Chapter 103: Is He Still Alive?

Su Qingyuan's face was slightly red.

Seeing that Lu Junnuo had slipped out safely, she raised her head and forced her composure: "Jun'er is my son, what's wrong?" ”

Lu Li habitually stretched out his hand and hooked her waist: "You are getting more and more confused!" Isn't our son still here? ”

Su Qingyuan immediately broke free of his hand, and his face was ugly.

Lu Li was stunned and tightened his brows: "What's wrong?" ”

Su Qingyuan avoided his gaze and said lightly: "It's okay." Jun'er is just learning from others, don't take it to heart. Those rumors outside can't become climate ...... for a while."

"Ah, you have something on your mind." Lu Li stretched out his hand again, and unsurprisingly was dodged by Su Qingyuan again.

Su Qingyuan lowered her head and said in a flat tone: "I don't have anything on my mind." I'm just a little tired. ”

Lu Li's heart was a little angry: "When you see Su Qingluan, you are not tired, you are not tired when you see Concubine Xian, and you are not tired when you see Jun'er, but when you see me, you are tired?" ”

"I don't think you should have time to see me at this point." Su Qingyuan leaned on the pillow, still refusing to look at Lu Li.

Lu Li leaned down and hugged her shoulder: "I snubbed you for political affairs before, and it was not good for me." Now that I've left it all to those troubled old men, I'll be with you every day from now on. ”

Su Qingyuan shrunk her shoulders and avoided his hand for the third time.

This time, Lu Li was really annoyed.

Su Qingyuan simply shrunk into the quilt and said in a muffled voice: "It's an eventful season, wasting time with me is the most unwise choice." Now there are Xiliang and Beiyan outside, my father's wolf ambition inside, and there is an aunt Nian in the palace who doesn't know where to hide...... There's so much to worry about. I can't help you much, at least you should put some effort into witchcraft, maybe you can pull out the tumor hidden in the palace......"

"Anyway, you just don't like me to be with you." Lu Li summarized for her.

Su Qingyuan hugged her shoulder in the quilt and did not speak.

Lu Li's face immediately sank.

What does it mean not to speak? Default?!

"You come out for me!" Lu Li rudely lifted the corners of the quilt and grabbed Su Qingyu's shoulder.

Su Qingkite suddenly let out a scream, curled up and shrank into the corner.

Lu Li frowned and put down the quilt in his hand: "Ah kite? ”

Su Qingyuan closed her eyes and exhaled slowly: "Don't come here." ”

Lu Li stood by the bed for a long time, and finally sighed: "Concubine Xian is a soothsayer, she invited me over last night, just because the hexagram is different, and there is no other reason. ”

"I know." Su Qingyu's voice trembled faintly.

Lu Li's brows tightened: "As for Su Qingluan, I thought you should believe me more." What kind of person your sister is, your girl should have already told you. ”

"I know." Su Qingkite is still those three words.

Lu Li leaned forward, and sure enough, he saw Su Qingyuan shrinking into the corner again.

He sighed in frustration: "Other than that, I really can't think of any other place that could possibly offend you. If you're worried about Jun'er...... Since I let him go in the first place, I naturally won't do anything to him easily in the future - what are you awkward about? ”

"You didn't offend me," Su Qingyuan raised her head, "It's me who is not good." ”

"Come here." Lu Li stretched out his hand.

Su Qingyuan refused to move, and Lu Li kept stretching out his hand and looking at her.

After hesitating for a long time, Su Qingyuan finally stretched out his hand.

Lu Li pulled her out from that corner, his hand clenched tightly: "What nonsense did you listen to again?" Concubine Xian's divination skills are not considered home, she can only see that you and I are in danger of separation in the future, but she didn't say that we are destined to fly separately - what are you afraid of? ”

Su Qingyuan tried to defend with a bitter face: "It has nothing to do with Concubine Xian's divination, I just think it's ......"

"You just think it's an eventful time and you and I have more important things to do?" Lu Li picked up the latter words for her.

Su Qingyuan nodded in a daze.

Lu Li used force in his hand and dragged Su Qingyuan into his arms: "Are you stupid to me?" You don't allow me to hold it, you don't allow me to touch it, and you have to hesitate for so long to even hold hands - is it really just because you're 'busy'? ”

Su Qingyuan was speechless, and lowered her head weakly.

was held in Lu Li's arms, and her whole body was stiff.

Lu Li deliberately put his fingers into her shirt, drawing circles on her waist and eyes.

The little guy in his stomach moved restlessly a few times, but Su Qingyuan only tensed his body and didn't dare to move.

Lu Li deliberately lowered his head and touched Su Qingyu's forehead with the tip of his nose, unsurprisingly noticing that she was clenching the corners of the quilt in a panic.

After all, he couldn't bear to scare her anymore, so he had to hug her body quietly and be speechless for a long time.

Su Qingyuan gradually relaxed.

She let go of the quilt, grabbed Lu Li's sleeve again, and rubbed it unconsciously.

Lu Li hugged her and lay down together, trying his best to soften his voice: "What happened, can you say it now?" ”

Su Qingyuan was silent for a long time, and finally sighed in a low voice: "I remembered everything." ”

Lu Li was startled and sat up straight: "Remember?" ”

Su Qingyuan looked at him and nodded.

Lu Li hesitated and asked uncertainly: "So, you resist me like this because you are annoyed that I treated you badly before?" ”

Su Qingyuan shook her head slowly.

"Then ......" Lu Li didn't know where to start.

Su Qingyuan rolled over and nestled into Lu Li's arms.

Lu Li quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

However, the problem is still not solved.

He clearly felt that Su Qingyuan was afraid.

She was afraid, but it had nothing to do with Cheng Ruoshui's divination or Su Qingluan's scheming.

Lu Li thought hard for a long time, and suddenly a clear thought came to him.

He grabbed Su Qingyu's wrist: "Are you afraid of me?" Is it because of my aunt? You shouldn't trust her, Kite! She can't be your mother, she kidnapped you and forced you to practice those inexplicable spells for some ulterior purpose...... Think about what she did to you in the past, what mother has the patience to do to her daughter? You have always been very sober and sensible, but now that you remember everything, how can you be confused? What did she say to you? ”

Su Qingyuan raised her head and glanced at Lu Li, and then lowered her head again: "I understand all these truths." ”

"Then you ......" Lu Li became more and more puzzled.

Su Qingyuan grabbed the corner of his clothes tightly, hesitated for a long time, and never knew how to speak.

Lu Li lowered his head to meet her gaze, his heart was sour, and he hurriedly said, "Don't think about it yet." ”

Su Qingyuan bit the corner of her lip and burst into tears.

Lu Li grabbed her wrist, his hand tightened, but he didn't dare to ask.

Su Qingyuan didn't speak, just pressed her hand to her heart, and couldn't stop crying.

The things that had been forgotten were like the tide of the sea in the dark night, surging wave after wave, with a devastating suffocation and coldness, leaving no room for her to hide.

Last time, she could have lost her memory, she could go crazy, she could have taken it as a nightmare and messed it away.

But this time, she remained helplessly awake.

The only person he could ask for help was Lu Li. But......

How can you say such a terrible thing to him?

It's not that she doesn't believe him, it's just that she has enough pain on her own, should she let him suffer and be sad with him?

What's more, a scar that has already healed, there is really no reason to uncover it again.

In Su Qingkite's heart, he didn't want to say it.

But if she didn't say it, how would she explain to Lu Li what she was abnormal today and what reason she should find to resist his closeness?

The few days in the tunnel have become Su Qingyuan's heart disease, and it is not that it can be good. It's one thing to be intellectual, but it's another thing to react instinctively in the subconscious.

Su Qingyuan couldn't find a solution, so she had to raise her head and look at Lu Li pitifully.

Lu Li sighed and hugged her to get up: "Didn't you eat well again?" I hear your stomach growling. ”

Su Qingyuan's face turned red, but her heart was not so blocked.

She reluctantly tugged at the corners of her lips: "I didn't have much appetite during lunch, and then I forgot about ......"

"You're hungry kids." Lu Li pinched her waist and said with a smile.

Su Qingyuan glared at him, sat up straight and shouted outside: "Luoxia, pass on dinner!" ”

Lu Li had to get up with her, and when the little eunuchs put the meals on the table one after another, he picked out a few things that she loved to eat and put them in front of her.

Su Qingyuan wiped the corners of her eyes and said with a smile: "I really bothered the emperor to make vegetables for me!" ”

Lu Li glanced at her and sat down beside her: "Let me know if you don't eat well, you won't have anything to eat for the next meal!" ”

Su Qingyuan looked aggrieved, and Lu Li was not comforted, so he just put on a face and kept picking up vegetables for her.

Who knew that this dinner was still restless.

A little eunuch was making a fuss outside to see Lu Li, saying that the good concubine had a high fever again, and asked him to take a look.

Su Qingyuan put down her chopsticks, raised her head and persuaded: "Even if she is wrong, after all, she has suffered so much, so you can take a look." ”

"You're in such a hurry to push me out?" Lu Li's face was gloomy.

Su Qingyuan hurriedly shook her head: "I'm not trying to push you out, I'm just ...... Although Jing Zhaoyin's official position is small, it is very important to the peace of the capital, and now that the envoys are about to enter Beijing, you need a stable and peaceful capital; Moreover, General Zhenbei defends the tranquility of the frontier, and now is the time when it needs to be wooed...... The good concubine is guilty, and the punishment has been punished, why not take this opportunity to give her another sweet date to eat, so as not to cause trouble......"

"You're getting better at weighing the pros and cons now!" Lu Li praised coldly, without any joy at all.

Su Qingyuan had to lower her head and said in a muffled voice: "I just persuaded you to go and see her, and I didn't say that you were not allowed to come back......

Lu Li couldn't hold back his face, and smiled again for a while: "You can advance and retreat freely!" Why, do you really think that I have no one to take me in? ”

Su Qingyuan glanced at him, pouted and sneered: "You are the only fragrant dumpling in the palace, of course someone takes it in!" I was just taken away by the bad guys, and the hot quilt nest of Yuxiu Palace is waiting for you, thinking I don't know! ”

Lu Li immediately reached out and grabbed her wrist: "Who told you this?" ”

Su Qingyuan shook off his hand and lowered his head: "You go to see the concubine first, and we'll talk about the next things later." ”

Lu Li quickly grabbed her shoulders again, with a solemn expression: "Ah Kite, you and I can't stand misunderstanding and suspicion, I hope you make it clear!" ”

Su Qingyuan smiled bitterly: "No one has learned from me, I have seen it with my own eyes and heard it with my own ears!" When you got up from Yuxiu Palace that morning, it was not the wolf dog named 'Huzi' who made a sound behind the screen, but me who was twisted and covered with my arms over my mouth—do you understand? ”

Lu Li's hands suddenly clenched.

Behind the screen of Yuxiu Palace, an authentic entrance was indeed found later, could it be ......

Su Qingyuan raised her hand and wiped the corners of her eyes, raised her head and looked hard at the carvings on the beams.

She didn't want to remember it anymore, but the heart-wrenching feeling of helplessness still haunted her.

She never understood how Lu Li could be casual with other women when her life and death were uncertain?

Later, the reason why she was easily controlled by Aunt Nian was undoubtedly a very important inducement.

But now, she no longer has the confidence to blame Lu Li.

Su Qingyuan raised her head and smiled bitterly: "I know I can't blame you, but ...... Forget it, don't mention it anymore. ”

Lu Li was anxious: "Why don't you mention it again?" Iris, do you still plan to persuade yourself with the words 'no right to be angry', and then condemn me in your heart and reject me thousands of miles away? ”

"I didn't ......," Su Qingyuan felt a little aggrieved.

Lu Li was even more annoyed: "Nothing? Not angry? Or did you not contradict me in your heart? Ah kite, your performance just now is clearly resisting me! If you don't tell me, how will I know...... Hell, you must have wanted to kill me then, didn't you! ”

Su Qingyuan avoided his gaze and said in a low voice, "I desperately begged you for help, but you didn't hear it...... I was really sad at the time, but now it's all gone. ”

She has been trying to act very knowledgeable, but Lu Li obviously doesn't buy it: "You're just sad because I couldn't save you, nothing else?" ”

Su Qingyuan knew what he wanted to ask. She hesitated for a moment, but finally nodded: "Nothing else." In the end, you saved me, so my sadness at that time is no longer worth mentioning. ”

Lu Li was silent for a long time, and finally nodded: "I know." ”

He let go of his hand, and Su Qingyuan sat down.

Lu Li brushed his sleeves away and didn't say a word more.

Luo Xia frowned and stepped forward: "Why did Niangniang make the emperor angry again?" The truth may not be what you see...... The emperor is clearly willing to explain to you, you pretend not to care like this, how can he continue? ”

"What the facts look like, does it matter?" Su Qingyuan raised her head and asked rhetorically.

Luo Xia didn't understand.

Su Qingyuan himself didn't understand.

She picked up the rice bowl and ate it seriously, chewing it slowly, and a bowl of rice consumed enough for an hour.

Lu Li did not come back.

Su Qingyuan smiled bitterly at herself and stood up: "Xiao Lizi is still alive in the Yeting Palace?" ”

Luo Xia was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly said: "I didn't hear the news, most of them are alive." ”

"Tell someone to bring him here." Su Qingkite turned back to the hall and sat down on the edge of the bed.

Luo Xia's face was embarrassed: "Xiao Lizi was disposed of by the emperor, if you rashly bring him over, the emperor may be angry." ”

Su Qingyuan only glanced up at her and didn't say anything.

Luo Xia finally asked someone to bring Xiao Lizi over.

And Lu Li, still did not appear.

Xiao Lizi knelt down in front of Su Qingyuan and kowtowed three times.

Su Qingyuan noticed that his right hand was gone, and gauze was wrapped around his wrist.

When he raised his head, his eyes were still bright, but his face, which had been quite well-thought, was frighteningly thin, and his cheeks were red and cracked by the wind, which was already ugly.

When he made eye contact with Su Qingyuan, he dodged and lowered his head.

Su Qingyuan curled the corners of her lips and looked at him mockingly: "Life is quite hard, I haven't died in Yeting Palace for so many days!" ”

Xiao Lizi was speechless, just buried his head deeply.

Su Qingyuan got up and got out of bed, slowly walked in front of Xiao Lizi, and squatted down.

It's not accurate to say "squatting". Her stomach was already in the way, and squatting like this, her knees almost touched the ground, and it was not much different from kneeling.

Xiao Lizi raised his head with a worried expression.

Su Qingyuan pulled off the hairpin on his head at this time, aimed at his shoulder and stabbed it fiercely.

Xiao Lizi only frowned slightly, but did not make a sound.

But the light moon next to her covered her mouth and let out an exclamation.

Su Qingyuan held Xiao Lizi's shoulder and looked at him fixedly: "What are you doing alive?" Still want to avenge your god country? Or do you want to help that old witch do more hurtful things? I'll tell you, an obedient dog like you, that old witch has thousands of them under his hands! You are useless, the old witch will never really help you, and you will not be able to avenge the revenge of the Divine Bird Kingdom in your next life - why are you not dead? Is it just to mess around like a wild dog day in and day out? ”

Xiao Lizi raised his head with a sad face.

When Su Qingyuan saw his face, he felt a burst of anger in his heart, and the hairpin in his hand stabbed down heavily.

Danyue couldn't help but rush over and tried to snatch her hairpin: "This kind of strength work, you should send me to do it!" ”

Su Qingyuan clutched the hairpin and refused to give it to her.

Danyue was a little at a loss, knelt beside her and persuaded bitterly: "You are like this, are you teaching a slave, or are you tossing yourself?" You toss around like this for three days, how can the child in your belly stand it! ”

Su Qingyuan still ignored it, withdrew her hand and stabbed Xiao Lizi in the back with another hairpin.

Luo Xia came over and helped Danyue get up, and pulled her out together.

Xiao Lizi looked at Su Qingyuan in a daze, opened her mouth and wanted to speak, but she didn't make a sound.

Eventually, he just shook his head slowly and closed his eyes gloomily.

In Su Qingyu's heart, the anger became more and more intense.

The strength in his hands gradually weakened.

She stood up, walked quickly to the dressing table, found the small silver scissors used to cut candles, and beckoned to Xiao Lizi's cheeks and neck without thinking.

Xiao Lizi let out a low whimper, stretched out her arms to hug Su Qingyuan's legs, leaned over and slammed her forehead to the ground.

Su Qingyuan couldn't break free, and his heart was even more angry, and the silver in his hand couldn't stop stabbing at Xiao Lizi's back, shoulders and even the back of his head, and his hands were soon covered with blood.

The bloody qi spread, and Su Qingyuan suddenly laughed.

Xiao Lizi made an "ahh

"Kite!" Lu Li walked in quickly, and when he saw this scene, his eyes were red.

Su Qingyuan stopped his hand, looked down at the silver scissors he was holding tightly in his hand, and was stunned.

Lu Li came over and hugged her, and kicked Xiao Lizi away: "Don't get out of here!" ”

Su Qingyuan shuddered, and the small silver scissors in his hand fell to the ground with a "ding".

Lu Li grabbed her hand.

Su Qingkite tried his best to break free, but failed to do so.

In the end, the hands and cuffs of the two were covered with scarlet blood.

Ignoring Su Qingyu's struggle, Lu Li forcibly carried her back to the bed and held her down, looking at her angrily: "I remember that I have explained to you before, don't get angry easily, and leave all the laborious things to the slaves to do!" How many times can your body withstand a few tosses? Actually doing such a stupid thing with a big belly! ”

Su Qingyuan grabbed his sleeve, raised her head and looked at him hard through her tears: "You don't ask why I tortured that minion?" ”

"If you don't want to say, I won't ask." Lu Li couldn't get angry after all, so he had to sigh helplessly and hold her hand.

Su Qingyuan let out a whimper, like crying and laughing.

Lu Li stretched out his hand and took her into his arms, and sighed in a low voice: "It's been so long, why torture yourself?" The slave is also controlled by others, and he cannot help himself; You're even more delirious, and you've lost even your memory...... A nightmare, why bother? ”

Su Qingyuan looked at him in a daze, and even forgot to shed tears.

Lu Li wiped the corners of her eyes, hugged her trembling body, and sighed in a low voice: "You must step over this hurdle!" You can't always rely on madness and amnesia to escape the pain, and torturing him like that will only make you look down on yourself even more...... You're not crazy, why do you have to solve problems the way you do it? ”

"Are you...... You know? Su Qingyuan looked away, not daring to look at him again.

Lu Li was stunned for a long time, and finally nodded: "I can probably guess." You also mentioned the time when I saw you in my dream before...... You have been humiliated at the hands of witches and eunuchs, I know! ”

Su shook lightly, instinctively wanting to push him away.

Lu Li tightened his arms and didn't allow her to break free: "Ah Kite, you haven't done anything wrong!" It's my fault that I didn't protect you......"

Su Qingyuan bit the corner of his clothes and sobbed.

Lu Li gently patted her back and softened his voice: "The burden you carried on your back was too heavy!" Ah kite, you said earlier that you live in the world, but you want to be worthy of your heart - your heart is always the same, and there is no need to feel guilty, why don't you still let yourself go? Do you think that I will punish you twice as much for what you have suffered? When did your faith in me become so less? ”