Qingli Palace, side hall

"Your Majesty, why don't you go and see if the queen is awake?"

Gonggong Li is also accustomed to observing words and feelings, and he can see that the emperor is in a bad mood after asking, so he took the first step to speak.

"Go ahead."

Gotta meet you.

"Yes, Your Majesty."

When Gonggong Li walked into the dormitory, it happened that Cen Er came out to pass the meal, and after seeing him, Cen Er's face was smiling and happy.

"I've seen Grandpa Li! Father-in-law, our mother hasn't eaten yet, so the emperor is here? ”

You can't let the emperor watch the mother eat, you still have to let Gonggong Li talk about it, or the emperor and queen are using some together.

"The girl doesn't have to worry, the emperor asked our family to come, and the mother just needs to use it slowly."

"Hey, thank you, father-in-law."

Gonggong Li left after speaking, and he was too lazy to be polite, after all, Cen Er was still too light in his eyes to withstand his stuttering.

Cen Er happily went to pass the meal, returned to the room, and looked at Mo Ran with a happy face.

"You're happy today, like a good thing."

Xu has experienced life and death, Mo Ran's tone is always light, and she doesn't talk much on weekdays, Cen Er hopes that she can lose her temper, at least there are some fireworks in the world, unlike now, I feel that she is about to become an immortal.

"The emperor came to see Niangniang, this is naturally a great thing, isn't Niangniang happy?"

In Cen Er's heart, she still thinks that Niangniang's friendship is more than that of the emperor, and she feels that when the emperor comes, Niangniang will definitely be happy.

"Rejoicing, of course, is rejoicing."

As she spoke, there was no trace of affection in her eyes.

"Hurry up and eat, the emperor will be here in a while!"

Since Cen Er knew that the emperor issued the edict of the queen, she always wanted Niangniang to be reconciled with the emperor as before, the emperor and queen were concentric, and Qin Se was harmonious.

"Yes."

The difference is Miyazawa-kun who stays in the side hall.

"Back to the emperor, Niangniang is eating now, the emperor will pass for a while, and Niangniang will soon run out."

Miyazawa Kun turned the Buddha beads in his hand a few times, which Mo Ran had asked for him at the beginning, and each grain was engraved with the image of Prajna Flower and Shakyamuni Buddha.

The believer has nothing to ask for, but I wish Gong Lang will always be healthy, safe and safe, and have a return date every year.

This is what she asked for him after kneeling for two hours and reading the scriptures all night, and this sentence was said to the Buddha before she left, secretly going to the main hall.

He didn't believe in it, but he didn't take it off for five years.

But now, he gently untied the beads, took down a bead, and put it on the table.

"But let's go."

"Yes, Your Majesty."

Otherwise, the emperor is hard to guess, just now he asked Gonggong Li to ask if Niangniang was awake, but now he is leaving, and he doesn't even look at it.

When he came, he came quietly, and when he left, he didn't inform anyone.

"Cen Er, you go and send him a pot of this snow top Hancui, I can't stand such a cold thing."

The inner court has sent a lot of things to Qingli Palace in the past few days, and it doesn't matter if Mo Ran wants it or not, just send good things here.

It's not that when Mo Ran was grounded a while ago, they relied on the power of the court concubine to treat the Qingli Palace in a hundred ways, and some things were not even as good as those used by the palace maids.

"Yes, sissy."

Cen Er was holding this pot of tea, this pot of tea, but she had just watched her brew it.

Mo Ran's temperament is calm, and it is such a scene, coupled with the fact that Hancui itself is clear, this tea smells both tea and some bitterness.

But when Cen Er stood at the door with joy, he didn't see Gonggong Li respond after calling a few times, and he boldly pushed the door open, only to find that the emperor was already gone.

But she saw the beads on the table.

On the way back, she was scratching her heart in all kinds of ways, and finally the mother's attitude eased a little, why did the emperor leave at this time.

"Why did you bring it back again?"

Seeing that Cen Er took the pot of tea back intact, Mo Ran asked, but then saw Cen Er's expression.

If she wants to talk and stop, she will understand.

"He's gone, isn't he?"

Cen Er didn't speak, but nodded.

Mo Ran didn't react very much, his eyes flickered slightly, and the original color inside was gray, but now it became a little pale.

I guess it's just disappointment.

"Put it down."

This tea is Miyazawakun's favorite on weekdays, and when he first brewed it, he was still wondering if he would taste it if he drank it.

If you can...... It's still too late.

However, she was not even given this opportunity.

"Niangniang, this is put down by the emperor, I don't know if it's going to be given to Niangniang or left behind."

The moment Cen Er took out the Buddha bead, tears welled up in Mo Ran's eyes.

How could she not remember that thing.

When she first wore it, every word Miyazawa Kun said still lingered in her ears, like a whisper.

Drops of clear tears slid down her flat face and onto the placket, but it was like a fire burning her heart.

Pain, regret, unwillingness, full of resentment, asking but not begging, all burst out at this moment.

Her tears frightened Cen Er, and the Buddha beads slid down from her hand at once, rolling down to a corner of this room, I don't know.

"! Empress! The slave said the wrong thing, mother, mother, don't cry, cry and break your body! ”

Anyone who sees Mo Ran like this will be apprehensive.

Because in her eyes, she can't see any feelings that can be supported, more like a wooden person, like a corpse.

Only tears flowed out of it, like a downpour that couldn't be stopped.

"Cen Er...... You go out first. ”

The whimpering voice, with a dry and hoarse feeling, makes people feel very distressed.

"Mother, let the slave accompany you, slave ......"

"No, go out and leave me alone for a while."

"Yes, sissy."

When Cen Er got up and went out, she turned back three times in one step, but she didn't worry about her, for fear that she wouldn't be able to think about it.

At the moment when she closed the door, Mo Ran really couldn't hold on.

She covered her mouth tightly with her hands, not wanting the cry to reach the door, and curled up in the corner like duckweed in a flower pond, helpless and sad.

In her world, pain is for one person.

There are some things she doesn't want to say to others, and she doesn't want to be a burden to others, especially Kun Miyazawa.

He is the great hero in her life, the one who will wait for her on the clouds, miss her, love her, and spoil her, but she never thought that one day, this Buddha bead would return to her hand.

Mo Ran looked around, and there was no trace of the Buddha beads for a long time.

She frantically rummaged through the tables and cabinets, searching the whole room for the bead that was less than the size of a pea.

The house was full of messes, and everything was toppled to the ground, covering every part of the house.

The bead was still not found.

It was five years ago that she went to the temple to ask for it, and the temple is said to be the most effective, but the abbot also has many rules.

She recited all three scriptures and bowed down to the gods and Buddhas in the hall, just for such a string of beads.

After Miyazawa Kun got this Buddhist bead, he said a word.

It is my blessing to have you in this life.

Just these few words made her happy for a long time, she used to put herself too low, and a little response could make her happy for a long time.

"You just talk about it, or you give me some reward, right?"

She remembered asking him that way.

It's just a joke, but Miyazawa Kun has been thinking about it seriously for a long time.

"This string of beads, there are twelve in all, you can make a mistake twelve times, no matter what it is, even if you are pleasing to others, as long as you want to come back, I will forgive you. I will give you one of the beads on behalf of me to forgive you once. ”

"Cut, I won't fall in love with others!"

At that time, she was full of him, but in fact, now, there will be no shadow of others at all, so she didn't take this sentence to heart at the time.

And today

The bead was handed over to her.

A Buddhist bead that determined that she was wrong had no other meaning.

This is to decide that she is wrong.

That night did not return.

only heard Cen Er say a word, only his conjecture and suspicion.

Without checking anything, without any evidence, and without even asking her a word, he decided that she was at fault.

Is Lian Lihou telling her that this is her forgiveness?

There will no longer be the trust that it once had, and the vow of never asking questions may have run out of patience as the ice melted over and over again.

It was as if the pillars in her body had been drained all at once, as if all the efforts she had made before to keep them together in peace and stability had been wiped out.

She's a sinner

A sinner who is recognized by his beloved is an unforgivable sin, whether it is himself or him, it is an existence that cannot be forgiven by the gods and Buddhas.

Mo Ran's crying couldn't stop, she couldn't sobbed and choked herself, and she didn't want to be so hard for herself all the time, but she couldn't stop.

If the eyes could not shed tears, how painful the heart would be.

"Niangniang, Niangniang, General Mo is here."

Cen Er hesitated, but knocked on the door, she heard the sound of tables and chairs falling to the ground from the house, and also heard her suppressed crying.

But Mo Nan didn't enter the palace once for more than ten days, this is another expedition, and he doesn't know when he will come back, and the two always have to meet.

"Let my brother wait for me in the side hall, I'll go in a while."

Suppress your crying so that it doesn't sound so hoarse and ugly.

"Yes, sissy."

Mo Ran forced himself to put back his tears, his chest still rose and fell, and it took half an hour to barely calm his breath.

I wiped my face dry, but my eyes were still red and swollen, and I couldn't get better for a while.

"Brother, why are you here?"

The first time he saw her, Mo Nan saw her eyes, and they looked like they had cried.

"I'm going to go out with the army in five days, come and see you, and I'll tell you."

Leaving in five days?

Even my brother is leaving