98. Disturbed mind

Back in Silaiju, Feng Qiwu was already reading in the study, Yu Guang saw Suo Huan peeking at the door, beckoned him in, Suo Huan just approached, and a silk handkerchief hit his cheek.

"Where have you gone, sweating all over your head?"

Suo Huan smiled and pressed his hand, "I didn't go anywhere, I just saw that the scenery along the way was very good, so I stayed there." ”

Feng Qiwu nodded, "Wan Chun girl made a sweet rose glutinous rice stuffing, just wait for you to come back, go quickly." I'll read the book quietly and I'll go to you. ”

Suo Huan agreed, only to come back for a moment, put a cup of warm glutinous rice stuffed on the desk, then peeled a plate of pine nuts, also gently placed it on the desk, and sat on the side, playing Go without making noise. Feng Qiwu read quietly, occasionally writing down opinions, or a sentence, or a long speech, the swallow went back and forth several times, occasionally crashed into the house and swirled and flew out.

The shadow of the flower moved eastward, the sun was in the sky, Feng Qiwu finished reading most of "Guiguzi", put down the pen and rubbed his eyebrows, and pointed to the glutinous rice stuff: "I don't love this." ”

Suo Huan pinched the chess pieces, braised his cheeks and smiled: "I eat very well, I don't dare to enjoy it exclusively, I know that you don't like sweet, so I specially used bamboo leaf dew to lighten it, and only borrowed the fragrance of rose paste." You taste it, and if it's really bad, I'll change it. ”

Feng Qiwu tasted it according to his words, it was light and smooth, and it was very tasteful, so he scooped it with a porcelain spoon and ate most of it. Suo Huan saw that he didn't want to eat pine nuts, and he was afraid that the oil would change its flavor after a long time, so he took it out for Wanchun to chew and play, and when he came back, he held a plate of peeled oranges, and took a thin stape to remove the white silk, picked out all the seeds, and then sent them to Fengqiwu's lips.

Feng Qiwu opened his mouth and looked at him suspiciously: "Something to ask for?" ”

"No," Suo Huan said, "can't I serve you?" He stood behind him and rubbed his temples.

Feng Qiwu smiled lightly: "I want you to serve you day and night, I don't want to go." The words that should have been very lustful because he said them calmly, but instead turned into a tranquil and beautiful gossip near the window, Suo Huan lowered his eyes and said nothing, and only after a while did he smile: "Speaking of the joy of the pillow seat, you treat me more." If you really feel ashamed, teach me to read. ”

Feng Qiwu couldn't see his gaffe, and refused: "No." Suo Huan's subordinates became softer and softer, and said with a smile: "Am I so stupid? I don't dare to let adults be reduced to being my teachers, and it's good to just teach articles casually. ”

Feng Qiwu nodded at this time, and led him to the bookshelf to choose himself. Suo Huan looked at the full books, only to feel dazzled, and said: "I don't recognize, I don't know which one is good, which books do adults read in their spare time?" ”

"The time and place are favorable, political history, the art of war, water conservancy, agriculture and mulberry, text titles, and even Qimen Dunjia, and the history of various dynasties and oppositions, there is no fixed number, and most of them catch what to read. Don't look at me, just say what you want to learn. ”

Suo Huan originally wanted to follow his preferences and watch the dishes be served, but he didn't think much about it when he heard this, and only asked: "Do adults teach poetry?" ”

The poems are short and easy to understand, catchy, and mostly lovely, which is a genre that he is easy to accept. Speaking of shallowness, it is none other than the Yuan people's small order, but the lyrics are lovely, and there are more Song people's beautiful pens, and their sadness, grace, clarity, and glamour are similar to this person's charm. Feng Qiwu thought that the poems were too glamorous and easy to lose sincerity, and they were vulgar, but they were not as good as natural elegance and profundity.

He took down the collection of poems of Jin Yuan's article Dazong Yuan Yuzhi from the top of the bookshelf and gave it to Suo Huan, Suo Huan quickly turned it over, and did not look closely, and randomly selected a page, "Oh, that's it!" Feng Qiwu opened his eyes to see that it was "West House Song" that was written about women's girlfriends, and said while turning back to the bookcase: "It's excellent to cut the rhyme and change the rhyme, but you may not like this sad tune." ”

Suo Huan followed him closely and said with a smile: "How can I not like it?" People grow and gather rarely, flowers and full moon are the most rare, don't say anything about life and death, horizontal and vertical I am not a person in the poem, just look at it. ”

Feng Qiwu didn't say much when he heard this, and taught him a "West House Song" word by word, Suo Huan read it along, but he was also smart, and he could memorize it only twice. Then explain the words, interpretation, technique, artistic conception, and finally point to the end of the poem and say: "'The monologue in the mirror does not know, and wants to arrange flowers and branches like tears', a vivid portrayal of you, among which the words 'tears are like washing' are particularly vivid, isn't it what you look like when you cry into tears?" Although you are not a person in the poem, you are the same as the person in the poem, and your feelings resonate with her, and you should be sad for her. ”

"My lord is making fun of me, she cries for her lover, why am I crying?" Suo Huan pouted dissatisfiedly and retorted: "Although they are all crying, they are in two places, and they must not resonate, and I am very happy when I see this poem, why is it sad?" ”

Oh? Feng Qiwu raised his eyebrows: "Tell me about it." ”

His interesting appearance gave Suo Huan great encouragement, and he really held his face with both hands, and said: "The lover is most afraid of parting, and he can't wait for the good times to stay for a long time, and the beloved people will get together for a long time. - I like 'the sea is dry and the stone is rotten and the two mandarin ducks are rotten, and they will die if they only fly together', and the whole sadness can only be this sentence, but it can also be turned sad and happy. Instead of thinking about it and being desolate, it is better to go to Huangquan and be a pair of winged birds and double flying butterflies. ”

This person can always have a different opinion from ordinary people, and it seems to be unreasonable and carefully pondered, but it also has some taste. Feng Qiwu deliberately embarrassed him: "According to you, there will be no one in the world anymore." There is no normality, people have no long-term affection, the old does not go, the new does not come, people have the custom of continuing the string and remarrying, even the birds who are known for their love are not fond of it, just compare this mandarin duck, one dies and the other soon gets a new love, it can be seen that people are not the only ones who have different ideas, everything is like this. ”

Suo Huan shook his head and said: "My lord steals beams and changes pillars, I am talking about people with feelings and hearts, but you are talking about people who are ruthless and heartless, and the two cannot be the same." ”

Feng Qiwu smiled leisurely and asked him: "What is affection and heart, and what is ruthlessness and heartlessness?" Bearing tens of millions of people for one person can be regarded as affectionate and heartfelt? Afraid of losing one person and wandering in tens of millions of people, can it be regarded as ruthless and heartless? How can you talk about first falling in love and then gradually empathizing? What about starting with unintentionality and ending with infatuation? ”

Suo Huan was speechless when he asked a few words, and he was silent, and only looked at Feng Qiwu for a long time: "What do you think, adult?" Feng Qiwu just shook his head: "Just let it be." ”

The seemingly perfunctory two words are actually the true interpretation, since the relationship is uncontrollable, people's hearts are unpredictable, how to force a long-lasting, unswerving? It can only be fate. However...... However, everyone understands the truth, but when it really comes to the mud, who can say lightly: follow fate.

Feng Qiwu saw that he looked dazed, so he pulled him to his knees, nodded the tip of his nose and said: "You are not bad, there are infatuated people in the world, but there are very few, and those who can't bear to sleep alone can't be martyred!" ”

Sleep alone...... It seems that they all died because of that little happiness. Suo Huan got up slightly, slid from his knees to his heels, and said with his ears clenched: "My lord said it super easy, I will leave you tomorrow, and you will know what it is like to sleep alone." He gently blew into his ear, "Oh, I was wrong, adults must not lack pink confidants, where can you know what it means to sleep alone!" "A hand is going down.

Feng Qiwu immediately caught him, "Learn poetry well, what are you going to do?" His fingertips held his chin and shook it: "There is a red powder, but there is no confidant." ”

Probably not wanting to go into this topic, he returned to the poem and said: "The sentence you like reminds me of another masterpiece by Mr. Yushan (Yuan Haowen's alias), lingering and compassionate, hitting people's hearts, I don't know how much better than 'just flying and dying'." "Let's talk about lowering Suo Huan, countering his eyebrows, word by word like cold rain piercing stones, jade shattering Kunshan, reciting the eternal swan song beautifully and coldly.

- "Ask the world, what is love, and teach life and death? There are double flyers in the south and the north, and the old wings have been cold and hot several times. Happy and fun, parting bitter, there are even more crazy children. You should have said: Stratus clouds, thousands of mountains and twilight snow, who does the shadow go to? ......" is far away and low, touching people's hearts. Suo Huan closed his eyes, unconsciously opened his lips, and recited this love poem or eulogy with him.

“…… Hengfen Road, lonely when the drums, the smoke is still flat. The soul is a little more groaning, and the mountain ghosts are crying in the wind. The sky is also jealous, and the warblers and swallows are all loess. Through the ages, in order to stay for the people, he sang and drank wildly, and visited Yanqiu. ”

Before the words are finished, tears fall first. Feng Qiwu wiped away his tears with his fingers, slightly surprised: "Will you carry this?" ”

"Once upon a time in the Nanfeng Pavilion, my friend Chifeng often recited this poem, saying that the goose catcher killed a goose, and the person who escaped the net screamed sadly, and fell to the ground and died. How can people be embarrassed? Later, he really found a person to rely on, and we didn't even say goodbye. When Suo Huan said this, his nose was even more sour, and he choked up: "Chifeng is the most infatuated, although he is in the wind and dust, he is as pure as a fist, and in the entire Nanfeng Pavilion, only he will hang such a sad love word on his lips." ”

A casual word, but it made him miss his friend and cry, Feng Qiwu didn't know anything about Chifeng, and couldn't think of words to comfort, so he could only gently touch his back one by one, and when he was sad enough, he made him laugh, because he praised and said: "The little head melon seed is so smart, but the gentlemen blindly beat you, you can know that you are confused." ”

Hearing him say this, Suo Huan really burst into laughter, because he had just cried, he instinctively wanted to be coquettish, so he deliberately made some idiotic gestures: "How can everyone be as discerning as adults!" Unfold the palm of his hand to show Feng Qiwu, "Wei Fuzi beats people so hard, and it still hurts ...... now" Before the words fell, a light kiss touched the palm of the hand, caught off guard, and instantly made the heart ripple, and the gentle ripple was about to melt.

"Kiss it, and it won't hurt." Feng Qiwu said to him.

Suo Huan didn't know how he could tell a lie so seriously, obviously now...... It really hurts. The pain lightly, continuously, and accurately percussions the most vulnerable part of the heart defense are not unbearable, but they make people feel humble.

Suo Huan, who was soft, leaned against Feng Qiwu's neck, and his nose was full of his good smell. First of all, the layers of faint and luxurious incense on the clothing, you can smell the smell of his usual bathing things when you refine it, it is as fresh and cool as the empty valley after the rain, mixed with the unique body odor of young men, mellow, clean, and inciting, like the hot July sun, which makes people's hearts beat hot, and the whole body is baked lazily with thoughts.

The cold quality and the feeling of heat coexist so harmoniously in him, the more cold is cool and thin into water, and the more hot is reconciled into warm as the wind.

Feng Qiwu was tossed by Suo Huan, his face was going to get into his clothes, and he didn't know what he was looking for.

"Adult...... doesn't smell like other women.

Feng Qiwu listened to him halfway through, and couldn't help but bow his head and ask, "Huh?" Seeing him sniff his chest and abdomen with his nose like a puppy, and thinking that there was some strange smell on his body, he took up his sleeve and sniffed it.

Suo Huan smiled sweetly and picked up the unfinished words: "...... Fragrant. As he spoke, his feet floated as if he was drunk, and the whole person fell forward, not wanting to hit Feng Qiwu's legs with a face.

Feng Qiwu wanted to help him up, but his hand reached out halfway and withdrew it for some reason, his legs slightly closed to lock his head, and asked, "It's also fragrant here?" "It's a completely bad tone.

Suo Huan was numb, and he was ashamed to the extreme, but instead of retreating, he buried it deeper according to his usual habits, and pressed the soft and elastic part solidly. Perhaps because he was pressed too tightly and was suffocated, his breath began to be uncomfortable, and his rapid breathing was clearly audible, which drove up the people who were sitting calmly, and the dormant things seemed to move.

Of course, Suo Huan could feel it, groping with both hands to untie his waist band, Feng Qiwu let go of his legs and pulled him up, hooked the strap and tied it again, looked at him with a smile for a while, and lowered his head.

Outside the house, the chaffinus chirped, reflecting the swaying flower shadows, and the sunlight shone in through the newly put on the thin window screen, and the room was clear and transparent, beautiful and quiet. Feng Qiwu pulled Suo Huan's red ears and said, "You are not herbal tea, you are specially used to defeat the fire, you don't have to do it from now on." ”

The afternoon breeze blew gently, the leaves rustled, and something was completely messed up......