Yu An sighed and reached out to put his hand on my shoulder, I looked into his eyes and asked in a daze, "The last step?" What does it have to do with the last step I have to take with him? ”

Yu An is an unusually quiet person, he always speaks plainly on weekdays, as if all the excitement that the world should have is trapped by himself. But today, the restraints that had been confined to him seemed to disappear all at once, and he stared at me with a frown, and two clusters of uncontrollable anger burned in his dark pupils: "Ah Shi, do you want him to marry you?" Do you want to be his concubine? What can he Zhao Wuxian give you! What the hell do you want from him? You ate and lived with him all the way without a name or a penny, what are you asking for? Why I" Yu An's eyes froze, and he bit his lower lip violently and punched the trunk.

The leaves of the trees fell all over the ground with the raindrops that had not dried last night.

I don't know why he's so angry, but I'm sure there must have been something big going on in the Jin Kingdom that I don't know about.

"There was something else written in the letter sent by the Jin Kingdom, right? You both know about Wuxian and you, but you deliberately didn't tell me, right? ”

"Don't let me tell you." Yu An mourned.

"Then you can tell me now."

Yu An turned around and walked to the earthen pit, and picked up the copper shovel on the ground again: "The uncle of the Zhao family is favored by the monarch of Daiguo, and he will marry Daiguo soon." ”

"I already know this."

"But do you know why?"

I shook my head. Bo Ying likes Wu Feng, if she is the master herself, she will definitely not marry Daiguo. The Qin family's welcoming team has already reached the border of Qin and Jin, and the Zhao family regrets their marriage at this time, which can only show that the huge benefits that the Zhao family can get from marrying the Dai State, so that they would rather take the risk of offending the Qin people.

"Daiguo has always been rich in good horses, and the Zhao clan married Daiguo in order to obtain more horses to increase the number of chariots for the next battle?"

"That's one of them." Yu An leaned over and picked up the body of the fish woman and put it into the dirt pit.

"And the other two?"

"North."

"North and North?"

Yu An nodded, looked at me and said slowly: "Jinyang City is in the north, so my father has spent his whole life building Jinyang City. Daiguo is in the north, so the prime minister married his eldest daughter to Daiguo as the queen. The Zhao clan's fiefdom is in the north, and there is no place to expand in the east, west, and south, and if the Zhao clan wants to survive under the Zhi clan, it must expand its land to the north. ”

"But what does this have to do with me and Wuxian?"

"Zhai Di is in the north, and the country of the Di people has a king and daughter to marry."

The kingdom of the Di people has a royal daughter to marry

Oh, I see

Someone in my heart sighed deeply, long, mournful, with the melancholy of waking up from a sweet dream. I raised my head slightly, and the morning breeze on the wilderness was wet, and four or five dark green locust leaves were swept low above my head by the wind. A drop of cold rain suddenly fell on the corner of my eye.

"It's going to rain again, let's go back early after burying them!" I lowered my head and gently wiped the water marks from the corners of my eyes with my fingertips.

Yu An held the bronze shovel tightly and looked at me with a worried expression.

I chuckled and handed my wet fingertips to him, "Look! I didn't cry, it was just the rain."

"If you want to cry, cry, no one here will hear." Yu An lowered his head and silently wiped the water stains off my fingertips.

"I don't want to cry, why should I cry? Go on, I'll listen. I crouched down, found a flat square stone on the ground, and pushed the black earth beside me little by little into the grave in front of me.

"You should know that several countries in the north have always been a sharp knife stuck in the back of the Jin Kingdom. In the early years, the prime minister sent troops to destroy the Zhai State and Xianyu State in the northwest, but the Di people in the northeast have become stronger and stronger in recent years. They were good at cavalry and archery, strong in force, and frequently intruded on several fiefdoms in the north of the Zhao clan. If the Zhao clan wants to expand to the north, it is bound to pass through the territory of the Di people. ”

"Now the Zhao clan is powerless and unwilling to deal with the foreign clans in the north, so the Qing wants peace and doesn't want to fight?"

"Yes. A month ago, the prime minister had hired the princess of the northern Di tribe as his wife for Wuxian, and he was going to marry them as soon as he arrived in the Jin Kingdom. ”

"There is a wedding first, and then there is a gift for the new son, but this is what is written in the letter of the prime minister?" I turned my head and asked Yu An.

"Yes."

"Heh, Prime Minister Qing already knew that I had a relationship with Wuxian!" I chuckled and put down the stone in my hand, turned to the bronze shovel in my hand and stood up, "The wedding date of Wuxian and Princess Di is set?" Is it just next month? ”

Yu An frowned and grabbed the wooden handle of the bronze shovel: "Ah Shi, he is going to marry a wife, don't you really care?" ”

I smiled slightly, and said to myself: "There is rich and fertile land in the north, and instead of competing for fiefdom with the Zhi clan, the Wei clan, and the Han clan in the Jin Kingdom, the Zhao clan should open up new territories in the north. When the prime minister sent your father to build Jinyang City fifteen years ago, he had already made a plan to go north! Now, it's just that the time is ripe. ”

"Did you hear me say that Wuxian is going to get married! He's getting married! Yu An pushed the bronze shovel, grabbed my arms sharply and pulled me in front of him.

He was angry, his chest was rising and falling, and I looked at the tip of his nose, which was less than an inch from me, and replied, "I know, you've made it very clear." ”

"So what was your decision? If you want to go, I can take you right now. ”

"Let's go?" Where to go this time, and where am I going?

I looked at Yu An's face, and tears spread out of my eyes little by little. Why make me cry, why can't you keep me laughing

"Ah Shi, let's go, let's let go of everything in the Jin Kingdom, and we will never go back to the Jin Kingdom, okay?" Yu An hugged me tightly in his arms with both hands. Choked and helpless, there was pain in his voice deeper than mine.

"Yu An, didn't you ask me, what do I want from Wuxian? Actually, I don't want anything. Power, fame, wealth, all this is just a flash in the pan with me. All along, all I coveted was a little warmth and safety in him. I know who I am, and I know that I have no future with him, but I don't want to let go of his hand, he loves me for a day, and I love him for a day. I don't want to leave first, maybe, one day I won't be able to make it out. Perhaps, he and I will one day be separated. But before that day came, I didn't want to let go of his hand, I didn't want to break my vow again" I looked up at a lonely wandering cloud in the sky, and the tears that poured out of my eyes instantly blurred. I can't let go, I can't give up, I can't ask for it, I can't hope for it, this is my life, I knew that there would be such a day, and I was obviously prepared, why did my heart hurt so much when it really came?

"Ah Shi, don't be stupid, let it go! Do you want to go back to the Jin Kingdom to be the witch of his wedding? Do you want to watch him have a full house of children, but he hides in the Taishi Mansion and lives alone? If you can't hold on, you're going to ruin yourself. ”

Yu An's voice buzzed in my ears, and every word in his mouth pierced my heart like a thin needle, and I broke away from his embrace and took several steps back.

"Don't say any more!" I yelled at Yu An.

Yu An was stunned. I was silent for a long time, apologized in a daze, and ran away from him in a panic.

The ground was muddy after absorbing the night's rain, and I ran one foot deep and one foot shallow through the low mounds to the yellow mud path where I came. The winding road, two deep rut marks, should I go back to him the way I came? Or do you turn around and run away again?

Ah Shi, go back, you promised, no matter what path he chooses, you will not let go of his hand. If you are willing to die with him, can't you live with him?

Ah Shi, let's leave, when he marries his wife, and when they have their first child, you will know that there is no woman in this world who can support her without changing her original intention. At that time, you can only watch your love die, and time and jealousy will turn you into another person, like Yuyu, like Qiongnu

I stood still, two different voices arguing in my head. The brown muddy water under my feet seeped into my embroidered shoes little by little, and the chill rushed from the soles of my feet to my heart.

Where do I go? Can anyone tell me?

"Tap, tap, tap" At the end of the road, there was a sudden sound of horses' hooves.

I looked up and looked up at the sky where the clouds were flying, and a dark horse was galloping from a distance. The rider must have gone mad, and he threw a whip on the horse with a loud shout. The black horse ran forward in pain, the mud splashing behind it, and the white foam of snowflakes spurted on its chest, and when it neighed and ran in front of me, the fur on both ribs was already soaked with sweat.

I looked at the ruthless man on horseback in a daze, he threw his whip and jumped off the horse, and pulled me into his arms without saying anything: "You can't go anywhere, you don't want to leave me!" He hugged me tightly, a trembling voice spraying in my ears as he breathed hot.

My mind went blank for a moment. At that moment, I buried my head in his chest and completely forgot to resist.

"Zhao Wuxian, you let me go" When reason returned to my mind, I began to twist frantically trying to break free from his confinement.

"No, don't you think about it!" With a twist of arms, he trapped me firmly in his arms.

His arm was out of control, and he was holding it so tightly that it made me hurt.

"Don't leave me, you promised" Shirtless's face pressed against my hair, his drum-like heartbeat ringing in my ears.

I buried my head in his chest and clutched his sweaty shirt in pain: "You're going to have a wife, you're going to have a wife"

"Yes, I'm getting married. So, are you going to run away? ”