Chapter 135: Helplessness
Quietly, the white Par slowly fell from the palm of his hand. Xin Huzi still stood quietly in place, looking at Sister Huiniang, who was kneeling in the banquet with her back to her. Until Par fell to the ground silently, he still didn't notice that Par fell from his hand.
looked at the back of Sister Huiniang, and the green bead that was worn on the head by Sister Huiniang just now, which was very familiar. Xin Huzi's heart was unspeakably uncomfortable. Although I also know that Sister Huiniang will marry sooner or later. And the one who is going to marry Sister Huiniang, the man who is also a scholar, he has also seen it a few times. But the man who was going to marry Sister Huiniang, the child of the scholar clan from Guannei, Xin Huzi didn't think that man could be worthy of his Sister Huiniang.
It is very strange that Sister Huiniang has never talked to him about the man who will marry her. And the fact that the man was going to marry Huiniang's sister, he still heard about it from those children of Tun people who learned to read and write together in the school. But the big guy's reaction is the same as himself, and he doesn't have any good feelings for the man who will marry Huiniang's sister in the future.
Especially when that man, when he saw them, the children of the Tunren who were learning to read and write in the master's house. They will look at them with a kind of high up, as if they are standing in the clouds, looking down on them. The expression of disdain is also the same face that the man often has when he sees these children of Tunzi.
Just like last year, when he came to Niushifang to visit Master and Sister Hui Niang. At the door of Master's house, I happened to meet the man who came to Master's house to visit Master and Sister Huiniang. He still remembered the appearance of that man when he was with Sister Huiniang, talking and laughing. Although at that time, he was still a certain distance from the door of his master's house. But he has good eyesight, but he can still clearly see that the person standing at the door of the master's house is very happy to say something to Sister Huiniang. But when he rode past him, he changed to that kind of disdainful expression on his face
Sister Huiniang, are you going to marry that man?
The loss and helplessness that had been suppressed a lot, after hearing the words that Sister Huiniang said just now, slammed into his heart.
Over the years, he has always avoided the reality that Sister Huiniang is going to get married. But when all this is really coming, he knows the reality that he will face in how to escape and not avoid the reality that he will face in Sister Huiniang's very plain words just now. What can he do? looked at the beautiful figure kneeling in the banquet, although it was only a few steps away. But at this time, in his opinion, the distance between him and Sister Huiniang was so far away. Far away, just like now, he is standing in the middle of the mountains and forests, unable to see the end of the mountains and forests.
"Sister Hui Niang"
Xin Huzi silently, in his heart, called Sister Huiniang, who was close at hand and kneeling at the banquet with her back to her. He didn't speak. Just silently in my heart. At this time, he didn't know what to say to Sister Huiniang. At this time, he seemed to have noticed something. Yes! He noticed the strange behavior of Sister Hui Niang just now. noticed that Sister Huiniang at this time was not happy because of her marriage.
This made him inevitably recall the situation when the eldest sister of Uncle Calf's family married the little fifth brother many years ago. At that time, the eldest sister had also seen what she looked like before marrying the little fifth brother. Although the eldest sister is also sad that she is about to leave Uncle Calf, Aunt Niu and Sister Eryaer. But he is also happy to marry the little fifth brother.
But at this time, he didn't feel the joy of Sister Huiniang's marriage at all. Will Sister Huiniang be happy if she marries that man? Xin Huzi thought silently in his heart over and over again.
Suddenly! Xin Huzi, who was still thinking silently, thought of something that made him dare not think about it! If Sister Huiniang really marries, the child of the scholar clan from Guannai, that man. So Sister Huiniang, aren't you going to leave this old forest?! Just like when the eldest sister left her tunzi after marrying the little fifth brother, she followed the little fifth brother to live in his tunzi. But although the eldest sister is married far away, she is still in the same old forest after all.
And if Sister Huiniang marries that man, the son of the scholar clan from the Guannai. So Sister Hui Niang is going to leave the Niushi Fang and go to the Guan Nei that she has only heard of in other people's mouths?! Oh, yes! If Sister Huiniang marries, the person who is going to marry her from Guannai will definitely leave this old forest. I must follow that person and go to live in Kannai!
But, if Sister Huiniang marries that man. After leaving this old forest, how can he see Sister Huiniang in the future?! When I thought of marrying away from Guannai, I would never see Sister Huiniang again. Xin Huzi was a little afraid to think about it. Although over the years, the chances of him being able to meet Sister Huiniang have been much less. But no matter what, he can still see Sister Huiniang. He just wants to see Sister Huiniang a few more times. Just wanted to see it a few more times, and the smiling face of Sister Huiniang, he was already content.
If Sister Huiniang really married, that child of the scholar clan from Guannai. Then he will lose even the opportunity to see Sister Huiniang, let alone see Sister Huiniang's smiling face again, and his thoughts about Sister Huiniang that he has hidden in his heart. But with the loss of my heart at this time, and the helpless mood at times swayed. But he knew that even if he said it, the deep part of his heart, his thoughts about Sister Huiniang. None of this can be changed. Also, there is no way to change it
Can't you change it? Oh, yes! He is just a hunter in the old forest. What are your abilities? What are the capabilities? What about changing all of this? Even in front of the door of the salt house just now, he was whipped by the messenger from the gate. I can only endure it without resistance. Endure that unreasonable whip and whip yourself on your body! can only act like a coward, without any power to fight back!
In the end, it was Sister Huiniang who helped her. Punished himself, the young errand who deliberately made things difficult for himself and whipped himself. helped myself find out, the mastermind behind the scenes. The one who laughed at Sister Qi'er yesterday is the son of the poor leader's family. I helped myself to get it back, and the servants took the skins on the grounds of atonement. He also helped himself, in exchange for a lot more salt than in the past, how to change all this? Myself
The more he thought about it, the more helpless Xin Huzi became, and slowly clenched his hands. This could not change everything made him want to resist, but he couldn't find the source of the rebellion. If rebellion can change all that. So what can he resist? If resistance can be changed, Sister Hui Niang will marry the fate of the children of the Shi clan from Guannai. He could have done this at the risk of his own life! But he didn't know what he had to do to change all this. Change this he doesn't want to see it.
But he couldn't even do anything about an errand from Guannai, so how could he resist? How do you change all that? How can Sister Huiniang not marry the child of the scholar clan from Guannai? How can he resist?
At this time, the humiliating words of the young officer. It seemed to echo in his ears again, and from the words of the young officer, he seemed to feel that there was an invisible force that made him have no power to fight back at all. And what is that invisible power? Is it what the young officer said, that is called the imperial court? Is that something called a government office? He didn't know what the imperial court was and what the government was. He just knew that if he resisted. There is a possibility that he will cause trouble to his tunzi, the big guy in the tunzi, so he can only endure the humiliation of the young errand without resistance, and endure the whipping of the young errand officer for no reason at all. Endure it all!
Faintly, it was as if all this had happened to him. It was not as if it was not the first time he had heard the phrase that he was going to get married. It was as if he had heard this sentence a long time ago, and it made him lose and helpless
"Sister Huiniang, do you want to marry that person?"
The long silence in the room was finally broken under Xin Huzi's questioning. Xin Huzi, who was helpless, looked at the beautiful figure sitting quietly in the banquet and said. Although at this time, he actually knew the answer in his heart. But he still asked this sentence. When he asked this, he didn't want to say it at all. Because he knows, even if he doesn't ask. Sister Hui Niang will also tell herself the answer he already knew. Since this is the case, he feels that it is better to ask this sentence himself, which makes his heart more than Sister Huiniang saying it herself
In the mirror is a beautiful girl's face. The girl's beautiful face was quietly reflected in the yellow mirror. After listening to the words of the young man behind her, the girl's calm face also changed slightly. The calm and beautiful face also showed a hint of sadness because of the young man's words. But her face still maintained her calmness, as if it should be.
"Hmm"
The girl only answered softly, but did not say much. She didn't say anything more because of the young man's words.
"When?"
"Half a month later"
The girl kneeling in the banquet still answered the young man's question lightly. was still quietly speaking, staring at himself in the bronze mirror, looking at the beautiful face in the mirror. Just watched quietly