I often go to the Royal Library, and Zhao Yuyang also goes to it, so we get to know each other more and more.

He seems to be at two extremes – extreme rationality and extreme sensibility.

It is said that he is rational because he always analyzes things to the extreme. I have a lot of things that go straight to the result, regardless of the process or the content. But he counted everything carefully. For example, when I was learning calculus, I saw that calculus was born tens of thousands of years ago, and everything confirmed its correctness, and I also deduced what it was doing by myself, it must be right, otherwise it would not have existed for tens of thousands of years, and I just used the formula. But Zhao Yuyang is not biased, he actually made hundreds of thousands of notes to calculate and verify its correctness! I held the notebook in my hand, and I was so shocked that I thought, "I'm really full."

Say he's sensual, because he always reads novels and tears come to his face. Whether it was "The Legend of Loyalty and Righteousness of the Water Margin", which preached loyalty to the imperial court, or "Spring Dream of Red Mansions", which was profaned and thieves, he watched it with relish, was moved, and burst into tears.

He always said to me, "How nice it would be if the world in the novel was true!" So that I will never come out again after I go in. ”

Me: "Fake. ”

Him: "Strange logic. Fiction is bound to be fake, when we read novels, we are looking at fakes, why do you say that it is fake? When we read a novel, we have to take it as true, because that's what fiction is about. ”

Me: "Some of them are true, some of them are real and fake — fake like." ”

Him: "is also a part of the world. This is normal. ”

Me: "If the whole world is, that's not normal." ”

Him: "Oh? Isn't there a novel in the world that you can look at? ”

I thought about it, thinking about hundreds of "Four Great Classics" one by one, and said, "Not a single one." ”

Him: "Why don't you look down on them?" ”

Me: "Because they're all fake." ”

Him: "You're stuck in a paradox. ”

Me: "Because it's a paradox." ”

Zhao Pumin on the side: "You two! Let's play! ”

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Zhao Yuyang and I often chatted together, either he came to me, or I came to him, so that others looked at us with strange eyes, and I jokingly said: "We are really 'smart'."

He asked me, "What was your name and what did you do?" ”

I scratched my head and said, "Ah...... Well...... This one...... That one...... My name used to be Zhao Daniu, and I was born in a household. Ha ha. ”

I asked, "What about you?" ”

"I used to be called Liu Yuqing, but later I changed my name to Yu Yang because I didn't know what to celebrate," he said. I couldn't speak when I was ten years old because I didn't know what I was saying. You must know that our Lingnan dialect is different from the official dialect of the imperial court, and our Lingnan dialect does not match the words in the book, I don't know which one is correct, so I simply don't say it. My family was poor, and I could only herd sheep for others every day, but I secretly lay in the classroom of a large family and watched other people's classes. One day when I was ten years old, I taught myself pinyin, and in an instant, I figured out the relationship between words, words, words, texts, sounds, dialects, and official dialects, and in an instant, I could speak, and I could say anything! I understand everything, just like a martial arts master to open up the second pulse of Ren Du! I went all the way from the countryside to the capital, and now I can finally sit in the royal library and read quietly. ”

I excitedly shook his hand and said to him, "I can understand you perfectly!" I can even see you sneaking out there watching people in class, because that's what I did! I've only been to school for a year and a half, and the rest is all self-taught! I don't think I could have come to the palace now! It's like a dream! It's amazing! It's a miracle! ”

He also shook my hand excitedly and said, "Really? People always say that I think too much, that I am sentimental, and that I am a freak. ”

I also said, "That's fine!" The people in the village said I was mentally ill! ”

He asked, "What do you like?" ”

Me: "There's nothing I like the most. I'm just too curious. I want to understand everything, the substance. I think I know a little bit about everything, but I don't know anything. What about you? What do you like? ”

Him: "I like rational things. I want to know what everyone thinks and does, and I want me to be able to deduce them so I don't have to worry about embarrassment. One of my favorite disciplines is 'game theory', which works out what people do next. ”

Me: "But the 'game theory' formula is too difficult, and the model is too difficult. In fact, 'game theory' is used to calculate the actions of rational people, but most of the people in this world are idiots like donkeys, so 'game theory' is not very useful, right? ”

Him: "Well, I found out too. But it is still useful for sensible people, and you can convince him with the results of 'game theory'. ”

He said proudly: "I just used the results I calculated, and Mao recommended myself to several scholars, let them compete with each other, and finally chose a great scholar." In that Dashi family, I also used my results to convince the head of the family to stand out from dozens of people and go to the capital to participate in the examination by myself! ”

I was amazed and said, "You use the results of calculations, but I use intuition!" ”

So I told him how I had escaped from Luoyang, and how I had dealt with the three sons of the Dongfang family.

He rubbed his hands together in excitement.

He took my hand and said, "Amazing! ”

I also shook his hand excitedly.

The two of us shook each other.

He suddenly looked back and forth.

I was surprised, and I looked around, and the Royal Library was empty.

Although there is no one around, we are not rebellious when we talk about it, what are you nervous about?

Then he kissed me on the mouth.

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He! Kiss! Finish! I! Target! Mouth!

My brain was roaring.

It felt like the first time I secretly kissed Zhao Xingyue. But I swear, they just feel similar, but the reasons for them are completely different! I kissed Zhao Xingyue, my heart was beating with excitement, and this time I was pure shock - shocked and even a little disgusted.

I pushed him away, foaming at the mouth, and wiped my mouth with my sleeve. I think I'm being rude, but I can't let him continue to misunderstand! That's the bigger hurt to him.

I stammered, "This ...... Originally...... It's ......"

No wonder others say he's feminine! Say he likes men! These are all true! I thought the sluts were jealous of him!

In retrospect, I may have really given him some wrong hints, such as playing with him often, chatting with him, shaking his hand...... But I swear...... I just want to make a normal friend!

His face flushed, and he muttered, "Actually, ......."

I said, "Actually......"

In fact, I can't even speak.

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He said in horror, "Don't tell anyone about it! ”

The King James Law states that it is a capital offense for a man to like a man. In fact, this is only a law on paper, for example, the Ming Law also stipulates that it is also a capital crime for a man to forcibly have sex with a woman, but that kind of thing is not everywhere. The male style in the Qinglou is already everywhere, and there are more people in the royal family who have a habit of breaking sleeves - and because the male style is more expensive, it is a symbol of nobility.

He continued: "I know I was wrong! ”

But I don't agree with that. I am a righteous person, an empathetic person, a person who never admits mistakes, and a person who holds the truth in his hands.

I said to him, "But I really don't think you're wrong – but mind you, I'm not really a man who likes men – but that doesn't stop me from thinking it's reasonable for men to like men." ”

He was surprised and said, "Why? ”

I asked him, "Why?" ”

He said, "I don't know! Everybody says it's wrong, and I don't know if it's right or wrong. ”

Me: "I just said that most people in this world are stupid donkeys, and you agree, but why should you respect the opinion of a bunch of stupid donkeys on this issue?" ”

Him: "But I feel ashamed. ”

Me: "You're ashamed—it's 'shame'. However, both 'sin' and 'shame' are pseudo-concepts. ”

Him: "Hmm......"

Me: "Let me untie your heart today." ”

Here are my words. These are not only my words, but also what I really think in my heart.

Here's what I said:

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To exist is to be reasonable, and to be reasonable is to exist.

It is true that there is homosexuality in human beings, then it is reasonable.

If you are against homosexuality, it is invalid, because one cannot oppose the facts, just as one cannot pull oneself by the hair and lift oneself up.

If you deny the fact that there are homosexuals in human beings, then it all makes no sense, because that's the fact, and those who deny the facts are people who are not self-consistent, and people who are not self-consistent are not people.

I'll talk about the rationality of homosexuality once. After I finished speaking, and so on, not only is homosexuality reasonable, but everything else in life in the future is reasonable, and you may not understand the reason for the reasonableness, but it must be reasonable; If you think it's unreasonable, then you can only show that you're unreasonable.

Human nature does not exist, human nature is just the expression of genes in the body, you think you are you, but in fact you are not, you are just some kind of material manifestation in your body. A person's liking for a man or a woman has nothing to do with him, it is caused by the genes in his body, and this gene is not his, it was passed on to him by his parents, and his parents' are also passed on by their ancestors, generation after generation, can trace the first life billions of years ago. Maybe it's a stone, maybe it's God, but who knows?

If the genes of liking men can be passed down, there must be a reason for passing them down. You have that kind of gene not only in you, but also in your siblings, but they don't show it. A person who likes men may not give birth to many children, but he must have more children of his relatives, and the children of that relative also have your genes. Take you, for example, it makes you more sentimental, smarter, more caring for your family, that's why you can come here; And if you come here, the people of your hometown will definitely have more chances to survive. Let's assume that there are two families, the family is normal, and the family is your family, then your family must have a better chance of survival, because you have become a tanhualang, and you don't kill his whole family as if it was fun. If this continues, it should be that family's genes will perish, and your family's genes will multiply.

This is the rationale for homosexuality.

The argument is complete.

But, at the end of the day, to exist is to be reasonable, and to be reasonable is to exist.

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I'm done.

He looked at me in surprise.

He said: "I think you have a good point. ”

Me: "It's not 'still reasonable,' it's the truth." ”

Him: "Truth? Why are you so sure? ”

I said to him earnestly, "Because I am who I am, then I will always be right." Frankly, I don't care if it makes sense or not, it makes sense if it makes sense, and it makes sense if it doesn't. ”

It dawned on him that he said, "That's what you said...... Intuition, right? A strong sense of self-confidence? Why not blind faith? ”

I said, "If I hadn't had been confident, I would have killed myself." Some people are self-deceived, some are self-confident, and some are blind believers. But what is the difference between them? I say it again: we explain the world, not the world interprets us! ”

He nodded, and didn't speak for a long time.

We'll leave it at that.

No third person knows about this, but we're still good—ordinary friends.