Listening to Yunxiao's almost disrespectful words, Zhao Xi did not blame him for being angry, because he knew very well how serious the mistake he had made; If he hadn't helped his father, the third sister-in-law would not have made up her mind to leave the third brother, and she would not have taken out the third brother's child.

He grew up with the third brother since he was a child, and he knows very well the third brother's desire for family affection, his father hurt the third brother like that, and the third brother can forgive him in the end, but in the third brother's heart, relatives play a pivotal role in his heart.

However, the third brother he killed lost his first child, and this sin was like a lock locking him firmly in an iron cage full of sin, so he would not blame Yunxiao for saying these words to him, because he knew how hateful he was and how unworthy of forgiveness he was.

It's just that he will never allow himself to escape at this time.

Looking at the supper in Yunxiao's hand, Zhao Xi snatched the tray with the supper without saying a word, then looked at Yunxiao and said, "You go down first, I'll go and deliver food to the third brother." ”

"However, His Royal Highness the Crown Prince's order is not to allow anyone to approach him at this time, not even you, the prince."

Zhao Xi said firmly: "I know the measure, don't worry, I know what I'm doing at this time, and I won't let you be scolded by the third brother, if the third brother gets angry, I will carry it alone." ”

As he spoke, Zhao Xi no longer listened to Yunxiao's stop, took a step and walked up the steps in front of the study, then pushed open the slightly hidden door and walked in.

The study that was always brightly lit in the past was only lit with a bean-sized oil lamp tonight, and Zhao Ling sat alone on the chair behind the desk, the whole person seemed to have been drained of all the birth, lowering his head, slightly furrowing his eyebrows, and his long eyelashes occasionally trembled slightly with the light that made a 'crackling' sound.

Beside him, there was a lifeless aura, and he seemed to have kept this movement still for a long time, and there was not a trace of blood on his pale face.

Such a sluggish Zhao Ling was a big surprise to Zhao Xi, because in his impression, his most respected third brother will always be like a warrior on the battlefield, fierce and upright, invincible.

But today, he saw another third brother, fragile, pale, and distressing; And it wasn't until you saw him like this that you realized that he was just an ordinary man, and in the face of the departure of his beloved, he could also be scarred and tormented.

"Third brother, you can eat something."

Zhao Xi didn't dare to let himself look around, for fear that his eyes would cause Zhao Ling's displeasure; He put the tray in his hand on the desk, opened the lid of the soup on the tray, and a faint smell of food wafted out of the soup can.

Zhao Xi stepped aside again and lit a few more candles, and when the candle flame danced with golden light, the darkness in the study was finally dispelled a lot.

When he sensed the arrival of light, Zhao Ling's hanging eyelashes trembled slightly, and then raised his head, and when he saw Zhao Xi standing in front of him, he stared at him for a long time as if he had just noticed him, and said, "Why did you come in?" ”

Zhao Xi heard this sentence and knew that he should not have attracted the attention of the third brother when he walked in just now, so the third brother said such a thing as if he had just seen him.

"Third brother, I made some food in the kitchen, you haven't eaten for a day, eat some."

Zhao Ling stood up with the chair handle, his black and white eyes with a heavy mist in them, and looked at Zhao Xi through the desk, "I ask you, why are you here?!" ”

Such an expressionless Zhao Ling made Zhao Xi feel chills in his heart after seeing it, "You have been locked up since you came back, I was very worried, so I didn't go back." ”

"Always here?"

Zhao Xi didn't dare to look at Zhao Ling's dark eyes, lowered his head, and nodded obediently.

Looking at Zhao Xi, who was so frightened that he almost couldn't shrink into a ball, Zhao Ling's heart hurt; Although he was cold to his younger brother, at this time, there was someone who was willing to be by his side, which also made him feel warm; It's just that this warmth can no longer be sent to my heart.

Zhao Ling withdrew his oppressive eyes from Zhao Xi's body, turned his head to look at the dark night outside, his eyes that were as quiet as stagnant water flashed slightly, as if he was talking to himself, and as if he was confiding in others, and said, "I should have understood that I couldn't keep her." ”

Zhao Xi didn't understand Zhao Ling's words, but he could see that the third brother at this time needed a listener, and he was willing to be a quiet listener at this time, as long as the third brother could come out of his sadness, he could play any role.

Zhao Ling seemed to ignore Zhao Xi in the room, slowly walked to the window, slowly pushed the half-open window open, and when he felt the cool chill of the autumn night, his deep eyes subconsciously shrank for a moment, and continued: "Back then, I married her as a concubine, and I didn't have much hope at first, and I agreed to my father's marriage, but I just saw that her appearance and eyebrows were a little similar to Luo Yao; Of course, Luo Yao is not as beautiful as her, but for some reason, I can see Luo Yao's shadow in her eyes, so I didn't refuse my father's marriage and welcomed her into King Ling's mansion. ”

"After she came to King Ling's Mansion, the stupidity and ignorance she showed surprised me, but at the same time, it didn't make me feel how impossible it was to accept, because she never really put her in her heart, so whether she was beautiful or stupid, or even when she was bullied, she didn't even dare to cry, it had nothing to do with me; I left her alone in the palace for two whole years, and in these two years I gave her the honor of the princess, and gave her fine clothes and food, so that many uninformed people thought that I was very affectionate with her in the palace, and that she was the only mistress of the Ling Palace; However, we who really know the truth clearly know that she is not happy at all in the palace, and the person she loves in her heart is the eldest brother, and she married me for the ambition of the eldest brother, so I don't care about her at all, and she is also in my 'don't care', walking on thin ice, but so what? To me, she is like a random vase in the palace, as long as it is placed there, don't break it casually and die, as for whether she is really good or not, it has nothing to do with me; As I said, because I never really liked her, I didn't care if she was sad or happy, happy or crying. ”

"But slowly, she changed, and became strange to me, strange to me, and even curious to me; She seemed to have become a different person, and the woman who was originally like a stagnant water suddenly became vivid, and the laughter and anger were vividly displayed on her face, which surprised me and fascinated me deeply. ”

Zhao Lingyin's face under the light gradually revealed a faint smile with his words, just like the spring that was revealed after the frost gradually melted, which made people feel warm: "This is the first time I have such a feeling, I like to watch her laugh, watching her weird elves toss all kinds of things, even if I look at her all day, I won't feel tired; In my accumulated relationship with her, I found that I could no longer control my heart rationally, I wanted to touch her, wanted to have her, and even wanted to possess her alone, when this thought was deeply rooted in my heart, I knew that I was hopeless, I fell into the love between men and women that I had the most disdain, and was restrained by a woman's joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and my persistence, dreams, and wishes became worthless in front of her; It seems that as long as I look at her, I can forget everything I have worked so hard for, as long as I have her and let me exchange everything, I will not hesitate in the slightest. I put her more than my own life, and I longed for her response; But I gradually found that I saw her as my own, but she divided her whole into many pieces, and divided them among many people. ”

Zhao Ling's face with a smile gradually sank, and he once again changed back to the cold and indifferent appearance just now, and no one could easily get close.

"The moment I realized how loving her heart was, I almost thought I was going crazy, and I asked myself why she couldn't just focus on me like an ordinary woman, why she was so kind to others, why she had to care about the lives and deaths of those who had nothing to do with it; I can give her everything that women want most, glory and wealth, fine clothes and food, noble status, unique favor, I can give her whatever she wants, in the face of such me, shouldn't she just revolve around me? I don't understand, how can she smile at me and still smile at everyone else? Could it be that that person, like me, occupies the same place in her heart? ”

"I was madly jealous of those people, and at the same time I was crazy about those people, so the moment I knew that Yuan Feng had fallen into Zhuo Lang's hands, the first thought that came to my heart was not to save him, but to cry out in my heart: let him disappear like this, so that this eye-catching person will not appear in our lives and attract her attention. However, when I saw her grieving because of Yuan Feng's death, I regretted it again; Because at that moment I knew a truth, that is, in this life, I will no longer be able to raise my head in front of her, as long as the name Yuan Feng is mentioned, I will become a despicable villain, and in this matter of Yuan Feng, I am a sinner. ”