The first volume was finally finished, and I looked at the word count counted by WORD, which was 697,860 characters without spaces, nearly 700,000 words.

I did initially intend to write a detailed and serious chapter on campus, but I didn't expect to end up writing so many words.

And in fact, this campus chapter is not a complete kind of campus chapter, after all, there are many campus life dramas missing, and there is relatively little explanation of Hulai's campus life except for football.

But it can't be helped, if that's the case, I estimate a million words to stop.

Broad, but not necessary.

Because after all, this is not just about campuses, and if I were to write about campuses alone, I should have started a new book, not in this book.

Therefore, according to my plan, with the two national competitions as the main line, Hulai's growth on campus will be completed, which will be considered to have achieved the goal.

This is followed by the chapter on professional football, which is the highlight of the book.

I'm also going to try to show you a completely empty world in the rest of the story - to be honest, I don't have much confidence right now, I don't know if I'm going to be able to satisfy everyone, but I'll try my best. I know it's hard, very hard, because more than once in the feedback I see "full overhead? There's no sense of substitution."

But I still want to try.

Like Hulai, he didn't know if he would succeed in his career, but he had to try, right? How do you know if you don't try?

As for why the campus as a novice village is written for such a long time, I have explained it in Chapter 49, "The Gate of the New World", so I will not repeat it here.

Anyway, after I finished writing it, I went back and looked at the first volume, and I thought that it was quite successful in writing about Hulai's beginnings as a player.

From a rookie who was ridiculed and excluded and didn't know anything to a rookie who could wrestle with strong enemies, and even be used as an opponent to chase after strong enemies, I wrote about this process.

Then comes the chapter of professional football.

At the end of the first volume, I used the mouths of Hulai's father and Li Ziqiang to talk to Hulai about the risks of professional football. In fact, this also represents part of my opinion - I don't want to write this book as the kind of idea that can ignore the existence of facts and forcibly exaggerate stories like "dreams are invincible" and "dreams are amazing" just by relying on the enthusiasm of secondary two.

Maybe it's because I'm older and I've seen a lot of helplessness in society, so it's more realistic, right?

It's great to have a dream, but a dream can only take root if it falls on the ground. And how easy is it to land? If dreams are so easy to achieve, then what is so valuable about dreams?

I didn't write the end of the first volume that Hulay relied on his championship and performance to convince his father to agree to take the path of professional football, and in the end the family was in harmony and happy, hello, everyone, and it was also based on this reason - unrealistic, impossible, too child's play.

After all, I am also a father of a seven-year-old now, and I can somewhat understand the mentality and thoughts of a father.

How difficult it is for an adult whose three views have been fixed to be persuaded is not uncommon on Weibo over the years......

Not to mention that the person who tried to convince him was still his own son, a natural "little kid understands" in his heart? role.

His own experience also made him not believe in his son's vision and expectation for the future, but only regarded them as childish and naïve fantasies, and disdained them from the bottom of his heart.

At the same time, as a controlling father, he naturally reacts violently when his son rebels against his control.

I know that writing about a father-son quarrel and trying so hard to portray a character who stands on the opposite side of the protagonist is not very good, and it will cause many people to resent it.

But I still wrote it because Hu Lixin is a character I really want to portray seriously. I don't care if the character I've portrayed is likable or not—and his role isn't to be likable—what I care about is whether the person is real, whether he represents a part of such a person, and whether he is a living person with his own mind in Hulay's world.

By the way, Li Ziqiang is also such a character, and he didn't write it to please people, so I didn't deliberately shape him towards a positive image, which led to a lot of dislike for him, which is normal.

Returning to Hu Lixin, I can even say that the focus and hidden main line in the first half of this book is completely the grievance entanglement between father and son, which is to tell how an inferior and sensitive father faces his son, and how a son who has become slippery under the pressure of his father for a long time gets along with such a father.

There is a lyric in Li Zongsheng's "Newly Written Old Songs" that makes me particularly touched:

"It's very likely that two men will just look alike for the rest of their lives. Those who are lucky can become confidants, and those who are unfortunate can only be A and B. ”

I was wondering if Hu Lixin and Hu Lai would become like this?

What should you do if you don't want to fall into this cycle?

In fact, in the domestic chapter of the professional league, the knot between Hu Lai and Hu Lixin will be gradually untied, after all, there is still a career line between the two.

But it's not simply about untying the knot through a successful career.

I can't spoil it now, but I can only say that not long after I opened the book, I had already thought about the plot of some kind of reconciliation between father and son, and even the chapter name of the specific chapter, and I waited for the time to use it.

It was a big climax in my mind, a scene that I had sketched over and over again in my mind.

I'm looking forward to writing it out for everyone to see.

Even, when this book was just released and the grades were not good, what supported me to write down was that I wanted to write that picture, that story, and that chapter title for everyone to see.

Okay, that's all for the first volume, and now there's the testimonials on the shelves.

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This is a belated testimonial.

According to convention, every book should have a shelf testimonial when it is put on the shelves of V.

Every book I've written before has had this testimonial.

But the book doesn't.

Why not?

In fact, before this book is put on the shelves, I do plan to use the shelf testimonials to talk to you.

But reality is always full of surprises.

On the morning of May 1, I had just turned on the computer, and the Huiwei speaker, which had been in service for eight years, suddenly emitted a continuous piercing high-frequency electronic whistling sound, which woke up my wife who had not yet gotten up.

And after I repeatedly restarted and lost the power several times, I could only reluctantly admit that this speaker was completely broken, and I had to buy a new speaker.

In fact, buying a speaker is not a big deal,Jingdong,Order in the morning,It's here in the afternoon,It's definitely going to be replaced the next day at the latest。

But it was like a very ominous omen, as if the army was about to march, but suddenly a demonic wind blew the flagpole......

The results of my book after it was released on the shelves were very unsightly, and it can even be described as "miserable".

Although I said before I opened the book that I didn't care much about grades, if I got good grades, should I be angry?

In particular, the data of the public version of this book - collections, recommended votes, and the number of words in this chapter - seem to be quite good, which seems to indicate that everyone's acceptance of my attempt this time is good, and the results after it is put on the shelves are worth looking forward to.

It was under such a psychological expectation that the subscription results of the first chapter of the new book on the shelves gave me a slap in the face.

The first number I saw was a little bit in the early thousands.

Later, twenty-four hours later, I took another look, and it was a little more than fifteen hundred.

When was the last time I had such a bad new book on the shelves? Before that, the worst score in all my books, "Legend of Champions", I don't know if there was a low number, maybe?

Even if I had been mentally prepared to expect that this book would definitely do worse than my previous books, I didn't expect it to be so bad.

24 hours for the first order of 1,500 ......

I began to doubt my previous confident thoughts.

Am I not writing well enough?

Was my idea of the void wrong from the start?

Was my pace too slow?

Is there something wrong with my control of some plots?

Isn't it......

I have a lot of thoughts and my mind is in turmoil.

There are also some people who sneer and say that I don't know the height of the sky, and I want to get rid of real football, I really don't know how many pounds and taels I have, and I really think that the achievements and popularity over the years are all brought to me by myself?

Some people also left a message in the book review area asking me that as a platinum author, I haven't even arrived at the high-quality product, is it a shame to be ashamed?

Anyway, the whole day on May 1, I was in a state of confusion and my mood fell to the lowest point.

Naturally, I'm not in the mood to write any testimonials on the shelves.

In the face of such dismal results, what else do you have to say? And what can you say?

It wasn't until a friend of the authors who were on the shelves at the same time as me the next day came to ask me about my results, and I learned that many of the authors on the shelves in this issue had far lower grades than my expectations and estimates.

As we all know, something happened at that time, and we don't know if it was because of it.

It was a long time before I learned that since this year, there has been such a situation in every new book on the shelves, and the results of the public version look very good, but as soon as it is put on the shelves, it will be cut in half as the author himself expected, and whether there is an impact of free reading and piracy, I don't know.

At that time, this author friend and I had no choice but to comfort each other.

I said to him, "Forget about the grades, just calm down and write a good book, since the grades are like this, then the only thing left is to write a good book." ”

He agreed.

But I quickly realized a problem: "But how can such achievements prove that what we think is 'good writing' will definitely lead to 'good books'?" ”

The author's friend was also stunned, and sighed after a long time: "That's what I said." I've always thought that my writing is very good, and I have a lot of fun and passion for writing myself, but after I came out, the feedback on the grades told me that it was not like this......"

This is a terrible thing for us, that is, when the writing ideas, skills, and experience that I rely on are not recognized, when what I think is "good" is no longer "good", how can I continue to write? What do I use to convince myself that I am really writing in the "good" direction, not in the blind **?

I don't have an answer.

I also wondered if I should speed up the pace and write the rest of the content at that cool pace?

I quickly dismissed the idea, because that wouldn't make the book better, it would make it nondescript.

Later, the new speaker arrived, tossed and connected to the computer, turned on the music player, listened to the songs I had to listen to, and tried to calm down my emotions.

I told myself that since the grades were like this, I didn't know if my writing was really good anyway, so I would finish the book according to the original plan and rhythm.

Even if this book doesn't get a good grade, at least I can finish the story in my heart and those words, and leave such a story, which can be regarded as an explanation for myself.

The only thing I'm worried about is that because my grades are too poor, it will lead to a difficult starting point and let me finish the book early.

But my editor-in-chief, Changtian, is a good person, and he is actively helping me to promote the copyright adaptation of the book, hoping to alleviate the regret of the unsatisfactory results of the electronic subscription, and he has neither bluntly nor tactfully said to me that he wants me to finish the book sooner.

So, since I don't have to worry about finishing the book ahead of schedule, I'll write well according to my definition of "write well".

I wrote about Hulay's first national race according to the plan and the established rhythm, and I didn't write that he won the first national competition and then soared. According to the original plan, Luo Kai went to the professional team, and Hulai stayed on the high school team.

Writing Hulai's sophomore year of high school, after some hard practice, he can pick up the lead and become the leading scorer of this team. Write about his big killing in the Anton Cup, showing the results of his hard training.

Writing that he participated in the second national competition, according to my outline, he made it all the way to the finals, became the national champion, broke Shuguang High School's dream of three consecutive championships, and also defeated Chen Xingyi.

Even if he won these championships and honors, he couldn't change the contradictions and relationships between him and his father. In the end, he could only choose not to say goodbye and run away from home to continue to pursue his dream.

There is not a single chapter in which I changed my original plan because I was worried about my grades, and I can basically say that I wrote the campus chapter completely according to my original idea.

I also don't look at the subscription results anymore, and I open the author's background every day just to upload new chapters, or fix typos in old chapters.

Why are the grades bad?

I don't know, and I don't want to look into it. This may be due to the general environment, or it may be my own problem: it may be because I chose such a niche way to write in such a niche theme, or it may be because my early pace is too slow, my emotions are too depressed, and the protagonist is too aggrieved......

It may be the result of one of these causes, or it may be the result of a combination of all factors.

In short, that's it, what's the matter with love, I'm immersed in writing books, just brush the stand-alone machine, and just write out the stories in my heart.

In such a situation, the starting point gave me a big push, and then I realized that the book's grades had been slowly rising...... It's about to rise to the boutique line.

From the first order of 1,005, the average order of 1,000, the average order of 1,000, gradually rose to the current average order of almost 3,000, and the high order is also almost 4,000.

And there is one more point - the difference between the highest and average orders in this book is not far off, only a few hundred.

What does this mean?

It shows that although there are not many people who read books, the readers who followed the V subscription at the beginning did not lose much, they all stayed and have been chasing more!

It's a great encouragement for me.

I don't know if you in front of the screen can understand how I felt at the time, it was like walking alone in the dark with my head down for a long time, only to be surprised to find that there were many people around me all the time with a little light in the sky!

Then on the second day of Dafengtui, Hulai's story crossed the 3000 line and entered the boutique channel at the starting point.

That's when I thought I'd write a testimonial about how I've been in the past two months.

Now it seems that it is quite a gaffe for a platinum author to say so excitedly that his book has crossed the boutique line.

But after these two months, I feel like I have reason to be proud of what I've achieved so far.

I uphold my original intention, I am so slow and methodical, every day I can't move the two more writes, and the results are getting better little by little?

This book, which was almost sentenced to death, seems to be able to breathe again?

I don't know if there is a reason why this achievement will not be terminated early from the perspective of website management.

I don't know how shabby this result looks in the eyes of others.

But I'm happy anyway, I'm satisfied.

I finished the first volume of this book, and having such a result when I finished it was a reward for me.

I gladly accepted it, and I accepted it calmly.

The above is the belated testimonial for this book, and I will continue to uphold my original intention of writing this story, write this story down, write it completely, write about the joys, sorrows and sorrows of everyone in the book, write about their lives, and write about a world.

Again, thank you for being able to keep up with this book, thank you for coming, thank you for joining me to witness the growth of Hulai, and witness the birth of this world.