Listening to Chu Xingyue's eloquent words, Zhao Ling fell into deep thought.

In my mind, I unconsciously remembered the scene of my childhood.

At that time, he was still living in the Kyaukyun Hall in the palace, and there was only one old lady waiting by his side, no one cared about him, and no one cared about him.

Many times, he felt that he was not even as good as a powerful eunuch, and the eunuchs in the palace could be surrounded by the front and back wherever they went, and in the long and difficult winter, they could also use the finest gold and coal.

But what about him? Except for being taken care of for three meals a day, the rest of the time is like a ghost in the palace, no matter where it wanders, it is a single figure.

He was the latest of the princes to be enlightened, and when he was sent to the small study in the palace to study, the other princes had already memorized a thousand words, but he couldn't even write his own name.

At that time, although he was not enlightened, he also knew that his father liked the wise prince, and his father loved to read, and naturally he also liked the son who read well, and he worked hard to attract his father's attention and love.

He is not afraid of being lagging behind most of his schoolwork, but he is more diligent when others are resting.

During that time, the candles of the Kyaukyun Hall were burning all night, and he stood alone in the empty room, reciting the day's homework loudly and over again.

But in the end, when he finally jumped from the last place to the top three, his father came to inspect the princes' schoolwork, and he still remembers the events of that day.

Surrounded by everyone, the father is at the best age of his life, high-spirited, heroic, he asked each prince about his homework very kindly, praised the wisdom and wisdom of the eldest brother in public, and gave the second prince a set of tribute inkstones, even the stubborn Xiao Jiu, was held in the arms of the father and loved and amused for a long time.

The father is kind and pleasant to every prince, only to him, from beginning to end, he is ignored, as if he has not seen him at all, and he can't see his eager eyes.

It was at that time that he read in his father's indifference what he had always been unwilling to understand.

In the past, he had quietly asked the old mother who took care of him, who was also a son, why did his father not like him?

The old lady touched his head lovingly, and told him that it was all because of his biological mother; Hearing this answer, he still didn't understand, even if it was because of his mother, his father ignored him a lot, but no matter how he ignored him, he was also his son, wasn't he?

However, such a naïve idea was cut off by himself after seeing his father's deliberately ignored eyes.

It was also at that time that he understood a very mean truth.

That is, when a person really hates you, there is no reason for it; What sons, fathers, sons, and blood relatives will all disappear worthlessly under the indifferent eyes of that person.

Over the years, he has come to this day step by step, little by little in front of the one he called his father, he thought that everything he relied on was his own ability.

Unexpectedly, someone told him today that there was something strange in this, and he may have misunderstood his biological father.

Is it really a misunderstanding? Did he hope it was a misunderstanding?

Zhao Ling was confused, he didn't know what the answer was in his heart.

A person who has been indifferent to him for so many years, suddenly you may have misunderstood him and wronged him, how can he bear this?

Zhao Ling's face was faintly pale, and even his expression was a little bit of a rare malaise, Chu Xingyue didn't expect that his words would have such a big impact on Zhao Ling.

Quickly spoke, comforting and comforting him, "I know that your heart is very chaotic now, and you may not be able to accept what I just said for a while; Zhao Ling, I just want to tell you that what I see and think is not necessarily for you to accept, maybe what I just said is wrong. ”

How could Zhao Ling not see that Chu Xingyue was comforting him at this moment.

However, the time of his childhood was the pain he didn't want to be mentioned in his life, his biological mother died, his father didn't love him, and any eunuch and palace maid in the palace who was a little powerful could bully him.

During that time, he wanted to forget many times in his adulthood, but the more he ignored it, the more he was remembered.

Always reminded him of the cold and unforgiving memories that the palace had left on him.

Looking at Chu Xingyue's worried eyes, Zhao Ling suddenly seemed to be drained of the strength of his whole body, his body was weak, and he actually pressed straight towards Chu Xingyue.

Chu Xingyue hurriedly stretched out her hand to catch him, worrying and trying to support his heavy body, "Zhao, Zhao Ling, what's wrong with you?" Don't scare me. ”

This kind of Zhao Ling was something Chu Xingyue had never seen before, just like a fragile and helpless child who desperately needed the protection and mercy of others.

"Yue'er, you know what? When he was young, the people who this king envied the most were not the eldest brother, but the seventh and the youngest. ”

Zhao Ling trembled his long eyelashes, and his heavy pupils flickered with broken waves.

"Lao Qi has been smart and clever since he was a child, and he will please his father the emperor the most, the king remembers, there is a year of the lantern festival when the father takes the old seven out of the palace in disguise to enjoy the lanterns, and when the old seven comes back, he holds a rabbit lantern in one hand, and holds a string of red and bright sugar gourds in the other, at that time the old seven love to stick to the king to play, he ran to my face, the rabbit lantern to me, said that he was specially selected for me, and then, he ate the sugar gourd sweetly in front of the king."

"In fact, this king was not uncommon at that time that rabbit lantern, what was rare was the string of sugar gourds in his hand, this king knew that the sugar gourd must have been bought for him by his father, because the seventh loved sweets, and this king was not greedy to eat, but thought and envied in his heart, if my father could also buy me a string of sugar gourds, even if I didn't eat or drink for three days and three nights, this king could laugh out loud."

Hearing Zhao Ling say this, Chu Xingyue's heart suddenly felt very uncomfortable.

Originally, she thought that Emperor Showa was a relatively alternative father, so she put all her love in her heart, and deliberately put on a strict father to educate her children.

But looking at it now, what happened to Zhao Ling must not be simple.

It can be seen that Emperor Showa must be very eccentric, some of his behaviors caused him deep harm when Zhao Ling was young, which made him unable to let go of his feelings to this day, and every time he was remembered, he was haunted by it.

Thinking of this, Chu Xingyue couldn't help but feel angry in her heart, and patted Zhao Ling's back angrily to soothe, while saying, "Lao Qi's stinky boy is too unkind, he won't give you anything to eat sugar gourds, look at how I will clean him up when I go back to see him this time." ”

Zhao Ling smiled helplessly at Chu Xingyue's words, and said, "Actually, later, when this king grew up, he also asked someone to buy a sugar gourd and taste it, and found that the sweet and sour thing was not very delicious, and this king really had no interest at all." ”

Chu Xingyue didn't expect Zhao Ling to do such an unexpected thing.

I couldn't help laughing, "You guy, you always do things so unexpectedly, what about Xiao Jiu?" What do you envy him? That color embryo, do you still envy him for having many women? ”

As she spoke, Chu Xingyue deliberately stretched out her hand and pinched the tender meat on Zhao Ling's waist fiercely.

Sure enough, Zhao Ling, who was pinched, immediately felt like he had been beaten by electricity, and quickly got up from Chu Xingyue's body, grabbed her bad hand and gently pinched it as punishment.

"This king naturally does not envy the many women of Xiaojiu, but envies that he always has a way to attract the attention of his father; Although my father only has nine sons, he doesn't have much time to spend on us, but Xiao Jiu has a way to make his father talk about him often, although most of the content is scolding him, but even if he is scolded, it is better than ignoring, isn't it? ”

Chu Xingyue's heart was almost sour to death by Zhao Ling's words, at this moment, the man in front of her was not the King Ling who could call the wind and rain in the past, nor was he the noble prince who held a lot of power, but an ordinary son who longed for his father's love and longed to be noticed and loved.

However, it is this simplest love, the simplest family affection, which Zhao Ling has longed for for so many years but has never been able to have.

She understood why his expression had changed so much after hearing her words.

Emperor Showa should be extremely fragile and disappointed in his father's figure, and even in Zhao Ling's heart, it is very likely that Emperor Showa has been regarded as an ordinary person with only blood relations.

His words were not so much shocking to him as they were shocking.

It seems that if her guess is true, the father-son road between Zhao Ling and Emperor Showa really needs a long way to go.

Chu Xingyue looked at the man in front of her distressedly, stretched out her hand to trace his handsome eyebrows and eyes, and said, "I know that there are some things that will not be forgotten over time, and I will not ask you to forget the bitterness and pain you suffered when you were young; For me, as long as you are doing well now and in the future, I am satisfied. ”

Zhao Ling was also very emotional when he heard Chu Xingyue say this.

Stretched out his hand and pulled the person in front of him closer, hugged her slender waist with one hand, gently pinched her chin with the other, looked at the face of the country and the fragrance under his fingers, and admired it for a long time before he spoke.

"Yue'er hopes that the future of this king can go all the way, but this king also hopes that Yue'er's future can be accompanied by this king; Yue'er, this king has been indifferent to family affection since he was a child, for this king, you are a family member in the true sense of this king, but with you, this king is no longer satisfied, when will you be able to give birth to a son for this king, so that this king can really taste the feeling of being a father. ”

Chu Xingyue didn't expect Zhao Ling to suddenly mention this to herself, and she was a little stunned on the spot.

Zhao Ling continued, "This king swears that he will never let our children be as miserable and miserable as this king was when he was a child, and this king will be a good father and a good father." So, Yue'er, give birth to a child for this king. ”