XXXIV. A faint light in a desperate situation

"Xiang Lao, I really admire your persistent ......" Yue Tuo covered his forehead and covered his eyes by the way, the picture was so beautiful that Yue Tuo couldn't bear to look at it directly, so he chose to cover his eyes, as if he didn't have long eyes, and slowly moved out, obviously, Xiang Chong was used to Yue Tuo's actions, and didn't care at all: "I'm going out to inspect again?" Well, this is a good practice, it is in vain that you have read so many books of sages, the old man is here waiting for you to come back, by the way, today is the Winter Festival, the old man also brought some gifts, and when you come back, I will give it to you! ”

Yue Flip was a little surprised, couldn't help but let go of his hand, and looked at Xiang Chong, this old guy with his age and qualifications, it is already a habit to have dinner at his house once every five days, and he has never confiscated his gifts, probably because he was not here in the previous winter festivals, but the holidays of the Great Song Dynasty are the most in the entire ancient times, more than one hundred and twenty days of holidays, this old guy has never said that he wants to give Yue Flip gifts, Yue rolled his eyes, this time the old guy has changed sex?

But in the final analysis, it was impossible for Yue Tuo to agree to Xiang Chong, so Yue Tuo could only sigh helplessly and depressedly: "Xiang Lao, it is impossible for me to be your disciple, you better go back, the weather is cold, if it freezes out of the cold, my sin will be great!" ”

Xiang Chong just showed a slight smile: "Forty years ago, someone also said to the old man that the old man couldn't pass the state exam in his life, hehe, the old man has always been a person who doesn't accept his fate, and now you have seen it, so I said, hahahaha, don't say it, don't say it, you go to do something, your heart The old man accepted it, well, it's indeed a little cold today, the old man is waiting for you to come back in the lobby of your house, hahahahahaha!" ”

So Yue Fan had no choice but to watch Xiang Chong walk into Yue's house with a small stool, and those who were familiar with the door didn't need to be taken with him, covering his heart that was a little stuffed, taking a deep breath, and didn't say anything more, if he said anything more, it was estimated that he would be angry to death...... しw0。

Yue Flip moved towards the place agreed with Zhou Dong, what he had to do today was actually a very obscene tracking, if Zhou Tong hadn't accidentally discovered that person, maybe there would not have been today's action, however, Yue Flip was still a little suspicious, thief? Can you have so much experience and planning? Will you actually step on it beforehand? Ordinary farmers, even if they have no food to eat and are forced to become bandits, will not use the art of war to deal with the same farmers, right? Who are these people?

Zhou Tong had been waiting for a long time with a bow and arrows and a saber, wearing a thick cloth robe, surrounding the scarf that Yue Flip had made for him himself, his gray beard and hair fluttering in the wind, and his face was pale, Yue Flip stepped forward, looked at Zhou Dong's complexion, and frowned: "Master, your face is very bad." ”

Zhou Tong smiled and waved his hand: "Don't care, it's normal for the teacher to be old." ”

Yue Chuan felt a sour feeling in his heart, and said, "Let's ask the master to go back and rest, let the disciple do this matter today!" ”

Zhou Tong shook his head: "Things haven't been figured out yet, how can a teacher let you be in danger alone?" This kind of thing, one more person has a better chance of surviving, and the teacher has never done it at the beginning, and when he fights, he needs to do this! Hahahaha, turn over, today as a teacher, I will teach you these skills, marching and fighting, spying on news is not as important as ordinary! ”

Yue Fan didn't say anything more, but decided to protect the master no matter what happened today, it was best if nothing happened, it happened...... I want to repay the master a kindness, the friendship of sacrificing my life to save each other, Yue Tuan has not yet returned.

At that time, he couldn't move at all, Yue Flip kept reflecting on himself, constantly thinking about the situation that day, and kept asking himself if he encountered this kind of thing again, would he still lose his ability to act like before, and he couldn't help himself with fear, Yue Flip felt that he was very useless, the previous time, it was completely saved by Lin Chong and Zhou Dong's sacrifice, and Luda's hard work to be saved, if it weren't for them, he would have died a long time ago.

Is your useless self still worthy of living in this world? Is it really okay to blindly avoid it? I have planned for so long, it is completely just to survive, to escape, and the people around me, not to mention having lofty ideals, basically, all have the courage and sense of purpose beyond ordinary people, they are all people, why is the difference so big, I am still a soul from the future, compared with these souls of the Song Dynasty, Yue Tuo only feels very small, so small that he can't raise his head......

When Father Yue was running around so that the villagers and refugees could have enough to eat, Yue Tuo felt that he was very selfish and despicable; When Yue Fei followed Zhang Ying to pacify the bandits at the age of sixteen, Yue Fei felt that he was very useless and cowardly, and he couldn't raise his head even more when he looked at Yue Fei's excited expression; Zhou Tong, Lin Chong, Lu Junyi, are either bold people, or bold people, they have never seen who they are afraid of, no matter what happens, they will not choose to retreat, but choose to face difficulties.

In the future after a while, at the fork in the road of all Han people's lives, some people choose to go south, some people choose to go north, once people to the south choose to go south, they will no longer have the courage to go north, and once people to the north choose to go north, they will never look back to the south again, Yue Chuan knows that if Yue He, Zhou Dong, Yue Fei, Lin Chong, Lu Junyi they choose, they will not hesitate to look to the north, and then do not look south, and themselves? The choice of fate has not yet begun, and it is even far away, has he already chosen to go south?

With these people, Yue Chuan became more and more disgusted with his cowardly heart, disgusted with his own thoughts that only knew how to escape, disgusted with his deep selfishness and meanness, he became more and more disgusted with his current self, whenever he dreamed back at midnight and saw Xiao Cuicui snuggled in his arms, he would feel that he did not deserve to have a good life now, or that when the disaster came, would he still have the courage to protect everything he was now, including his beloved wife.

Yue He, Yue Fei, Zhou Tong, Lin Chong, Lu Junyi, these people with fearless courage and noble personality, used their shining lives to stab Yue who was hiding in the corner of the wall and couldn't open his eyes, but that light unexpectedly made Yue Pan yearn for it, and when he couldn't open his eyes, there was a small place in his heart that resonated with this light, and it wanted to be the same light as them!

Yue Flip held the bow and arrow in his hand tightly, gritted his teeth, he wanted to force himself, wanted to force himself to refine this small faint hope, but more often, it was blocked by the boundless darkness that blocked the light of hope, so that Yue Flip couldn't see, couldn't touch, didn't know where to start, this deep and gloomy darkness, when will it disappear? Do you have to use a fervent and furious flame to burn it? Must it go through painful torture before it can relinquish control of itself?

The cold and biting cold wind blew on Yue Tuo's face, he looked at Zhou Tong, looked at the old but still straight back of the waist, for a long time, Yue Flip lowered his head, followed Zhou Dong's footprints, and followed Zhou Dong step by step, Zhou Tong is not only the guide of the present, but also the guide of Yue Flip in the future, no matter when, Zhou Tong's influence on Yue Flip is always huge, Yue Flip looked at the back of Yue Flip's father, got a long and long dark fragrance, looked at Zhou Tong's back, Yue Flip got courage.

Even if this courage came very late, and even came very biased and paranoid, and it was not until much later that it was neutralized by the dark fragrance left by Yue's father, but this courage was still the best gift that Zhou Dong left to Yue Tuo, and it was in the boundless darkness and desperation, the faint light of hope lit up for Yue Tuo, although it was weak, but it pointed out the way forward for Yue Tuo.

Ever since Yue Tuo got this courage, Yue Tuo never looked south again