Wuxian held my hand tightly, frustration and pain flashed in his eyes, and before I could see it clearly, he had already hooked the corners of his mouth and smiled softly: "It's okay, it's good to be back." ”

Not good, not good at all.

He stared down at me, and I stubbornly looked back. The cool rain of spring became slippery and hot in the palms of our hands. This ambiguous touch made me even more eager to shake off his hand.

"You let go." I drank low.

"Why?" He clung tighter.

Why? So much happened, and he asked me why? I was stunned, and I became even more angry.

"Let go!"

"You blame me for not stopping you from going to Qin, and you blame me for not going to Qin to pick you up back to Jin? But you should know, for me, letting you go is far harder and more painful than catching you. Even if I could endure it any longer, I would only be able to endure it until now. If you don't come back after this spring, you will naturally see me in the Qin Palace. ”

"No need! You have already entered the Qi Palace for me once, and you don't need to enter the Qin Palace again. You have given me enough, and I have given you enough. Between you and me, it was wrong from the beginning, and it makes no sense to continue to be wrong. So, I let go, and I also asked Zhao Shizi to let go of my hand. I raised my left hand, which was clenched by Wushirt, and struggled hard, but he took advantage of the situation to twist my hand behind my waist and trapped me deadly: "Let go? Who will let you go! Whoever hurts you, I will one day make her pay. You can hate me and hate me now, but you have to give me time, you have to believe me! ”

"Believe you?" I looked at his serious expression and immediately smiled.

"Don't laugh!" The bridge of his nose furrowed, and he reached out to smooth the smile on my lips.

I turned my face away and sneered, "Do you believe in you, in your sincerity towards me?" You rode a horse with her on a moonlit night, you had a good time with her, you had children with her, when you did these things, where was your sincerity to me? Since I came back from Tianshu, I have been lying to myself, deceiving myself that I still have an oath with you, that I have sincerity, and that I have a future that I can wait for. But I was wrong, we had nothing. Don't lie to yourself anymore! Zhao Wuxian, you don't have sincerity, you don't have them anymore, and you don't have anything for me. You only have one ambition, one ambition that can allow you and the people of the Zhao clan to live well. You won't let Zhiyao defeat you, I believe you. ”

"When you were in the Qin Kingdom, you didn't read a word of the letter I wrote to you, right? You don't believe me, you never really believe me, and you don't want to believe me, do you? I used to say that I didn't have a heart, but they all believed me. Now, I have made a heart for you by ripping out my flesh, but you say I don't. It's funny, it's funny. Shameless laughed miserably, and I took the opportunity to pull my hand out of his palm.

"Woman!" The laughing man yelled angrily and grabbed my wrist again.

"What the hell are you going to do!" I looked up and stared him in the eye and roared.

"What can I do, I can do so much to others and nothing to you-" Wuxian looked at me with his lips pursed, and he was angry, maybe angry at me, maybe angry at himself.

Time drifted slowly in front of us with golden rain, anger was washed away by boundless sorrow, I didn't speak, I didn't struggle anymore, he looked at me in pain, his eyes met, his eyes intertwined, in a trance, there was a voice in my heart sighed: if I could forget everything, and stand with him in this canopy for the rest of my life, how good would it be......

In the silent grass shed, two silent people stood for an unknown amount of time, and Wuxian finally gently let go of my hand: "You go, big brother is waiting for you in Jiayufang." ”

I was distracted, turned and left.

"Don't go-" He grabbed my sleeve and said in a voice that couldn't be lowered, "Your hand, I can let go for the time being, for a year, two years, you can live in the Qin State Palace, you can live in the General's Mansion in Wufeng, you can go wherever you want, but when I'm done with everything, I beg you to give me back this hand, give me back you as a person, okay?" ”

"What do you say?" I turned my head to look at him, then broke his fingers one by one.

The rain had already stopped, and I stepped on the slippery weeds and ran for my life out of the hut where I had just wanted to stand for my life.

"The girl is here to eat fish, please come inside!" Outside Jiayufang, the little guy with a square scarf on his head saw me alone looking at the bamboo and wood sign at the door of the restaurant in a daze, so he put down the straw handle to sweep the water and ran to me.

Although I am standing outside the food shop at this moment, my heart is still in the grass hut where the rain has just fallen. The little girl's words were like throwing a stone into the water, shattering the phantom in my heart in an instant.

I replied softly, took off my shoes, and walked into the restaurant.

Jiayufang is a new house built with green bamboo, the house is very clean, some bamboo stakes are nailed on the wall, a few yellow withered vines hang on the pile, and seven or eight green pottery pots are hung on the vines, there is soil in the bowl, and some small yellow flowers and green herbs are planted. There were only seven long pine cases in the house, and one of them had a piano and an incense burner on it.

Looking around, there was no Beru and Mingyi, so I was led by the little servant to sit down in a window position by the river.

"What do you want to eat?" The little guy asked.

"I'll wait for someone."

"I can save it, carp, crucian carp, perch, bream, eel, bream, mrigal, we have them here, what the girl wants to eat, how to eat, just greet the disdain later."

"Okay." I smiled and nodded, and the little guy bowed and left.

At the table with me were two men who looked like scribes, without any female dependents, and ate about a pot of carp, and when they left, they put two gold on the table. The other tables all brought female dependents, who seemed to be the female musicians of their own families, the men drank and ate fish, and the women prepared vegetables on the side.

At this time, I have long lost the comfort I had when I went out, and I just want to wait for Boru and Mingyi to come, say goodbye and go back. But they waited left and right, until the room had eaten all the people, and they were gone, and they did not see Beru and them coming.

Beru made an appointment with me, and then he made an appointment with Wuxi, so why would he and Mingyi still come?

I laughed to myself and stood up.

Seeing this, the little girl hurriedly ran over: "The girl is leaving?" ”

"Well, I'm afraid the people I'm waiting for won't come."

"Girl, wait a minute. The time has passed, and the girl must be hungry, and our host's family has prepared lunch for the girl, so let's go after the girl has eaten! ”。

"I didn't bring enough money with me when I went out, and I'm afraid I won't be able to pay for the meal." I remembered the two gold on the table, and shook my head in refusal.

The little girl grinned and said happily: "What kind of smile is the girl, with the girl's appearance, you can just come to eat fish in the next half month." One person comes, calls friends to come, and it is all done. As he was talking, someone knocked twice on the small door next to the lobby, and he was overjoyed, and hurriedly said, "Girl, sit down quickly, and the little one will go and bring the wine and food." ”

"This ...... Thank you very much. I sat down again, and outside the window, a flock of long-legged egrets fluttered their wings and landed in the shallow water of the river.

"Mulberry wine, steamed rice with chestnut flour, and freshly fried wine-soaked multi-seed fish, girl, try it." The voice of the little maid drifted into my ears. There were fishermen casting their nets, egrets flying, white feathers buzzing over my head, but I couldn't see or hear.

Zi returns, Zi returns, Yunhu does not return? Zi returns, Zi returns, Yunhu does not return......

Is he A-Niang's beloved? Was he the lover who called her Ah Shun outside the walls of the Fan Mansion back then?

Yes, there are a few men who dare to wear his dark yellow clothes, and there are many men who can have his eyes full of affection, and only people like him in the world are worthy of my beautiful aunt and the legend of thousands of hibiscus trees outside Handan.

The man walked towards me, and the base of my tongue was stiff, and I felt like I had a big lump in my throat, and I couldn't speak, but I choked on the ground.

"The food you're cooking isn't to the taste of the shaman?" Zhao Ji glanced at the wine and food on the table and asked with a smile.

I looked up in silence at the strange and familiar face in front of me. My eyebrows and eyes follow A-Niang's, but this nose, a pair of ears on both sides are the same as the person in front of me. Auntie, is that him? Is he my daddy?

"This is a multi-seed fish marinated in tulip, soft and fleshy, and crispy when freshly fried, so the wizard might as well try it." Zhao Ji flicked his sleeves and sat down in front of me.

"Thank you Handanjun for your kindness, carp, crucian carp, perch, bream, eel, bream, mrigal are all acceptable, Zi Di is the only one who does not eat this seeded fish." I pushed the lacquered plate forward, and the tight voice sounded harsh to my own ears.

Zhao Ji smiled, stretched out his hand and brought out the bowl of golden-fried multi-seed fish from the long plate: "Wizards, don't look at the small fish, there are many spines, you will know that it is delicious when you eat it." There is also this chestnut Huangliang rice, also eat a little, Zhao has not been in the kitchen for some years. ”

I sat with my eyes down, and a faint Jiangli incense wafted from the breeze on the tip of my nose, and the aroma dissipated and revealed the smell of firewood. "Why did Handan Jun prepare this meal for Zi Di? Mulberry wine, chestnut rice, multi-seed fish, have people made it for Handan Jun before? "I sat frozen in front of the man, the truth was torn apart, but I had to force him to tell it himself.

Zhao Ji sat by the window, his face was still a little blue in the warm spring light, I stared at him, he reached out and picked up the black pottery high-necked pot filled with mulberry wine and poured himself a small cup: "Mulberry, chestnuts, fish roe, three sons and a family." Every time I returned to Handan on a long trip, she and Ah Quinoa would prepare a dinner like this for me. She said that the name of the meal was 'Zigui'. One son returns, and the second son is happy. If you come today, I will make you this meal too. Ah Shun ...... Your aunt also did this for you in the Qin Kingdom? ”

"Yes, of course it did." Tears rolled out of my eyes, but the corners of my mouth hooked a smile, "Put the rotten vegetable leaves into the clay kettle, and when you're lucky, throw a handful of chicken intestines thrown out of the kitchen." There is no salt, it is so fishy that I am disgusting, and my mother told me that this is the freshly ground chestnut flour steamed rice before the winter festival, which is yellow and fragrant and sweet, and Ah Nu is good, take a bite. After the girl finished eating, she fed her mother a bite. Handanjun, I am a cheap slave, the 'Zigui' I have eaten is different from what you eat, I can't afford to eat your portion. When I talked about the injury, I knocked over the bowl of multi-seed fish on the case with a wave of my hand, and then got up and untied the bag on my waist and poured all the broken money on the case, "The fish made by Handan Jun is too expensive, Zi Di can't afford to eat it, and the rest of the money will be sent tomorrow." After saying that, he dropped his bag and turned around and left.