- Give him tenderness, give him affection.

Smiles for him, tears for him.

Give him day and night, spring and autumn to her,

Give him the body and mind, and give him the soul.

For the rest of my life, there is him. He is the only one.

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The moon is beautiful.

The world is also beautiful.

The moon is particularly mellow, maybe it's the Mid-Autumn Festival recently, it's really strange, I can't recall a lot of things, and I can pick up them one by one for the festivals I have spent with them, rubbing them, like a few treasures.

I looked up, and it was still the same sky. I was half asleep and half awake, and suddenly I wanted to remember a lot of things. It's like tracing the words that have been written over and over again, even if there are always no more or no deviations in each stroke, it is better than looking at the blank paper without remembering anything at the end.

- Probably the fear that those incomparably precious feelings and emotions will be gradually crushed and rotted by the merciless years.

Because of reluctance, because of obsession, because of commitment, because of greed. To put it bluntly, I just can't let it go.

Let me count the old people I have met who can barely be called relatives by me.

Well...... My mother...... I didn't know anything about her, not even her name. The only thing I know clearly is that the demon that lies deep in my bone marrow comes from her. She gave me nothing but life and pain. I'm like a stranger. - Maybe it gave me blood, but it does count as part of the pain.

Let's leave her at that.

Then came the father. I still don't understand why he had to be united with his mother at the risk of contracting such a terrible poison. He, like his mother, didn't love me. It's not that "I don't feel the love too deeply" or "Strict father also loves", it's all nonsense.

He has only loved one woman in his life, and he has used up all his life's affection - that is my mother. For him, the rest of them can only be "a little related to his lover", and he cannot love others in the slightest part of his great and sacred love. He is also for me, let alone Bai Yuehan.

He's strict, he's cruel, he's too harsh. He can climb the most dangerous mountain for me to pick up medicine, or he can leave me alone in a bughole in the dark. He can kill countless people for me, or he can press me to the stage and replace my internal organs one by one. At that time, I felt that it was quite a shadowy thing, and I cried I don't know how many times, but now I think about it, it is too far away, there is no color, no hatred, no gratitude, no joy and no sorrow, only some empty indifference.

He gave me so much, too much in his blood.

So much so that I became such an extremely paranoid guy later. Whatever, what's wrong with extreme paranoia? Master was cured.

Yes, the next thing to talk about is Master. I can't imagine what the hell I would have been like if I hadn't met him.

The initial impression was that he was an old naughty boy, although he was a child-faced old man. Always smiling, very patient with the bad boy I was at the beginning, never angry, very warm, like a little sun, with a strong desire for knowledge and love and gratitude for everything in this world. Sometimes it's very inappropriate to pretend to be crazy and stupid, and sometimes he is open-minded, rational and very respectful, probably because I don't have any of these. He was so dazzling at the time that I was disgusted by it. Afterward...... Poof, but later I woke up and learned to cherish. The warmth he gave me back then is still so warm and powerful in retrospect, giving my already cold heart the illusion of beating again.

I also felt sad when I thought about it, and every time I thought that Master would never smile as warmly and stupidly as before, I felt tears choke in my throat. Is it my fault? But everything seems inevitable, how can I complain about Bai Yuehan?

I hate, I can't accept it and I can't let go, in my heart, Master will always be the big fool who smiled and held my hand and flew a kite. Always. The world always hurts all the gentle people. I may have been full of resentment in this world, but it has become a stunned loss, or maybe it was a fiery and poisonous blood and tears, but in the end it turned into a light sigh that cannot be investigated.

I hardly want to think of him as he came after. Sometimes I laugh at myself and feel that I am deceiving myself. What has changed, there is no going back.

Anyway, he taught me so much, and the most beautiful sunshine I have ever looked up to in my life.

I don't want to say more, I feel very much pain about him, so I'm too lazy to torture myself, and I wish I could forget it soon.

Only the words he said when he carried me back to the grass hut after falling down the hill made me so unforgettable, and I took it seriously for so many years, he probably forgot it after he finished speaking, big liar.

"If you are scared out of sight, call out to Senior Brother. The senior brother passed on the 'divine power' to Xiao Zhi through the air, protected Xiao Zhi, and Xiao Zhi would not be afraid of anything! All right? ”

"Really? Lie. ”

"I have clairvoyance and ears for the wind~ For example, I heard the master saying now: Why haven't the two little rabbits come back! I'm mad at the old man! ”

"Poof, haha, you seem to be learning, ahem."

"Hey! Why did you two little bunnies come back? I'm mad at the old man! I heard Master yelling from afar.

“？？？ Is it really a tailwind? ”

Cannot help laughing. It's sad.

Later, I met the Huimeng people, and each of them was my beloved and lovely family in this life. Though I spent there forever with a scarf tied to my eyes, I never saw them in their true faces. But it's also very kind.

Then we have to count the warm paper. The first time I saw her, she was just a thin baby, her eyes couldn't open, she was born with asthma, and her skin was so weak that it was almost transparent, and she looked like she could die at any time. I don't even know how much I ran for her, how much money I spent, how much medicine I boiled. Finally, under my painstaking conditioning day and night, I barely developed a white and chubby appearance. Instead, I got seriously ill. Later, she grew into a girl with a water spirit, her eyesight was very poor, and she couldn't see me from a little distance, and she was very insecure since she was a child. Later, I don't know how many decoctions I used to slowly recuperate, and she has grown into a slim and handsome girl, why do you dislike me so much, and she doesn't treat her elders with respect at all! Hum!

The last thing she said to me was: "Bai Luozhi! Luo Zhi Yao! Pity the dust and snow! I don't care what your name is, you tell me clearly, anyone in this world can betray you—except me!!! ”

But I betrayed her. I sacrificed her as if she had been just a pawn I had raised from beginning to end.

Maybe I'm more ruthless than Yu An. But what's wrong with me? I lent her hope and light in life, but in the end I just took it back. But why does my heart hurt so much? Why can't you cry? I sometimes joke that she's my daughter, even though she's my sister's age.

I joked at the time, but now I want to tear my heart - then wouldn't I be a father who is a hundred times more ruthless than my own father?

I sometimes wonder if it would have been better if I hadn't met her back then. But I suddenly realized that I wouldn't be able to survive without her, ridiculous, ridiculous, ridiculous! My cruel father made me grow up, and what did I do with this bastard......

But I was relieved. She told me that because she loved me and wanted me to be happy, she never left, but became a part of me, and such a life was simply wonderful...... My tears rained down, but rainbows appeared at the corners of my mouth.

- Then, as you wish, my dear child. Sleep in peace, sleep in peace, the coming day will be long, and we will see you again.

The lady who was destined to be a fairy descended to earth and amazed my world. I will never forget her eyes, which carried the winter, summer, autumn and spring of the whole world, and made my life shine.

Maybe she's the other half of my life divided? It was only when I was with her that I felt the wholeness of my soul and the peace of my life. But she flashed away like a meteor, so short that I couldn't see clearly, and then she crossed my heart and disappeared into the vast universe. She is so young, and she has already died....... It wasn't until later that I realized that I had once again entered a person in my heart. This time, I'm not going to let go!

A relatively special person, Emperor Jing Sha of Ruiguo, the emperor. He was so tolerant or blind to anyone with malicious intent that he was so harsh with me that he would be furious whenever I spoke up for him. In the end, Jiang Fengyuan told me, why is the emperor the emperor? Because I went back, because I splashed Meng Po soup. I was shocked and asked him how he knew, and he smiled indifferently and said, "I know your loyalty, so I told you that." Pity dust and snow, this is the name you should have. Maki should have been the lord of the continent. You should have been the emperor. Everything is just reincarnation, it's all a circle of cause and effect! Oh, no matter how thoroughly you can see it, you don't have to jump inside. Not to mention, there is a fate in the world, and you and I are destined in this life. The rivers and lakes are huge, and I will definitely know you again in the next life. Hopefully, you will have your own happiness then. And all my misfortunes will be dissipated because of you. Thank you, thank you for dreaming big.

The emperor is my benefactor, and I have done my best to him. So I don't owe each other, maybe I'm cold. That's it.

The white moon is cold, and it is also a pity for the dust and rain. My lifelong rival, one of the people who knew me best in the world, was a fanatic and a sister I couldn't identify. What is the significance of her existence other than tragedy? She was a thousand times more paranoid, radical, and crazy than I was, and I even felt terrified. How glad I am that all the people who have lit the lamp in my life have not made me like that.

I may have fantasized about my sister from afar, naively thinking about what she would have looked like when she grew up, but now I would rather she die young. Is it vicious? But her innate deformed personality has caused her to collapse her life, and I can't redeem her except to kill her.

Fang Qing....... Did he ever treat me as a relative? If he had, I would thank God.

I can't tell if he betrayed him or if I betrayed him, or if we didn't trust each other from the beginning.

"Call you an old camel, don't be angry, it's a witch custom to take a nickname~ Hey, don't slap your face!"

"Old camel, don't you die."

"Old camel....... Are the three of us tired of each other? Old winter melon...... He is the sharpest of cold blades, and you are an accomplice of cowardice. You have to be careful with him, or you can kill him. I'm going to be free. Bye. ”

Relieved, yes. Say goodnight to the world. If time stands still, will everything not gradually reveal its hideous true face under the warmth?

I can't remember it anymore. Let's talk about the old winter melon.

When he first appeared, he was so ordinary that I didn't realize it was him, and it would be him for the rest of my life.

He is the bright moon in my heart, my confidant who hates to see each other late, and the enemy of the sword.

His world has me, not just me.

My world has him, but it's not just him.

I've always wondered if my doomed end with him was due to lack of selfishness or excessive selfishness.

Since I gave everything to others in my last life, I will return all the remaining time to you, okay? So, can you not leave me, can you not become cold, can you not close your eyes?

If I really traveled all over the south of the Yangtze River and stepped on countless mountains to bring back a white plum for you, would the years become gentle? Isn't I the only one who lives the rest of my life?

Just kidding. Don't care.

Others say that love that is not pleasing to each other is humble, but I say that love that is pleasing to both is miserable.

Maybe not, it's just the two of us.

"Luo Zhi, try it, this is a moon cake made by my master!" Master's ill-intentioned smile made me feel creepy, and Senior Brother laughed gloatingly. It's a terrifying sight.

“... Master, what did the disciple do wrong, he should be punished so much! "I was in a mess, so I had to pretend to cry and rush over and grab Master's trouser leg.

"Eh, you're bullying the old man when you say that!"

Bullying the elderly, bullying the elderly, all day long, it is me and my brother bullying the elderly! My heart is bitter.

"No, if you don't eat, you won't give face! Come, Yu An, be an example! Now it was Yu An's turn, and his face turned pale.

I glanced at the resolute and confident Master, and then looked at the Senior Brother for a second. At that glance, it seemed that I understood everything clearly. So...

"Bye bye, old man!" Senior Brother and I laughed and ran away, leaving Master messy in the wind.

Li Xi: ?????????

Then I heard a gnashing of teeth behind me: "The little rabbit is running so fast!" Bully the elderly! Ah my waist! ”

Then the senior brother obediently braked the car and went back to help the master. Then I stupidly continued to rush out: ???

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"Zhiyao, won't you stay with me during the Mid-Autumn Festival?" Wen Shilan tilted her head and lay lazily on the table, her eyes flickering.

"When I first came to Kyoto, I wronged you. But there is no way, I have to go to the emperor's banquet tonight. "I touched her head, and it caused a roll of eyes." I know your emperor, I don't think he trusts you much. ”

"Hey, trust is not there at the beginning, it's called many years of tacit understanding, such as me and you. Well? "I was suddenly stuffed with a piece of mooncake in my mouth, and I could only whine.

Me: Huh? Woowoo??? Huh?

Unsure of the horrible stuffing that pit guy put in, I cautiously took the piece of mooncake in my mouth and looked at it, well, don't ask, I didn't have cross-eyed. Not really.

Wen Shilan pointed at me and laughed, and then stroked her hair thinking handsomely: "Rose-filled." It's not poisonous. Don't ask me where I got the flowers. ”

I took a bite, caught it with my hand, and then my eyes lit up: "Wow, oh my God, it's so delicious!! It's 10,000 times better than Master's Death Food!! ”

Li Xi: ????????

"Go and see your good emperor, I'll leave you dinner." When you become famous, live in the house with the best scenery in the capital, and live separately from me, I don't know when you will be able to taste the food I cook again. ”

I smiled slightly, but didn't answer, "I'll cook for you when I have the chance." ”

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"Hey, Mom. I received the mooncakes, do you still come back for dinner? ”

“....... Oh. I know. See you on the National Day, hang up. ”

Ling Luo hung up the phone and turned back indifferently: "She's not coming back." Just the four of us....... Demons and demons. ”

Fang Qing snorted: "It's okay for you to directly say that Lord Ben is a human, what kind of demons and monsters." No one cares about the accuracy of your words! ”

I asked curiously, "Am I a demon or a ghost?" ”

Wen Shilan: "This question is not ordinary stupid. I'm a ghost. ”

Fang Qing: "Are you discussing the supernatural version of werewolf killing?" ”

Ling Luo: "I am a prophet. ”

Wen Shilan: "I'm a fairy. ”

Fang Qing: "I'm a tiger!" Woohoo woohoo! ”

Me: "... A fairy descends to earth with her face on the ground? And the tiger doesn't call it that. ”

We were arguing, but we all sat down in our chairs. The light in the living room was not warm or cool.

Ling Luo neatly dismantled the express, first placed two mooncakes on the table, placed two more on the altar, and inserted two incense sticks. Fang Qing immediately rushed over to pick up the moon cakes and started eating, Wen Shilan floated next to me, leaning on me weightlessly: "Modern things are not as pure as before, I don't want to move." That's it. ”

Ling Luo had already silently started eating. According to what he said in the morning, it's not because he likes it, it's just because he misses it, and after eating it, it seems that he can chew up the pain of waiting for family affection. I thought of the distant past, the story of the Queen Mother and the orphans, but I just stared at him with my chin propped up.

Lovely.

I burst out laughing. He glared at me inexplicably.

Next to him, Fang Qing had a piece of his own moon cake in his left hand, and grabbed Wen Zhilan's moon cake with his right hand. Wen Zhilan was stunned: "You stupid tiger, at least this is given by the master, I won't eat it and I won't let it go to you!" Ling Luo almost spurted out a mouthful of old blood: "What...... No..... Ahem, ahem! I patted him on the back, "Yes, Fang Qing, don't rob it." Wen Shilan respects her Ling Shiniang very much. ”

Ling Luo: ... Believe it or not, I'm calling the police and kicking you all out.

Fang Hewen: With all due respect, the police can't see us.

Ling Luo was furious: "At least we can drive this old rascal away!" He pointed at me, and I had a question mark on my face.

"But you've accepted my confession." I said innocently, "I didn't know much about life when I first came to this era, and I didn't tolerate much as a lover." ”

"I've promised you in my life!!" Ling Luo's face was red to the root of his ears, and he pounced on me and slammed it on, but... It doesn't hurt at all! I'm very happy, modern people are relatively short and thin, and they don't have much strength to beat people, which is like the previous Xiao Wujun lifting a horse with his bare hands. And it's so light, I picked it up all at once! Thinking about it, I practiced it, held the little Ling Luo in my arms and lifted it up! It's so easy!

I was particularly surprised. But then I was met with a terrible madness, and I was chased all over the house.

Wen Zhilan: The scene of domestic violence.

Fang Qing: I'm dying, and the sick ghost is bullying the general.

In the end, Ling Luo and I had a very good dinner, so greedy that Fang Qing jumped to her feet, and Wen Zhilan also looked at me with a blank eye. I had to offer them a plate as well, but it caused a bear child fight between the two of them...... Finally cleaned them up, and the four of us went to the night market together.

The bustling crowd and the flowing lights are warm. Fang Qing clamored to wear this bracelet, Wen Shilan shouted to buy those dried flowers, and after a while, she couldn't see these two ghosts, and then she appeared out of nowhere. If you pass by a Taoist priest, you will be abducted.

Ling Luo and I left the two fools who had started arguing inexplicably, and walked to the darker lake. A few fireflies flew among the sparse shadows of the trees, and a few people were sitting or lying on the soft lakeside grass, admiring the moon.

On the round moon lives Chang'e, the Jade Rabbit, all the souls that are missed and distant family affection.

I suddenly pulled out a beautiful fireworks stick that I bought at some unknown point and lit it. I held it up as if in honor of all those who had passed by me.

The bright neon lights are far away and unreal, and the brilliant sparks are very close to the stunning. All the light of the confusion was clearly extinguished in his heart, and the eyes that had always been foggy suddenly became very bright, very clear and clear. It is like a deep spring in a dark tomb, shining with the brilliance of the Milky Way outside the sky.

Suddenly, he whispered my name.

He said, Luo Zhiyao. Luo Zhi Yao.

The fireworks stick suddenly fell to the ground and quietly went out. He held the back of my head and kissed me unstoppably. Between my slightly widened eyes and his bangs blown by the gentle night breeze, a bright moon rose on the lake, reflecting the lake waves and autumn wind, which was faint and warm.

"The fireworks are warm. The moon is also warm. ”

"The moonlight is beautiful tonight. What's even more beautiful is that it can be spent with you. ”