Chapter 101: Belief and Unbelief
He Huan recalled what Shen Jinglun had said, and stated gloomily: "Third Master, when you are cornered, my answer to anyone is the same. ”
He Huan's words touched the string in Xie San's heart, and he said angrily: "What do you mean, once you are cornered, you are only willing to grovel in front of Shen Jinglun?" ”
"Third Master Xie, do you have to misinterpret my words like this?"
"Then you say, how should I understand it?" Xie San lowered his head and glared at He Huan. He felt that he was simply a living bodhisattva, but she didn't appreciate it. Seeing that she wanted to change her lower body by marrying, he promised to take care of her and her family, but she said that she did not want to be a concubine. He respected her decision and was willing to pay for her to find a "wishful husband", but she was angry again. She recognized it, is it necessary for Shen Jinglun in this life?
Xie San looked directly into He Huan's eyes. He knew that she was angry, and he was also angry, it was inexplicable!
In the scorching silence, the sun roasted them hotly.
He Huan was a woman in the end, and he was stared at by the young man, only to feel that his cheeks had been red by the sun. She lowered her head and took a step back, the corner of her eyes swept over the occasional passerby, and whispered, "Third Master, you know that I didn't mean that." In fact, you know very well that what you said in the courtyard of He Daxu's house is a burden to you and me......"
"You don't care what happens to me. You have found Shen Jinglun three or four times, but if you want to use this opportunity to change the future of yourself and the He family, I can too-" Xie San stopped abruptly. She had already rejected him, so why was he trying to convince her?
He Huan glanced up at him, smiled lightly, and followed his words and said, "What the third master means." I'm just looking for results. So who is the object. It doesn't matter at all, does it? ”
"That's not what I meant." Xie San was shocked to realize that he had lost his words.
He Huan turned around and looked up at the dazzling sun, only to feel dizzy. She closed her eyes, and then slowly opened them, as the dark shadow left by the scorching sun dissipated, her eyes were no longer sour, and she smiled: "Third Master, you must not have experienced a desperate situation. The feeling of just wanting myself and my family to live......"
"I ...... I don't mean to criticize you, or to belittle you. Xie San explained eagerly. At this moment, he regretted it very much. He Huan's smile was too faint and too cold, as if she was standing in front of him, but in fact, she had already left him. "Listen to me!" He took a big step forward and grabbed her wrist anxiously.
He Huan didn't struggle, just looked around suggestively. Xie San saw that someone not far away was looking at them curiously, and he let go of his hand in disdain. A small step back.
He Huan silently widened the distance between the two, and then said: "I didn't dare to say it to death before. Because you are my savior, I don't want to deceive you. In my opinion, most of the time people live are constantly weighing and giving up, choosing the most beneficial outcome for themselves. I can't guarantee that in the future I won't have to go against my will because I don't have a choice. After my father's death, I was all too familiar with the desperation of desperation, so I only hoped that when I could, I would not go against my heart. ”
Xie San understood what she meant, she was telling him that she didn't promise that she wouldn't sell herself for survival in the future, but when she still had a choice, she wanted to fight for what she really wanted. So she wants to be Shen Jinglun's wife, not to live a comfortable life for the rest of her life, but to really want to be Shen Jinglun's wife, to get along with each other and grow old together?
Xie San didn't know how to answer the call, but he felt that she was stupid and stupid. It was easy for him or Shen Jinglun to push her into a corner.
After a moment of silence, He Huan said half-jokingly and half-seriously: "Third Master, in fact, you should be glad that if you saved me three years ago, you don't have to say what you just said, and you will definitely not be able to get rid of me." She bowed her head to Xie Sanfu and said, "If you don't have anything else, I'll go in first." ”
Xie San watched He Huan turn around and watch her bypass herself and walk towards the gate of the He family. Seeing that she was about to step through the door, he raised his voice and said, "Shen Jinglun is not suitable for you. ”
He Huan stopped, but did not look back. For the sake of her son, she has long had no choice, the only difference is whether she is a wife or a concubine. She just thought that Shen Jinglun proposed to accept her as a concubine twice, and he had never accepted a concubine or accepted a room, which meant that he probably had already decided to remarry the other party, and only waited for the person to marry three years later. He has always been a scheming person, and he never does anything that he is uncertain or meaningless.
Xie San took two steps forward, stood one step away from He Huan and said, "I don't want to tell the truth behind my back, I only say the fact that I know the Tao." ”
He Huan looked back at him. They had said so much at the gate, it was already quite noticeable, and she didn't know what Lu Xie San would say, so she had to lead him to the living room.
In a depressed and silent atmosphere, Bai Shao served hot tea. Xie San picked up the teacup, and a wry smile crossed the corner of his mouth. He Huan said clearly that he didn't want to know who he was, but after hearing the word "Shen Jinglun", he hurriedly invited him in. He put down the teacup, weighed his rhetoric for a while, and said: "Uncle Shen has returned to Jizhou for many years and has not married a wife, not as rumored by the outside world, because he has a deep relationship with Miss Xie Plaice. ”
"I know this. The marriage between him and Miss Xie and the rumors in Jizhou are just random speculations by good people. When He Huan said this, he hurriedly added: "I heard from my cousin." In fact, my relationship with my cousin is not as bad as others rumore, otherwise I wouldn't always remember my aunt and Nianxi. She lowered her head and didn't dare to look at Xie San.
Xie San was quite surprised when he heard this, and didn't pay attention to her explanation later. As far as he knows, almost everyone in Jizhou believes that Shen Jinglun is an infatuated and saint-lover, with a deep love for Xie Minjun and a deep love for Lin Xi, and he is a unique good man in the world. He was too hypocritical to avoid it.
In a short silence, Xie San's fingers touched the slightly hot teacup, his eyes were fixed on He Huan, who was blindly lowering his head, and asked, "What do you like about him, affectionate?" There was a hint of sarcasm in his tone.
He Huan pretended not to hear this, and replied: "If the third master wants to talk about Miss Xie, I think I know no less than you." ”
"Really?" Xie San chuckled, "Then do you know that ten years ago, if it wasn't for the Marquis of Yong'an interceding for him in front of the first emperor, he wouldn't have been able to return to Jizhou at all." But after the worst, Miss Xie committed suicide because of him, Yong'an Hou lost his eldest grandson, Yong'an Hou has no children, and Mrs. Shizi has been sick for many years. ”
Before Xie San's words fell, He Huan stood up excitedly and muttered, "In this way, Uncle Shen has not married for many years because of gratitude and guilt......
"For someone who has only met twice in total, who would feel guilty for seven or eight years?"
"Third Master, what do you want to say?" He Huan finally understood why Shen Jinglun did not marry Xie Minjun, but asked Lin Xiyan to worship her; She finally realized why he was staring at the tablet in a daze.
Xie San saw He Huan's reaction, and there was only disappointment in his heart. He didn't give up, raised his voice and said: "He is the patriarch of the Shen clan, and it is not easy to do it without an heir without marrying a wife for seven or eight years. Most importantly, a woman will keep a festival for her husband, but for a man, how can he delay his own children for the sake of someone who has only met twice? ”
He Huan asked rhetorically: "Third master, then what do you think, why didn't Uncle Shen marry for seven or eight years?" ”
Xie Sanyu stopped. This is what he has been puzzled about.
For a moment, He Huan pondered what Xie San had just said and asked, "The Marquis of Yong'an has no eldest grandson, why is this matter related to Uncle Shen?" ”
Xie San turned his back and replied, "I don't know exactly. I only know that on the day of the disappearance of the Hou Shisun of Yong'an, the old marquis entered the palace to intercede for Uncle Shen. The day Uncle Shen left the capital, it was the time when Miss Xie committed suicide. ”
He Huan looked at his back and said, "Are you hinting at me, Uncle Shen used the talents of the Hou Shisun of Yong'an to escape from the capital, and Miss Xie hanged herself because she was engaged to him?" ”
"I'm not hinting at you anything." Xie San shook his head.
He Huan shook his head and muttered to himself: "If this is the case, Uncle Shen will not keep Miss Xie's tablet......"
Xie San turned around excitedly and said word by word: "The Shen family's piece is not the tablet of the eldest lady." ”
He Huan looked at him suspiciously, and asked in a low voice, "Is your surname really Xie?" ”
"Don't you want to know who I am?" Xie San asked rhetorically.
There was another silence, Xie San saw that He Huan resolutely did not express his position, waited impatiently, and said in a rough voice: "Don't be deceived by illusions, there are no perfect people in the world, especially men!" ”
For a moment, He Huan wanted to ask him, is it because Miss Xie is your family member that you are so excited. But she heard Shen Zhihua inadvertently say that the people in the Yong'an Hou Mansion are thin, and the old marquis has a total of three sons, the second and third sons died when they were young, and the heirs have been difficult since the son got married. Besides, the Marquis of Yong'an has always been deeply favored, and now that Concubine Xie Guifei has given birth to the emperor's eldest son, how could the people of the Hou Mansion come to the remote Jizhou and risk their lives to save her, a civilian woman.
He Huan instantly felt that he was thinking too much, Xie San was so good, he should be the son of a military attache in the capital, and he happened to have a relationship with the prince of Yong'an Hou.
Seeing Xie Sanzheng looking at herself, she seemed to be true and said, "Xie Sanye said this, don't you forget, you are also a man." ”
"Do you believe me?"
He Huan shook his head and said: "It's not a question of believing or not believing, but a question of position." ”
"You want to say that I have a prejudice against Shen Jinglun?"
"Not really." He Huan shook his head again, "From Uncle Shen's point of view, how can he delay Miss Xie when he left the capital as a substitute?" As far as I know, Uncle Shen has sent gifts to Beijing every year in the past few years. If the Shen and Xie families have a grudge......"
"Boxing?" Xie San sneered, "Then do you know that the old marquis will return the gift with the equivalent amount of silver every year?" In his opinion, Shen Jinglun's behavior is tantamount to forced buying and selling. Of course, the Yong'an Hou Mansion is not short of such a little silver. (To be continued......)