Wuxian dragged me through a field of alfalfa flowers, then pointed to the cypress road not far away, "Hungry, I made you a fish soup over there." ”

"What about you, what did you bet with Zhiyao? Why did Zhi Yao say that I won two cities for you? ”

"What are you doing in such a hurry? Aren't you really hungry or tired? It seems that I have spared you this day and night. Seeing me chattering, Wuxian took me into his arms and rubbed the tip of his nose with his head down.

I blushed and put my hands over his face.

He smiled in the palm of my hand, grabbed my wrist, and said, "What are you doing covering my face when you're shy?" I'm not ashamed. ”

"I'm hungry and I'm going to eat fish." I withdrew my hand and ran as fast as I could towards the shore of the lake.

The wild goose lake in spring has changed the depression of the past, the mirror-like lake surface reflects the crimson sunset in the sky, flocks of geese inhabit the water and grass on the shore of the lake, occasionally a few flutter their wings and fly, the sound of singing is crisp and far. Not far from the flock of geese, there is a wooden frame under the cypress tree, on which a copper kettle hangs, and light smoke curls from the kettle. I found my own bowl and took a wooden spoon and filled a bowl full of fish soup.

Wuxian walked up to me with a smile and said, "Zhiyao and I are betting on the opportunity of the Zhao clan to defeat Zheng. Zhiyao wanted to fight Zheng alone with the strength of his family on the grounds that his father had been ill for a long time. In this way, he can not only establish prestige in the army, but also obtain the reward promised by the Marquis of Jin alone. The city of rewards is in the north, and I can't help but fight. ”

"But didn't you say that Zhiyao didn't plan to kill Zheng? The dispute between Song and Zheng only needs to be mediated. I bowed my head and took a sip of the refreshing fish soup.

"Fool, that's a nonsense to deceive Qi people, do you believe it? It's not that Zhi Yao doesn't want to cut Zheng, but because of the illness of the Marquis of Jin, he can't cut Zheng yet. But Song and Zheng have been fighting for more than 100 years, and he can always find an excuse to send troops. If I hadn't taken precautions, wouldn't I have let him gain the four northern cities alone, and cut off my Zhao clan's path to the north. ”

The Jin Kingdom had Qin in the west, Chu in the south, and Zheng, Wei, Qi, and Lu in the east. If the Zhao clan wants to expand the land, they can only go north. In order to help Zhao Ying advance north, Dong Anyu built a big city on a wasteland, and in order to fill this big city, Zhao Ying asked my grandfather Zhao Wu for 500 households. Destroy Handan to fill Jinyang. My family, all my relatives became victims of the Zhao family's northward march in this way.

"You still want to expand north?" I was holding the clay bowl, and the fish soup in my mouth had completely changed its taste.

"The north is the lifeblood of the Zhao family, and I have to fight."

"But what if I lost last night?"

"If he loses in six sets, then God will help him Zhiyao. It's a pity that the gods favored me and gave you to me. Wuxian reached out to wipe the fish soup from the corner of my mouth, I pursed my lips, put down the fish soup in my hand and stood up: "It was Chen Pan's arrogance that helped you last night, and it has nothing to do with me." I'm full, I'm going back. ”

"Are you still blaming me?" Shirtless grabbed my hand.

"I don't blame you. It's just that you're going to be a daddy, you and I won't see you if you can see it today! I tried to break his hand, but this time I couldn't.

"Let go, I'm leaving."

"Nope." He wrapped his arms around me tightly, "You have me in your heart, and I only have you in my heart." You and I will not have any irrelevant people in the future. My Zhao Wuxian's wedding vow is only said once in my life. Death and life are broad, and they grow old with their sons. Now, you are not old, I am not old, why are you so eager to push me away? ”

"Last night was an accident. What I told you in the hayloft that day was what I was telling the truth. You haven't changed, I've changed. Where I'm going in the future, who I'm going with or not, it's none of my business with you. Before I could finish my sentence, my voice was choked.

"One time is enough, you can't leave me alone! Whether you believe it or not, I, Zhao Wuxian, have never failed you in the slightest. As long as I take the kingdom of the north, I will no longer need the horses of the Di people, and you will never see that woman and her children again. ”

"Daiguo is Bo Ying's Daiguo, child...... It's also your child. ”

"That's not my child! I just want the child you gave birth to me, and you wait for me, two years. No, a year is fine. He held my head and shouted eagerly.

I looked at him, tears rolling in my eyes: "Hongyun'er, we won't have children...... I can't wait for you, and I can't love you anymore. ”

"Why?"

Because ...... "Because I am the daughter of Handan Jun Zhao Ji, because your father ruined my home, because if I stay with you and have children, then how can I be worthy of my dead aunt......

"Ah?"

"Don't ask me why."

"Okay, if you don't say it, I won't ask."

The unshirted tenderness forced tears out of my eyes: "I don't want to cry, I don't want to cry." ”

"You're not crying." He sighed and gently pressed my head against his chest.

When I returned to the city, the sun had set, a light moon hung on the top of the mountain, and the light and veil-like clouds moved gently in the inky blue sky. Shirtless rode a horse in front of me, and the sound of broken horses' hooves drove me all the way back to the small courtyard by the muddy water.

I don't want to let go of the people behind me, but I have to let go.

Before the sound of the horse's hooves had stopped, I had jumped off my horse and rushed into the courtyard.

There was silence outside the door, except for the noisy chickadees standing on the branches of the hibiscus flowers.

I knew he was standing outside the door, and he knew I was standing here.

A door separated two people, separated by two hearts.

"Let's go!" I closed my eyes tightly.

The wind blew the ends of my hair, and when I opened my eyes, I was already lifted up by him.

"Ah Shi, there is no no, there is nothing wrong with me!" He hugged me and kicked open the fragile door.

…………

In front of me were the flames that rushed to the sky, the crumbling walls, and the charred dirt and sparks falling on the fragile flower branches. The sea of flowers burned into a sea of fire, there were cries everywhere, and black smoke billowed everywhere.

I stepped barefoot on the hot ground, and the pain in my feet was overwhelming. I knew it was a dream, a nightmare of my own, but I didn't want to wake up. I want to see my mother, I want to see my brother, even if it's in a dream.

Walking into the city on the banks of the great river, the towers of the castle collapsed in the fire behind me, but I did not look back, because it was a past that I could not stop.

"A-Niang-A-Brother-" I stepped on the scorched earth and walked towards the city.

"Ah Shun—Ah Quinoa—" The man's voice echoed in my ears.

Is that him? I stopped and looked at the smoke billowing in front of me.

Zhao Ji, who was holding a long sword, walked through the flames and through the sea of fire towards me. The tip of his sword was dripping with blood, and his face was covered in black smoke.

"Daddy......" I looked at him, and my lips moved, and I called out two words that I thought I would never invoke in my life.

"Who are you?" Zhao Ji, who was dressed in Mars, came to me, he looked down at my face, and then pressed my shoulder, and stabbed a blood-dripping long sword into my chest inch by inch, "Are you my good daughter?" He asked.

"No-" The sharp pain in my chest made me scream and wake up from my dream.

In the dark, Wuxian held my hand and carefully took me into his arms: "What's wrong?" Having a nightmare? ”

I curled up and nodded silently in his arms.

"It's okay, it's good to wake up." The shirtless hugged me tighter.

"Did I just say anything in my dreams?" I asked.

"You're going to tell me, what did you dream about?"

"Don't." I shook my head softly, everything in my dreams was a secret I could never speak. Handan, Zhao Ji, war, death, revenge, no matter which one, as soon as I open my mouth, everything I have now will come to naught.

"Then go to sleep."

"Hmm." I said yes softly, and after a long time asked, "Is it raining outside?" ”

"Maybe it's down, maybe it's not. I don't care unless you want to go see the rain with me right now. Shirtless brushed away the broken hair stuck to my face and gently closed my eyes for me, "You're tired for the past two days, go to bed quickly." ”

"I'm afraid I'll have nightmares."

"It's okay, I'll go find you in your dreams." Shirtless kissed me in my hair, then sighed and hugged me again.

I listened to the sound of his steady and powerful heartbeat, and my panicked heart gradually calmed down. Whether or not we are going to be separated in the morning, at least he is still there this night.

"A-"

In the middle of the night, Yu An's voice burst into my ears with a heavy knock on the door, and I opened my eyes in a daze, almost thinking that it was another dream.

"Why is he here at this time?" Wuxian got up and lit the oil lamp on the table, and it was still dark outside the window.

"I don't know, don't something happen to Si'er!" I grabbed my clothes scattered on the floor, put them on randomly, and ran out of the room before I had time to put on my shoes.

It was raining lightly outside the house, and Yu An stood outside the courtyard gate with a torch, followed by the child who was driving.

"What's wrong? What happened? I asked urgently.

"The prime minister fell into the courtyard at night, and when the night attendant found him, he was unconscious. Wuxian is not in the mansion, Yichen is in the palace again, the witch doctor in the Zhao mansion is helpless, and the head of the house can only come to me if he is afraid of Zhang Yang. ”

"Okay, I'll change my clothes and I'll go with you right away." I ran into the house, shirtless and fully dressed, waiting for me with a robe in one hand and a medicine box in the other.

"Did you hear it all? Hurry back to your house! I took off my coat and pulled out a white cloth from under the bed and wrapped it around my chest quickly.

"Dong Shu came alone?"

"And a soldier who drives a car." I put on my witch robe, took the medicine box handed over by the shirtless, and found a random wooden hairpin to tie my hair on the top of my head.

"Then you go first, and I'll be there later."

"Why?"

"Even if you're a man, I'll be criticized for staying in your room." Wuxian leaned over and blew out the candle on the desk and opened the door for me, "Go quickly, my father is waiting for you!" ”

"Hmm." While wearing my witch robe, I ran out of the courtyard gate and jumped into Yu An's carriage.

The soldier flicked the long spur to move the carriage. Yu An glanced back at my small courtyard, his lips moved slightly but he didn't speak.