Section 18 The torment is unbearable and wants to return to Beijing
Liu Yong lives in the slander of others all day long, lives in the pointing behind others' backs, and lives in the contemptuous and discriminatory eyes of others, and he can't explain it, can't clarify, and is overwhelmed.
He was also annoyed by his colleagues and superiors, who seemed to be apprentices brought out by a master, flattering them face to face, affirming that the work of the Salt Administration had made great progress, walking in the forefront of the development of the Salt Administration, and his advanced experience had been continuously promoted to all salt farms with similar conditions in the country, which was a full affirmation of his work energy and work performance; But in the evaluation of Liu Yong, behind his back, he was in the same league with the broken mouths of the society and those with ulterior motives, and even secretly watched jokes, whispered bad things, and harmed people behind his back.
There are also good deeds, for selfish purposes, who quietly report to the prefect all kinds of so-called bad deeds of Liu Yong, and describe what they see, hear, take for granted subjective assumptions and groundless speculations, and even the concrete images of their own dark psychology emerging in their dreams.
Fortunately, the prefect of Hangzhou has a relationship with Liu Sanbian, he was a subordinate of Sun He, the former prefect of Hangzhou, and after Sun He became a Beijing official, he recommended and promoted this person by name.
The current prefect misses the old love and also values friendship, and he did not take the recital of the complaint seriously, because he knew that now the salt official of Yuhang County was Liu Sanchang, the leader of the new word holy hand opera in Hangzhou, and before he became naturalized, he formed an enviable friendship with a group of glorious beauties in Hangzhou such as Xin Niang.
He wants to learn the lessons of the previous prefect, Sun He once regretted losing his friendship because of a thought, and almost lost a trustworthy and admired friend, although Liu Sanbian did not care about the things he avoided, but the friend involved was also quite tormented in his heart, and was judged by his soul and conscience.
Since the incumbent prefect of Hangzhou had read one of these pieces, he had ordered his subordinates to seal up all such boring pieces. You don't have to report it.
At a meeting convened by a prefectural ordinance, the incumbent prefect did not name names, but seriously criticized some local officials for failing to guard their own territory, to dispel local concepts and local customs, to regard hearsay as facts, to be interested in lace news and gossip, and to not know how to maintain the prestige of their colleagues. Protect the personality energy of colleagues, find ways to erase the performance of colleagues, expand the shortcomings of colleagues who are not shortcomings, and open up for groundless and ignorant rumors and lies. How unreasonable!
After the prefectural order conveyed the prefect's serious criticism to the subordinate officials, the rumors and rumors about Liu Yong gradually thinned out.
These sufferings are not the most important thing for Liu Yong, the most important thing is Xie Yuying's change of attitude, Xie Yuying's unseriousness about Liu Yong's willingness to pay true feelings.
Liu Yong understands this. What can you do as a little salt official, saying that an official is not an official, and there is not much left for Yu Lu except to support himself, and it is impossible for him to take on the responsibility of raising his family. What's more, it's Xie Yuying, a stunning beauty in the south of the Yangtze River, you can't rely on beauty to fill your stomach, and rely on beauty to feed your children and grandchildren around your knees, right?
Liu Yong regrets that he was guided by orthodoxy and got involved in the downhill of his life. Not only failed to glorify the lintel and glorify the ancestors, but instead smeared the faces of the glorious ancestors. He made himself disgraced, like a rat crossing the street.
He misses the carefree days in Beijing, Hangzhou, and Suzhou, and he regrets that he has failed the divine decree of the parrot bird on the towering yellow horn tree, and the bitter words and warnings of the old Taoists.
There are many things to regret, such as failing to live up to my grandmother's nurturing grace, shirking the responsibility of supporting my elderly parents, living up to the selfless dedication and silent endurance of my first wife, and living up to the affection of my promising son and my brother. The impact on his spiritual defense line was too great, as if Old Master Kong, Old Master Meng and others were accusing him, even Lao Tzu, who was considered to have always been magnanimous and free from the world, also restrained his smile in front of him.
He wants to escape, he wants to leave Yuhang, if possible, he wants to leave and return to Beijing immediately, whether he is a Beijing official, although it cannot be said that he is retreating bravely, he can always be naturalized, even if he is reprimanded by my emperor, what does it matter?
The maple leaves by the river are gradually red, the beautiful flowers are decaying, the autumn of slaughter is mercilessly coming, and the sun that brings warmth to people and vitality to all things has also sunk in the west, alas, what else can be kept, what is worth keeping!
The night outside the window was hazy, dragging the tired body, with a worried heart, with a sorrow that could not be discharged, holding a wine glass in his hand, the glass was filled with bitter wine syrup, and the sound of leakage was beating on the heart, the heart was tight, the heart trembled, the heart ached faintly, the night was long, the night was not sleeping, the moon was dodging and shining, and the ghost was blinking and teasing the sorrowful. Liu Yong looked in the direction of Jingshi, looked up at the shy moon, and sighed deeply: "Isn't it better than me to have no face?" ”
He put down his wine glass, came to the desk, picked up his pen, and wrote the words under the word plate "Nanxiangzi":
The dawn is hazy, and the heartfelt feelings are coming to Hangzhou. I can't go because I can't get drunk, I tweet, I get upset and drunk prisoners. Who will accept the bones of the wilderness, but pay the cheap life. The divergent path is like sleepwalking, secluded, looking forward to when the sun and moon will end.
Liu Yong wrote it, put the envelope in front of him, he hesitated, who to send it to, who can he send it to?
The next day, the current prefect of Hangzhou happened to go to Yuhang to inspect, and his colleagues who had accompanied Liu Yanguan for a long time quietly presented Liu Yongzhi's "Nanxiangzi" to the prefect.
The prefect's method of disposition puzzled Liu Yong's accompaniment, and he asked the person who secretly submitted this word: "Where did you get it?" ”
After Liu Yong's accompaniment told the truth, the prefect congratulated: "The luck is good, and you can make a fortune if you get a good work!" ”
Liu Yong's accompanying monk Zhang's second monk couldn't touch the door, looked at the prefect in surprise, and when he didn't understand the meaning of the adult, the prefect said: "This is a wonderful new word that is hot today, and the buyer is waiting!" ”
Liu Yong's accompaniment came to his senses and asked suspiciously: "The kind of neologism that has been drunk on the Hangzhou stage for a long time, the kind that is priceless?" ”
After the prefect nodded in affirmation, Liu Yong's accompaniment said: "If this is the case, why do Liu Daguan need to be salt officials and write new words every day, wouldn't it be developed?" ”
The prefect told Liu Yong's accompaniment: "The person who sees it has a copy, if you copy a copy to me, I will keep it, and you can turn it into silver taels to solve the urgent problems for the family, okay?" ”
Can Yoo Yong's accompaniment not agree? The prefect forgave him the opportunity to make a fortune, and he thanked him for his kindness and immediately fulfilled the request made by the prefect.
The prefect still refused to believe Liu Yong's accompaniment, and it was inconvenient to explain, so he just told Liu Yong's accompaniment: "Don't say new words, it's not a problem to have a hundred and ten gold, go ahead!" Knowing that you have worked hard with Liu Yanguan, this is what he specially thanks you! ”
Somehow, in about a month, the court's conscription letter was sent to Yuhang County, and the county magistrate did not dare to slack off, and immediately summoned Liu Yong, how could Liu Yong believe that a small salt official could ascend to the sky in one step!
No one told Liu Yong the reason, and this conscription letter caused quite a stir in the small county of Yuhang, at this time he was no longer the center of anecdotes and rumors, but became the object of envy of his hands and eyes, as if his achievements were prominent overnight, and his personality seemed to be noble.
After Liu Yong got his wish, he thanked Yuhang County for giving him a place to show his talents, and the salt people heard that Liu Yanguan was about to leave them, they were very reluctant, and the salt farms spontaneously went to the county government to see them off, and the send-off procession was several miles away, the scale was large, and the number of people crying was unprecedented.
On the way back to Beijing, Liu Yong passed through Jiangzhou, and after careful consideration, he made full mental and psychological preparations, wanting to act as a sinner who mends his feelings with Xie Yuying, no matter what, he must make Xie Yuying understand his true and sincere feelings, so that he can understand the true feelings of the sea and the rocks will never change his heart, and he is willing to put the common future of each other into her hands.
However, when he went ashore to look for Xie Yuying, although Sima Men's boss was surprised, he honestly told him that Xie Yuying did not perform, but went out to celebrate his birthday at the invitation of Sun Yuanwai, and begged Liu Yong not to have the trust of cooperation.
The boss of Sima Men sincerely kept Liu Yong to rest for a while, waiting for Xie Yuying's return to express his farewell. Liu Yong politely rejected the boss's kindness on the grounds of time urgency, and with consent, inscribed a poem "Hitting the Sycamore" on the flower wall:
Dream of the dawn of the window. The remnants of the lamp were empty. Because of the bitterness of thinking about people, leaving sorrow and hate, infinite time.
Compassion is small-hearted. often becomes a nuisance. How much melancholy is there in my life. The moon is not full, and spring is easy to grow old.
Liu Yong's boat left Jiangzhou Sima Wharf for about two hours, Xie Yuying's painting boat returned to Sima Gate with the other four boats, heard the boss say so, and pointed out to her the inscription on the flower wall, Xie Yuying read it, her heart was surging, she stood for a long time, looking at the mighty waterway, tears couldn't stop flowing. (To be continued.) )