When Tian Fan woke up, the army was slowly moving.

He wanted to ask about the current situation, but no one thought that with his current weak body and spirit, he could think about the next battle plan, so no one wanted to tell him.

Tian Fan smiled speechlessly for a while, yes, you can do whatever you like, I don't care!

He looked at a large circle of people around him and said, "Okay, whatever you say is what you say, anyway, I know your ability, and I believe in your judgment, and I believe that your command will be stronger than me!" However, ......" He paused slightly, glanced at everyone one by one, especially focused on Lu Bu, and said: "Since you have chosen Zhengqing to temporarily replace me and take over my command, you must try your best to cooperate!" Bongxian, especially you! ”

Lu Bu rolled his eyes unhappily, am I so ignorant?

Tian Fan handed the Tiger Fu and the White Tiger Legion Governor Seal to Gao Shun, and said: "Zhengqing, from this moment on, you are the acting governor of the White Tiger Legion, and you have the right to dispose of all disobedient people, you don't need to ask me if you have something, you can deal with it yourself." ”

Gao Shun solemnly took the seal of the tiger talisman and said, "No! ”

Tian Fan nodded and said, "I don't have to say much about the rest, but Yuanren, Xiaozhi, Shiyuan, Kong Ming and Boyan, all five of them have geniuses, not to mention filial piety, he has been following Wenyuan for some time, and he has also been recognized by Wenyuan." The four of them have never participated in a war, including Xiaozhi, this war is the time for them to shine, and the reason why I took them with me is also to train them through actual combat, so that what they usually learn can be integrated on the battlefield and grow up as soon as possible. Zhengqing, these five people need you to carve well, I hope you will teach them well for me! ”

Gao Shun hugged his fists and said: "No! ”

Tian Fan closed his eyes tiredly, waved his hand and said, "You guys go down, I'll take a rest!" ”

Everyone clenched their fists and turned to leave, Yang Xu, Fa Zheng, Pang Tong, Zhuge Liang and Lu Xun's eyes were a little red, looking at the groggy Tian Fan, for a long time, the five of them gave a deep bow and turned to leave.

Tian Fan has been groggy and in a very poor mental state, and the time he is completely awake is only two hours a day. Doctor Fei is a good doctor, what he said is very right, Tian Fan's illness is indeed caused by overthinking. In fact, since he married Lu Xin in March, there was an accident in the printing process, and then he was assassinated, and then the workshop was attacked by Taishan thieves, and then it was easy to return to Xiapi, Guo Jia came to find it, Lu Shuang appeared, Chen Qun and others attacked, etc., a series of events appeared one after another, and the string in his heart never loosened. After that, he led the army to the battle, shared the joys and sorrows with the soldiers, endured the test of the scorching heat, and then endured the unbearable order to slaughter the city, and finally got drunk and was frightened by the nightmare, all the conditions occurred at the same time, so he fell ill.

It's just a natural reaction from his body when he's too tired. But Dr. Fei was only half right, he thought that he had seen the origin of Tian Fan's illness, but it was actually far away! It's a pity that there are no more than five people in the world who can see what Tian Fan has done, and none of them are around. And because these people have not been around, when the hidden worries in Tian Fan's body really attacked, it almost caused irreparable consequences. Of course, this is a later story, so I won't mention it for the time being.

On this day, Tian Fan didn't have any more nightmares, and when he woke up the next day, he finally had some energy. He didn't feel in the car, and he knew the army should have stopped. When he asked the guards who were waiting around him, the guards' answers confirmed his thoughts, and it turned out that this was the fifth day after his illness.

Sitting behind the low table with a thick backrest on his back, he drank a bowl of millet porridge, and the dish that he had always loved very much on the low table did not move a bite, and he didn't want to eat it anymore.

At this time, Old Man Tang walked in with a jar of wine and opened the curtain, but Shi Ah did not follow.

Tian Fan smiled and said, "Donald, sit!" ”

Old Man Tang was not polite, he found a cushion to sit opposite Tian Fan, put the jar of wine on the low table, poured himself a full bowl, and then drank it in a big gulp.

Wiping his mouth and taking the chopsticks handed over by the guard, the old man smiled and said, "You don't want to eat so many dishes at all, it's cheap for me!" "Come on, you're welcome, and eat it in a big gulp.

Tian Fan watched him eat and drink with a smile on his face, and he didn't speak, he knew that Old Man Tang would not be okay to take a jar of wine to satisfy himself, he must have something to say.

Sure enough, after three rounds of wine and five flavors, Old Man Tang wiped his mouth indiscriminately, put his chopsticks on the low table, looked at Tian Fan for a long time, and suddenly sighed.

Tian Fan was still smiling, waiting for him to speak.

"Boguang, do you know how old the old man is this year?"

Tian Fan shook his head and said, "I don't know!" ”

Old Man Tang smiled and said, "The old man is forty out of seventy this year!" Do you know when I lived the most in my life except for my childhood? ”

Tian Fan shook his head, and Old Man Tang said: "There are three periods of time in my life that I have been very happy, one is a carefree childhood, the second is a few years after I married my wife, and the third is the last few years in your house. ”

With a long sigh, he continued: "When I was a teenager, I had to worship famous teachers and learn martial arts, but I was not happy, because I was not happy. When I was young, I just came out of the rivers and lakes, and I became famous with my archery skills, and before I could start to be happy, I was chased and killed because I killed a person who was not easy to mess with. After the age of thirty, I was hunted down by others and comprehended the second level of archery in a desperate situation, but I was still not happy, because at that time, there were not many people in the world who could be called my opponents, and they were scattered all over the world, and it was not so easy to see. The loneliness of the master, in fact, I don't like it very much.

"When I was in my thirties, I got married and had a good child, and I was very happy at that time. After the age of forty, I won the title of one of the three unique ones in the world with my newly comprehended third level of archery, which made me happy, but unfortunately, before I could be happy for a few days, someone came to the door! He took my family and then made a bet with me that the bet was my freedom, and he won me to be his retainer, and whether I won or lost, he would let my family go. No matter how you look at this bet, I took advantage of it, and I just became one of the three uniques, and I was full of confidence, so I naturally accepted the challenge happily.

"Hehe, that's a real master, extremely skillful, I'm not an opponent, so I had no choice but to be his retainer. Since then, I have done many things under his orders that I did not want to do, and killed many people who should not have been killed, the elderly, children, pregnant women, and I am also a person with a conscience, and I do not want to kill them, but we rangers are more faithful than heaven, so I am very unhappy.

"When I was fifty years old, something happened! My master made a big mistake that caused his descendants to suffer heavy casualties, and his marginal men immediately fell apart. The betrayed men attacked him, and because of my protection, the master was spared. But my leg was lame, and my wife left me. Hehe, you definitely don't know that the enemy who killed my old wife and abolished my leg turned out to be my favorite disciple! So, even though I realized the fourth level after that incident, I still couldn't be happy.

"The master thanked me for saving his life, broke the master-slave contract between us, and I regained my freedom, and from then on I took Xian'er and Feng'er to live a small hidden life in the city, until we fled to Xuzhou in the event of a locust plague. You know what happened after that. ”

Tian Fan nodded, frowned, and said, "Old man, what do you want to say?" ”

Old Man Tang didn't answer, he drank the wine one by one, until his face was flushed, and then he said, "It's nothing, I just don't want others to know what I have experienced after I die!" ”

Tian Fan fell ......

Old Man Tang smiled and said, "Several changes in my life have created me now. When I was hunted down, I broke through the limit and comprehended the second layer of archery, and met a master, and at the critical moment I comprehended the third layer of archery, and then my wife died tragically, and I comprehended the fourth layer of archery! I don't know what's wrong with my life, why do I have a breakthrough every time I have a tragic experience? If those experiences were a test of God, a torture that allowed me to break through the previous torment, I would rather not! ”

While talking and drinking, after a while, the old man became eight points drunk.

"Actually...... In fact, I also thought about it later, the time before every breakthrough is always the most confused time in my life, at that time I can feel that I am about to break through to a new realm, but I always can't enter, so I will ignore many things, including the beauty around me, the danger around me. Maybe God saw my confusion, so it sent disaster to help me break through, maybe the breakthrough was my choice, I chose, so there were these unwanted results.

"Actually, I don't regret it! Not to mention the risks encountered in the first two breakthroughs, even if it is the death of my wife, I have never regretted it. Since my wife followed me, she has not lived a stable life, and she fell ill when she gave birth to Feng'er, and then she has been paralyzed in bed and tortured, and I feel uncomfortable. If God gives me another chance to choose, I will choose to break through! ”

After a slight pause, Old Man Tang said: "Boguang, the old man knows that you are uncomfortable, because you have issued an order to slaughter the city!" But, Boguang, if you were given another chance to choose, how would you choose? I guess it's better to slaughter the city, right? ”

Tian Fan closed his eyes, tried his best to control his emotions, and after a while, said, "Yes!" However, when I think of the innocent people who died tragically, my heart is very sad. ”

Old Man Tang nodded, shook his head again, and said, "In fact, life is a process of continuous choice, continuous choice, and continuous abandonment. Whether your choice is reasonable or not depends on the angle you stand, sometimes a seemingly unreasonable choice is very reasonable from a deep level. This time, you chose to slaughter the city, which seems unreasonable, but in fact, it is to avoid unnecessary sacrifices of war sergeants and pawns in the future, this is your reason. Next time, you may choose to kill the soldiers who slaughtered civilians, because that would not be good for the people you occupy the territory.

"So, since you have chosen, you must let go of the unbearable in your heart, there is nothing wrong with slaughtering the city, war is not only about mercy, but also about threatening. As long as there are no more sporadic casualties on the newly occupied territory when the Xuzhou army conquers the world in the future, and the soldiers do not kill the people of the entire village and the entire settlement to vent their anger, then the death of more than 10,000 people will be worth it. Isn't it worth the death of more than 10,000 people in exchange for the lives of countless people? If you were given a chance to choose again, you would definitely choose to do it again, wouldn't you? If that's right, then what's there to blame yourself for? To put it mildly, born in this troubled world, everyone has long been prepared to be killed, because no one knows what day the catastrophe will become.

"Boguang, let go of your unbearableness, you are not in the rear now, you are on the front line, if you return from the defeat of this war because of your reasons, tens of thousands of soldiers have suffered heavy casualties, and then you need to fight again, and you will be killed and injured countless times, then you are the great sin that cannot be atoned! Boy, don't think so much, take care of your illness, take care of your body, and then do what you should do! ”

As soon as he finished speaking, the old man fell to the ground limply, and after a while, there was a whirring and snoring sound.