This is a fear, if it weren't for the accidental reason that I escaped, I'm afraid Zhao Zhengbao would really want to detain me.

I'm always thinking, what is coincidence, what is inevitable?

Suppose there are 10,000 masked people standing in front of you, and you shoot indiscriminately with guns and kill 9,990, and the remaining 10 people will say, "Why don't you kill a single person?" You can't kill anyone! Haha, no one can kill me, I'm the lucky chosen one. "Well, you keep killing, but there are still people alive who shout that they are lucky. If he died, then no one would say that he was unfortunate - in fact, everything did not exist - I didn't kill anyone, because I killed people.

You don't think it's "inevitable" because it's too "coincidental". Only people who happen by chance survive, or things that happen by chance can be remembered, and in this sense, everything is a coincidence, even the "inevitable" is a coincidence. If I am not a coincidence, why am I talking to you now and not someone else? Why do you read the memoirs I wrote and not other people's? If you don't talk to me, if you don't read my memoirs, then how can this thing exist? Therefore, there is only "coincidence" in all things, and there is no "necessity".

Everything I've been through is legendary, and I usually interpret it as a coincidence. But I am the inevitable me, and the inevitable me why is it so coincidental?

I thought about it for a long time, I can use the example of the Ming Lottery to explain, I am talking about the theoretical Ming Lottery, not the greasy Ming Lottery controlled by the inner court. The lottery was issued 100 million tickets, and there were 99,999,999 cannon fodder, and there was one lucky winner. The lucky ones are random and accidental, but they are certain and inevitable for these 100 million people. If you can jump out of your small ego and think of yourself as this hundred million people, then you will inevitably get this lucky lottery.

If I hadn't written this history, but someone else had written it, you would have suspected him of fraud, and anyone who wrote this history would have doubted him – but you have to understand that there will always be people who will survive to tell you this history, and if no one tells you history, you will not know that no one told you history.

Later, after we escaped from the siege, when the Forbidden Army asked me this, my answer was the above words.

I said, "It's not that we're lucky, it's that we're not lucky and we're dead." I remember a book that called this the 'Survivor Paradox.' ”

I continued, "Every one of you will follow me back to the capital safely, and every one of you will. If you die, you don't have to worry, because you don't know anything. So, each of you will follow me back to the capital safely. ”

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The Two Rivers Army sent their last remaining cavalry to attack us at night.

The Praetorian guards on duty were equipped with binoculars for night vision, we had plenty of ammunition, and their men hadn't seen us dead yet.

Through the binoculars, they also looked at us from afar, camped on the spot, and waited for the dawn.

When it was daybreak, they were more numerous, and the infantry came, forming a large circle around the village.

We also put the submachine guns in a circle, with stacked bullets at our feet. There were also several larger machine guns on the armored car, with ten muzzles on the rotating barrel, which could fire a thousand rounds in a minute.

Someone shouted in the distance: "The Governor orders you to return to Baoding City immediately, otherwise you will be killed!" ”

Wang Yuquan held a loudspeaker and shouted in a louder voice: "Beast! It's kind of catch yourself, and watch me kill you all! ”

The opposite side was clearly enraged. They could not imagine that a hundred people would dare to say such a thing to thousands of them.

The group of cavalry rushed forward waving their flags, and the infantry ran behind them.

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Our side fired, and the other side fell in rows.

Especially those big machine guns, their bullets are all special large bullets, and the bullets that can shoot an ammunition box at once do not need to change the magazine.

The bullets from the machine gun hit the opponent's body, directly blowing up the human body, like bursting a watermelon, and the red liquid splashed everywhere.

A single bullet pierced all the way, and the machine gunner shook the machine gun from side to side, and a large area was smashed into flesh.

The other party found that the fire was too strong, so he turned around and ran.

The forbidden army still beat the fleeing Two Rivers Army into pulp.

It's stable for the time being.

The other side retreated to a place where we couldn't hit, and our side also sorted out the ammunition.

I said, "Do you want to break out?" ”

Zhang Kangning said: "Breakthrough? It depends on the mood of the other person. The other party is determined to kill us, and these thirty cars will definitely not be able to escape. ”

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In the afternoon, a large number of people appeared in the distance.

This time it's not the Two Rivers Army, it's a group of old, weak, sick and disabled people! Those people supported each other and walked towards us step by step.

The soldiers in the back kept beating them.

I knew there wasn't a good person in this world!

What Zhao Zhengbao, what Zhu Honghua, Zhu Hongfeng, what Liu Xingchao, Li Feiyu, what Li Yongfu, Zhao Guangxin, not a good person!

The good guys all die one by one, and those who survive are all bad guys, and the bad guys continue to give birth to bad guys, and the bad guys continue to kill the bad guys - another "survivor paradox".

This group of hungry people who could only walk walked towards us step by step, and they were followed by the Army of the Two Rivers.

Wang Yuquan ordered: "Open fire." ”

A circle of machine guns spewed endless bullets, and the men fell in pieces.

Those who were not killed continued to struggle, and continued to move step by step until they were killed.

I was horrified by the "First Battle of Baoding" a month ago, when I saw the Hebei Army strafing the civilians who were being held hostage by the Royal Army.

But at that time, it was someone else's decision, someone else killed someone else, and this time it was my decision, my action, my responsibility.

I even thought that maybe those people would still be from my hometown, or even people I knew.

It is a sin for me to kill them; If I don't kill them, the Two Rivers Army will kill us!

I pondered this terrible, dilemma, and the corpses of the encirclement grew taller and higher, like a fortification, behind which the armies of the Two Rivers were hiding.

Well, it's okay now, and you can't rush out if you want to.

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It was dark and the slaughter stopped.

There was a lot of moaning all around, and it was as if we were in hell.

The buzzing sound was like a steel needle stuck into a person's head.

Looking through the night vision binoculars, there were corpses everywhere, some dead and some not.

The man who was not dead looked at the sky, occasionally turning his head to look at me, and I saw his green eyes, shining yellow.

After a while, the yellow light dimmed, and only the green color remained—it was because he was dead.

Someone was looking at us from the corpse-packed fortifications and pointing at each other, apparently the Two Rivers Army, discussing how to destroy us, or they simply wanted to trap us.

I had to take out the last magic weapon, if it didn't work, my little life would really die here.

No matter how urgent I tell the situation, you will not be in a hurry, because you know that I am the protagonist and I will not die.

But I'm not the chosen one, I'm the "hero" just because I happened to survive and can write history.

Someone will survive and write history, won't they?

If no one survives, you don't know anything, and you don't care who is the hero and who isn't, because there's nothing.

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I ordered the two telegraphs to be taken out.

I want to send a telegram to the Nethine, but I doubt they will come to my rescue.

I guess not. A self who has not completed the task is useful to the inner court, and a self who has completed the task is useless to the inner court - another "paradox".

In the past two months, I have contacted the inner court several times, and they all agreed with my approach, and even my suggestion to teach Zhao Zhengbao how to make poison gas, they also agreed. However, I still didn't tell them why I was going to Shandong, it was a purely private matter.

I turned on the radio.

The radio station was noisy for a while, then calmed down again, and the green button lit up, indicating that it had entered the working state.

There are thirty-eight buttons on the radio, and in addition to the kanji pronunciation "ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄉㄊㄋㄌㄍㄎㄏㄐㄑㄒㄓㄔㄕㄖㄗㄘㄙㄨㄩㄚㄛㄜㄝㄞㄟㄠㄡㄢㄣㄤㄥㄦ", there is also a space bar for word change and a confirmation key for line break.

I'll enter the password I've agreed with the inner court in advance.

After a while, the telegraph rang a few times, and a note output a few words, which was the password of the other party.

So the two sides confirmed each other's identities.

I told the Inner Court: The mission is complete, the Two Rivers Army already has poison gas technology, but Zhao Zhengbao wants to take us hostage.

After a while, the other party did not react.

I continued to telegraph and tell them that we were surrounded by Zhao's army east of Baoding.

After a while, the other party did not react.

Time flies so slowly!

After a while, the telegraph typed out a short note that read "ㄗㄧㄒㄧㄥㄊㄨㄨㄟ."

Spell out the Chinese characters in pinyin, and it reads: "Break through on your own".

Wang Yuquan and Zhang Kangning also saw the four words I wrote.

Wang Yuquan smiled bitterly and said, "Hehe, the time has come to be loyal to the inner court." ”

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But I don't want to die.

I'm not afraid of death, I just want to see my dad before I die.

No matter how much effort I make, no matter what the cost, I will go to Shandong to see my parents.

I found another telegraph, which was the Emperor's telegraph.

I turned it on.

First of all, the receiving mode, only to see the good news in the sky: "How many people did the Shanxi army defeat the rebel army", "The Liaoxi cavalry broke the thief army", "How many people were captured alive by the Jiangnan army", "The Gyeonggi army broke through a certain city" and so on.

I switched to sending mode and sent a telegram to one of the troops: "The thief army has appeared east of Baoding, go to the rescue immediately!" ”

After a while, the army sent a report: "The code is wrong! The code is wrong! Refuse to listen to orders! Refuse to listen to orders! ”

It's over, this road doesn't work. It is impossible for me to command the royal army of the Ming Dynasty through a telegraph.

Everyone was desperate.

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Suddenly remembered that Dongfang Chengping's Xiliang cavalry should also be nearby, and Dongfang Yongwu and Dongfang Yongbai should also be there.

Will they save me?

I tried to recall the telegram code of the Western Liang cavalry of Chengping in the east.

I took the telegraph apart and casually converted it into a telegraph that "didn't exist", so that no one would know about my connection with Dongfang Chengping.

I typed in the telegram code, and then sent a telegram to the Xiliang Cavalry Headquarters: "Are you the Xiliang cavalry of Dongfang Chengping?" After receiving the signal, he immediately replied, and 100,000 were in a hurry. ”

After a while, in despair, the telegraph received a report: "Who are you, and why can you contact our army?" Enter the code, otherwise you will refuse to answer. ”

The Royal Army's code is guarded against the Forbidden Army, and it changes frequently, and it is changed more frequently during the war, how do I know?

I had no choice but to keep sending telegrams: "I am Dongfang Ju of the Dongfang family, the imperial official of the Imperial Palace, please reply to Dongfang Chengping!" 100,000 urgent! ”

I sent many telegrams, and the other party finally returned: "I am Dongfang Chengping, you are Dongfang Ju?" How do you prove it? ”

I can't care so much, I told everything I did in Dongfang's house, including being caught hiding a banned book, Dongfang Yongwu Dongfang Yongde wanted to kill me, and I said all these things again.

The other party replied: "I understand." ”

I continued to send a telegram: "I was ordered by the Inner Court to observe the battle between the Royal Army and the Two Rivers Army, and as a result, I was surrounded by the Two Rivers Army outside the city of Baoding, and I begged for help. ”

Then there was a long hiatus.

I wanted to send a telegram during that time, but I was afraid that the other party would be annoying, so I was so anxious that I grabbed my hair.

The other party finally sent a return: "Please tell me your specific location." ”

I hurriedly sent a telegram: "The south gate of Baoding City, Hebei Province, is 30 degrees 200 kilometers south-east. ”

It's finished, but the other party hasn't reciprocated.

At this time, the sky was already bright, and the corpses of the distant encirclement were piled up, and the Two Rivers Army was about to attack again.

The last telegram was sent: "The army is out, please wait." ”