After Zhou Jinmian returned to the secretariat, he was a little depressed and didn't get back to his state for a long time, so he went back directly.

After going back, he locked himself in the study, carefully recalled what Xie Shence said, and his heart could not be calm for a long time.

Xie Shence's words gave him a huge shock, making him suspicious of the emperors and generals he had admired in the past.

Did Han Gaozu really raise troops to save the people, violence, and political talents? Is it true that Chu Taizong rioted and moved because he couldn't bear the harsh government? Maybe it's just because you can't live without land that you want to rebel?

People's ** is unlimited, with ten taels of silver, they will want a hundred taels, with a hundred taels they will want a thousand taels, then ten thousand taels, and then one hundred thousand taels and so on endlessly, so there will always be a time when they will use some means that are not visible. And after getting used to satisfying themselves by depriving others of their happiness, these people become shameless, and have no bottom line, for their own interests, regardless of the flood before and after death. Some people will also make up all kinds of lies to whitewash themselves to beautify themselves and deceive the people.

Zhou Jinmian felt that the sewage around him was flowing sideways for a while, and he felt that the stench was difficult to hide.

The formation and development of the clan, as Xie Shence said, is the process of accumulating enough capital that can be valued by the ruler through continuous land annexation, and then participating in the ruling class and sharing the ruling power. In this process, there will be many families and many wives separated. The rise of the clan is the destruction of hundreds of families, and then the creation of a family with a surname.

Just like Xie Shence said, there are many Lin families, Zhao families, Wang families, Sima families, and Xie families, all of which form their own power by occupying land and then expanding. No family is clean.

Zhou Jinmian suddenly wanted to change this situation.

He felt that the world of one family and one surname was too unfair to ordinary people. They are all people who have lived in this world, and they are all people who work hard to survive, why do some people get good and some people have to suffer? Why can some people leave a name in history so that future generations will remember him, while some people die, like weeds, only the thick earth knows that they have come.

The land has nurtured people, but it has also led some people to perish because of the land.

Zhou Jinmian felt very unfair, and he had a breath in his heart and couldn't vent. Then he found that this tone actually came after listening to Xie Shence's words, and it was getting older and duller, making him unable to get angry.

Zhou Jinmian was depressed, only felt that his head was groggy, and then he had a splitting headache, sweating profusely, and finally fell to the ground with a "bang", unconscious.

When Zhou Jinmian woke up, it was already night, Tian Fen sat on the edge of the bed and wiped his sweat for him, his eyes were red, Zhou Jinmian was weak, looking at his wife's appearance, he stretched out his hand and held Tian Fen's hand.

"I'm fine, cough cough cough"

As soon as Zhou Jinmian opened his mouth, he realized that his throat was already hoarse to this extent, and the dry throat muscles were pressed together, making him cough violently.

Tian Fen hurriedly helped him up, then took a bowl of honey water, patted his back and fed him to drink.

A maid walked in, and then whispered something to Tian Fen, but Zhou Jinmian didn't hear it very clearly.

Tian Fen nodded, the maid went down, and then Xie Shence walked in.

Tian Fen saluted Xie Shence, and then went down. Xie Shence walked to Zhou Jinmian's bedside, waited for the maid to take a stool and sat down, then looked at Zhou Jinmian, who was pale, and sighed.

Only then did Zhou Jinmian see that the person sitting on the edge of the bed had changed, and Xie Shence was staring at him.

Zhou Jinmian moved his throat, and then said in a low voice: "Lord Admiral"

"Don't talk, recuperate in peace, the doctor said that you are depressed, so that your heart is chaotic, if you don't find it early, you may have died."

Probably dead. Xie Shence was not polite at all, and he did not care about Zhou Jinmian's feelings.

Zhou Jinmian closed his eyes and shook his head, the corners of his mouth were full of bitterness.

"Is there anything you can't say to your daughter-in-law? Or do you have something unspeakable that you have to digest alone? Men must dare to take responsibility, but also dare to speak, hide and tuck, not like words. ”

"I don't say this to make you say anything, but if there's something I can't tell that secret, it's not good. Just wanted to make you want to open some. It is much better to have more strength when you discuss everything, than if you carry it alone. It's just that bad things will suffer when they are spoken, and it's good to be able to have multiple people on their backs. Hey, don't really say it when you get excited, if it's not good, don't even affect anyone. ”

After speaking, Xie Shence got up and said: "You can recuperate at home in the past few days, as for the Tiqi Division, when it is better and when you will go again, it is not a problem for Miyu to replace you in a short time, don't worry about the affairs of the division." I'm gone, I'll come back to see you when I have time. ”

Zhou Jinmian's lips moved, he didn't speak, Xie Shence didn't notice, got up straight, and then went out. Zhou Jinmian bowed his head dejectedly, and didn't notice that Xie Shence seemed to be saying something to Tian Fen outside the door.

Xie Shence returned home and walked into his small courtyard, Caiyi brought hot water to burn his feet, Xie Shence was thinking about the day's things while burning his feet.

After Zhou Jinmian talked to him, he went back after a short time in the secretariat, and he fell unconscious soon after he went back, and he didn't wake up until nearly two watches, and he received the news before Zhou Jinmian woke up and rushed to Zhou's house, waiting for Zhou Jinmian to wake up.

Obviously, Zhou Jinmian was like this because of his own words, and Xie Shence felt a little guilty in his heart.

The reason why he felt guilty was because in the process of contact with Zhou Jinmian, he found that this young and old clerical officer in the Tiqi Division, and the current secretary general of the secretariat, was still a hot-blooded young man, thoughtful but enthusiastic, and he was still enthusiastic and yearning for the Confucian sage's practice of cultivating Qi Zhiping. So Xie Shence had a whimsical idea to stimulate him to see if he was a young man who could improve his thinking.

It's just that this try, although it worked, it almost cost Zhou Jinmian his life.

Xie Shence sighed in his heart, how did he get to his current status with such a poor psychological quality

However, Xie Shence is still very glad that he may no longer be alone.

There are some words that Xie Shence can never say. In the big circle of a century-old family, there are many taboos and unspeakable things in the circle. So it was really tiring to live in ancient times with the worldview of later generations.

There are some things in your heart that you can't say to people, it's a very painful thing, your biggest secret, is the biggest taboo in this world, and it will make people crazy after a long time. This has something in common with the reason why many people in the edict are crazy.

However, Xie Shence didn't go crazy, he just had a hard time and covered it up. When he was in Huaiyangdao, Xie Shence was glad that there was such a person who could always listen to his own voice and let himself be soothed. In Jindu, he was the one who dared to talk to him, so he was very lonely in the past two years, extremely lonely.

And just tonight, he seemed to see a second person who could understand him, although he was not entirely sure, but he was happy, he wanted to laugh, he wanted to float, he wanted to get carried away, he wanted to dance under the moon.

So his feet kept tapping the water in the basin, splashing everywhere. However, he did not find out.

It wasn't until Caiyi's exclamation sounded that Xie Shence was embarrassed to find that the ground was full of water.

Xie Shence blushed slightly, waited for Caiyi to dry his feet, and then said shamelessly: "Caiyi, the young master will take you to bed tonight." ”

Caiyi's hand in the basin instantly stiffened, lowered his head, and used all his strength to prevent the basin from falling.

"Young master, young master, if you have to, the slave maid needs to report to the lady"

"Huh?" Xie Shence was stunned for a moment, then looked at his red face under the light of the colorful clothes, and immediately understood the meaning.

"Well, cough cough, this is not needed, the young master is the commander of the Tiqi Division, and this little thing can still be decided."

Caiyi raised her head with difficulty, and then said, "The young master and slave haven't been washed yet."

"Oh, then go wash it, hurry up."

Caiyi holds the basin with one hand and prepares to open the door with the other.

"Hey!" Xie Shence shouted again: "I really don't need to say it, you are the young master and my person, you have to listen to the young master." ”

Caiyi hurriedly went out.

Xie Shence smiled: Isn't he a little evil, it seems to scare the girl's family, no matter how you look at the back of the colorful clothes, you have a feeling of being generous to death.

Xie Shence lay down in the bed, making a difficult choice between being a beast and being a beast.

I don't know how long it took, Xie Shence felt a hot body burrowing into the quilt in a daze, so he hugged him, buried his head in the warm place of Xiangxiang, and then quickly fell asleep.

When he woke up the next day, Xie Shence only felt extremely refreshed, felt the warmth in his arms, and felt the reaction of his body.

But thinking about it, there were still some movements last night, and Xie Shence vaguely remembered that his sleeping position last night was not like this.

The person in her arms moved, Caiyi woke up slowly, took out her hand and rubbed her eyes in a daze, and then saw Xie Shence looking at her.

Cai Yi was embarrassed, Xie Shence kissed her on the forehead and said, "Get up, fetch water for the young master to wash, and you have to get up early for a while in the future." ”

Zhou Jinmian fell ill, his burden was heavy, although Miyu can cope with it, and he will not miss anything in the details, but in terms of overall situation and coordination, he is still inferior to Zhou Jinmian, so Xie Shence has to check it himself.

The words just now resolved the embarrassment of Caiyi, she got up quickly, and then helped Xie Shence dress, then fetched water, washed herself and went to get breakfast, and then waited for Xie Shence to drink soy milk and then drink porridge together, help him peel two eggs, she ate one of the two egg yolks by herself, and then left one not to eat.

Watching Xie Shence walk out of the small courtyard, Caiyi felt happy for a while, and then looked around, she suddenly found that she was very lonely again.

Lu'er is gone.

Although I'm used to being alone, I still think of her from time to time, especially when I am always happy, the first thing that comes to mind is often the young master, and then Lu'er.

Caiyi looked at the storage room and said silently in her heart: I will always cherish it, along with your share

(ps: Normal update in the first month of the New Year~.) ~ More on that later. Tomorrow 30, everyone will roar together! ）