I knew I was scared, I knew I was really scared, I didn't want to accept my own fate, even if I promised Rou Niang to help her find her daughter, even if I promised that the hateful person would go and rescue the person who stayed here.

If I had known that I was going to die at the beginning, would I have promised her to help her?

I don't know if my hand, which I am trying to composure, reveals my true heart, I long for him to hear my pleading, the young man dressed in white, won't he always know what is going on in my heart? Then he's going to save me, he's going to get me out of this little gap, right? has already said that he will hate him, but in his heart, he still has a faint hope for him.

But he finally gave me a deep look, then sighed, and said only one word, "Okay,"

He didn't seem to care about me at all. Staring at his gaze, which turned cold in an instant, I suddenly smiled, he really didn't care about me anymore.

Although I knew the pain of being abandoned, although I knew the sorrow of being helpless, and although I had deep sympathy for that child, I knew that I was not willing.

I was like a bird locked in an eggshell, and I couldn't see the day when the sky above me would open automatically.

But he said yes so easily.

I laughed, and sure enough, his feelings for me were completely gone.

He was originally a person I didn't know well, and everything I was, in his eyes, seemed to be gone.

So what else can I be nostalgic about? So what do I have to miss?

The smiling face in that cavern? Or is it just the pity of holding my hand?

I poured myself another glass of wine, and when I smelled the intoxicating aroma, all that remained in my heart was endless sourness.

Is it because of that glass of wine that you are not used to? Is it because of his burning eyes, or because of me who is willing to be a sacrifice?

Finally he told me, in a cold tone, that he wanted to have the ceremony tomorrow night if he could.

Silent, only tears-

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【Small】

Tiny is the name of the cat I have.

I don't have a name, I don't even have memories of my childhood. In the memories that have been forgotten bit by bit, only the name Xiaoxiao is the only thing I remember, and it is still a name written on a small note that is sandwiched in the gap of that long life, as if it will never fall out for the rest of my life.

I don't have a mother, once I naughtily climbed the tree that said big or small, I found out for the first time that the world I exist in is not just a bare small yard.

The nurse always looked at me with a smile, she asked me if I had anything I wanted to eat, so I looked out with a probe and probe, did I want to eat sugar gourds? Whenever I climbed the tree, she would always walk to the bottom of the tree as if she was afraid that I would be frightened and suddenly fall off the tree, and hugged me down laughing like I hugged Xiaoxiao, and every time she hugged me down, he always kept tickling me and making me laugh. The nurse said that I was growing teeth, and I couldn't eat sweet things often, so every time the uncle who came to deliver vegetables secretly gave me a string of sugar gourds, she would always be the first to snatch it from my hand, and then pestered me to divide half of it.

But this time I wasn't looking at the sugar gourd, but the short one seemed to me to be like a sky-high wall, a child who spoke to a pretty woman next to me with a milky voice: "Mother, you want to buy me a sugar gourd to eat!" ”

The beautiful woman said in a soft voice: "Zhen'er, eating sugar gourd teeth will be decayed, in case they are eaten by insects, how ugly it will be when they become black,"

The milky child tilted his head and thought for a moment, looked at the smile on the beautiful woman's face that could not see the eyes at all, and asked tentatively as if he was afraid of being fooled but did not believe himself, "Really?" ”

"Of course," the beautiful woman pointed to the other dirty boy behind her, "to see if his teeth are a little black." ”

The boys, who had already reached the time to change their teeth, naturally did not know what they were talking about, and when he saw a little girl with two crescents in his eyes quietly looking at him from the front, he smiled stupidly and showed the empty front teeth that had just fallen.

"Ah, it's true!" The little girl's voice was full of trust in her mother's words, "That's really the case! ”

The beautiful woman touched her daughter's head lovingly, and picked her up with a smile, "If Zhen'er is obedient, my mother will buy you meat buns to eat." ”

The little girl happily sucked her fingers, "Really? Then I must be obedient,"

The nurse's gaze fell on the face of the beautiful woman who was smiling like a flower, and suddenly sighed heavily. As much as she tried to avoid my gaze, I could see her gaze lingering on the beautiful woman's face for a long time before leaving. For some reason, I suddenly sighed heavily, just like her.

She immediately wrapped me tighter as if sensing something, so tight that it was hard for me to open my mouth to speak.

I winked in her arms, suddenly grabbed her arm and shook it, "Nanny, didn't you say that I also have a mother?" What about my mother? Where is my mother now? ”

The nurse's face was full of helplessness, and she didn't say anything, just hugged me tighter as I shook her arm.

The nurse actually has a name, she is not called the nurse, but I have been called since I was a child, and I can't change it. The nurse is actually very young, she is probably only younger and more beautiful than the beautiful woman I have ever seen, but I don't know why she is such a beautiful person, she is trapped in this small courtyard, and cannot leave half a step?

Except for Xiaoxiao, there are only two people in this small courtyard, me and the nurse. The nurse is a very kind person, she is like an umbrella for me to shelter from the wind and rain, the nurse's arms, hiding all my childhood. The uncle next door is a guy who often comes here. He seemed to be very fond of making me laugh, and every time he bought something delicious, he would always be the first to think of me, and then put either croquettes or fried whitebait in my wide open mouth, and then let me sit down with my oily hands that were too greedy to grab enough food to put in my mouth. At that moment, I suddenly felt a sense of happiness, as if I had seen children of similar grades more than once sitting on the shoulders of a smiling man with a mouth closed, and a string of red sugar gourds in his hands. At that time, I no longer saw the red sugar gourd, but the sweet smile of the child who seemed to make people bite it.

I don't remember that look on my face in the bronze mirror, I just remember that the chubby face wasn't just the excitement of getting the sugar gourd, the smile on his face was for something else, what it was that I couldn't even see, I only knew that it was something that only came on the neck of that tall man.

Who's that? I don't know, I just know that the kid was really happy, and his smile was much better than the smile I had on my teeth and claws in the bronze mirror. Is it because it's on the neck of that tall man? Even I felt like I had a faint smile on my face, but it was definitely about how to be naughty.

Do you want to grab her ears and climb up while the nurse picks me up? Although I haven't tried it, I think the nurse must be in pain, forget it, I shrugged, the nurse is a person who can't reach the penultimate branch of the big tree even if she stands on tiptoe, and her delicate body makes her feel tired even if she lets me sit on her neck. I set my sights on another person, who looked like an iron tower, and always had a straight smile on his face, and even the last time I was naturally afraid of life, I didn't get angry at kicking him twice because I hated him for talking so long to the nurse. In my eyes, he is a strange person, and he is also a person who can be used as a teaser. If it were him, I would have laughed, and I wouldn't have felt any pain, would I?

"Li'er, where are you?" The nurse's soft voice began to beckon me again, and I smiled secretly behind the door, and hurriedly covered my mouth again.

The uncle who delivered the food smiled honestly and said, "It's not in the way, you can go and find it." Beads of sweat rolled down his neck, and the big drops of sweat on his forehead were about to run into his eyes. I slammed from behind him onto him, took out my ability to climb the trunk and clutched his clothes tightly in my hands, and sat on his shoulders almost in a moment when he was stunned.

It wasn't until I sat up that I could look around, but I didn't find anything that interested me, and the only thing I saw was that I saw a stall at the mouth of the alley directly opposite the door. Although I was slightly frustrated, I smiled and waved at him. Although he may not be able to see my face clearly, I am sure he heard my excited childish voice, "Hey, uncle, are the baked cakes delicious?" ”

The uncle of the pancake stall who didn't even have a pot on the pot seemed to be stunned, and after a while an ugly smile appeared on his face, and I continued to shout at him: "Uncle, do you have any baked cakes?" I'm going to buy one! ”

It seems that when my hand rubbed his neck that seemed to be more slippery than mine, the food delivery uncle was stunned as if he couldn't believe it, and touched my legs that hung easily in front of him with his hand, although he looked very careful, but I still grinned in pain, this bad uncle, is it still angry because of my naughtiness at that time?

I couldn't help it, I kicked his hand to the side, and with all my strength I lifted his ear and shouted at him, "Hey, uncle, you hurt me!" "Although it hurts to mention his ears, I can't help but want to take revenge on him.

The uncle, who seemed to have just woken up suddenly, raised his head upwards as if he really wanted to throw me off, and I screamed, and one fell off his shoulder before he could sit still. I don't know if it's my delusion, but when I threw my head up, something flew up my cheeks, and the strong wind blew my cheeks painfully.

What is that? When I came back to my senses, I was already tightly held in my uncle's arms, as if he didn't want to let go of me for the rest of his life, I scraped his nose mischievously, and kissed him on the cheek like a nurse. I saw a scene that I couldn't understand again, and the uncle, who had always had a simple smile on his face, shed two lines of tears in a daze.

Probably this time, it's not because I'm naughty, right?

I carefully wiped the tears from his face, "Uncle, are you in pain?" Then next time Li'er will pull your ears, you won't be angry, right? ”

The light that flashed in the uncle's eyes was unusually dazzling, and he hugged me down and stared at me with a serious expression that I had never seen on the nurse's face: "You must not come near this door in the future, you know?" I nodded vigorously with tears in my eyes as I was pinched by his hand, and his voice was terrible, like I had done something I shouldn't have done.

Perhaps he also noticed the sparkle in my eyes, and his expression was obviously overwhelmed, and even the two big hands that had just hurt me were clumsily conjuring up various shapes in front of my eyes like a daunting toy, as if he didn't feel like what he was doing, so he immediately put it on his head and scratched it without any mess. In the end, he probably didn't have any immunity to my tears, he put his dirty sleeve all over my face, and immediately put it down as if he had noticed something wrong, and finally probably didn't know what to do, so he stood there with his hands up and sweated profusely. I snickered to myself, he must be very confused now, why did his tears wipe less and less, while mine wiped more and more?

The nurse said that this is the privilege of a girl, and if a girl sheds tears in front of a man, that man must become very anxious.

"Li'er!" The nurse's voice was no longer as kind as I had heard before, and it seemed that even her face was shrouded in a layer of cold mist that could not be dissolved after the last word was whispered, and she rushed over murderously, pulling me away from my uncle with the strength that seemed to take me back, and took a few steps back before speaking coldly, "What are you doing standing next to Li'er?!" ”

The uncle's face instantly returned to his usual straightforwardness, but he glanced at my face intentionally or unintentionally, "I'm afraid that she will run out" Maybe it was my mischievous smile at him that made him suddenly forget what he was going to say later, I didn't hear what he said later.

The nurse's face was now much soothed, and even then I could perceive that the strength of her grip on my hand had not relaxed at all.

"Nurse, it hurts!" I tried to break her hand, but I found that her hand was tightly bound to my wrist and couldn't move at all.

"Nurse, I'm in so much pain!" I almost cried out, and the nurse, who was looking at my uncle, noticed that I was abnormal, and my wrist had become bruised after I let go in a hurry. The nurse screamed, and when I was about to talk to me, I immediately ran away, I have never seen a nurse like this, I have never seen a nurse become so terrible, I don't know why she became like this, but I know, I don't like to be like her, I like her smile, the kind of smile that seems to melt people, in my heart, has always cherished. (To be continued.) )