed, and then I said, "Queen Mother, I can actually understand your current mood very well; To tell the truth, I am very disgusted with the current feudal etiquette, because some of the regulations in this kind of rules are very unreasonable; A widow like you, who was widowed at a young age, should indeed find another man to marry, and should not be widowed here. ”

"Ugh." She couldn't help but sigh deeply and said, "Although the mourning family is the queen mother, the family law of the ancestors still has to be observed, and if you don't obey it, you will also be punished; Therefore, some things can only come secretly, and even if one or two ministers know about them, they will turn a blind eye. ”

I couldn't help but say, "Haven't you thought about reforming the system?" ”

She smiled and shook her head, but said, "If you want to restructure, how easy is it?" is like Wang Mang at the beginning, after taking over the Han family, he also tried to reform the system, but in the end he ended up ruined; Just imagine, I'm just a woman's family, and although I have a certain amount of power in my hands, I can't do anything about it. ”

"Ugh." I couldn't help but sigh, for today's world, it is really difficult to change those unreasonable systems. Unless there is an overwhelming force in the hands of disobedientness, it is simply impossible to reform the system.

When she saw me like this, she couldn't help but smile slightly, and immediately hugged my hand and said, "Actually, the mourning family is already very content to get along with you like this." ”

I looked at her and couldn't help asking, "By the way, does the eunuch's plan to murder General He have anything to do with you?" ”

She shook her head and said, "The mourning family did know about this matter in advance, but it was not the mourning family's instigation; How do you know? ”

I replied, "Based on the circumstances at the time. ”

He couldn't help but smile and said, "You're really smart." ”

I smiled slightly, and then said: "Actually, the reason why I proposed the restructuring is not only for the sake of you alone, but also for the sake of the people of the whole world; What I hate most in my life is this unfair class system, why are all human beings, some people can do whatever they want, and some have to reluctantly accept the oppression and exploitation of the aristocracy? Why can't people choose the freedom and life they want according to their own ideas? ”

When she heard my emotion, she couldn't help but be a little surprised. Then she sighed, "What a sage you are! ”

I sighed and shook my head and said, "Alas, what's the use, I ask myself that martial arts and military affairs are invincible in the world, and wisdom and talent are incomparable; But I still don't have the ability to change the current situation, I can only do nothing in vain. ”

She couldn't help but look moved, but said, "No, you have the ability, and the mourning family has a way to help you achieve your wishes." ”

I couldn't help but ask, "What can you do?" ”

She replied, "Abolish the emperor." ”

"What! Abolish the emperor? You're kidding, right? I couldn't help but be stunned.

She said, "Do you think the mourning family is joking? ”

I couldn't help but wonder: "But, isn't the young emperor your son, how can you be willing to abolish his throne?" ”

She sighed and shook her head and said, "Alas, the Mourning family and my brother supported the establishment of Bian'er as emperor at the beginning, but it was just to consolidate the power in their hands; In fact, the mourning family knows better than anyone else that the debater is dull by nature and does not want to make progress, so he can't be a good emperor at all, but he is just a puppet material; In contrast, Xie'er is much smarter, and he is diligent, and his style of action is more imperial. It's just that there will inevitably be a mess in the process, and someone has to have the ability to clean it up, and you may be able to. ”

"Hmm." I couldn't help but groan, then shook my head and said, "I may not have enough qualifications, and I don't have enough appeal to clean up this mess." ”

She smiled and said, "Although your qualifications are a little lacking, there is one person who can." ”

"Who?" I can't help but ask.

"Dong Zhuo." She replied.

I couldn't help but be dumbfounded. Indeed, Dong Zhuo has some skills, which are obvious to everyone in the world. And he himself is also a very courageous person, if he can be entrusted with great power, it may not be impossible to successfully reform the system. But in this way, doesn't history develop in the same direction again? Oh, it doesn't matter, even if Feng Xian betrayed Dong Zhuo for some reason later, it doesn't matter, it's just a later grudge between the two of them, and it can't become a shackle to the implementation of the plan at this time. Heh, after a long time, I prompted Dong Zhuo to be good at government, which is really interesting.

Immediately, I couldn't help asking: "If you implement the plan to abolish the emperor, you can't go back on it, are you sure you won't regret it?" ”

She smiled and shook her head and said, "For you, the mourning family is willing." ”

I couldn't help but smile bitterly, she is so affectionate, but I can't afford it! Then I said, "There is one thing I think I must tell you; Actually, I have a fiancée at home, and if I accept you, it will make me feel like it will hurt both her and you. ”

She smiled and said: "This mourner has long thought that a perfect man like you, if there is no woman's admiration, he will not believe it if he kills the mourner; The mourning family is just a widow, and she doesn't care about her name, but I hope she doesn't mind; The mourning family thinks that she must be very beautiful, how come the two of you haven't gotten married yet? ”

I shook my head and said, "It's a long story; She originally had a childhood sweetheart's fiancé named Cheng Lian, and my character happened to be called Cheng Lian; Eleven years ago, her fiancé suddenly disappeared, and she had been looking for him for ten years, and then I suddenly appeared, so she took me for him; Later, the two of us were together in a blur. ”

She couldn't help but say, "I see; Did you have sex with her? ”

I laughed and shook my head and said, "No, I couldn't have had sex with her until I got married." ”

"Oh? So, you're still a boy, aren't you? She asked with a playful smile.

Actually, I don't know if I'm still a child, after all, I don't have any memory of what happened between me and Shanshan. However, I don't think Shanshan will lie to me.

Immediately, I shook my head and said, "No, I had an object when I was back in my hometown - do you know what it means?" ”

She shook her head. I explained, "In my hometown, men and women are free to love, and the partner with whom they are in love is called a partner, but we are both monogamous here, which is not very different from yours here. ”

"Oh?" She couldn't help but look moved, and said in surprise: "It's so good, then where is your hometown?" ”

I looked at her with a smile and said, "My hometown is very far from here, and it's a secret that can't be said, but maybe one day I'll tell you." ”

She nodded and said, "Okay, I'll talk to the mourning family when you want to talk about it later; Have you ever had sex with that person of yours? ”

I nodded and said, "Well, once, but I was sleepwalking at the time, so I don't remember anything." ”

She couldn't help laughing: "Hehe, it's really funny!" And then, did you marry her? ”

I shook my head and said, "No, I came here for some reason, and I was separated from her, maybe I won't be able to see her again in my life." ”

When she heard my words, she couldn't help but sigh a little: "Alas, it turns out that you still have such a past, which is really embarrassing; Do you miss her on weekdays? ”

I nodded and said, "In the dead of night when I'm alone, I can't help but think of her." ”

She couldn't help but say, "As the saying goes, 'Don't give up a bad wife', you must not forget her no matter what." ”

I smiled and nodded, "Yes, maybe even when I'm going to die, I won't forget her." ”

She nodded and said, "Well, you are a person worthy of admiration." ”

I couldn't help but smile and shook my head and said, "I think you're different from ordinary women, don't you feel jealous?" ”

She was puzzled: "The mourning family is not pregnant with Liujia, why should they be jealous?" ”

I couldn't help but be dumbfounded. I almost forgot that people in this era don't know what it means to be "jealous". Then I explained, "I mean, don't you feel bad that the man you like has another woman in his heart?" ”

She smiled and said: "I don't know why I mourn your family, and I can't help but think that you shouldn't belong to just one woman." ”

I couldn't help but wonder if it was the first time I had heard such an unbelievable idea. Although I consider myself a good man, I am still a more dedicated man in my bones. Maybe I'm not a heartfelt person, but once I have a partner, I will never have an affair again. This one seems to be very similar to the legendary mandarin duck.

Perhaps, when my father created me, he added some combination to my genes, or maybe this personality of mine was originally inherited from my father himself. In short, it's really hard for me to have sex with more than two women at the same time. It's not that I don't have the guts, but deep down I instinctively feel guilty, and it just so happens that I am a person who hates sin.