196 This is what I owe you all the life of my life
"My husband called, my husband called......"
Xia Yili took the phone, and Xiao Rou's voice no longer sounded on the other end of the phone, but Su Mo's words.
"Iri, right? How's Tsukiya doing? ”
"Still sleeping." Xia Yili looked at Jiang Yueya, who was holding her arm, and immediately called back, "Do you have something to deal with over there?" ”
"Sort of...... Also, I'm sorry. ”
Su Mo's voice was full of apologies, "I'm going to trouble you to send Yue Aya back today...... I want to accompany Xiaorou alone. ”
"Hmm...... I know. ”
Xia Yili answered softly on the other end of the phone, but she hesitated a little after answering.
"Not going to ...... Did you celebrate New Year's Eve with us? ”
"I can't say exactly. If your roommates have an arrangement, you can go to their side first, and I will compensate you and Tsukiya later...... In this way, tomorrow will compensate you. ”
"Don't think about compensation, just accompany Xiaorou well."
“…… Thank you. ”
"Hey...... What are you polite to me, hang up. ”
Xia Yili hung up the phone, sat on the sofa in a daze for a long time, and a turbulent feeling of loss permeated her heart, she had almost never felt like this.
Unconsciously, Xia Yili burst into tears, and then she hugged Jiang Yueya, who was in a daze beside her, and whimpered softly, as if seeking comfort.
Su Mo was grateful for Bad Yili's reasonableness and understanding, but the guilt in his heart naturally lingered.
Although the sudden release of pigeons is indeed an extremely hurtful move, the smiling Lu Xiaorou in front of him is the one who Su Mo needs to invest in all the people he cares about at this moment.
Su Mo hung up his phone and slowly walked in front of Lu Xiaorou.
"Brother Su Mo, Sister Yili, what's wrong with them?"
"Nothing." Su Mo shook his head.
"Then are we going to the KTV now?"
"Not anymore." Su Mo paused, and immediately smiled: "That's the case, Sister Yueya drank too much at KTV just now, Sister Yili wants to send her back to school to rest, and it may be a little later to join us." ”
"Sister Yueya drank too much? It doesn't matter if she wants it...... We should send her back together. ”
"No need...... Su Mo said softly, "I'd better accompany you first." ”
"Huh? I...... I don't need it...... Grandpa is fine now, so he said-"
Su Mo gently took Lu Xiaorou's hand, "Just accompany me." ”
Lu Xiaorou looked at Su Mo with a look of surprise, but she didn't discuss it too much.
In this way, Lu Xiaorou was held by Su Mo and walked on the somewhat cold winter street.
Today is December 31st, there are a lot of pedestrians on the road, the streets on both sides of the road are hung with red lanterns, and this year's New Year is honestly still a month and a half away, but the merchants don't seem to care about the time node too much in advance.
Although it is not a pedestrian street in the center of the city, it still has a bustling scene unique to the metropolis, with the traffic and the surging flow of people with large bags and small bags.
Su Mo took Lu Xiaorou's hand like this and walked through one street after another. He didn't explain the destination to Xiaorou, and Lu Xiaorou just kept silent, didn't ask Su Mo why, and was held by him and walked all the time.
This silent tacit understanding was finally broken with Su Mo's stop-what appeared in front of Su Mo and Lu Xiaorou at this moment was a bridge standing on the edge of the river.
Today's weather is fine, and the remnant sun of dusk can be seen in the distance, and the dim light of the slanting sun is sprinkled on the faces of Su Mo and Lu Xiaorou.
At this time, Su Mo slowly turned his head and looked at Lu Xiaorou, whose face was sprinkled with golden light, "Have you been here before?" ”
Lu Xiaorou shook her head, "It should be...... No, what's wrong here? ”
"Nothing ......"
Su Mo pulled Lu Xiaorou and continued to walk forward, "Brother Su Mo had a dream a while ago, I dreamed that a long, long time ago, I had a girl I liked very much. ”
No...... Sister Yiri?
Lu Xiaorou didn't ask because she was puzzled, but continued to wait for Su Mo's statement.
"When we are dating, we often hold hands while watching the sunset by the bridge, as we do now."
"At that time, she told me that if we got married in the future, we must buy a house by a bridge like this."
"In this way, after dinner, the family of three can take a walk like this, with the children jumping in the middle, and the father and mother standing on both sides, holding hands, blowing the wind from the river......
Su Mo suddenly didn't say anything more as he spoke, but Lu Xiaorou couldn't help crying.
She had tried hard to keep her smile on her face, but she couldn't stop the corners of her mouth twitching.
Su Mo saw her crying, and immediately took out a tissue to wipe it for her.
"I'm sorry...... Brother Su Mo...... I don't know why......"
"You know why, right? Xiao Rou. ”
Su Mo gently called Lu Xiaorou's name, but his hand still didn't let go.
"She once told me something very magical. That's ...... When she is like you now, holding my hand and making physical contact with me, she can feel my feelings. ”
"Bitter, happy, guilty, sad...... I can convey my feelings to her. So I can't hide anything from her. ”
"At first, I just thought she was just talking about sensual love, and it wasn't until the end that I gradually realized that she wasn't actually lying to me-"
"When she got very sick, I stayed with her at her bedside, and when I told her an anecdote about the day, he would always insist that I take her hand."
"Perhaps, no matter how much I hide my sadness and pain with a smile in front of her, as long as I take my hand, she will know."
"Perhaps, it was because she had been empathizing with my grief and pain that she said a very hurtful word at the end."
"Do you know what she said?"
"She said......" Su Mo smiled at Lu Xiaorou, who was sobbing, and smiled, "If we had never met, how nice it would be......"
Lu Xiaorou sobbed and wiped her tears, choked up and said slurred words.
But Su Mo already knew what she was talking about.
She remembers these scenes.
Because, she also dreamed about it in her dreams.
Every time she woke up from this dream, she was always wet with tears.
Su Mo gently wiped Lu Xiaorou's tears and said softly to Lu Xiaorou:
"I've always regretted in my dreams that I didn't respond to this sentence properly, and I regret it until now."
"If there's one more chance to respond to her, I'd say—"
"I've never regretted meeting her."
"And, if there is an afterlife, no matter where she is at the ends of the earth, no matter what she becomes, I will definitely do everything I can to find her and meet her again."
"But unlike this, this time I'm not going to just let her share my pain."
Su Mo gently took Lu Xiaorou's hand, "Rather, let me share her pain too." ”
"I wish she had relied on me more."
"Don't worry about getting me in trouble."
"Don't blame yourself, and don't feel guilty."
"It's okay to give me all the pain, because I'll do everything I can to bear it for her."
"Because, this is all I owe her in my last life."
"At the same time...... I owe you that for the rest of my life. ”
Su Mo took Lu Xiaorou's hand, leaned over, and gently kissed the back of her delicate and pure hand.
At the same time, Lu Xiaorou couldn't help the surging of emotions anymore, and even crying was always just soft, crying carefully, not daring to disturb others in the slightest, Lu Xiaorou finally cried in front of Su Mo this time.
Yes......
How many years ago was that?
Almost for as long as she can remember, she hasn't dared to cry like this again.