I kept asking the woman, "Is she sick?" What the hell happened to her? ”

But she didn't say a word, just lowered her head and walked in front silently.

We walked to the second master's territory together.

A group of women surrounded a person on the ground, and Zhang Ami fell to the ground, her body and the ground were covered with blood.

I stepped forward and hugged her.

She struggled to lift her face and look at me.

Her face was pale and colorless, and her lips were pale and colorless. She held out her hand, pale and colorless hands stained with dark red blood. She stretched out her right hand and touched my face.

I could smell the salty, sweet smell, my face was slimy, her hands were warm.

I shuddered, "What's going on? How did it come to this? What did the second master do? ”

She shook her head, her snow-white neck looking pure and innocent: "I did it myself." ”

She gestured to her abdomen.

Only then did I notice that there were two iron chopsticks stuck in there - the iron chopsticks I made.

I reached out to touch them with a trembling hand, and she gently pushed my hand away: "It's useless." You get it out, I'll die faster. ”

I said to her, "What's going on? ”

She smiled, her thin Adam's apple trembling, and the corners of her mouth were tiny foams that were red and white: "Hah." That's a long story. Would you like to listen well? When I die, it won't be in vain. ”

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Zhang Amei, the fifth daughter of the Zhang family in Chang'an County, Gyeonggi Province, was born in Chang'an County in the sixth year of Daming Zhaotian.

The Zhang family has more than a dozen children, she is not the old, nor is she young, and no one pays attention to her, so she always plays everywhere, free and no one cares.

She has older siblings and younger siblings, and she plays with them everywhere and has a carefree childhood.

She has a beloved black-backed dog who is fat and strong. In fact, she has a lot of black backs, and those black backs all look the same, and outsiders can't tell the difference, but she can tell them clearly.

She smiled and told me the difference between blackbacks, as if she was remembering her own children.

I gently stroked her arm, and she was trembling gently.

The child born in the Ming Zhaotian period is lucky, because this is a rare peaceful day in history, and it is so long that it makes people think that this world is like this.

However, the time soon came to the Honghua period, and the Ming Emperor Zhu Honghua began to draft.

The emperor chose 100,000 palace maids in one go. That's almost ten times the previous annual draft. Gyeonggi, in particular, is even stricter. None of the bribes of the Xiaoshi clan in Chang'an County were successful, and a large number of girls were forcibly taken away.

Zhang Ami also wanted to escape, but she couldn't.

She had to think: "It's not bad to enter the palace, maybe you can still be the imperial concubine!" ”

At the beginning, she always hoped that the emperor would favor her.

But that's impossible, there are 100,000 palace maids in it, and there are many smart and beautiful ones. Even if the emperor pampered her, even if she gave birth to a child, it would be an inconsequential nobleman, not even an imperial concubine. Is it because the imperial concubine is from a background, she is just a small scholar in Chang'an County, and she can only be a palace maid for a lifetime.

So disillusioned, she began to yearn for the emperor's early death so that she could enter the nun temple as a nun. Even if she is a nun, she is a hundred times stronger than a palace maid.

Her prayers finally worked.

The world is in chaos.

However, the chaos was a bit excessive, first the Hebei Rebellion, and then the Central Plains Rebellion. The emperor ordered a large number of soldiers and requisitioned all the soldiers he could recruit. Her brother, as a scholar, could not have gotten going, but he still went and died in Baoding, and he didn't even bring back the body.

Later, the world was even more chaotic, and Gyeonggi was also in chaos, full of gangs and cults, and her family soon fell into tatters and could barely survive.

In the end, Yoo Heungchao rebelled, Gyeonggi was in turmoil, and she could no longer contact her family. Until now, she does not know the whereabouts of her family.

The Chang'an Palace was besieged for seven months, there was no electricity, there was little food, and many dead people died. She was lucky not to die.

Later, the forbidden army besieged the palace and even attacked with poison gas, but she still did not die.

The dynasty has changed, and the new emperor still needs palace maids, so she began to serve the new Han Emperor Liu Xingchao.

One day, she accidentally broke a plate. The emperor was furious. As usual, she would have been killed, but the emperor was in high spirits that day and decided to throw her into the royal prison.

She fell from a height of 1,000 meters and still did not die.

When I was thinking about whether to kill her, Li Youfu sent her to the second master according to the usual practice. So, she became the second master's woman.

The second master is very cruel. He kills like eating, and killing women is like eating.

But she was very lucky, the second master liked her very much, not only did not kill her, but decided to let her do five rooms and give him a child.

She held my hand tightly and scolded the second master for being perverted, but she didn't say how he was perverted.

If they do not get pregnant for several months, these women are killed. She was lucky that she was pregnant.

But she had enough of this luck.

In this unfortunate world, luck is a misfortune.

After making sure that she was indeed pregnant, she found a pair of iron chopsticks, one of which was inserted into her stomach, killing her own child; A chopstick stuck into his heart and liver and killed himself.

This is Zhang Ami's life.

An ordinary woman's unknown and meaningless life.

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She spoke slowly, smiling, her voice slowly weakening.

She recalls her life as if she is going through it all again.

She said:

"I can be electrocuted, I can cut my veins, I can hang myself, one way or another, it's very easy.

But I like the feeling of pain.

I think only pain is real.

Do you know?

I feel immensely happy and blessed now.

I can't change the world, I can't even change my own destiny, I can't even change the fate of my own children.

My life is over, it's hopelessly corrupted, but I'm not going to let my children live in such a world.

So, I killed my child with this chopstick, and then killed me with another chopstick, because I killed my child.

Am I wrong? ”

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I hugged her.

She trembled and her breathing was shriveled.

I'm not a doctor, I can't save her.

Little by little, her breath of life was extinguished, and she died in my arms.

Death is also an option in this world, she chose this option, and she completed her life answer. She could have chosen something else, but she didn't want to.

She conquered the world.

She triumphed over death.

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There was a commotion outside the door, and the second master came.

He sneered, touched his baldness, and said, "Haha! I already have a son! What else do you need from this slut! Come on, throw the slut away, and send it to the warehouse class. ”

My eyes were filled with blood.

I looked at the wall, red; I looked at the ground, red; I looked at the roof, red; I looked at the electric stove, red; I look at my hand, red; I looked at my body, red; I looked at the crowd of onlookers, red; I looked at the second master, red; I looked around, and even the air was red, red air currents, red ghosts.

I pointed at the red second master with a red finger: "I'm going to kill you!" I swear! I'll kill you! ”

The second master clasped his nostrils with his little fingers: "Little girl, go and sue your boss, haha." ”

He stroked his bald head and turned to leave.

People looked at the dead Zhang Ami, looked at me, looked at the second master, and left.

I hugged Zhang Ami and hugged her for a long time.

There is no sun, no moon, no stars, no clouds, only the darkness 1,000 meters underground, only endless meaningless time.

How miserable can a world be?