Wrath!

Wrath!

Wrath!

It's not the fear of death and life, but the anger of betrayal.

I don't have a friend in my life. There are people in Zhaojiazhuang who regard me as a friend, but I look down on them. Now when I came to Chang'an, the imperial capital, I thought I could find a few confidants, but I didn't expect the first confidant to want my life! The only time I spoke up, I was informed.

After anger, there is no peace of mind anymore.

I was lying on my back on the bed, keeping my eyes open.

Time is running out. I don't want to waste a little more time, even blinking is a waste of time.

Looking back on the past, scene by scene, like a picture, becomes a relief, becomes a sculpture, moves and comes to life.

Those who are boring have meaning; and those who mourn became joy; Those lengthy ones seem short.

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I used to feel like it was too long. I don't want to spend time on fun, so the time seems long; I don't want to spend on the vanity and grievances of the neighbors in the village, so the time becomes longer; I didn't want to waste it sleeping, so time was like a nightmare in the middle of the night, running desperately, but I couldn't take a single step.

Something suddenly comes to mind.

One day when I was a child, my father bought me a handful of black dates.

I ate greedily and wanted to eat it when I was done. I pestered him.

In the end, my father had no choice but to pick up all the black jujube pits I threw and said, "Plant them, and there will be black dates to eat in the future." ”

Me: "How long will it take?" ”

Him: "A few years. ”

I rolled on the ground: "It's been too long, I don't want it, I don't want it!" ”

He had no choice but to say, "Don't cry, just a year." ”

I continued to roll on my stomach: "No, it's too long, it's going to bear fruit tomorrow." ”

Dad didn't say anything, just buried the nucleus in the corner, leaving me rolling on the ground.

And then I forgot.

Time is fast, and it is the second year in the blink of an eye.

The following spring, I was playing in the yard when I happened to see a few strange seedlings sticking out of the corner of the wall, which grew very quickly and very tall, obviously not the common wild vegetables and weeds, and I didn't care.

Before you know it, the plants have grown a little bit.

Daddy pointed to them and said, "Look, this is your black date tree." ”

Me: "How long will it take?" ”

Dad: "A few years." ”

It's been too long! I don't have the patience to watch them grow little by little. And it's going to take years, years! So long!

I trampled them all to pieces! It's all stomped on!

Me: "It's not my black date tree, I can't wait!" I don't want them! ”

A few days later, I happened to notice that another black jujube seedling had grown, and I was too lazy to step on it.

It's too small, like weeds.

One day in the third year, I happened to notice that it had regrown a little thicker and a little taller.

In later years, I happened to notice that it was so strong that in winter it also had tree trunks peeking out of the ground, and in summer it surpassed me, over the lintel, and even over the house.

In the years that followed, it was lush and green, like a canopy.

I see it every day, as if it's a part of life – only by chance do I remember, that this is the young, lucky, accidental, neglected seedling.

However, more than ten years have passed, and it has not yet produced dates in its teens, and I guess I finally forgot that it was a "black date" tree.

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Now suddenly remembered it. In twenty long and short years, this serendipitous glimpse became the only memory.

Time is so fast. At first glance, it is a seed, and at second glance, it is a big tree. I shouldn't look down on it, no matter what, it's my black date tree, my life.

It grows silently in the memory of my time.

But now, it's going to go on, and my life is coming to an end,

Obviously I did something wrong, what was wrong?

I shouldn't trust others.

Others are hell.

Morality was perfect from the very beginning, and with the passage of time, evil things appeared. Evil invades good, and the rift slowly widens in the world. Evil began to spread, and more and more good became evil. The fertile land begins to become barren, and eventually, there is nothing left to cling to. It is impossible for the crops in the field to withstand the weeds in the wilderness, because the crops are for the people, and the weeds are only for themselves.

I know this deeply, I should be a bad person, but deep down I am still unwilling.

Today, my nature has emerged, nothing more than a desire to make a friend, but that friend wants my life.

Hopefully my nature never appears again!

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In those days, when I met people, I would always ask them how they were doing, and they would say, "Don't think about winning the exam." A mountain looks at a mountain high, but a mountain used to be another mountain, what's the use, stay honestly. It's good now. ”

But I'm already dying if I don't enter. In fact, I have no control over my own destiny. The examiner thinks that the exam papers I have completed are okay, and I will live; He thinks it's not good, and I'll die. My destiny is in the hands of others, although I always like to say, "I am in control of my destiny." ”

Compared to Oriental music, I can already count it - I am happy when I think of Oriental music.

I went to the Oriental Academy.

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It's business as usual. Not many people read, and not many people serve. Of course, the dean of the Oriental Academy was not there.

I saw the low-level servant before, the old man. I asked him, "Where did Dongfang Le go?" ”

Him: "I don't know, it's been the last few days, and no one has told me where he's gone." ”

I asked him repeatedly.

He replied repeatedly.

Him: "Why do you keep asking the dean?" ”

I want to say, "Because I like to hear the words 'he's gone.'" ”

I said, "Because, I care about my friends." ”

He looked at me quizzically.

I asked him, "What kind of person is Dongfang Le?" ”

Only then did I know the story of Oriental Music.

Dongfang Le is a Jiangnan person, and no one remembers his specific identity - maybe only himself. When he thinks back to the past, he probably thinks of the beautiful scenery of Jiangnan and the gentle Jiangnan style. He was born into a noble family and went to school, but when he was young, his family was ruined, sold into slavery, and tortured.

Dongfang Le herded horses for local families in Liangzhou, and a handsome Jiangnan boy herded cattle in the cold grassland for 20 years. Until a certain year, the Liangzhou civil strife, the Dongfang family raised troops to help the country quell the rebellion, and he entered the Dongfang family's army to feed the horses. Probably gold always shines, I don't know how much effort he put in, it took him twenty years to become the dean of the Oriental Academy from the groom!

He saw God's test for him, God's punishment for him, and God's love for him from his cruel experience, and he experienced the value of his existence from his loyalty to God, to the emperor, and to the Dongfang family, and he couldn't help but feel proud of his experience, he loved God, the emperor, and the Dongfang family, and he hated all the rebellious ministers and thieves who didn't love God, the emperor, and the Dongfang family. In order to exterminate these people, he will stop at nothing, he can even pretend to be them!

He reported many such rebels and thieves, until the last time, he was defeated by a hypocritical demon, but he had no regrets, and he passed the final test of God.

This is the magnificent life of Oriental Music.

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But I'm not a demon. In the mouths of those well-informed people in the imperial capital of Chang'an, I heard for the first time about the various rebel forces in the empire, including: all kinds of demon sects, all kinds of party disputes, all kinds of gangs, all kinds of warrior forces, and all the factions in the martial arts.

I thought I was just thinking about it, but it turned out that others were not only thinking about it, but they had already taken action! Those various demon sects, such as the Death Religion, the Freedom Sect, the Scientology Sect, the Truth Sect, the Maitreya Sect, the Ten Thousand Poisons Sect, the Women's League Sect, and so on, they have long been engaged in the work of overthrowing the imperial court.

Every good citizen of the Ming Dynasty criticized them, and the funny thing is that no one knew what their teachings were.

Demon Religion is relative to Orthodox Christianity, and there are four major religions in the Ming Dynasty, namely: Confucianism, Buddhism, Taoism, and Theology. Among them, Confucianism is the state religion, the other three are orthodox religions, and any other religion is a demon religion, regardless of what your doctrine is.

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In those days, I also went to the fourth floor to talk to others, and asked them about Dongfang Le and the fact that the imperial court was fighting against the Demon Sect like nothing else. I said, "It's strange, Dongfang Le is gone, I'm afraid it's not because he believed in the Demon Sect and was killed." Haha, I'm kidding. ”

At this time, a man said to me, "You are a hypocrisy, aren't you?" He didn't die because of you! You're a thief! ”

My face immediately turned white.

I don't even know that person. Someone must have leaked this! There were only seven people present at that time: Dongfang Chengping, the head of the family, Dongfang Yongwu, the eldest son, Dongfang Yongbai, the second son, Dongfang Yongde, the third son, Dongfang Yongde, the eldest lady, Dongfang Mingyue, me, and the dead man, who can leak out?

The person next to him asked, "The dean of the Oriental Academy is dead?" Because he died? What's going on? ”

The man found that he had slipped his mouth and hurriedly said, "It's okay, it's okay." I didn't say anything! That's all I guess! Don't talk nonsense! ”

Alas, things are getting more and more confusing.

I had a terrible headache and had no clue at all.

If you want time to pass quickly, let me know the result quickly; I also want time to pass slowly, so that I can slowly enjoy my last life.

If you don't succeed, you will succeed.

If I hadn't been lifted, death would have been a relief for me.

I very much want to know, when will my black date tree be full of black dates after I die?