Chapter 720: Loneliness
It was already noon, Song Qingyun was sitting alone in the small courtyard in a daze, three o'clock in the afternoon was coming, and Lu Sixuan would soon be executed. Looking at the falling red leaves on the treetops, Song Qingyun recalled in her mind the scene when she met Lu Sixuan a few days ago.
"Qingyun, you help me to plead, I don't want to die yet!" Song Qingyun finally agreed to see Lu Sixuan, but she also wanted to see him for the last time, and she didn't know what he would say in the first sentence he spoke, but she didn't expect that the first sentence he said was like this.
Song Qingyun sighed and said faintly: "I'm sorry, Sixuan, I can't do anything about this matter." β
Lu Sixuan's eyes were red, and he gasped and said angrily: "I know, you just blame me for deceiving you, blame me for making decisions without authorization and killing Xianfeng, you still like that dog emperor in the end, don't you?!" β
Song Qingyun snorted coldly, her face began to turn blue, and Lu Sixuan continued: "What did you say to Su Shun before he was beheaded?" Have you been planning to kill me and avenge Xianfeng all morning?! β
Song Qingyun was silent for a long time before she slowly exhaled and said word by word: "My man is the only one I can kill him, who are you?" Do I need you to act as a substitute? You keep saying that you love me and for me, but in fact, you are unwilling to live under others for a long time! Kill Xianfeng, you are to make the Xinyou coup d'Γ©tat in advance, in order to oust the Sushun party from power in advance, you just want to be the first minister of the Manchu Qing Dynasty one step earlier! What is to avenge me, what is angry for me, it is just an excuse! β
Lu Sixuan opened his mouth wide, and after two hehes in his mouth, he smiled miserably and said, "It turns out that you have always thought so. It seems that Su Shun is right, the two of us have always been suspicious of each other. β
Song Qingyun sighed lightly and said, "I know history. You know, I know the knowledge. You also know, even what I don't know outside the palace, you still know, in fact, the person I was most afraid of at that time was still you, because I really couldn't grasp you, and I really didn't know what you thought in your heart. β
Speaking of this, Song Qingyun paused and continued: "Since you killed Xianfeng, I have been afraid of you, you even dare to kill Xianfeng, and you did it completely without my knowledge." I really don't know if you're going to hurt me and Jae-soon in the future. At that time, you were in charge of the army, and there was an echo with Zeng Guofan, who was holding a heavy army, I had to exchange my body for something, and what I hated most was that others used their power to force me to do something I didn't want to do! β
Lu Sixuan's face turned pale, and he said bitterly: "It's ridiculous that I thought you already liked me at the time, and you will love me alone in the future!" β
Song Qingyun immediately interrupted him and said, "I have never loved you, Lu Sixuan, no matter what you do, I will never love you." It's not about your identity, it's about how you are that I really don't like it. β
Song Qingyun continued: "Every thing you do is thinking about yourself, and you never thought about whether others would accept it, and then I took your power." Putting you under house arrest is just to make you think about it, and I hope you can figure it out. But you want to be able to make a comeback. did not hesitate to collude with Mianyu and Ci'an to prepare a coup d'Γ©tat, after the defeat. You actually sneaked out of Beijing and colluded with foreigners. Even at the expense of selling the country in exchange for what you want, you are doing it for yourself from beginning to end! β
Lu Sixuan said gloomily: "I see, I thought that my power was not strong enough to win your favor, I thought that as long as I could grasp the same power as Xiao Yungui, you would be able to fall in love with me, it turns out that everything is my own fault." β
Song Qingyun said lightly: "You don't know how to love someone, you don't know how to love someone, what you love is just yourself, and anyone else is just a tool in your eyes, including your titular wife Zeng Jijing, isn't it?" β
Lu Sixuan said angrily: "No, no, I love you, everything I do is for you, for you!" Then Lu Sixuan pointed at Song Qingyun and said angrily: "What's so good about Xiao Yungui, it's worth your love for him, what's so good about Xianfeng, it's worth it for you to do this for him!" β
Song Qingyun sighed lightly and said faintly: "It seems that you really don't know how to love and how to get along with people." In my previous life, I knew that Agui didn't like me, and although we were engaged, he never hid this dislike. Later, he led his troops to the capital, and I went to see him, originally he could use my feelings for him to deceive me into supporting him, but he didn't do it, and he said from beginning to end that he just regarded me as a good friend, which was a rare true friendship, and he didn't lie to me. β
After a pause at this, Song Qingyun's cheeks flushed slightly and said: "And Xianfeng, although he, he bullied me before, but after getting along, I found that he is the real person who has no scheming, I have been lying to him all along, but he believes in me unconditionally." It wasn't until you said it just now that I realized that in fact, the man I fell in love with in my heart had always been the man who bullied me. β
Lu Sixuan looked at Song Qingyun with an incredible expression, and only listened to her continue: "You don't know how I spent a few years in the palace, at that time only this man was by my side, shh Whether it's Gui or you, I found out that I was just a kind of friendship with you later, and I didn't have that kind of unforgettable love. β
Lu Sixuan felt dizzy in his mind, and suddenly he understood that Song Qingyun was in the deep palace after crossing over, and the people he faced were all deceitful, as she said, if she was really good to her, she might only be Xianfeng alone, this man trusted her, gave her power, this man loved her, gave her love, these were all things that he and Xiao Yungui could not give her, in this case, would Song Qingyun still fall in love with someone else? It turns out that she has always loved the man who once bullied her, which seems to be a typical Stockholm syndrome.
Lu Sixuan smiled bitterly and said: "It turns out that everything I did was in vain, maybe you are right, everything I do is for myself, in fact, I just want to prove one thing, that is, I am stronger than Xiao Yungui, I can be more powerful than him, but it turns out that I have always been compared to the wrong person." β
Song Qingyun said softly: "Sixuan, you are wrong, in fact, it is very simple to get a woman's true love, she doesn't need your power, nor does she need your money, all she needs is that you can love her sincerely." β
Lu Sixuan said bitterly: "But didn't those women in the previous life like power and money?" β
Song Qingyun sighed and said: "It turns out that you were polluted by the materialistic society in your previous life, but no matter what other women are, I just don't like those things......"
Lu Sixuan sighed and nodded slowly, and finally said, "I know, Qingyun, I'm sorry, I don't know where I did wrong now." You go, thank you for coming to see me. β
Song Qingyun looked at him for a long time and said: "Sixuan, drink the bar, when you get drunk that day, there will be no pain and fear, everyone has to be responsible for what he has done......"
Lu Sixuan smiled and interrupted her and said: "I know, in fact, to die right now may be a relief, and now it is a torment to let me live, there is nothing to be nostalgic for in this time and space." β
Song Qingyun couldn't help but ask, "What about Zeng Jijing?" And what about that kid of yours? β
Lu Sixuan shook his head and said: "You're right, I've always been using Zeng Jijing, and I have no feelings for her, and now I only have guilt for her, let me face her alive, and I don't know how to face it." Let's go, we'll see you in the next life......"
"Mother, mother." Zai Chun's call interrupted Song Qingyun's recollection, and seeing that the sun had passed three o'clock in the afternoon, Song Qingyun said to Zai Chun: "Ah Chun, you are good, my mother is here to bid farewell to an old friend." As he spoke, he raised the three pillars of fragrance in front of the case and bowed to him, and then picked up the wine jug and toasted three glasses of wine.
Jae-chun asked curiously, "Mother, what kind of good friend is he?" β
Song Qingyun picked up his son, pointed to a tablet on the table and said: "He is your Uncle Lu, a very hard-working person, but it's a pity that he is working in the wrong direction......" I saw that the tablet was written "The Spirit of My Best Friend Lu Sixuan".
At the same time, in the Forbidden City Palace, Xiao Yungui and Hong Yun'er were also doing the same thing, after they bowed from afar, Hong Yun'er took Xiao Yungui's hand tightly and said: "Ah Gui, we have the ability to save him......"
Xiao Yungui shook his head and said, "Everyone is responsible for what he has done......
Hong Yun'er shook her head and interrupted him: "This is just an excuse we made for ourselves, in fact, we are all afraid of him, aren't we?" We're afraid that he'll stay in the world any longer, and we don't know what terrible things he's going to do, that's why we're going to make him disappear on this plane completely, right? β
Xiao Yungui was silent for a long time before he said: "His life is indeed a great threat to us, you are right, I don't know what else he will do if he lives, and he has a special identity, and he is inextricably linked with the surrendered Hunan army, he can't be safe if he doesn't die." β
Hong Yun'er still couldn't bear to say: "Can't you lock him up for the rest of your life?" β
Xiao Yungui said with a wry smile: "Lock him up for the rest of his life, let him have no freedom for the rest of his life, then it's better to kill him with a knife, if it's you, are you willing to be locked up for a lifetime, and never be free?" β
Hong Yun'er was silent, and finally Xiao Yungui also looked at the tablet on the table and said loudly: "Sixuan, go all the way, I hope we can be brothers and ...... in the next life" (to be continued......)