The way back

Qiao Yi looked at the purse lying quietly in Shen Mo's outstretched hand. Under such a small and delicate purse, you can also see Shen Mo's slender and clean fingers. Qiao Yi looked at Shen Mo with some confusion. I didn't know what he meant by this move.

Shen Mo just smiled faintly. stretched the purse in his hand to Qiao Yi's side again. He whispered, "Now I'll leave this concern to you. You are going to open it and take a look. Or keep it all the time. It's all right."

Qiao Yi lowered his eyes and stared at the purse that was handed over. A smile was revealed. Seriously shook his head at Shen Mo: "Since your concerns are all here. And why do you give it to me? You should keep it for yourself. Take this concern with you. Just like it was before today. Always with me. I know that this concern can be held firmly in my hands."

Shen Mo sighed softly. Fingers stroked the purse in the moonlight. looked at the waning moon in the water and said, "I really don't know when I can really hold this concern in my hands. Never let go. Now I want to give you this concern. Because eventually it will come back to you. So. It's better for you to keep it in advance. Later. Who knows what will happen next? I can only grasp today."

Qiao Yan stretched out his hand. Gently took the purse from Shen Mo's palm. Hold the small purse with his body temperature in his hand. And then put it in the cuffs. Then he straightened his sleeve and asked, "I just saw that you have been caressing this purse. It's so reluctant. It's better to keep it. You have to know. Gave me what kind of decision it was. After all. That's your concern. It's not mine."

Shen Mo blinked his eyes and couldn't deny Qiao Yan's words: "That's true. But. I want you to know what my concern is."

Qiao Yan turned his head to stare at his side face. smiled lightly and bent his eyebrows: "Oh. So can you tell me why. Since you want to let me know so much. Should you let me know why you want me to know?"

Shen Mo stared at her with crooked eyebrows and smiling eyes. Shaking his head slightly: "Nature should let you know. Not now, though."

Qiao Yan was stunned. Just about to speak. Then I heard footsteps behind me. Busy stopped. Stand up and look behind you. I saw that it was Zhu Dong, who had been hidden in the darkness, who walked out at this time. Standing on the sidelines as if he had something to say.

Qiao Yan smiled. looked at Shen Mo condescendingly and said, "I'm afraid the banquet is going to disperse. It's time for us to go back."

Shen Mo nodded. Also stood up. He waved his hand at Zhu Dong on the side, then turned his head to Qiao Yi and said, "It's time to go back. I'm afraid I won't send you back again. It's time for chaos there, too."

Qiao Yi raised his eyebrows: "Indeed. So ah. Let's go back quickly."

The two looked at each other and smiled, walking back side by side. It's still the familiar path. The hazy shadows of the trees under the moon. Both of them walked silently and silently. No one ever spoke of the purse again. The concern in that purse. And that topic that doesn't end.

Qiao Yan didn't ask what he wanted to ask. Because she already knew what that concern was. also knows what kind of answer she will get from Shen Mo's mouth. She already knew the answer. This answer will make her laugh. It will also make her cry. Maybe I'll be desperate for it. It's just that. It's just that I'm afraid I'll never ask again. And he won't say it anymore.

He's leaving. I asked him myself. And what if he speaks. Separation is just around the corner. All the love words that can warm and devour the heart are so redundant. Because none of that matters anymore. People are gone. What is there to leave these empty? He's going to that bustling Kyoto. There's something there's here to have. There's something that isn't available here, too. He's his age. Love is already shallow and frightening. How can I believe it?

Qiao Yan looked at every step under his feet. Every step of the way is the same as when it came. He should have been here many times. Depart from here. Back from here. I didn't know anything about it before. Only this time he didn't say it explicitly, but I already had an insight. Tomorrow will be a goodbye separation. This one. It's going to take years. Or is it said. For a lifetime.

When I was young, my love was always so strong and so desperate. But he will grow up. He will grow taller. The posture is more upright. The shoulders are more wide. The silhouette is more three-dimensional. The eyes are deeper and the bottom is not visible. Just a glance to see through your heart. He was at that time. Will it still be like this. I love one like this so much. It's going to be so overwhelming.

At that time, he had already seen all kinds of beauties. Or everyone's ladies. Or a small jasper. Or Miss Saga. Or a woman in a green house. Let me be so unremarkable in this general. The little memory that will be consumed in all kinds of beauties is gone. I already knew it was going to be like this, didn't I? Even so, it will not end well. Why bother for a good beginning?

It's just that. How can I appease my heart? In front of him, his heart beat wildly to an irrepressible heart. In his unconsciously leaking affectionate eyes. In his sudden warm words. What he didn't say was he bearing it himself? No. Why don't you bear it together?

What he tried so hard to control was that he had been pretending not to know anything. Uncomfortable. The pain also has its own. Those who want to ignore it also have their own. Why. Qiao Yan looked at the young man beside him with some sadness. Why can't you face your heart. Why put yourself and him in this dilemma. Can't you gamble? He could have given up everything and gambled. Don't you think the same thing in your heart? Why don't you follow your heart?

Shen Mo didn't furrow his eyebrows again. Didn't smile either. He didn't feel much sadness at this point. I don't feel much joy either. He walked blindly as if he didn't feel anything. Obviously she's right next to her. It's so close. I can smell the flowers in her hair. Hear her shallow breathing. Her hand was almost palpable with her own. But they didn't hold hands.

It's like it's so close. She didn't ask any more. As long as she keeps asking. I'll tell you the answer. Then she'll give herself a reply. An answer that is enough to reassure yourself. Make yourself before leaving. The reply you can get. That's it. None of them can be realized.

Why didn't she ask? Is it because Zhudong's arrival interrupted her unfinished words? I obviously saw that she wanted to ask. But she didn't. It's not because of Takedong. Why doesn't she ask now. It's because she had already guessed what I was going to say. And she didn't want me to say it.

She didn't know how to answer. I don't want to refuse such an embarrassment. But they don't like me. I can't bear to refuse and I don't want to accept it. So I'd rather think I don't know. Is it cruel. Not cruelty. I don't feel it at all. If faced with her merciless rejection. I'm afraid I'm going to be scattered. She hesitated. On the contrary, I comforted my heart. He was so hesitant. Does it mean that there is actually a little bit of her heart that likes herself?

That's fine. That's fine, isn't it? At the very least, the status quo of this one makes me leave with doubts and expectations. Instead of leaving alone in embarrassment. With a belly full of melancholy and sadness. At least it's going to keep coming back for a long time. But. Can you leave without an answer?

How long will you walk yourself. I don't know. I can only try my best to come back as soon as possible. As for how early. I can't be sure for myself. And what about her. She won't forget herself. Promised a family affair. When she returned, she was married and a wife. No. It's simply unimaginable. Shen Mo watched as the moonlight knocked down her small shadow that was slowly moving on the ground. His steps were a little chaotic.

He glanced at her, who had been silent. What was she thinking? Are you thinking about something like yourself? Are you thinking about yourself? I. Did it even make her feel embarrassed? Shen Mo looked at the streets and alleys that had not yet ended. Unconsciously. I've already made it here. It's almost time to get to the restaurant. I and her are about to be separated after all.

Zhu Dong behind him just looked at the backs of the two people. I didn't say a word all the way. He walked slowly. Look at the pair of young boys and girls who are full of worries. Their calculations are very strange. It's as if only an outsider can see through it. I didn't have anything to break it properly. There is only hope that we can meet on this last night. One side can figure it out.

Shen Mo and Qiao Yi stopped in front of the restaurant. It seemed that he wanted to say goodbye, but he didn't open his mouth. Shen Mo glanced at Qiao Yi's eyebrows. Said with a smile: "Because. Because I don't dare let you know about it now."

Qiao Yan raised his head. The eyes were full of surprise. She didn't expect Shen Mo's answer. I didn't expect him to answer. I didn't expect such an answer. Shen Mo's hand that had been raised and lowered countless times was still raised. This time it finally fell on Qiao Yan's face. Gently brushed away the strands of hair scattered in front of her: "I won't dare."

Shen Mo put down his hand. Didn't say a word again. I just turned around and walked away without looking back. His back was straight. But Qiao Yi still saw a lot of loneliness. The boy was so crushed that he was about to collapse. His steps were a little flustered and a little hesitant. But it didn't stop. Just go away slowly. Finally in the dark. Never seen again. But Qiao Yan's tears fell without warning at this time.