Chapter 180: What kind of feelings are you for her
Jiang Wanqiu shook her head, "Some feelings are not what I want to insist on, so I can stick to them, and besides, you should also understand that after so many years between us, it is impossible to be together again, if you don't leave, then I will go." ”
Perhaps, she thought, it would be a good thing to be separated.
Perhaps, she took the initiative to give up, so is Qi Kun also a kind of fulfillment?
Jiang Yunqiu's heart actually doesn't understand, just because she can't understand and can't understand, how should she stick to this feeling?
What has been given to her in the past few years? Jiang Wanqiu has endured everything alone, so this has reached the extreme for her, and she has no way to recover, and there is nothing to hold onto.
If she insisted, would the Qi family agree to them being together?
She thought that as long as Qi Ya was there, they would not agree.
Although Qi Ya is said to be the adopted daughter of the Qi family, she is the favorite of the old man and the old lady of Qi, and has always wanted Qi Kun to marry her, of course, it is precisely because of the support of the Qi family that Qi Ya can do whatever she wants, regardless of all the consequences.
It is precisely because of this that Qi Ya will be so cruel to her again and again.
Therefore, Jiang Yunqiu didn't know what the meaning would be if she persisted?
Maybe, there is no point in the slightest bit, maybe, nothing can be done, but, even so, what? What Jiang Wanqiu wants is just a feeling, just a stable and peaceful life, but often what she wants is simple, but because it is too simple, in the end, she can only lose it, and she can only let go.
"Wan Qiu!" Qi Kun looked at her, "Why do you have to be like this? I can go, but I must not leave until your body has recovered." ”
It was impossible for him to leave her alone here and be hurt.
"Even if I leave, even if I return to the Qi family, I will not give up on you, and I will not marry Qi Ya. Qi Kun showed her attitude, but Jiang Yunqiu was just silent and didn't speak, because no matter how much she said now, it didn't seem to be able to change anything, and it still seemed to be the same.
Qi Kun has his own ideas and his own decisions, if Qi Kun wants to give up, then he has already given up, there is no need for him to give up the position of President of the Qi family, but only choose to be a small boss and a cook in this Jiangnan Garden.
But Jiang Yunqiu didn't show any of this, she didn't want Qi Kun to see anything unusual.
Whether she is reluctant or her gives up, this is her decision, and he should have his own life, not that he wants to guard Jiang Nanyuan, guard her, and guard this relationship without a future.
A few months have passed in a blink of an eye, no matter what worries Su Yujing has in her heart, no matter how hard she tries, she still hasn't remembered what her past was like, she still has no memory.
It's just that this lost memory doesn't seem to be so important to her now, because she has such a big belly now, and she will give birth next month, and she should put all her energy on the child.
Yu's mother walked in and saw Su Yujing sitting on the sofa with the baby clothes that were washed yesterday on the side.
"Madame, I'll help you sort it out. "Mother Yu is afraid that Su Yujing will work too hard, after all, her belly is so big now, it is difficult to even sit down and walk.
"No need, Mom Yu, I'll tidy it up myself, I can't lie down every day, now my belly is big, and it's uncomfortable to lie down. Su Yujing said with a smile.
In fact, she knows what she should do, she is a new mother, and she is still very much looking forward to this upcoming child.
Yu's mother nodded and didn't say anything more, in fact, after getting along for so long, she still likes Su Yujing very much, she doesn't have a young lady's temper, and she doesn't put on a show, she sometimes really thinks that Xiao Jun is a good fortune, so she met Su Yujing.
It's just that she is a subordinate, and she doesn't have much to say, maybe, one day, Xiao Jun will understand.
Su Yujing folded all the clothes and put them in the closet, she got up and walked to another room, which was a baby room, which Xiao Jun had prepared for the arrival of this child.
Su Yujing's hand caressed the bulging lower abdomen, in the past few months, she has felt the little life in her belly, so different, she actually has an indescribable feeling in her heart.
Anyway, she knew in her heart that the most important thing she should be facing now was the child.
And at this moment, there was the sound of a car honking at the gate of the villa, and Yu's mother immediately ran to open the door, "It's Mr. who is back." ”
When Su Yujing heard her words, she was stunned, but she still got up and went downstairs.
As soon as Xiao Jun walked in, he saw Su Yujing also waiting there, and he was in a good mood, "Did you come to greet me on purpose?"
"I ......" Su Yujing was stunned, "I...... No. ”
"Sir, Madame, she knows that you have come back, so she came downstairs on purpose. Yu's mother said with a smile.
Xiao Jun smiled, he rarely smiled before, he didn't know how to laugh, but now, when he faced Su Yujing, he would unconsciously show a smile.
Xiao Jun put down the bag in his hand, "No matter what, I'm still very happy, I'm not busy today, I want to take you out for a walk in the afternoon and buy some baby products, are you willing?"
Su Yujing nodded, "Hmm." ”
When Yu's mother heard them say this, she immediately walked in the direction of the kitchen, "I'll go and prepare lunch right away." ”
After Su Yujing and Xiao Jun had lunch together, they left the villa and went to the big shopping mall in the city, which had the most complete range of baby products.
Xiao Jun accompanied her around, she didn't feel irritable and bored at all, and Su Yujing didn't feel tired, she watched from store to store, choosing things to use for the unborn baby in her belly.
After walking around, more than three hours have passed, Xiao Jun is carrying a lot of them in his hand, as long as Su Yujing thinks it is good, whether she opens her mouth or not, he asks the waiter to pack it and pay directly.
"Are you tired?" Xiao Jun asked her.
Su Yujing smiled faintly, "It's okay." The doctor also said that I should move around more, it is good. ”
"However, I see you've been a little too far today. Although Xiao Jun is usually not at home, he knows everything about Su Yujing, and Yu's mother will report to him one by one.
Xiao Jun accompanied Su Yujing to a café and ordered some desserts for her, because she can't drink coffee now, only juice.
Su Yujing seemed to be hungry too, so she ate all the desserts.
Xiao Jun looked at Su Yujing in front of him, but his mood was inexplicably good.
There are countless women around him, but he has never paid attention, for him, women are just a pastime for men when they are bored, but Su Yujing is different.
Although he and Su Yujing have not had any intimacy, his feelings for her are different from those for other women.
What kind of emotion it was, he didn't know, and he couldn't tell.
However, he knew very well in his heart that he wanted to be good with her, no matter what the original purpose was, and perhaps, until now, his thoughts have not changed.
Some things don't change because of a woman.
Su Yujing looked at the pedestrians and scenery outside the window, her mood was much better, although all this was unfamiliar to her, but she liked this environment very much, of course, for this similar environment, she had a familiar feeling.
Su Yujing has been abroad before, so this should be familiar to her, but in this familiarity, there is a memory of herself missing.
Xiao Jun saw Su Yujing in a daze, "Yujing, what's wrong with you?"
Su Yujing retracted her thoughts and shook her head, "It's nothing." ”
She didn't mention the memories of the past, and Xiao Jun didn't say anything, all this seemed to be a normal thing between the two of them.
Of course, there is another point, Su Yujing doesn't think that the relationship between her and Xiao Jun is very deep, because she doesn't know what kind of feelings will exist between such two people.
But now she can only think like this, do this, because she has no other ideas, and the past is not important to her.
She didn't know who she loved in her heart, and how the child in her womb existed.
And no matter how hard she tried to think about the past, the more she thought about it, the worse the headache became.
The doctor also said that in her case, you can only go with the flow.
Of course, Su Yujing doesn't think too much about it anymore, she is facing her current life every day.
Xiao Jun was afraid that Su Yujing was too tired, so he drove her back.
Not long after Su Yujing got in the car, she fell asleep, Xiao Jun looked at her sleeping face, he pulled over and parked the car, took a small blanket in the car, and covered Su Yujing's body.
This little blanket was also prepared in the car after Su Yujing came.
His concern for Su Yujing has always existed, and there are some things that she does unconsciously, and they are also things he will do without thinking too much.
If he thought too much, he didn't dare to do it, because he was afraid that he would do too much to her, and in the end it would be himself who couldn't let go.
But he also knew in his heart that everything between him and Huo Qishao had always existed, and it would not change because of Su Yujing.
Xiao Jun was stunned for a long time, he reached out and touched her face, for him, Su Yujing's existence is really just his tool, his pawn?
Actually, no, in just a few months, so much has changed.
Xiao Jun sometimes doesn't even know what he thinks in his own heart.
It is said that feelings are blind, sometimes it happens, and even I don't know it.