Wuxian sprinkled a handful of soil on Si'er's grave, turned around and took my hand: "You go and change your clothes!" ”

"Kid ......"

"Chen Pan owed me a life back then, and he will find a way to take care of our children. You come with me first. Wu Feng bowed his head and led me to the bank of the river. When he came, he drove a heavy carriage with a fish-scale canopy, and a starry curtain embroidered in the Jin Kingdom, which was clearly the seven-incense car that had been parked in the backyard of Taishi Mansion.

"How did you borrow Master's car?"

"It's—your car." Wuxian stretched out his hand to caress the long-faded silk curtain on the Qixiang cart, and the stars covered by the years and dust lingered at his fingertips, "Twenty-one years ago, you were born in this carriage, I was the first person in the world to see you, ahead of everyone, even your aunt." I hold your head, you are wet and shivering in my hands, I want to hug you, you touch my face and suddenly cry......"

"Hongyun'er, what are you talking about?"

"Zhi Yao trapped your A-Niang and your brother in the secret room back then, and the thieves entered the house and stole the treasure and accidentally saved your A-Niang, and your A-Niang accidentally crashed into Taishi's carriage by mistake. That night, I was the one who drove for Taishi. Taishi sent your aunt out of the city in a carriage, and she gave birth to you on the way. I sewed the ratskin jacket you hid under the mattress when I was seven years old, so I knew you were the baby girl born that night. Ashi, I really like this kind of first encounter, which makes every subsequent encounter turn into a fateful reunion. Your life and death are unknown, and when I was seriously injured in bed, I often recalled when we met in the past. I told myself that this was far from the end, that I would not die, that you would not die, that as long as we were alive, we would always meet again. Like, now. ”

"Why are you telling me now?" I clenched my hands, and his words surprised and delighted me, sighed and saddened.

Wuxian wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes and whispered: "I don't say it, I want to find a suitable opportunity in the future, and talk to you when you are the happiest or most annoyed by me, but now...... As long as you understand, we'll meet again. ”

"You...... Want to send me away? I let go of my shirtless hand and lifted the curtain of the cart beside me—there were three large black lacquered ebony boxes stacked high in the cart, and he had even packed my bags!

"I already told General Wu last night that he would take you back to Qin today. In the near future, Chen Pan will also send Xiao Ya'er and your brother to Qin to see you. Uncle Qin sent General Wu this time to take you back to Qin, and since he had such a plan, he would naturally find a reason to deal with Zhi Yao. Zhi Yao was domineering, but after all, the new Zhengqing did not dare to offend the Qin State rashly at this time. ”

"You want to send me to Qin? Then do you want me to live in the General's Mansion or the Qin Gong Palace? "I stared at the shirtless without blinking.

Wuxian looked at me with a frown, his silence being his most painful answer. He is Zhao Wuxian, and if there is a choice, he will never let go of my hand and send me to the place where he least wants me to go. His heart had already been stabbed bloody by himself, and my questioning at this moment was undoubtedly another painful abuse for him. I gave up, gave up torturing him, and tortured myself.

"Hongyun'er, we really don't have time, right?"

"No, I said, we still have countless mornings and twilight."

"Liar."

I bowed my head and smiled wryly. Jiangdu suffered, and the Zhao family suffered the heaviest losses. Except for the Black Armor Army and Zhao Ji's father who died in Zhao Ying's bedroom, most of the Zhao clansmen in the capital who held official or military positions could not escape the persecution of my father and Yu An. The Zhao family suffered this great blow, and it was undoubtedly more difficult for Wuxian to keep the foundation left by Zhao Ying. Zhi Yao has always regarded the Zhao family as a thorn in the side and a thorn in the flesh, and my presence will only make him even more eager to get rid of Wuxian and the Zhao family behind him. If the Zhao family can't survive, how can Wuxian keep me and the child? I understand the truth. But I ......

"How long do you want me to wait? One year, two years, ten years? Wait until I forget you and love you anymore? I glared at the shirtless with tears in my eyes.

Wuxian sighed, hugged me and said, "It's okay if you forget, no matter how many times you forget me, I will make you fall in love with me again." ”

"Maniac......" I clung to the warm placket of his chest, gritted my teeth and closed my eyes tightly.

"Ah Shi, after going to the Qin Kingdom, I will follow you wherever you want to stay, I just ask you to promise me one thing."

"What's the matter?"

"Don't feel sorry for me. Whatever you hear about me in the future, don't feel sorry for me. You have to remember that as long as you and the child are well, no one can really hurt me. ”

The tears in my eyes were suppressed by me for too long, and this time I finally couldn't help but burst out of my eyes. I can still escape, but he can't even escape.

"Hongyun'er, I'll wait for you, don't let me wait too long, when I'm old and ugly, I won't see you again."

"My silly woman, will you be uglier when you are old than you are now?" Shirtless lowered his head and caressed my face. After a day and a night of production, and being beaten by Zhiyao, my face must have been ugly, but he looked carefully, just like that night on the shore of Luoxing Lake, inch by inch, reluctant to fall a bit.

"Husband, it is difficult to live together, it is easy to die together, why do we always choose the most difficult path?"

"Because I can't bear you, you can't bear me."

…………

There is only a moment to be together, and after that, it is a long-term parting.

The wheels rolled and carried me all the way west, and I rode closely on my horse.

We walked mile after mile, but we still didn't know how to say goodbye or how to cherish.

I don't cry, he doesn't cry; I was speechless, and neither was he.

We all gritted our teeth and pretended to see each other soon, but the sad gaze and the horse's hooves that couldn't bear to leave revealed our secrets—we were all afraid, afraid that if we turned around, it might be our lives.

"Go back, Zhongmuyi Zai Buddha has rebelled, don't you have to lead the army to quell the rebellion tomorrow?"

"It's okay, I know what happened to Zhongmu." Wuxian glanced at Wu Feng in front of the car and said to me with a smile.

"If you send it again, you're going to go out of the Xinjiang realm. Zhongmu is the Zhao family's important city, you are in charge of the Zhao family for the first time, and you have no foundation in the clan, the Zhao family is in trouble this time, and the people in the clan must be staring at Zhongmu City. Those who doubt you, those who believe in you, and those who vacillate are waiting to see how you can recover Zhongmou. Your words and deeds at this time are related to the overall situation, and you can't make a single mistake or lose half an inch. ”

"I know." Shirtless Horse approached, pointed to the felt at my feet and said, "Is it cold?" Cover it first. You just gave birth to a child, and you have an old disease on your legs, Qin Di is not as good as Xinjiang, cold in winter and cold in spring, and you have more snacks for yourself. ”

"Hmm. Hongyun'er, Zhongmu is the Zhao family after all, you want to take the city, but you can't attack it. Today is different from the past, the heart of the retainers must be stable, and the heart of Li Shu must not be lost. ”

"Okay." Wuxian nodded and looked at me, but his eyes suddenly turned red when he looked at it. He pursed his lips and turned his head, swallowing the words back into his stomach.

We have too many admonitions, too many too many to let go. One sentence was spoken, and another sentence was born, one, two, three...... No matter how much you say, it is impossible to finish all the words in your heart, and no matter how much you say, there will always be endless concerns.

It's better not to say it, it's better not to say it at all.

I looked at the side face under the sun, and the scenes of the past flooded into my heart. The beast face in the moonlight, the drinking ...... of Prince Qin's mansion He got drunk for me all night, I jumped into the dark web he weaved, we calculated, we fought, we separated and reunited, and then we fell in love, and we held each other's hands all the way to this day. But today, we're going to let it go.

"Stop!" I withdrew my gaze and shouted to the driver of the car.

Horses without the reins.

I stepped out of the carriage and he jumped off the horse.

"Husband, don't send it. When everything is fine, just remember to pick me up. We have ten years, I will wait for you for ten years, and you will not be late for a day, okay? ”

"Ten years?" He choked.

"Not enough?" I raised an eyebrow.

"No, that's enough. We are ten years long, and it is not too late for a day. He smiled and nodded.

"Okay." I smiled at him, turned to get into the car, and raised my hand to lower the curtain.

A curtain separates, separated by a world, two worlds, ten years.

Farewell, my red clouds.

The wheels babbled, he shouted the horse in a dumb voice, and I clenched my teeth and did not look at his departing back, nor listen to his distant horses' hooves. I held back my tears, hugged myself, and pretended that ten years was just a moment.

"He's gone." Wu Feng lifted the curtain.

I got up sharply and rushed out of the carriage, the wind blew the field, the grass was vast, and there was only a faint shadow of a man and a horse at the end of the ancient road. Tears surged wildly for a while, and I hurriedly wiped them with my hands, but even that faint shadow disappeared.

"Let's get in the car first, it's not safe here. When we reached the border, someone came to pick them up. ”

"General...... Do you think I've lived a ridiculous life? Coming and going, scheming, trying to hold on to everything, but holding nothing. In the end, I walked away, scattered, and died, I tried my best, I really tried my best, why did it end like this. Am I wrong? What the hell am I doing wrong? I turned my head, and the tears on my face had dried layer after layer.

Wu Feng stared at me, and it was hard to hide the pain in his eyes: "Xiao'er, you are not wrong. Moths to the fire, with hatred to trap themselves all their lives are called absurd, such as me, such as Dong Shu, such as your father. It's us who is wrong, not you. ”

"No, there must be something wrong, otherwise it wouldn't be like this......"

"Child, remember what I said before? I look forward to what you will look like when you grow up, and now you are what I always wanted to be. You want the world to be peaceful, so you do your best. In the troubled times, how many people still have your courage and persistence not to look back? ”

"But I can't stop fighting. Qin State, Wei State, Qi State, Zheng State, I have worked hard, but ......"

"We all know that we are sick in this day, but some people go with the flow, and some people take the opportunity to take it. There are many brave and wise men in all countries in the world, but there are very few people who have the heart of the world. Your Confucius is one, and you will be one. If he fails, you may fail too, but there must always be someone in the darkness who thinks of the light all the time, even if he will never see the light in his life. Don't say this is the end, you haven't finished your life, and your life may have just begun now. ”

"I ......"

"I know that you are no longer my child, you have your world, a broader world than the General's Mansion. I only want to keep you safe and not let others break your wings. You used to ask me, the west of the Qin State is Xirong, what else is there to the west? To the west of Xirong, there is also the land of the Cypriots, the country of the Yue clan, where there are snow-capped mountains that have not changed for thousands of years, there are grasslands where thousands of horses gallop, there are singing huqins, and there is the moon that you can touch with your hand. ”

Wu Feng looked at me quietly, his words moved me, he didn't persuade me not to be sad, he just gave me a broader world, a more distant end.

Doctors, Doctors...... It's a distant destination.

The man in front of me was getting old day by day, and his sideburns were dyed with white frost. He is my beloved general, my dearest and most trusted person, and I promised to stay in the General's Mansion to accompany him through this life. But even if I don't have a shirtless, I can't go back, I'm a tinder, and wherever it falls, it will burn to ashes.

"General, I'd love to see the place you said, I really want to. But I can't go, Zhao Wuxian is a very stingy person, if I really go with you, he will be very sad. He was even more sad when he was sad but could do nothing. ”

"Pediatric ......"

"General, change a car for me when you get to the post station, and let Gong Shixi send me back!"

"You can't go back to Xinjiang!"

"No, I'm going to pick up my child, my brother."

And then ...... Where are you going? Wu Feng tried to grab my hand, but finally clenched his five fingers into a fist.

"I don't know. But maybe the more places I went to, the more people I met, I would find my own path, and I would truly become the person you want to be. ”

Two partings in one day, and both of them were people close to my loved ones. I stood behind the small veiled window of the pavilion and watched Wu Feng drive his horse and whip towards the west in a seven-spice cart. General, will we ever see each other again in this life? Thank you for not keeping me and not complaining about me.

In fact, we all know that ten years is not a blink of an eye; Turn around, maybe it's a lifetime. Because, these are troubled times.

The official road can no longer be walked. The prince wearing a bamboo hat drove a thin horse chariot and took me in disguise on the wild road back to Jiang. The frame was bumpy, the wheels swayed, and I lay flat on the carriage, my whole body slumped, as if someone had sucked my muscles and bones out of my body. The half-man-tall thatch beside the wild road was swept into the wheels beside me, and the white velvet of the thatch fluttered above me in the sunlight and breeze.

For a while, I was overwhelmed by countless memories. Gongshixi's cheering became softer and farther away, and I closed my eyes and lingered on the border between dreams and memories.

Is it firelight, or is it sunlight?

"Girl, run!" The heart-rending roar of Gong Shixi woke me up from my dream.

I opened my eyes and a halberd was waving at me.

I turned to dodge it, and Gong Shixi jumped up and grabbed the man by the back of the heart and pulled him off the carriage: "Girl, go-"

Gong Shixi jumped into the carriage, his face was already splattered with blood, and I didn't have time to see how many assassins were behind him, so I got up and grabbed the reins and drank the whip.

Did Zhi Yao find me, it's the assassin from Zhifu?

The mountain road was rugged, and the people behind him were in hot pursuit, and Gong Shixi suddenly jumped out of the carriage with a shout.

"Official—" I shouted.

"Let's go—" He stopped the swarming Assassins with one man and one sword.

The blood-stained white thatch confused my eyes, I whipped all the way forward, the rugged mountain road kept shaking in front of me, I wanted to see the road ahead, but the gray in front of me, the white for a while, finally I saw it, but everything was spinning.

"Turn around—be careful—" Gong Shixi's angry roar drifted in the distance.

Flying, it turned out to be such a painful experience.

I watched the skinny foaming horse struggle to fall down the cliff, and I watched the heavens and the earth spin upside down before my eyes. There was no time to scream, no time to think about what had happened, a suffocating pain had hit her back.

Green pine needles scraped across my face, and a piercing crack sounded.

This time, I screamed.

The silk robe was torn, and my body leaned straight down, and I reached out and grabbed a thick branch, but my feet suddenly hung in the air. There was a hundred-foot cliff above my head, an abyss at my feet, and the fierce mountain wind blew past me, making me shake and tremble involuntarily.

The wind blew away my screams, and I was in pain*, and the palms, elbows, shoulder blades, and joints of my hands seemed to be torn off at any moment.

"Gongshi—" I was hanging from a pine branch when a fireball suddenly fell from the top of the cliff. Then I saw Gong Shixi's face burned by the fire.

He died, burning and falling off a cliff. The cliff was so deep that I didn't even hear the echo of him landing.

A desperate roar rushed down my throat, tears rolling down the corners of my eyes.

I want to live, and I want to see my daughter! I want to see the shirtless!

I was dying, a crimson sunset hanging over the sky, looking at me indifferently, watching my stiff fingers leave the pine branches one by one.

"No—"

"Don't thank me."

I widened my eyes, and someone with a vine tied around my waist took my hand with a smile: "Look, no matter where you are, I can always find you." ”