One hundred and sixty-one Now, Yue Tuo hates himself incomparably
From the perspective of today's people, when they look at the major events that happened in ancient times, it is easy to draw a decision on who is right and who is wrong, and judge what should be done from this, and then scold Fang Xuan, praise the heroes who sacrifice their lives for righteousness, and belittle the cowards who are greedy for life and fear death and the evil ghosts who are in the same stream, showing a righteous and awe-inspiring appearance.
But after being really immersed in the scene, Yue Tuo really understands that the reason why people today can comment on historical events without scruples, first, is that the authorities are obsessed with bystanders' historical theorem, and second, they know that they will not be in any danger, and they will not be in such an event, and therefore because they will affect their future survival and even lose their lives because of their own decisions.
Because it's none of your business, it's black and white.
But really being in such a chaotic world, on the eve of such a turbulent era, watching the undercurrent surge, as if any force can promote the arrival of this great era in an instant, and I don't want such a big era to come, but I am powerless to stop it, such a deep sense of powerlessness and prophetic fear is not comfortable.
If he could, Yue Chuan would rather not know the future direction of history, nor know everything that had happened, so that at least he could simply be a coward, a simple coward, and an ordinary person like any ordinary person in this era, without bearing any responsibility and painful feelings, and running for his life wholeheartedly to survive, without being criticized by anyone......
But Yue Chuan is a traverser, a modern soul, who has traveled back to the ancient aliens, he knows the cause and effect, knows the truth of history, knows the future direction of history, knows what miserable things will happen in the future, and knows what his inaction will bring to this era.
It seems that all along, Yue Flip always looks at the world from the perspective of an outsider, looks at the end of the Song Dynasty, looks at the people around him, after having Cuicui, after having a master, and after accepting his relatives, Yue Flip began to slowly integrate into this world, the result is undoubted, but the process is slow, the death of his wife, the death of the master, so that this process has been greatly accelerated.
Yue Flip wanted to use his prophetic ability to do something for his future and the future of the Han people, he used to simply think that he had the most advanced thoughts, the most advanced considerations, and a future that others could not predict, but when he really reached this level, Yue Flip found that he was so powerless, his "advanced thoughts", his "prophetic vision", and his "future soul" were all so pale and powerless......
The steel knives of the Jurchens, the war horses of the Jurchens, the bloodthirsty of the Jurchens, the elites of this era, it seems that any thing can easily crush these advantages from the future, in this cold and realistic world, the future mind and soul, it turns out to be so pale and powerless, in the final analysis, it is just a pie, the soil of this era, can not let the modern mind grow......
If future thoughts are really useful, why did Cuicui die?
If the future mind is really useful, why did the master die?
If future thinking really works, why can't I stop it from happening?
If the thoughts of the future are really useful, why am I still unable to restrain my selfishness and cowardice at this time, knowing that all this is the source of tragedy?
If the idea of the future is really useful, why do I know that so many heroes die for the country at all costs, but I can't understand why they die for the country? Why spare your life?! And I don't have that belief at all?!
Am I really taller than them? Am I really more useful than them? Am I really braver than them? Am I really smarter than them? Am I really better than them? Am I really better than them? What they can't exchange their lives for, I can do without dying on the premise that I can't do it? Just because I'm a time-traveler?
I'm a traverser, but I can't do anything! I'm obviously a time-traveler, but I don't dare to do anything! I'm obviously a time-traveler! But so cowardly and selfish!!
Shouldn't I be mindful of the world?
Shouldn't I be aiming high?
Shouldn't I be forging ahead?
Am I supposed to be domineering?
Shouldn't I be amazing?
Shouldn't I be strong-willed?
Shouldn't I be fearless?
Shouldn't I be remembered in history?
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That's right...... I...... I...... I'm alone...... Alone!!
I'm not a god, I'm bleeding, I'm going to die, I'm going to be in pain, I'm hungry, I'm an ordinary person, I'm human!! I'm not God, I'm not God! I have my own limits! I'm not omnipotent!! I'm human!!
Look at yourself clearly, Yue Tuo, you are a traverser, but you are just an ordinary traverser, an ordinary identity, an ordinary soul, an ordinary thought, an ordinary ability, an ordinary everything, even in ancient times, what difference can you make?
Do you think that if you are thinking ahead, you will be able to set off a storm in ancient times?
Do you think that if your thinking is ahead of your time, you will be able to thrive in ancient times?
Do you think that if you are ahead of your thinking, you will be able to leave a name in ancient history?
Do you think that if you are thinking ahead, you can become a hero in ancient times?
What about crossing? If you cross over, you're not human?! It's a god when you cross over?! Why, why can you change the direction of the whole world by traveling back alone?! Yue Flip! You tell me! Why?! Is history so easy to change?! Is it so easy for everyone to change?! You're a man, you're not a god! Even if it's a god! You can't play with a person like that! He has dignity! He's not something to be played with!! You can't play with him!
You can't even play with history!! What do you think of so many people's bloody sacrifices? What do you take for your hard-won victory? What do you think of a brutal war? What do you think of a hero who dies on the battlefield?! Playing house? A game of life?!
Why do you think you're strong? When did you start to have this idea that you are omnipotent because you are a time-traveler? Who told you that? Who told you that if you have a mind, you have everything?!
Your mind can allow you to redeem the southward end of the golden soldiers on the battlefield?
Your mind can allow you to redeem the collapse of the Song army on the battlefield?
Your mind can allow you to redeem the capture of royalty on the battlefield?
Your mind can allow you to redeem the tragic end of the Han people on the battlefield?!
Yue Tuo, what are you going to do? What are you going to do? Stand on the battlefield, shake your body, what the spirit of the king, shout I am a traverser, we don't want feudalism, we want advanced ideas, capitalism, **! We want these! We want a harmonious society! Build a harmonious society together! Banzai!
And then, can you change history? Can it really change everything?! Change this tragedy?! The Jurchens and the Song people put down their swords, guns and swords together, dismounted and sang love my China together? The world is peaceful?!
Yue Tuo, what else do you have besides thoughts?!
You tell me, you tell me, what do you have but thoughts, what do you know about the future?! Playing on your phone? Playing on the computer? Watching TV? Do the topic? High scores? Hit DOTA?! Do you take Song Jun to play with the Jurchens on your mobile phone or play DOTA? Do you finish the competition with Yan Agu to do math problems or physics problems? After you finished the competition with Yan Wu begging, who scored higher in the total score or higher in the sub-subject?! And then they retreated?!
You tell me, you tell me, what else can you do but look at the world with a cold eye? Lead the Great Song Dynasty to defeat the Jin people? Lead the Han people to regain their dignity?! Leading China in this era to surpass everything of its own? Can you do it? Can you do it? Na, Yue Turn, you tell me! Can you do it?!
The nails of his left hand pierced deep into the flesh of his right hand, his teeth bit his lips, and the smell of blood made Yue Chuan almost want to gag, but Yue Tuo didn't feel the pain, and watched Zhang Ying lead the army north, but did nothing, watched Zhang Ying embark on the road of death, and did nothing, and watched the Han people open Pandora's box by themselves, and walked into the bottomless abyss by themselves, and did nothing...... Isn't it?
He slammed his hands on the desk, grabbed the inkstone, roared, and slammed it on the ground, black ink splashed everywhere, and the precious inkstone snatched from the bandits was destroyed, but Yue Fan didn't feel anything, full of anger, full of anger, anger at his own selfishness and cowardice, hatred for his own powerlessness, hatred for his escape from reality......
It's been so many years, Yue Tuo, you are still like this, you are still the same Yue Flip, you haven't changed, you haven't changed, Zhou Tong exchanged your life for you, you haven't changed, Cuicui has exchanged your life for you, you haven't changed, you still haven't changed, you have failed them, you have failed all the people who trust you, you have failed all the people who have expectations of you, you have failed all the people who have invested in you, they will lose everything because of your cowardice and selfishness......
People who didn't invest in you, they could have been saved by you, but you were too selfish, you were too cowardly, you watched all this happen, you didn't do anything, you didn't even remind you, you think it's useless, it's useless, it's useless, so, you don't do it? Is it really useless? Are you really unable to do anything? You're an ordinary person, you're an ordinary person who can't be more ordinary, but ...... But don't forget...... Jurchen ...... It's human, too......
They will bleed, they will be wounded, they will die, they will be afraid of death, you are human, are they not human? Are they all stones? Invulnerable? Immortal? You slash them and see if they are dead or alive? Do you dare?! Do you dare?! Do you dare?!
Why don't you dare?!!!
Yue Flip! You bastard! You coward! You selfish villain! Shameless! Vile! Bastard to the point that you can't be a jerk anymore! You're simply not human! You're a beast! You're not as good as a beast!
After so many years, so many people, so many brave and senseless and selfless people around you, and you haven't changed anything? Tell me, what do you really want? Are you going to watch the Central Plains fall? Do you want to watch the entire Northern Song Dynasty royal family captured? Do you want to watch the Northern Song Dynasty being beaten into the Southern Song Dynasty? Are you going to watch tens of millions of Han family sons die? Are you going to watch Yue Fei and Zhang Xianlin rush to Luda and Liu Ziyu to die, and do nothing, do you want to be a cowardly, stupid and selfish villain all the time?!
Now, Yue Chuan hates himself incomparably!
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