"It's a girl!"

I don't know whose voice it was, but I opened my eyes in a commotion, and in a trance, I saw a dazzling white light and the blurred figures of the two of them.

At that time, there was no concept of family, and when I was still a baby, all I could do was cry loudly. was originally in that small body, but the expressions of the two could be seen very clearly.

What kind of expression is that?

A moving, sad, but expectant ...... It seems to be thanking me for coming into this world and coming to them. At that time, I didn't understand what it meant, until I spent a month in the nursery.

"What should I call a girl? What the do you say, kid? ”

"Take one word from each of your and mine's names! Lan-kun's name means wind...... Then call it Fengyun! I thought this little guy would make a storm! ”

"Storm clouds in the sky? Good name! "One of them lifted me up in the air, and there was warmth on his face that touched people's hearts." Fengyun sauce, please advise me in the future. ”

Storm and clouds in the sky...... Is that my name? I was very happy, really happy, and I also had my first smile since I came into this world.

When I was a child, I wondered why my father and mother spoke different languages. It wasn't until I learned more and saw more that I realized that in this world, different boundaries and races are divided by countries.

My father's name is Gao Konglan, and in my impression, my father is a very gentle and caring man in the family. He works for an organization called "TPC" and now works as a consultant in the Huaxia branch.

My mother's name is Xia Yan, and according to her, the word "cloud" in my name is associated from her word "smoke". When I grew up and heard my mother talk about this, I had to sigh that my mother was a very knowledgeable person. At the same time, she is also so understanding, considerate and will take care of my father and me.

Maybe it's because of this, I love my mother very much, and my father loves my mother very much, and I am even willing to give up my senior management position to come to TPC Huaxia as a consultant.

When I was a child, I often heard my parents' relatives and friends say that I have inherited the advantages of both parents, that I am very cute and beautiful, and that I have a smart mind, and that I will definitely become an excellent person in the future.

Of course, I will feel happy when I hear other people's praise at a young age, especially when I can get a bunch of delicious and fun food, and I can experience the life of a princess, which is really happy.

I thought it would go on like this, but I didn't expect that as I grew older, the gloom of this world was gradually exposed......

When I was in elementary school, I learned about history and the fact that there had been a war in my parents' country, and that even in this peaceful age, hatred and prejudice have never been eliminated.

In the fourth grade of elementary school, I heard the word "little devil" for the first time from my classmates, and that was what they called me, and in addition to these, there was also "flower girl" in a very strange tone.

Angry, very angry.....

At this age, children can speak freely, and they don't have to compete with them when they think of what is what. But I was a kid at the time! Why are you sticking vicious words into me and my family? We didn't do anything wrong, and our family is full of gentle people......

For the first time, I shed tears because of foreign affairs......

My father taught me not to conflict with others and to be a gentle person. I always remember this sentence, I didn't have a conflict with others, and I endured it like this for a year.

In the fifth grade, the situation has not improved, but has worsened.

I remember one day, a classmate with a fake paper beard and grimace on the middle of the crowd said to me, "Little devil's". At that time, I really couldn't help it, so I taught him a hard lesson.

At that time, I was also very strange, even though I was a girl, but I had more strength than a boy.

There was a big uproar in the school, and the school called all our parents together, and my father, who was usually busy with work, also came.

The other party's parents are a very pungent woman, she has no attitude of apology, and she keeps saying things like "the little devil is like this" and "sure enough, the little devil is cold-blooded". The father didn't get angry and kept saying "I'm sorry", "I'm sorry", "I'm sorry......

I'm angry, it's clear that the other party is at fault first, why do you want us to apologize?

But my father said:

"Fengyun, it's their business for others to see us, we must be gentle people."

For the first time, I felt helpless......

endured the prejudice and malice of others, and grew up a little more.

Maybe it's because of age, and it rarely happens like that in the future. But I know that even if they don't say it, they must still be saying that I'm a "little devil's" in their hearts......

When I entered high school, the girls around me also learned how to dress up. It's a girl's nature to love beauty, and I'm no exception, I've learned how to put on makeup and dress.

Inherit the mother's nature, at that time the appearance was still in the past......

My family is also very open-minded and will pick out some clothes that follow the trend for me, so the dress at that time was also the kind of "cool sister" and "hot girl" style.

But if people are too superior, they will cause dissatisfaction among those around them......

The boys in the class began to say bad things about me, saying that I was insulting words such as "mounting paper" and "pheasant", as well as "wearing such a sassy body, I must be a bus behind my back", "No wonder it's a little devil, it's just so Sq"

With the dirty, vicious gaze, I could see the obscenity and malice that the boys had towards me, and they might have seen me through their clothes......

But.

Isn't it my freedom to wear what to wear? It's not for others, it's just for yourself to be satisfied.

But I underestimated that, and underestimated their malice.

One of my best friends at that time, her boyfriend harassed me frantically when he saw me, and after I rejected him, he actually called a few scum of society to prepare to insult me.

At that time, I really almost lost my body, but I was lucky to run better, but I felt very scared......

Isn't it not only the life experience, but also the appearance that suffers malice?

Now, why is this happening?

Has anyone told me......

Later, when my friend heard about it, she didn't say anything about the scumbag as I believed, she slapped me, said I was seducing his boyfriend, called me a "laminator", and led the class to isolate me......

Is friendship something so easily broken?

I don't trust other people anymore, I don't trust other people's friendships anymore, they all have a purpose in mind......

is just such a person, lonely to go to university.

I really like the feeling of running in the wind, the excitement of the wind can make me forget my troubles, and at the same time, I also look forward to athletes, so I thought, if I can become an athlete and win glory for the country, I can also show my strength to the world, maybe I can change the way of others, right?

"I advise you to give up this idea."

My mother, who had always supported me, spat out these words. Why do even the family members I believe in and love the most have to deny me?

"Fengyun, you should know that you are a half-blood! When you become an athlete in the future, do you want to bring glory to Japan? Or do you want to win glory for China? And whichever you choose, you're going to be criticized in the future. ”

So, is it still because of life experience? No matter where you are, you won't find a place to stay......

But I don't want to give up!

If I lose my dreams, what will I have left......

I quarreled with my family for the first time and applied for a sports university.

Leave the past behind and run into the wind, I think I'll find the answer one day......

My body is very good, even boys I have run, I think in the first school sports day, I can prove myself, right?

But what I didn't expect was that the last dream was also shattered......

Yes, it's the headmaster.

The principal is a wicked person with a big background, so he does all kinds of evil. He unsubtly ruled a lot of female students, and this time he targeted me. I used the sports meeting to let me win the championship as a bargaining chip, and let me sleep with him for one night.

How can it be?

I can rely on strength, why should I do such a thing?

Is the world so dark?

I hit him and escaped. My father helped me solve this problem, but he couldn't solve the principal, so he could only ask him not to target me.

But my father said, "Look at Fengyun, it is because of your recklessness that you have such consequences." Give up your dreams and let's transfer to Japan. ”

"Mom and Dad, this is also for your good, there is no way out for you to do sports, you can become better. Give up the sports university, you have no problem going to a better university. ”

But for my sake, you should support my dream...... I have the strength to do it, but why do you deny me?

Why do even my favorite family members deny me and say it's good for me, but they want me to do things I don't like, am I really happy?

Now, Mom and Dad, why should you deny my dreams?

Can you tell me......

......

I came back from the first run at the sports meeting, but it didn't change other people's opinions. They all thought that I was the first to take it physically, and I knew that it was useless to explain because no one would listen to the Chinese-Japanese people.

What hopes, what dreams!

I don't want to believe any more because a person is as small as sand in the face of reality.

From then on, the vision in the eyes became gray, as if everything had lost its color.

Empty, nothing left......

The last time, I broke it......

I wanted to give up, I thought about self-understanding, and as a person from two countries, there was no place for me. But if I die, what will my father and mother do?

Their love is still there... Their expectations are still supporting me, but I'm so uncomfortable.

It's painful......

My father and mother were excellent people, and I failed to live up to their expectations, and I failed to become the contemptuous eyes of my relatives.

Can anyone tell me what to do?

Live in a muddy state until you rot away...... Is it?

Later, a special exam at the school recruited me to a special TPC department, and there, I saw a boy.

It looks very delicate, but there is no spirit in those red eyes, full of gray and cold.

Is he the same as me? Can only see gray? Have you also experienced despair, seen the darkness, and only an empty shell?

This intrigued me, and out of sympathy for the poor man, I went over to talk, pretending to be a big grin, nervous face.

Listening to their introduction, the boy's name is Ye Yifan, and he also has a friend named Han Qixuan.

He had friends, but I didn't. He still has things that I value, but it's like a weight that can't breathe.

At this time, it seemed that hope was ignited. It's a new environment, and I might be able to start over.

Later, I trained and chatted with them, so I should be friends.

In my impression, Ye Yifan doesn't seem to care about other things...... No matter what we say, he was unmoved, and only accosted Han Qixuan, maybe I didn't get his approval, right?

The one named Han Qixuan can feel that he is interesting to me, but can I really trust others? Will he really accept me? I'm not sure, but I'd better be a normal friend.

Later, I met another person, named Lu Jieyu. He is very sunny and kind, and he is always able to help others, like a crystal in the light, transparent and immaculate.

But just then, the nightmare struck again. When I was told those things by a former student at the same school during the meal, I was scared again.

The malice began to spread again, and everyone looked at each other with dirty and obscene eyes. Why is that? Why is this the case again?

I ran away, very concerned about everyone's malice, but more afraid of the three people.

In front of them, I don't show my true self, they know what happened, and they still want to believe me, will they still be friends with me?

It's all fake, it's all fake......

When I was desperate and scared, it was Lu Jieyu who came to enlighten me. I can feel his kindness and understand that those words are good for me, but will the malice really be eliminated by entering the special department?

Obviously the eldest of them can't even handle these things, and they need others to help.

It's useless......

I heard someone whispering in my tiredness, and in the light and shadow, I seemed to see a man.

He is dark-skinned, emaciated, hairless, and dressed in black. He was standing at the end of the dream, with an unusually hearty smile on his face.

"If mutual understanding is enough to understand everything, then what's the use of language, attitudes, and other troublesome things?"

There was something magical about his voice, and I could feel my spirit twisting. He's right, if understanding really understands everything, then why is it like this?

"Let's go, I'll take you to a new level, and you'll see the truth."

Can you see the truth? How is it real? But it's real, I want to see it!

I went with him, as if I was going to the depths of my dreams? Am I dreaming? If only it were really a dream......

I saw a dead cliff under the empty sky, and the cold wind was blowing continuously, and the rocks on the edge of the cliff were beckoning to me.

"Senior sister, don't jump!"

Who's calling me? I can't hear it...... Looking into the endless distance, I leapt lightly towards the abyss below......

Body and soul were reduced to nothingness, surrounded by a mist of blood. At this time, a table appeared in front of him, with a lot of fruit and meat on it.

"Eat, the answer you want is there."

Let's eat......

Grab a piece of fruit and feed it in your mouth, it is bitter and fishy, as if you are eating a rotten liver.

Don't vomit, eat .... Eat!

His hands were red with blood, and he devoured the food like wild beasts. It's disgusting, but it's fulfilling, is that the answer I'm looking for?

Grab that meat and feed it to your mouth, it's so unpalatable...... But that's the truth.

Hammered the table and bathed the body in those foods. It seems that the emotional connection has been severed, and there is only flesh and blood left in the eyes, and there is still an appetite.

I couldn't hear anything, just me, just chewing.

"Senior sister, wake up!"

Can't hear you......

"It's time for us to go...."

Can't hear you.......

"Don't give up, everyone is there for you."

Can't hear you......

Who's whispering? Who's whispering? Never mind...... There is no point in existing, I want to know those truths.

There was no energy in my eyes anymore, and I seemed to have become one with the food. Is the blankness and emptiness around us coming?

But it's so lonely.

I'm so scared......

"Enough, enough is enough......"

Tears flowed from the gnawing, and a sadness came from nowhere. Looking back, a boy was standing there, his body glowing.

Who is it?

"We're all alone, but we're all together. The truth of life is mutually supportive, and everyone is waiting for you......"

Looking at that face, it felt somewhat familiar. I cried, why should I cry? Someone is waiting for me? Who's waiting for me?

Suddenly, a black-haired young man appeared behind the boy, then a yellow-haired man wearing studs, and then a man with a righteous face.

Is this the truth?

At this moment, the surrounding scene gradually collapsed. I stood up, and even though I was covered in blood, I didn't care, because there was light in front of me.

Jie Yu ......

Is it called that?

There are also instructors Yifan, Ah Xuan, and Du Fei.......

They stretched out their hands to me, and there was hope there, waiting for me to light it......