After four years, the wife of the Zhao family finally had a child of her own, with a wide forehead and a big nose, and some people may think that this child looks like a person, a slave of the Di tribe who married with her from the north. But no one dared to say, because the slave had been dead for half a year, and the grass on his grave had long since erased his existence.

She needs a son, and she knows that Wuxian urgently needs a son. Therefore, she worked hard to give birth to a "noble" son-in-law. She was excited, she probably thought that in this way, she would be able to grasp the heart of Wuxi, and she would be able to firmly bind her people to the Zhao clan of the Jin Kingdom. But no matter how many secret secrets she hides in her heart, I always believe that she is deeply in love, but she may never really see the man she falls in love with.

On the seventh day after the birth of the child, she sent someone to ask me to sing a song to her son. It's no surprise that she'd do that. It's no surprise that she'll say so many vitriol things to slap me off. The night she gave birth, Wuxian was with me, and whether we spent a sad night on the rooftop or a night of affection on the bed, it was the same for her.

She hates me, she is full of hatred, even if I don't have to open my mouth, I can feel it. But what surprised me was the bowl of fish soup in her house. The plump and tender river fish is soaked in milky white soup, and the finely chopped golden ginger shreds hang on the pale green back of the river fish. The soup had just come out of the clay pot, and white smoke was bubbling from it. The little maid who served the soup stood beside me, and said that the soup was rewarded by Zhao Ying, and that the witch doctor Qiao had ordered something. She loves to listen to these words, and the clever little maid also knows that she loves to listen, so she speaks very carefully. I stood there as the white gas of the fish soup spurted on my face in waves. It was a feeling of nausea that I had never felt before, and the sour stuff in my stomach rushed straight up my throat before it had time to churn.

Under the puzzled gaze of Auntie, I covered my mouth and rushed out the door, vomiting and flushing in the courtyard.

She looked at me with her hands on the door frame, her face flushed.

The doctor deceived me, he, as a doctor, actually prescribed me fake medicine!

I panicked, unshirted but happy as if I had gone crazy. He ran and jumped around the house with his mouth closed, and even picked up Ah Yu, who had just entered the house, and spun around several times. Ah Yu, who didn't know it, probably never thought that he would be held in a circle like this in his life, so he was stunned when he was put down.

I'm pregnant, I've got a baby.

I touched my flat lower abdomen, and joy, fear, confusion, all the emotions that one can have seemed to flood into my heart at once. They intertwine, intertwine, and then become a blank slate.

I don't know when Ah Yu left, but when Wuxian gently hugged me, I heard my own trembling breathing.

"Are you happy? Scared? Shirtless whispered in my ear.

I nodded, nodding frantically.

"Don't worry, I've got you." The man who had calmed down from his ecstasy carefully held my face, his eyes with tears in his eyes like the warmest sunshine in a clear winter sky.

In the endless abyss, in the land of despair soaked in tears, a small seed has sprouted, it comes quietly, but it is destined to bring rolling storms.

Jin Guo, I can't stay any longer. In the twilight of the forty-fourth year of King Zhou, Wuxian planned to let me leave Xinjiang with Bolu and Mingyi.

Separation is just around the corner, and the joy of being lost and regained occupies all our emotions. Shirtless sneaks into my bedroom every night and stares at my belly like a child guarding honey. Sometimes he pursed his lips and smirked, sometimes he looked solemn, sometimes he came to live and die and pestered me to talk to me a lot, and sometimes he came and only held my hair and sat quietly by the couch for the night. I laughed at him for being childish, but he said very seriously, "Ah Shi, do you know that my heart has never been so full." I'm not childish, I'm too happy. ”

The child, me and the unsympathetic child, it appeared at the most inopportune time, but it gave me the courage to overcome all hardships in despair. Those memories that were sealed in my mind suddenly had a completely different understanding. I think of those cold nights, A-Niang looked at me with warm eyes, and I finally understood what the courage of motherhood is. At that moment, as long as I was alive in her arms, she could ignore all suffering and fear the threat of death. So do I now.

In the afternoon of this day, after serving Zhao Ying, Si'er and I finally had the opportunity to sit down and have a "morning meal".

Si'er frowned and poured a large spoonful of minced meat on my mud: "Ah Shi, I know you feel uncomfortable now, but you can't practice your body every day, eat a little more!" ”

"I'm full, you can eat." I looked at the fat and oily balls, my throat spasmed, and I hurriedly pushed the pottery bowl to Si'er's hand.

"A bowl of corn soup, half a dish of chopped vegetables, Dong Shi can't eat enough, how can you be full? Come, take another bite, this is the belly meat of wild elk, the fat is a little fat, but the addition of turmeric is very fragrant, you can eat it! Si'er ignored my refusal and used a wooden spoon to rip off a large spoonful of millet mud and feed it to my mouth.

Since I became pregnant, I have eaten very little at every meal, and I have never touched fishy and fatty things. Wuxian is worried about this, and always tries to secretly feed me. But after more than a month, not only did I gain weight, but my face became more and more ugly day by day. Si'er thought that I didn't think about food because I was hurt by love, and I was worried all day long.

But in order to hide from Zhiyao's ubiquitous eyes and ears, even if I knew that Si'er was worried, I could only hide the truth.

I was dizzy from the smell of wild elk, but I didn't want to feel sad, so I had to swallow the mud in her spoon in one gulp. Seeing that I was willing to eat, Si'er hurriedly stirred the minced meat in the bowl mixed with millet mud, and took a big spoonful and brought it up. I looked at the white and yellow mud scalp and numb, and hurriedly pushed her hand away and shouted: "Thank you, Si'erniang, I'm really full today, you can eat more yourself." ”

"A ......"

"I'm so full-" I took the pottery bowl in Si'er's hand with both hands, and instead held her hand and said, "I forgot to ask you these days, has Yu An lived in the Prince's Mansion again recently?" ”

"You know everything?" Si'er said that Yu An finally put down the wooden spoon in his hand, "The prince sent someone to take him into the mansion half a month ago, saying that he had something important to discuss with him." He is not at home these days, so he can only bother the coachman of Zhao Mansion to get up early and pick me up in the dark every day, I really can't help it. ”

"The monarch is seriously ill, and the crown prince is particularly important to him, so he must have a lot of things to do at this time. Otherwise, don't go back tonight, I'll have someone bring you Pebble, I haven't seen him in a long time. ”

"Don't! The boy likes to make trouble the most when he grows up, and now that Zhao Zhou is not here, he has no playmate, and if he makes a noise, it is a big sin. ”

"Yu An is not at home, and it is not good for Xiaoshizi to stay alone. Then it's better for you to go back to accompany the child in a few days, and I can do it alone here. "I thought of Xiao Dong Shi's aggrieved appearance, and I felt very sorry, in the end, I was tired of their family.

"What nonsense! If I leave, don't say that you have to give Qing Xiang three meals of medicine every day, even if you cook that large bucket of bathing medicine soup before going to sleep, you will be exhausted to death. Look at your yellow wax face, don't you think I'm worried enough? ”

"Isn't there any help from Berluff?"

"Birch...... The eldest son of the Zhao family is also very thin. Si'er mentioned Bolu, her originally gloomy face became more and more ugly, she squeezed my hand with her backhand, frowned, and said, "Ah Shi, I really don't understand why we still want to stay here?" Zhao Wuxian treats you like that, why do you have to do so much for the Zhao family? What does it matter to us whether the prime minister is dead or alive? When he dies, he dies, and I will accompany you back to Qin. No matter what happens, there is always a place in this world for us, and you don't have to be afraid......"

"Shhh I got up and covered Si'er's mouth, the small window of this mezzanine room was impartial, but it was facing Zhao Ying's bedroom.

Si'er squeezed my hand, squeezing it very tightly, and the cold sweat from her palm seemed to seep through the skin into the back of my hand. In her eyes, it was the shamelessness that failed me. I am getting haggard day by day, but because of the child, I am constantly cheering all day long. She stayed in the Zhao Mansion every day and silently watched all this in her eyes, she must have been extremely depressed in her heart to say such a thing.

"Si'er, listen to me." I searched my stomach and tried to find some excuses to appease Si'er, but Si'er took away my hand covering her mouth, stared at Zhao Ying's window two feet away, and said, "Ah Shi, do you say that Qing Xiang is a good person or a bad person?" ”

Is Zhao Ying a good guy or a bad guy? This is a question that I would not have answered even if I had thought about it for a day, because it was so complicated that I would rather give up thinking about it.

"I don't know."

"Good and bad, you knew it when you were a kid. Now, I don't understand. Si'er lowered his head. I smiled bitterly and said, "Yes, it can be seen that we are all more and more confused as we live." ”

"If you're confused, let's be confused!" Si'er raised his head and pulled the corners of his mouth at me, "Let's go, you go to dispense medicine, I'll decoction medicine." After finishing your busy work earlier today, you went home with me, Dong Shi missed you. ”

"yes, okay."

That night, I stayed at Si'er's house. In the early autumn, the night was as cool as water, and the half-withered leaves of the sycamore trees in the courtyard were rustled by the wind, and a few autumn insects with sad voices took advantage of the night to burrow out of the cracks in the stones, and gathered on the steps outside my door to hiss. In the past, I would have been tossing and turning and unable to sleep, but now I have a little sleepy worm in my stomach, and I can fall asleep in less than a moment by simply sticking my head to the bed.

In the middle of the night, my waist was a little sore, and I felt dry and itchy in my throat when I turned over with a thin quilt, so I simply sat up and wanted to find water to drink. At this time, he was shocked to find that there was a person standing in the room.

"Who?"

"Me." Yu An's voice rang out from the darkness.

"Why are you here, what time is it?" I breathed a sigh of relief and tucked the Fulingso into the bed.

"The rooster crowed. Si'er said you slept here last night, and I wanted to come and see you. Yu An walked out of the shadows, a few rays of blue and white moonlight shining through the window, a faded crown, a sackcloth, and he was dressed in plain.